it was 8 years ago today (well the 29th) that my father passed away. i just cannot believe that it has been that long!!! i honestly don't know how i survived without him...well, i do. my mother!!!!

i miss and think of him EVERY day!! he would have loved clay sooooooo much! he would have been so happy and so proud. and clay would be even MORE spoiled than he is now, if that is even possible!! :)

i love you daddy!!!!!!!

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hubby was a jerk again today. he sure woke up in a mood, geeze, i'd be upset to if i got almost 7 hours of sleep!!!! right off he started bitching about the dishes. and how it was so nice out and he couldn't enjoy it cause he had to do dishes. oh boo f'ing hoo!!!! why the hell does he care?! i'm the one who fixes 3 meals a day for my son in there, then cooks us dinner, i am the one who has to look at them and deal with them all over the counter!!!!!

oh no, i'm sorry, it started all over a damn bottle of beer that he won on ebay. i told him i wasn't paying for it, so he better use his credit card. well this person only takes checks and money orders. so i told him to get a money order using his credit card. then he keeps saying that he doesn't THINK that you can get a money order with a credit card. he kept going on and on.........well just fucking call and find out, don't just think!!! find out for sure! well he said he did and they won't let you. i don't know, i'm going to call tomorrow. so he was like well, what are we going to do. i was like i don't know?!?!?! i don't have $40 to pay for a fucking 1 bottle of beer!!!!! right this second we barely have $40 to buy food for the week!!!! so then he got pissed and stormed off. well i called for him, cause i was going to apologize. at that time i wasn't trying to be shitty, i was just seriously meaning that we didn't have that extra money. so when he came to see what i wanted he had attitude, so then i didn't apologize! that is when he went off about the dishes and then had to add, well when is the last time you did a stitch of clothing in this house. well i don't do his laundry, we already had that argument. i am not going room to room picking clothes up off the floor wondering if they are dirty or not. that is what hampers are for. i bought him his own hamper. i told him when it is full, bring it down and i will do them. tell me why that is so hard?!?!? well he must not want his laundry done that bad, or he would do that. so then i was thinking, well when was the last time you did ANYTHING around this house?! i didn't say it though, sometimes it is just better to bite your tongue. i knew his response would be, well i work 40 hours a week and i don't get anything to show for it boo-hoo-hoo-hoo. well, i think you just got a car that we can't afford, we have a big screen tv that he wanted so bad, we have 2 computers, new camcorder, semi-new digi camera, all his bills are paid and are on time, he has a house, he has food to eat and clothes to wear, so what exactly doesn't he have?????

anyways, so i was thinking. ok he works 8 hours a day. i work 12+ hours a day!! yes his may be a bit harder physically, but mentally, i think mine takes the cake. i am up with clay at 8am, and usually he doesn't go down to sleep til 8 pm or a little after. i'm lucky if he takes a 2 hours nap, so if you want to get technical, you can say i work 10 hours a day. so what does he do in his 8 hours? well he gets a break like every half hour or so, he gets to walk around, talk and joke with his friends, and somewhere in there he has time to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes. i sure don't get a break every 1/2 hour, or hour at that. i get my break at about 1pm if and when clay takes a nap. i get to smoke maybe 4 cigarettes the whole time clay is awake. lucky if i get to pee once, and that isn't even in peace, cause he is usually running around getting into everything. in the time clay is even awake, i also cook dinner, which isn't so easy with a child hanging on your legs and pulling/pushing you. if clay needs a bath, i do that, then i am lucky if i even get to eat before i put him to bed at 8. a lot of times, i don't even eat dinner til about 9pm. and sleep........granted it is partly my fault, i'm lucky if i get 4 hours of sleep a night. meanwhile he gets at least 6-7 hours a night.

here is an example of his days:

working days: up at 7am, works 8-4, comes home, plays with clay for a bit, sometimes dozes off, goes on computer, goes to bed at 9-10pm.

working afternoons: up between noon-2, works, 4-12, comes home, we watch our shows, he may get on the computer, we got to bed about 4am.

working midnights:up usually 5-7pm, works 12-8, comes home, goes to sleep, no lately it is gets on computer, til I GET UP WITH CLAY , (8-9am) then he goes to bed.

oh to have it soooooo hard!!!!! i'll spare you, but i am half tempted to write what i do all in one day and show him!!! it would probably be as long as this whole post!

when he did my clients, that was usually when he was on days or midnights. and that was maybe 2-3 days a week, but now he isn't doing that! speaking of.......

that guy finally called me back today. he got my voicemail. he said that they did go with another company, something about the ladder issue we had. that they just don't have the time to run ladders out to the houses when we need them......which the last 1/2 dozen houses we did we didn't ask for a ladder, i told them i got one!!! so i don't know if he was just using that as an excuse, but he said he'd like to talk to me to discuss things or something to that matter. so you'd think that if they didn't want us, he just would have said they are using another company at this time, and they will keep us in mind or something. so i have my fingers crossed. i called him back but he was in a meeting and i told him that if that was the only problem that we have a ladder, and i would greatly appreciate it if they were to give us another chance.....basically kissing ass and begging for work!! i also sent out a letter today, i'll copy it here, i kind of really like it.....oops it is on the other computer, i'll post it later. so hopefully he will get it tomorrow, and get a hold of me either tomorrow or monday. everyone FINGERS CROSSED!!! we really, really need this money! and it is too good of money to let go. i figured it out, we make about $48 an hour. after paying amy, i make about $33/hour. but like i said we may get 2-3 houses every other week or so, which doesn't equal many hours, and that is not including drive time. so please wish me luck!!!!

ok...i'm so fricking pissed off about my show, tru calling, right now!!!!!!!! what the hell was with killing luc?!?!?!? it was bad enough when they killed his character off on my soap, but i was happy he was on this show, now they go and kill him cause of that dick jason preistly!!! ok, for those of you who know about the show, i'm sitting here yelling at the tv, "ask her for help, ask her for help!!!!!" and now i have to wait til fall to find out what the hell happens!!!!! AHHHH!!!!! i keep hoping he will appear and she will rewind a week instead of just a day. as a matter of fact i may have to pop over to fox.com and write. i know i am pathetic. my husband was just laughing at me when i called him to bitch. and then the whole twist at the end with her father. OMG!!!! i definitely cannot wait for this show to come back, they sure as hell better not cancel it.

on to survivor. i'm glad shi-ann is gone, but i'm thinking that may not have been a good move on jenna or ruperts part. i think that was the time to get rid of rob. BUT, i don't think that rupert will go against his "alliance" with rob and amber to vote them off.....but i hope he does!!! if not, i just hope he wins immunity for the next 2 shows!! i know a lot of people don't like jenna, i hated her at first, but now she and rupert are the ones i don't mind. i just hate rob!!! and amber!!!! go rupert! looks like he kind of screws up next week, at least that is what i got from the previews. here is hoping for immunity!

once again i fell asleep during kingdom hospital, not that i would really know what the hell was going on anyways.......

and ER?!?!?!?!? OMG!!!! my husband was yelling at me, "i don't even know why you keep watching this show!!" i was bawling!!! kerry's situation just brings me to tears thinking about it. when i had to watch her give her child to those people, i just couldn't even imagine someone taking clay away from me!!!! then the girl with the seizures.....accidentially killing her baby.......oh my jesus, how flippin awful would that be....i was really sobbing there. there was a movie i watched a while ago, not sure what it was or what it was about, but people were escaping from bad guys.....one lady had a baby, and it started crying while they were hiding, and she had to cover its face, so it wouldn't be heard, and she ended up killing it, that was the most awful thing i have seen!!!! that was totally almost the same thing, so, so, so sad!!! then the previews keep showing carter totally crying and upset, and they talk about a devastating news, or something.......so it has to be about kem and the baby, i would think. i was thinking maybe he would have to make one of those awful decisions if they should save his wife or save the baby.....if it comes to that i was hoping it would just end there, then next fall we will find out that they both turn out ok. or maybe something with the whole aids thing, since she works with aids patients????? why does this shit always have to be sad and depressing?!

hell all these shows may be the cause of my "depression" not my REAL life! haha

ok, i'm not sleeping...........i thought someone just got shot, but i don't hear any sirens. i don't believe it was a backfire, cause it was all BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, and i was all like damn....and my cat was all like, shit, i better get out this window....... haha!

i caught a sort of fight at the apartments behind my house the other day. this truck pulled up in front of their building (alley) and i heard him knocking on a window. so i looked. i figured that whoever was sleeping and they were trying to wake them up. they have the type of door where you have to be buzzed in, but i wasn't paying attention to see if they did that first or not. i just took notice after the knocking. me being the nose that i am was looking. i thought the guy was going to get back in his truck and leave. then you saw the blinds move in the window and all of a sudden the guys ran to the window and started screaming!!!!! i could not understand a word except something like "i want my phone, give me my phone!!!!!!" at the top of this guys lungs mind you. so he was beating on the window, screaming. then he went to the back of his truck and it looked like he took out a jack and threw it at the window. at that point there was a tree in my way, plus i was on the phone and i didn't want this psycho seeing me thinking i was calling the cops. he yelled some more and said something like "wait til you see what happens" or something like that. then he peeled ass out of the alley, down my road and then back on to the main road. my friend molly was here, she was standing in the door trying to wrangle the kids in, cause who knows about people now days, but even the kids were standing there staring like "what the hell is going on?!" so even though i never approved of the people(just those that blare their music at 2-3 in the AM, and those who have cars with no mufflers but instead an amplifier attached so you can really hear that they have no muffler, and those who feel they have to peel out of their alley, and then my road at any time of the day or night) that live back there, that is the only real "scene" that i have seen in the 4+ years that i have lived here.

anyways, the whole point of this post was that i was checking out other blog/journal sites. i found one i like on bravenet. i like the layout, but think that here at blogger may be a bit more user friendly, at least in the aspect of customizing it the way i want. if you want to check it out, here is the link.

my son is just so darn cute!!!!! even though today he was up even earlier than usual. 7AM!!! i was hoping it was a little hiccup and he was going to go back to sleep for another hour, but no such luck. his butt is doing a bit better, but still had that damn diarrhea working against me!! yes, he is cute even with smelly diapers every 5 minutes!!!

he was so funny today. he was just going on and on. just spouting off "sentences". no real words, just a bunch of cute sounding stuff. and he would look at me all serious when he was doing it, as if he was waiting for some response. i wish i had some sort of interpreter. i am just so anxious and excited for him to start talking. i know once he starts, i will be kicking myself for wanting it so bad! haha!!!

it is our next big milestone, so i am eagerly awaiting it. especially since he was supposed to have words already at 12 mths. "they" say by 20mths, which he turned yesterday, they are supposed to have between 6-10 words. i'm assuming they mean words that he uses for something even if it isn't actually a word? if so we have NO, ma-ma and ma, something for kitty cat, i think something for fish, he's been pointing at a picture of a ball and says something that sounds like ball.....but he does that with letters too, so i don't know if it is just some weird coincidence that he is getting it right, he also says something like va-va, meaning vroom, when playing with his cars. sometimes he will even try to roar when he sees a picture of a lion on his flash cards....i also swear he tried the monkey, owl and pig too. it is all just random though, usually when you aren't paying attention. if you ask him to do it he wont! just like he knows where his nose, eyes, ears, and mouth are, but will rarely show you when you ask. so maybe i do have 6 "words". i'm not real worried about it yet though. i think it is just him being a little man, and being stubborn! i can just imagine how potty training is going to go!! AGH!!!!

oh well, i don't want him to grow up too fast, because then it will be time to have another!! and i am really not ready for that!!! i don't have too many years left though, so i don't have time to be dilly-dallying. we were supposed to try in august, but that keeps getting closer and closer!! i'm also fearful of another tubal. my chances aren't supposed to be any greater since i had the one in december, especially since i don't even have that tube anymore, but knowing my luck........so that worries me and wants me to start sooner than later, in case any problems arise. i'm supposed to wait about 6 months anyways after that surgery, so that is june. i don't know. if things improve with bob, maybe we can think about july. i don't know......i need to get off this baby talk!!! one definite thing want before getting pregnant again is to lose the weight i still have from the first, so that is another factor for me to consider.....or should i say get up off my butt and take care of!! once it finally gets nice, i will definitely be at the park everyday walking the track, that should help a lot!! i'm already getting ancy to get outside. i about died when it snowed yesterday!!!!!!!!! but it is supposed to be almost 80 tomorrow?! and my sinuses sure are feeling this shitty weather changes!!

ok, it is almost 1am, and i am beat, maybe i will go to bed (yeah right!) night all!!!

well i still haven't heard back from the contractor about whether they are still using us or not. i left him voicemail sunday night!!!! i left another one tonight. i guess i probably should have called during the day and talk to him in person. but i'm not good at that, and i don't know what would have came out of my mouth if he did say that they went with someone else for the job. at this point i don't care (well i do) but i just want to know what is going on!!! i mean you think they would have the courtesy to call and let me know, especially since i called and asked!!

bob has been working over some this week, which is great! they are even working 6 days this week! woo-hoo!! just wish we were guaranteed that all the time, then we wouldn't have to worry about a supplemental income.

i want to get started on the whole ebay thing, but that just gives me a headache thinking about going through all my junk and actually organizing it all. then i hate to get rid of anything, so that would be a whole other mess. i'd like to start some sort of online store, but who knows what will sell. i don't want to invest money (which i don't really have) in product with no idea how it will go over. then again the old adage holds true, you have to spend (have) money to make money. i found some very cool wholesale sites, they have incredible stuff that i know would sell, but the stuff is going for thousands of dollars!! i need a good sell like THIS. i'm sure you all have seen it by now. i've got it in a few different groups, and kelly even has it in her blog. don't know if it is real, if it is GREAT for him!!!! must be nice!!!! if you check it out, read the whole thing it is pretty damn funny....even more so if it is actually legit. and look how many hits he is getting!!!!!!!!

yeah!!! trish got a rose!!!!! although i am glad that she is still there, i was kind of disappointed in her tonight. it seemed like she was kissing ass!! here i thought she was a tough broad, who doesn't cares what others think of her, no regrets kind of gal. well, she did seem to change her tune a bit now. but those other bitches just drive me insane. tara should thank her lucky stars that i am not trish, because i sure would have slapped the crap out of her tonight. how dare she make that comment to trish. "you know you don't deserve to be here!" who the hell is she to say. apparently she does deserve to be there since the guy gave her a rose!!!!! i can' believe he gave her, tara, a rose and let susie go. i thought he was really into her. i felt bad for her, but then i seen her being all catty at the end towards trish, so screw her, i'm glad she is gone. it just pisses me off that all these other girls think they are so much better than trish. why? just cause she has a different past than they do. she is very pretty, i think the prettiest there and she seems to be a strong, smart woman. if she just would have stood up for herself a bit better tonight......but oh well, i still hope she wins, but i doubt she will. people judge people by their past too much without actually getting to know them, so......plus i think i said it before, i think a lot of men would be intimidated by someone like her (trish).

american idol was ok, since i didn't see it yesterday i really didn't care, it is just so hard, cause everyone is just so good. well i don't like george. and i knew john was going to go tonight. he will be perfect in vegas doing covers of the old rat pack. he will make a killing doing that!! i think latoya and fantasia are the best singers, but i don't see them as "pop" singers. i think diana and jasmine would be better suited for that. latoya i think could pull off the pop. fantasia's voice is just too macy gray for me. ok for a while, but would get on my nerves after a while.

extreme makeover was pretty cool. that guy turned out to be quite a looker!!! that is so amazing!!!! the lady did look better too, but i still think she looked older than 25. i was happy for her though. it looks as if her and her husband really love each other.........YES i was crying!!!!!

last bitch/es of the night. so in some previous posts i was complaining of a tooth ache. well got it fixed a few weeks ago now. well ever since becoming un numb, my tooth has still been hurting!!!!!!! so i finally called last night, since bob is on midnights i can actually make it in this week. so she calls this morning, i have to go see a specialist cause i probably need a root canal. WHAT?!?!? now i guess i can see this happening, but you know what, it already did. a few years back, i had to go get a filling cause i had a tooth bothering me, well right afterwards it still hurt, well i then had to have a root canal!!!!

my dentist, i do love him...i've been going to him since i've had teeth, he always reminded me of john ritter. odd side note, i was at the dentists the day it was released that john ritter died! it was kind of spooky....i was going to tell him that but there was a drill in my mouth at the time i heard it over the radio. i am seriously thinking of changing dentists though. i hate saying that he is getting old, but facts are facts. i mean, he doesn't do cleaning anymore, he hired a hygentist. he doesn't do molar work anymore, and now he doesn't even do root canals anymore. plus he isn't a participant in my insurance. i do get a break, but not as big as if i went to a participating dentist. so i'm thinking of changing. i'm just little nervous though. for some reason recently, i get real stressed when i have to go to the dentist. and this guy is the only one i have known, so i'm just a little freaked about having a stranger drilling around in there! so i don't know. guess i'll get this root canal done then worry about the rest. they said they work with 3 or 4, but what if none of them take my insurance?! she said it would probably cost about $800. i lucked out last time, i didn't need a crown. one more thing i have to worry about!!! right.....that is all i need............

OOOHHHH.........i didn't tell you about my main stress right now. i'm self employed. i have a cleaning service. my best friend, molly, and i started it back in 1999. we both got pregnant at the same time, so we gave most of it up. she kept a client and i kept a client. well anyways.......my hubby and friend has been doing it since clay came. all was well until february. we got into it with one of the supervisors, but then i thought all was smoothed over, but kept getting some "concerns" from them. we clean windows for new construction homes. so i know how bob and amy are, so i figure they are doing a shitty job, plus they would say they are doing it one day, then piss around and not get it done til a day or 2 later!!! which pisses me off cause bob should know that it is MY business and that a poor job reflects on me since it is my business!!!!!!!! well i thought things were going better, but i haven't got any calls for work in a few weeks now. that is kind of odd. there has been the occasional period where it was slow, but i just have a feeling. i called the main guy there and left a voice mail asking if they were still going to be using my services, and he hasn't called back yet!!! so i am hoping that things are just slow, but i know my luck, so i am not too optimistic about it. which really sucks, cause that was our 2nd income that we DESPERATELY need!!!! so as much as bob hated doing windows, i'm sure he is going to be real happy about the possibility of going and getting a part time job. so now instead of working maybe once or twice a week every other week, he will have to go get an actual part time job 20 hrs a week probably, to make up what we will be missing from windows!!

for those of you wondering why i didn't do my own job, or why i don't get a job.....well it was our agreement when we got married. bob has a TON of debt and just recently had a bankruptcy. it was his stupidity that got us in so much debt, so, in my opinion, it is his duty to get us out. i take care of clay, he take care of the financial responsibilities. well, i am going to go before i get myself all upset again..............nite all!

i'm so exhausted!!!!! my darling son was up early today (yes, 8 am is early for me!!) but i wanted up ...backstory.......i am not a morning person. i'm sure staying up til 4 or 5 am, may have something to do with it, but whatever....so what wakes me up in the morning is clay crying. telling me he is up and ready to get out of his crib. well being the great mommy that i am, if he doesn't cry i don't wake up, so the other day apparently he didn't cry, and fell back to sleep. all i know is that i wake up and it is noon!!!!! so i jump up, freaking out that my poor kid has been trapped in bed all day, well he was sleeping. the worst thing is, is that he always goes #2 sometime at night. i don't know when, but now the poor child has been in it til noon, needless to say he had a horrendous diaper rash! it is bad. so i try to change him and he is screaming, more like shrieking.....i'm almost in tears, since it is all my fault!!! so it was horrible! the next morning i was up, and he usually goes again after breakfast. so i changed him, we did our thing, and i put him down for his nap. well he gets up and we play for a bit then i go and change him, he pooped again!!!!!!!! ok, so now how long was he in it?!?!?! i'm just an awful mother!!! so now, i am checking his little but like every 1/2 hour. bob is on midnights this week, so i told him to get clay and bring him in to me when he gets home, so i am sure to get up. so i got up today. his butt is looking a bit better, but of course he went to the bathroom like 4 times today. why is it that when his butt is sore, it seems like he is always pooping?! well anyways, we were up at like 8am....do you think my child took a nap today???? HELL NO!!!! i sat there with him for an hour! i was the one dozing off, not him. then i was just going to go stick him in his crib, since he really should learn to start taking his nap in his crib, and not being rocked to sleep, but by the time i thought about it it was too late. i'm sure he would throw a fit forever if i were to take him up there, then there would be no time for him to sleep. he has to be up around 3 to get him to sleep by 8-9 at night. so of course around 4 pm he turned into a terror. of course it all started when i was on the phone with the lady at the bank trying to sort out the previous post. so he is screaming and she is telling me all of that. that is probably why i didn't go off to her at the time. so then i had to try and cook dinner with him spazzing. it never fails that when i am trying to cook, he wants me to hold him.....AHHHHHH!!!! that is why i am exhausted. well it is understandable then, that i fell asleep during my shows!!!

so i missed everything tonight. why bob didn't try to wake me up i have no clue?!?!?! he was on here, he is, for some reason addicted to this damn beer thing......beer advocate?! so now that we have no money, he is into going and getting all these different kinds of beer, traveling all over the damn state to find shit, and buying shit he doesn't need. like stupid shit he keeps bidding on through ebay on my fricking account!!!!!! why in the hell would you spend over $20 on a damn bottle of beer????? if you had the money i may be able to see, but knowing that we don't?!?!?!?!? i was thinking of canceling my bid on dr. phil's relationship rescue book, but that was only $5! and that is something to actually help us!!!!! i won by the way, so i'm excited to get it and start it, don't know if it will work, but guess we will see.....

i'm so pissed at my credit union right now!!! it all started with a call from our mortgage company, well, a recording to call our mortgage company. so i logged on to their website to see what the hell the problem was, and there is said they never received my payment and it is now overdue. what?!?!? so of course right away i think bob didn't mail it even though i specifically sent him to mail it so it would get there on time. it has happened before, so i feel i was right in my initial accusation. anyways, looking at the site, it said that payment was received april 12th, well if it was received then why is it late? so i call my bank and there is no record of that check clearing, so now what?! i don't trust the mortgage company either. once, for some unknown reason they did not pay our homeowners insurance, and we were almost dropped. then most recently, i got a letter from them telling me i sent them the wrong check, or something like that, i looked at the enclosed check, wasn't my check!!!! it was written out to some funky place, but not from me. the real kicker is that they also enclosed a copy of the check and it WAS my check. so what in the hell?!?! how it all got confusing for someone i don't know cause i even write my account number on my checks, just in case the people handling it is an idiot, apparently like this person!!!!! anyways, back to my original story, so i call my bank and talk to a real person. i explained to her the whole thing, blah, blah.....then she tells me that i had a large deposit on the 10th, well yeah, so.....and since i made it at the ATM, they put a hold on that money for 10 days, and that my check for the house tried to clear on the 12th, so it was returned. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT ALL ABOUT?!?!?! now, i can understand if i put it in an atm across town, but the atm is connected to my credit union. there is only that credit union. what the hell makes the difference if i go in or put it right outside their door in the atm?!?! so she said next time if i need it available to bring it in to deposit. AHHHH!!!!!!!! i am sooooooooo pissed! now i have a $40 late fee on my mortgage, i'm having bob call in the AM to see if they will take it off since it technically wasn't my fault. he tried today, but they kept him on hold for 10 minutes so everyone could leave the office, and tell him to call back tomorrow before 5pm.

if bob could get a checking account anywhere else i would totally just tell that credit union to go to hell. but he can't. they wouldn't even give him one there, but they let me put him on mine. i'm just so pissed. and i didn't even think of it at the time, but now i am wondering what else didn't clear in those 10 days. so now i probably have more late charges than i think. my bank better have not charged me a returned check fee, or i will really be hot.

one word of warning for any of you that deal with key bank. if you happen to be overdrawn in your account, you get charged like $40 every 5 days that it is overdrawn.!! when they send you notice of it, it comes just like a regular statement. i don't know if you all actually open your statement, but i don't.......so about $200 later..........that is a bunch of horse shit too. both times that it happened, yes it happened twice, but ask me who used the card to over draw it....not me!!!!!!! anyways, both times it wasn't even like a $1 over, and i am not exaggerating!!!! so for being $1 overdrawn i had to pay $200..........i'm about to just keep all my damn money in a shoe box under my bed!!! screw all the damn banks!!

one last post tonight. i probably shouldn't even be writing this one, but i think it is funny.....if any of you do that is for time to tell.......

my child is fascinated with my boobs!!!!! i don't know what the hell it is?! i highly doubt he remembers breast feeding. i only did that for 3 months, and he is 20 mths old now. bob and i have never done ANYthing around him where he would get the idea, but he recently started to lift up my shirt to expose my breasts. if he can't get my shirt up over them, he throws a fit!!

well, once up he will sit there and point at them, and kind of poke at my nipple. then he starts laughing, so then i start laughing and then he laughs more, and it is just odd!!!! today, he thought it was hilarious cause his knee touch my nipple, so he kept kneeing me in the boob. then when his knee was covering it and he couldn't see it he had to search for it, and when he found it, ooohhhhh was that funny!!!! sometimes he will like bury his face in them, and i am sitting there, thinking if anyone were to look in my window they would wonder what in the hell crazy shit am i doing to my son!!! the only thing i can relate his nipple fascination with is that when he was little if he would push bob's nipples, bob would make a beeping sound, so that was a fun game for a while. that ended a while ago, so i don't know. and as for him burying his face in mine, maybe cause we always give him raspberries on his chest?!

today it also moved to my belly. i was sitting so i had my nice disgusting baby roll going on with my belly. he would push it, and it is a bit jiggliy i will admit, and that was funny, funny!! so he figured well i'll do that to the boobies as well! so there he is jiggling my boobs and that was just the funniest thing he has ever done i think. what the hell?!

he does also try to lift my mom's shirt up to see hers, so i think my kid is odd. haha!! i'm just waiting for my mom to blame it all on me and letting him play with his pee-pee. when he first found his, i think like most kids, he would always be playing with it.....well my mom insisted i NOT let him do that or he was going to grow up to be a pervert! hahahaha!! so maybe..........

my friend molly and i were talking about it tonight, and we thought it was maybe because he really never sees me naked, so when he does he is a bit amazed by it all. but why he goes in search of them, i still don't know?! maybe it is just a guy thing! hehe!!

well, now that i got you all thinking about my boobs, i will let you go........nite-nite!! hahahahahaha!!!

sorry i got all heavy there. that story just really touched me! see, and you all thought i just watched silly stuff like fear factor, the bachelor and my soaps!! :) well, i must be honest, the only reason i watched that show was cause they were talking about american idol, and that story followed it.

i usually don't watch the news, or listen to much REAL stuff. these days it is all just too depressing! i'm too emotional to watch all of that. the news is the worst! i'm tired of hearing about all the sick-o's running around, hurting others, VERY tired about hearing about all the losses we are incurring over in iraq, tired of hearing that everything we breath and eat causes some sort of cancer or other disease. polotics.....i don't even want to go there, that all really makes my head hurt and my stomach turn!! i just hate it all! so for all of you that think i watch too much tv, or crappy tv, maybe i am just trying to get "away" from the sad state of our exsistence now days, and just let my brain veg out on ridiculous tv shows. that is my escape from reality!!

now for some useless, mindless, waste of time.....here are a few sites i think i linked to before, but they are fun, so i'll post them again"

BUBBLES

Poke the Bunny....remember you have to poke him like 30 times to really make him mad! :)

Spank the monkey

ok...i'm having a mommy moment....i'm catching up on my shows from last week, and somehow happened to tape dateline or something. this lady had a son, when he was about 1 she had twin boys. after some odd behavior from the oldest, it was finally confirmed that he was autistic. then not too long afterwards, it was also diagnosed that the twins also were autistic!! my heart just broke for this woman, especially when she said that she never gets to hear them say i love you.....then my tears start!!!!!

clay is just my world. i mean, there are times, more than not, that i don't leave the house for days. and i am not the least bit upset about it. i get to spend all of my time with him. this may not be normal or healthy, but i honestly wouldn't want it any other way. i can just sit and stare at him, watching him play or anything, and i just have the strongest feelings of love flow through me. i know those of you who are parents know what i mean! it is just so amazing what children can bring into your life. even if you think you know, until you actually experience it....it is just incredible. i know i have said it before, but i cannot imagine my life without clay. i think about what i would be or could be doing and i just have an empty, hollow feeling. clay was definitely not planned. but there was not one second that i thought he was a mistake or was upset about the whole thing. he is the best thing that has ever, ever happened to me. i am sort of a selfish person. i want what i want, when i want it. but for clay, i am here for him. i would give up anything for him!! of course, most parents feel this way and share this thinking. i am just so blessed to have him in my life! it just breaks my heart to see babies and children that are neglected or abused. i, for the life of my, just cannot fathom how in the world anyone could do that to such a precious, precious child?! then these poor kids who have these terrible diseases and illnesses. i wish i knew why such things happen. it tears my heart out, to see any of them suffering.

anyways.......these people must be here in ohio, cause they were talking about the cleveland clinic. they have a new program there for autistic children. of course, these poor parents insurance doesn't cover the type of treatment their children needed, so they transformed their basement into a type of clinic, and they hired 12 different , and therapists to work with their children. to make things worse, they father lost his job! so to keep everything up to help their kids, they had to use all their savings. the treatment the are receiving is ABA, applied behavior analysis. sadly it is said that only 30% of kids show improvement after the therapy. their boys seem to be doing a bit better and are learning new tasks. it just constant teaching, repeating, and just diligent never ending persistence. every day, every hour, they have to constantly reinforce what they are learning or what they are trying to teach. if there is ever a break, they begin to regress. now they are out of money and there is no or not much public help, be it schools or programs to help autistic children. my heart really goes out to these parents. they are so strong and have so much hope and faith. god bless them!!!

interesting omarosa tidbits from tvguide.com. i was going to link to it, but i think you have to register, so i copied and pasted the following:

Friday, April 23, 2004

BEGUN, THE MELTDOWN HAS : That whole N-bomb debacle is continuing to haunt Omarosa Manigault-Stallworth. The Apprentice diva walked off the set of ABC's Jimmy Kimmel Live last night after she allegedly spotted a lie-detector machine on the set. According to a Kimmel spokeswoman, the equipment was set up for a comedy bit with show regular Uncle Frank and was unrelated to Om's appearance. "The producers attempted to reassure [her] that they did not intend to ask her to take a lie-detector test," says the rep, "[but] she became upset and left." Kimmel kept the show going despite the sudden guest shortage, and even brought a producer onstage to explain what happened. "Apparently, her 15 minutes ended the second before I introduced her," Kimmel later cracked. "I felt like Jessica Simpson standing alone at the airport." Maybe Omatrocious (that is funny!!) was still reeling from some bad news she received earlier that day. For more on that, read on...


oh but there is more....

Thursday, April 22, 2004

BAD HAIR DAY: No doubt fearing a backlash from consumers, Herbal Essences has washed Omarosa Manigault-Stallworth right out of its hair. A spokeswoman for parent company Clairol confirms that the Apprentice diva has been clipped from its upcoming "Streaking Party" commercial. Says the rep: "After reviewing the film... a decision has been made not to use the Omarosa take." We're betting the news hit Omatrocious like a ton of CEment.

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

HAIR TODAY, GONE TOMORROW?: Is Clairol about to drop the F-bomb on Omarosa? A spokeswoman for the haircare giant, which on Friday shot an Herbal Essence shampoo commercial featuring the Apprentice diva, tells TV Guide Online that they filmed "multiple endings" to the spot and Omatrocious "may or may not" make the final cut. "No decision has been made at the moment." Clairol may be having second thoughts in the wake of Monday's New York Post story in which Om's Apprentice rival, Ereka Vetrini, blasted the company for aligning itself with the controversial, concussion-prone figure. "You can be sure I won't be using [their] products anymore," she said. Responds the Clairol rep: "We certainly listen to every one of our consumers."


Friday, April 9, 2004

IT DOESN'T ADD UP, FOLKS: It appears Omarosa Manigault-Stallworth's concussion may have led to some short-term memory loss. On Thursday's Oprah Winfrey Show, the Apprentice's Queen of Mean claimed that she fingered Ereka Vetrini as the alleged N-bomb dropper only after her reality rival went on The View and defended herself against the accusation. Up until that point, Omarosa told Winfrey, "I never said who [did it]." Not true. In one of her first post-firing interviews, Omarosa told me point blank: "Ereka used the N-word with me on the show." We immediately contacted Ereka for a comment and she vehemently denied ever using the offensive term. When Apprentice producers also told us that a check of the show's tapes found no such exchange, TV Guide Online decided at that time not to include Omarosa's uncorroborated charges in our March 9 story.

ooohhh.........i never posted about the 2nd part of the liberty bike, on american chopper. it turned out very, very awesome!!! here is a slide show of the finished bike.

i just love paige davis!!!! in case you don't know her she is the gal on trading spaces. if i were going to consider any girl on girl action, i would definitely hunt her down she is just so darn adorable!!

in case you can't tell i am watching trading spaces, home free. the winner gets their mortgage paid off. i became addicted to trading spaces when i was pregnant. i wouldn't miss an episode. i would wake up at 4PM, yes 4 in the afternoon! told ya i used to sleep all day and be up all night, the only difference now is that i don't get to sleep all day!! instantly i fell in love with ty, the handyman/carpenter. he is adorable as well.

speaking of ty, tonight's extreme home makeover was crazy!!!! $12,000 for an engagement ring?!?! i wish to god these people would come and do my damn house! they would actually get off cheap, cause i don't need half the crazy stuff they do, yes i would LOVE it, but i'm easy to please, just fix the stuff with my house that needs fixed!!!! oh well, one can dream!

on to the movies of the weekend:

cold creek manor: if was ok. i just hate when people act stupid. i know it is just a movie, but come on!!!! it actually wasn't that bad. i think i was giving stars. i guess i would give it 3 out of 5.

school of rock: actually better than i thought. jack black usually gets on my nerves. i think the kids in this movie made him less annoying. it had some cute dvd extras with the kids, so i will give it 4 stars.

nothing real exciting happened today.

clay's girlfriend came over to play today. my son was being a huge brat. he is never like that so i don't know what his deal was! granted he is just little, so he really don't understand the concept of sharing.... here when we came in the house, it was after 1:30!!!!!! well no wonder, it was way past his nap time. time just flew today!! ended up he only slept for maybe a half hour. which was my fault again. he fought for a long time (i still rock him to sleep for his naps). once he fell asleep, i was going to give him about 5 min. til i moved him, well somewhere in here i fell asleep. then the phone starts ringing!!! and for some reason it was right on the chair with us!!! so he rolled over, opened his eyes for a sec. then closed them again. so i wait a few minutes, then take him and lay him down. he looked up at me and rolled over, so i covered him up and went upstairs to smoke. well, about 2 minutes later i hear his toy going off downstairs...he is up!!! AGH!! if he sleeps too long before i move him he wakes up for good...so my fault!! oh well.........he is cute, so he is forgiven...for now :)

other than that it was a pretty blah day! got colder and rained, so we couldn't go outside. :(

well, i am not too entertaining today (if you ever do think i am) so i am just going to sign off for now.....night!

my TV review for tonight.

whew!!!! i soooooooooo thought i was going to be pissed at survivor tonight!! i thought they were going to turn on rupert and jenna!! i felt bad for alicia, she didn't bother me too much this season, i hate shi-ann though, i was so pissed that she won that damn immunity. if i were those others, when she was going on and on about winning, i would have been like, it doesn't save you next week sweety....unless you just keep on winning them!!!

i pretty much don't like anyone but rupert. the only reason i like jenna is because she is, so far, loyal to rupert, and i don't think she will turn on him, but you know how this game is. i just really can't stand rob or amber!! if they were smart, they would get rob out next, then big tom...well maybe shi-ann, then rob, then tom.....then rupert may have a good chance. i think that would be his only hope. fingers crossed!!!!

i was all prepared to cry during ER tonight, because of that whole kerry thing. i just couldn't imagine someone trying to take my child away from me....just how hopeless she has to feel, it is awful!!! i could cry now just thinking about it!! but it was pretty lame tonight. i think they are just starting some story lines that are going to run the of the season. i think there are only like 2 episodes left.

it was weird not watching the apprentice tonight. i was going to watch kingdom hospital, but bob hasn't been watching so i taped it and we watched will and grace and scrubs. i haven't watched friends since phoebe's wedding. there is just too much stuff on on thrusdays. i figure i'll just catch up on them this summer.

i like bill mahr! he is on leno right now and he is making a lot of sense with what he is saying. i also like him cause he tells it like he sees it and he doesn't care what anyone else thinks....."politically correct" or not! i liked that show by the way.

all marriages are same-sex marriages, cause after you get married it is the same sex every night! haha!!

he also said the bush should fire rice and hire amarosa cause that is one bitch who could handle terrorists.

ok, on to clay........he is just so dam cute!! he actually said something that sounded like da-da today! usually da-da is ma-ma. kitty cat is the only thing that sounds like da-da. it's just getting frustrated that he is almost 20 mths and has almost no words yet! (at 15 mths they are "supposed" to have something like 10 words) i am so anxious to hear his voice!!! the one word he does say is NO. he sure knows that word, doesn't listen to it, but knows it. he has been saying that for quite sometime. he does use ma-ma for me, mostly just MA, when he actually means me. even his bo-boo, was something like ma-ma the other day. i really do think he is smart though (ok, what parent doesn't?!) but i usually only have to tell him something once and he knows what it is. like his boo-boo. as soon as he got it, i pointed and said boo-boo. a little while later i asked him where his boo-boo was and he lifted up his pants to point to it. he also got a nerf type football recently. i showed it to him and told him what it was, then asked him later to bring me the football, and he went and got it. maybe it is all "normal" but everyday i am just so amazed at how they process things. any little new discovery he has or new milestone he reaches i am just in awe. it is just so special to see them learning and doing new things, and the feeling you get from knowing that you are the one who is nurturing them and teaching them, and directing them......it is all so breath taking (and a bit scary!)

we were all outside the other day. clay was running around being cute.....as usual. bob and i were watching, smiling, and i said to him, can you even imagine life without him now? the concept of an existence without him is just unthinkable. i honestly don't know what i would do without him. he is so my life. everyday i wake up to see him, to hold him, to love him!! there are times that i miss being single, and not being a mom....just in the aspect of being able to just wake up, or not wake up or being able to go anywhere on a whim, or hanging out getting crazy with friends..etc. but then i start to think and i honestly wouldn't change or give up my life now for anything. being a mom is all i ever wanted to be. i never had big career goals or adventurous life plans, i just always dreamed of getting married and having children. now the children part may have changed a bit. i'm still not sure about having #2. which i don't have a lot of time to still be toying with the idea. well the idea of it is great, i am just afraid of the reality. 1 is hard, i can just imagine 2. then on the same hand i see the pleasure i get from 1, so with another it would all be doubled!!! so i don't know. our tentative plan is for august. it was actually last august, so i guess we will see.......

i need to get off of here....i would say to go to bed, but the past few nights, i actually have been in bed earlier than i have been, but then i am also MORE tired, and don't want to get up. what is with that?! i had maybe 3 hours sunday, and i was up at 8 when clay got up, no problem. the other night i got at least 5, clay was up about 9 and i him-hawed not wanting to get up til 10, then dead tired at 8PM!!!! maybe i'm a weird sort, who needs either 12 hours or like 2-3 hours!? i'd really like to opt for the 12, but i'm sure that won't happen for about another 18-20 years!! oh well, gotta love it! :) take care everyone!

OMG!!!!!!!!! here i thought i was going to post about how great i am a calling these reality shows. but did i sure get american idol WRONG tonight!!! all i can say is OH MY GOD!!!! i still sit here in shock. it was funny, they put everyone in 2 groups of 3, so bob came in and i was like see, i was right, cause the 3 i said were going to be the bottom 3 were together, then i said to bob, wouldn't it be soooooo funny if the bottom 3 en up being the "divas"....no sooner than i said that, he said the bottom 3 were the divas!!!! everyone, EVERYONE........THE CONTESTANTS, THE JUDGES, THE AUDIENCE, AND I AM SURE EVERYONE AT HOME WAS IN SHOCK!! i kept waiting for him to say "sike" haha!! (that would have even been overly funny, but anyways..) so then it came down to fantasia and jennifer, which was another big shock to me. i thought those 2 were going to be the final 2. ended up that jennifer was the one with the fewest votes. it was sad, but i am sure there is someone waiting to give her a record deal, cause the girl can sing!!! she will do a'ight (rolling my eyes!)!!!

on to my other show tonight, the bachelor.........well, I LOVE TRISH!! (you too tricia!!) she is just too cool. she don't give a flying fig, what anyone thinks of her. she is her own person, and the only person who is going to tell her right from wrong, is herself! she knows what she wants and she will tell you so. she does what she wants, no regrets! love her!!!! who cares what all those other waifs think?! go trish! i don't think she will win though. i think guys are intimidated with women like that. i do like the girl he went out with first tonight, she is cute and i think they make a good couple (so far). his friend, the "spy" pissed me off. even if she wasn't talking about trish, who is she to say she could not be friends with someone who was with someone like that (talking about trish)....something to that effect anyways, who te hell is she?! f-her!! if she was truly his friend, she would just suggest to him and then deal with his choice. it is HIS choice! i know she is just looking out for him and that is great, but don't say you won't be the guys friend if he falls in love with someone she doesn't approve of. i know she was fuming when he ended up picking trish tonight. all the girls were pissed! i'm just glad cheerleader girl is gone, she bothered me!! and i don't personally see what the attraction is with jessica b? oh well......all i can say again is, go trish!!!

HERO'S. i knew this would make me cry, i don't know why i watched it, but it is sweet, and it does make you think.....and we must never forget!!

it is kind of long, but very touching! have your speakers on too.

last thing for tonight......i added a site ring at the top of the page. please feel free to add your site on there. or send me your link and i can add it to my link page. so now you have 3 tasks while you are reading this:

1.) sign my guest book
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THANKS AGAIN........and good-night!

Ewell out! (i hate ryan seacrest!!)

ok, i'm still playing here and adding new stuff. i just added a guest book right under my guest map. so i humbly ask again to please take a second and sign my guest book and place your pin on my guest map.

THANKS!!!!

ok, one last thing about my previous post....now this lady, with the beauty pageant girl, you should hear her talking about these other little girls!!! now come on! i know we all have done it, my kid is cuter than that kid(you know you have!), but come on this lady was on camera!!!!!!!! ok great, this show is on every tuesday.....they must follow the same families on every show......that is all i need, another show to add to my already huge list!!! AGH!!!

have i even posted about my shows this past week.....well, it sure isn't like me to not talk about tv now is it........even though MOLLY complained that i talk about tv too much, who wants to read about your shows?! well, molly i looked it up and there are many, many blogs dedicated to JUST tv shows, at least i have a variety here! :)

i'll just start with this week, instead of racking my brain to try and remember from last week. i know it was only a few days ago, but it hurts to think that hard! haha!

fear factor was ok. the whole staying up thing would have sucked!! i thought at first i would have been able to do that easy, but then i seen they had no tv, no nothing and they were stuck in that warehouse with all the other contestants?! that really would have been bad. OH MY GOD!!!!!!! what was up with those hag fish things?!?! was that not the most freaky thing you have seen?!?! bob and i were shitting!!!! as gross as it is, we really want to touch one now, just to see what that felt like. i do have one gripe though. i think the first team got cheated. i don't know if it really made a difference, but when they did the stunt their box, was clean, no previous excrement or whatever you call it. everyone afterwards already had some slime on there, so i am thinking that theirs slipped down quicker. i just don't see how they were like a minute slower than everyone else, it looked like they did it just as fast.....oh well........joe was on leno the other night. he had a clip don't know if it was old or new, but i never seen it, and it looked foul!!! they had to suck up ground up maggots in their mouth from a bowl, then spit it through a straw into a cup filled half way with live flies. after they got the up full, they then had to suck down the whole thing!!! that was pretty gross!! it was funny cause after the clip joe said, people get all tripped out over a nipple (janet jackson), but what the just showed (people eating crazy, gross shit) is ok.......something wrong there?!?!

the swan was also on monday. i'm glad the dark haired lady won. that other lady got on my nerves. (check out cindy i, and tawyna c.) wasn't the reason she went on the show was to be totally transformed?!?! i mean i understand if you don't want something done, that is your choice, but hello?!?!? that is the whole point of the show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i would have been real pissed if she won, i didn't think she looked all that great anyways, i mean she didn't look bad, in the first place, but i didn't see any dramatic improvement afterwards, i just thought it was a waste! the other lady i thought looked great! she had me crying the whole damn show!! AHHHHH! i'm such a baby!

tonight's american idol, i wasn't much into. i know NO barry manilow songs, so i really couldn't tell how well, or bad they did. i wasn't impressed with my 2 faves (diana and jasmine) but the judges liked them. i still think they will be in the bottom 3 with john stevens. i think the final 3 will be the other 3 girls (jennifer, latoya and fantasia) oh well, i'm just not impressed this year. i mean don't get me wrong those 3 girls can SING!!! but i just don't think they will make it into the pop category, so i will probably never hear anything they sing........not that i ever listen to the radio now anyways, so i'll just shut up now........

one gripe, what is the deal with clay aiken's song invincible being #11 on the worst song list?! ok, i may be corny, but i love that song........yes, i just love him, but the song i really dig!!!! of all the songs out there that was voted worst? what the hell is up with people. they must all be young and don't remember any of the awful songs from the 80's and 90's (my time) jefferson starship, we built this city, was #1, which i don't get either, cause i didn't think that song was all that bad. as a matter of fact, i think i had the 45, do kids now days even know what a 45 is?! heaven forbid ask them what a 78 was!! haha!!

onto this mean girls movie that is coming out......some other teen girl movie lately had me wondering about teens these days. i mean maybe i was just blessed to go to a school where that all didn't exist. maybe i was blind, but i honestly don't think it was all cliquey, like you see in movies. TRISH, do you?? i mean i had friends that were the "Smart" people, i had friends that were the "nerdy" people. i had friends that were "jocks" and i had friends that were "burn outs". it just seemed that we were just all for the most part friendly with everyone. some probably called me very odd in school, i definitely was my own person, didn't care what anyone thought of me. i had very COOL hair, like noone had seen...nowdays i would probably look lame, since there are some weirdo's out there, but back then, i was totally different, to say the least!! (i won best hair for our senior year, came in 2nd :) for most unique) i never once had anyone say anything mean to me or treat me badly. to add to it, i just started that school my junior year. so being the "new kid" if there was going to be any sort of hostility, you think i would have been prime target. i only remember 1 fight at my school. i mean, sure there were people that i hated. and of course you had the normal talking about people, but the outright meanness and rivalry, i don't think it was there. even the high school i went to before, it was the same way. it was much smaller though, and a small town. i wasn't real close with those there (even though i went to school with those people my whole life) but noone was really mean or bad to me or each other, and that was all 4 years in the same building (freshman-senior) the school i graduated from (mentioned above) was only (junior and seniors).

boy, i do go on and on in these things don't i?! it is more like a book, than a blog. oh if i only had this when i was young and single. then i really would have had some good wild stories! haha!! i should write a book of memories.....how funny would that be. (hubby wouldn't appreciate me reliving all those old memories!) my friend molly and i were just going over some of our old times today. tricia, you were even brought up in some of our stories!! haha!! most notably was the good old mount union story! haha!! you too kerry, if you happen to read this! :) oh those were the good ole days! haha!!

this site may interest you tricia, or anyone else here in ohio. it is the ohio offender data base. anyone in prison in ohio is listed here. we had a good old time looking up people from high school. it is really sad though, to actually see so many people you know!!!! not real surprisingly though, is that most of the people you expect to be there are there.

well i will get off of here now, so you all can actually read all that i wrote!

take care!!

ok.....i'm watching this show on bravo, showbiz mom & dads. i just want to strangle some of these parents!!!!!

this poor little child, she is 4, is being woke up from her sleep, so she can get a million hot rollers stuck in her head, and make-up plastered on her face. yes, the little girl is miserable and crying!!!! i just want to go and steal her away from these people!!!! i don't have anything against these pageants, but i really think the kids should be older so that it is THEIR decision to do all of it.

we rented this dvd the other day about some spelling bee. and these poor kids. they were stresse to the max and they are just kids! they should have no worries at this age. this is the only time in their lives when they are going to be able to have fun, be a kid, enjoy life and not have to worry about any of the realities of it all, and they are not! i was totally getting stressed for these kids just watching it! and my heart was breaking when they missed their words. and yes i was also crying right along with them. it was sooooooooooooooo sad. god, i hope i am not like that to my kids when they get to these ages. i just want to enjoy my kids and watch them be kids. even now i want them to stay little, and not grow up, thee is no way i am going to force them to grow up and act much older than they should. and never am i going to force so much stress and tension their way. this is their time in their life, not my time to try and make them what i want them to be!! UGH!!

this other guy packed up his family and moved out to LA, to try and get his kids in show biz!! mind you the mother is not totally on board with the whole thing, so i don't know how she allowed this whole thing to happen anyways. grow some balls momma!! take your kids back to their home, let them be kids!!

this other lady has her poor girl in like every dance class..........oh ok, it just said she used to be a dancer with hammer!! so far i seen this poor girl in ballet, salsa, and now acting. i have to give it to her, her acting isn't bad. as for dancing she is a little chunky, sure she may slim out when she gets older......ok, her acting is very good!! she needs to really stick with that! she is only like 5 or 6, she was just up there crying for her scene and it was great!!

now the parents are bitching about hollywood, talent agents, and pageant judges. HELLO?! where are you people from. i have never even had any experience with those people like they have and i know how shady and unfair it all is. DUH!!

well, let me get off this subject. the only reason it is on, is cause i was watching queer eye, and it was on afterwards. i love the fab five!!!! if that kyan wasn't gay, i would be on that boy so quick. hell i may even be on him even though i know he is gay, he is sooooooooo hot!!! jai is pretty hot too, but sometimes he is a bit girly. carson, what can i say about him? he is just a hoot!! i would love to hang out with him!!!!

i just want to start out by thanking all of you that take time out in your day to come and read my blog. i had 19 visits today! and none of them were me, checking up! haha!!

please feel free to check back often, i try to update everyday. usually even multiple entries per day. also if you have a minute, please post your pin on my guest map, so i can see where ya are, who ya are, and how you found me.

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ok....it is 48 freaking degrees! if you read my post from last night around this time it was 70 degrees. i have windows open and now i am sitting here freezing!! they are all open in my bedroom i am going to be pissed when i get up there. and i know bob is going to try to be all up on me when i get in bed. why's he gotta steal all my body heat?! damn!! :)

i was going to bitch about something else, but i don't remember right now.

i can't stand listening to boston accents, or new york for that matter either. sorry if any of you are from there and have one. i really mean no offense. it is just annoying. hell, we probably sound weird to you! you know what though....i'm thinking it may just be who is doing the talking. boston rob on survivor, i hate him! so it grinds on my nerves so bad listening to him!! then again, brian from average joe, after the more i got to "know" him, fell in love with him and it didn't bother me. ok, so forget what i said.......i don't mind the accent, just the person! :) see i am not so shallow! haha!! these people on elimidate just drive me insane! i mean i have done some wild and crazy stuff in my day, but i have never kissed and made out with more than one person in span of 5 minutes!! i don't know why i even watch this show! i guess it is like looking at that gross shit on rotten.com. then again, i guess i am just sick and twisted individual. :)

doesn't that movie 13 going on 30 look so cute?!?! i want to see it soooooo bad! i may make bob take me. i don't think he would mind, cause he was snickering at the previews we saw during a movie we rented recently.

and here is piggy......he jumps up here gets right by my face and just sits and stares at me. every now and then he throws a meow in there. he wants petted. so soon after ignoring him for a while, he will try to walk on me and the keyboard. when that doesn't work he will go and get into stuff he shouldn't and be bad so i have to pay him some kind of attention! i really do feel bad for the poor guy. he doesn't come around at all, not even downstairs, until clay is in bed. everytime i go upstairs to smoke or whatever he is instantly ON me. so i feel bad so i have to pet him, but when you pet him he gets into that kneading and clawing me to death. he needs declawed! yeah, i've been saying that since 2001! one of these days maybe.

oh well........i should hit the hay. frozen hay i'm sure it will be when i get up there!

night all!

well my blogger just went wacky! sorry i couldn't spell check the last post, but i tried and it wouldn't do nothing except say page not available. then i couldn't even publish or access the blogger site!!!! thank god i copied and pasted that whole post to notepad, or i would have lost it all and would have been totally pissed!!!!

now for some reason where ever there is a double space between paragraphs, it is not turning out that way. so sorry it all goes together. i even tried to edit it, and it keeps showing up the same. now what?! that is all i need one more thing to screw up!

i have been having such an awful time with this wireless internet thing for my laptop. i was having a ton of problems, was on the phone for hours with tech support at roadrunner, had someone out here 2 times with no avail!!!!!! i kept telling them can't you just try a new modem?!?!?! well finally i got someone out here who knew what he was doing and replaced my modem, do you know these things are worth like thousands of dollars?! they aren't even allowed carrying them around, just in case, they have to specifically given one to replace or install. so anyways, after the new one it was working a bit better.

i just want to know how in the hell the guy in the commercial for it is going from room to room and at the end of the commercial he is even outside on his roof!!!!!!!!! WHAT?! i can barely sit down here in my living room! i am always losing my signal or it gets low. the weirdest thing is that i don't even have to move for it to happen. what the hell is that about?! saturday was awful. could not get a signal for nothing. mind you i was already pissed to no end at bob, then i couldn't even get on here. it works fine in the bedroom though, or i would really go insane. i hardly even use the regular comptuer any more. my lazy butt lays here on the couch or if bob is on afternoons or midnights, i lay in bed. i LOVE it!!!!

i really want to call and bitch about how it has been lately, but i don't feel like dealing with tech support again forever. then they are just reading from a flippin book, they don't really know what the hell they are doing. the one time i talked to 3 different people and had to keep doing the same thing each time, even though i told them we already did it!!! well they have to go in order to rule whatever out...AGH!!!!!!! then i always get transferred to a specialist. well why the hell didn't i just talk to him in the damn first place?!

yeah it just popped up now telling me no signal. all i am doing is laying here typing! i truly hate computers! but love all of you! :)

i have a very VERY odd cat. he does quite a few things that i believe odd for cats, and after all i have had dozens in my life and none like him. firstly, which may not be too odd, he fetches like a dog. he will bring me a toy to throw, i do he goes and gets it, brings it back to me to throw again. it was cute at first but it gets very annoying very quick!!

secondly, he, everynight, drags clothes up from down the basement (where the washer and dryer are) you will here him meowing VERY loudly, and you know he has something hanging out his mouth!! in the morning when i come downstairs, there is ALWAYS at least 3-4 articles of clothes laying on the floor. sometimes he even makes it all the way upstairs to outside my bedroom door!! that is very annoying!!!! so now i have a pile of clothes on the basement steps landing of just clothes that he carries up. i am not too good about doing laundry, so it takes me quite a while to do any of it. he will bring stuff up that i haven't seen in quite sometime and don't even know where the hell he got it from

this last one, is the MAIN one of my concerns at the moment. this behavior just recently started over the past few months. well you know how cats do hat god awful kneading thing. well, like normal cats, one night he was up there doing that. his thing is that he has to do it ON you, or at least touching you, so it hurts. if you move he moves right along with you. and don't think about covering up, i think that just makes him go deeper and harder! that isn't what i am getting at, but anyways........like normal he was doing that, i'm trying to go to sleep, so i am trying to ignore him. so he is kind of on my arm and it seemed like he was trying to straddle my arm. so i just kind of moved and he kept doing this weird meow, like bitching at me for moving and disturbing him. whatever dude!!!! so he moved along with me, and kept doing his thing, and then it seemed like he was doing it with his back paws as well, cause i could feel him moving. so i was like what the hell and rolled over. so the next night, same thing. this time the lights were on and i kind of had a strange feeling. so i ended up shoving him off the bed. the next night i told bob to watch what piggy was doing. so here is my cat and it looks like he is humping the covers or whatever it is that he is "on". i said, is he doing what it looks like? do cats even do that?!?!?! so i sort of pushed him over and sure enough there was his "little pink thing" all out and at attention. i was like OMFG!!!! what the hell is up with that?! at first, when it started was when i was pregnant there for a short time in november. so we sort of thought maybe he could sense it from like hormones i was giving off or something?! well i am no longer pregnant and he still does it! just about every night! i feel bad for the poor guy. he is already fixed, but i was half tempted to go get a female cat for the poor guy. i thought about calling the vet, but don't really want to explain this whole story to him!! so anyone else have any experience with this?! i know there are dogs that do that, but aren't they just puppies and eventually quit?! piggy is like 8 years old!

well, i am all stinky again. i had this hugs splotch thing on my forearm. apparently i somehow totally screwed up that spot last night when applying the sunless tanning junk. it looks a little better now, but still much darker than the rest of my arm. damn it! oh well, it is getting a little chilly out for the rest of the week, so i am sure noone will see it anyways, but you know it is killing me!!! i don't know why, i can just imagine what the back of me looks like since of course i could not reach back there!! but then again as long as i can't see it, it doesn't' exist! :) i may get real crazy and do it again tomorrow! well i got like 3 boxes of the shit!

i ordered this bronze and bare from HSN or QVC, one of those. well stupid me forgot that it was on auto ship. so everytime they thought you were "running low" they shipped another out. well by the time i finally got around to canceling that nonsense, i got like 3 packages. which i was going to return, but after i finally got around to doing that my 30 days or whatever you have were up on a few. am i good at wasting money or what?! i've been pissing around the past few months and everytime it is time to pay my lowes visa it is like the day before it is due and i have to pay $10 freaking dollars to do it over the phone so i don't get a $30 late fee!!!!!!!! well it is due the 24th and it has been sitting in my car for the past few days to be mailed out......think i am going to waste another $10?? i'm sure unless i get my ass around to mailing it.

anyways.......the bronze and bare......the bare part stuff doesn't work for me. then again, none of that nair type stuff does. why does nothing work for me?!?!?!? why am i so damn difficult?!?!?! to list a few, that stupid shot that you can get for birth control, like 99% of women who get the shot quit having their period all together, what happens for me?! i bleed non-stop, 24/7 for the whole 9 mths i tried it (i kept being told that sometimes it takes more than one dose for your body to get accustomed). then that stupid shot that i got for my tubal pregnancy. it usually work for like everyone who gets it. me? no i had to get a second one and then that even works more for those who get it twice. me? no i am like the 1 in 100000000000000 where it actually makes it rupture causing the need for emergency surgery to stop internal bleeding!!! ding, ding, ding that is me!!!!!!! i could go on and on, but those are a few examples!

woes me!

well i don't look any more tan.......still stinky though! haha! oh well......maybe i'll torture myself again tomorrow with another application.

i may actually take my butt to bed now. i know it is only 1:09AM! probably not. i already fell asleep for a bit on the couch earlier.

i'll play a few games of solitare first. :)

night!

krispy kreme doughnuts are so damn good! bob thinks they put something in them to addict you! my mom got them the other day to try them, since you always hear about them.....well it is true!!!! we got the one with the cream filling, choc. icing on top. i tried the chocolate glazed ones today and oh my god! they were great! it just sucks that they are like $3.40 a 1/2 dozen!!!! i honestly don't think i can eat any other doughnuts now.

hello! well i am sitting here all stinky! i just slathered myself in some sunless tannin junk....WHY does this stuff have to smell so awful. UGH, i hate it!!!! last summer i even paid for that new sunless stuff that you go and get airbrushed on you....ask me how humiliating it is to be standing there naked having someone paint you!? oh the things we go through to look good!!! stupid me spent a bundle and bought 6 visits, i only used 2 so far, so i have to get back there soon to use the other 4, but i think i am just going to try and go back to the regular tanning beds....it is just so much easier. the spray stuff is great, but it still smells! plus when you first get it done it is sticky, and you can't get any kind of wet for like an hour. then you can't even shower til like 12 hours later. it looks great, but for me it only lasts for about 5 days if that. then it starts to wear off, more in some places than others, and if you aren't diligent on going every week like you are supposed to, then you are part tan, part untan, and it looks awful....and i am NOT good on going and getting stuff done like that on time.....i'm lucky if i make it every month to get my nails done. once i even went 2 months! i think she ended up filing down my whole fill they were grown out so bad! oh well, so now here i sit, trying to breathe through my mouth so i don't smell myself. but it was just soooooooooooooooo nice out today almost 80!!!! it is still 73 now and it is after midnight!

i can honestly say that i was outside more today than i have been probably since i was a kid out playing.....why? because now i have a kid and he was out playing! which got me motivated to spoil him some. so what did we do? spent almost $500 at walmart!!!!!!!!!!!!! what?!?!? i went freakin nuts! they had some shorts and tops on sale for clay for only $2.88. well he desperately needs play clothes for summer, and how can you pass up $2.88!!! that is about 100% cheaper than the resale shops, and these are brand new! some others that i got were 2 pc, outfits, but they still weren't more than $6. so i went friggin bananas!!! thank god we were short on time.

the first, i swear, hour i was looking for this damn swing set that i want to get for clay. i showed it to my mom and got excited, she told me to put it in layaway, so i think she is going to help me pay for it which is cool!! they didn't have it needless to say, so he told me to call back tomorrow and i guess talk to the "toy lady" and she can try to find it and get it there for me, since online it says it is available, but i am not paying $69 for shipping. so hopefully i will remember that.'

the other reason we went was for a sandbox. when we were there last weekend i saw the turtle ones, so went looking for that. well they didn't have that, but they had a blue one that sort of looked like a castle. it was the last one, so i snapped it up real quick!!! we have sand around where our pool goes, and the past few days clay has been sitting there for at least a 1/2 hour playing in the sand. i don't even want to think what may be there, thanks to all the neighborhood cats, so i was damn sure going out and getting him his own to play in. we were all in it for about an hour after we got home tonight. i think he liked it!

i also got him some sidewalk chalk. since that "coloring" also keeps him sitting still for an extended period of time, i thought that would be fun for him out on our patio. he was ok with it, bob was playing with it more than clay though. also for the little spoiled brat, was one of those popcorn things that you push, well my kid pulls everything. he really liked that too.

so after my cart was filled with stuff for him, and by this point almost 2 hours into our visit and still no food or anything, i went to do our food shopping. then even after i told myself no, i went and looked in my size clothing. MISTAKE!! i just wanted to get a pair of capri's. it is supposed to be in the 60's this week, so thought those would be great. well, about 20 articles of clothing for me later........i told bob we need to get out of here!!!!!!!!! i just really need clothes badly. the clothes i have from last summer are all too big, and the clothes i have pre-clay are sadly too small. so i needed some in between stuff. i got 3 pairs of capris. one coral, one like an army green, and the other jeans. a ton of tops. most of them were on clearance for $5. couldn't pass that up!

so all that plus some odds and ends, 4 bags of sand and 2 cartons of cigarettes.....$500! boy how does it add up?!?!?!? so i had to pop out the new credit card, that just a few hours earlier i told bob i wasn't going to use it cause it was going to be either for our new central air, or privacy fence. shot that all to hell didn't i?! oh well.......we should be set for a while. clay needs no new clothes now til fall/winter. i am still hoping(praying) to lose at least 20 pounds, and then hopefully i can fit back into my pre-clay clothes

well, i still have a few other posts to write, don't want to make it one whole big one....so TTFN......remember that!?!? (ta-ta for now) :)

hubby made it onto the shit list again this weekend.....surprise, surprise!!! i ok'd him going out, and what happened? the same damn thing that happens every time he goes out!!!!

he was going to go to some fund raiser thing for his friends son. at first i was going to go, but he said he didn't think that i would want to go, so he didn't get me a ticket. then when i told him i would go, they didn't have any left...how convenient?! well whatever, so i was thinking of going out, since he was. mom said she would stay the night to babysit. then like in my previous post, i was just too lazy and not motivated. he said that the thing ended at 11:30, so he would come home after if i didn't go out. well, i called him and said i wasn't going, so he could just stop at taco bell and get dinner on his way home, since i hadn't ate all day. midnight comes, no bob. call his cell, voicemail. 12:30 comes no bob, call his cell phone, voicemail. mind you i DID NOT EAT ALL DAY, so i am getting pissed. 1AM comes, no bob. cell phone, voicemail. 1:30 no bob, cell , voicemail. 2AM, no bob, cell, voicemail. WTF?!?! 2:30 comes, he finally calls. he is stuck, they went out and he didn't drive. so he will be home after the bar closes, in a 1/2 hour. do you still love me? 3AM, no bob, call him flippen cell, get the damn voicemail. 3:45AM, no bob, call, where the fuck are you? what bar is open this late? do you understand that i haven't eaten all night, cause i was waiting for you to bring dinner home with you?? just remember this next time i want to go out. i better not hear one word out of your mouth!! click! so then i was like screw this! clay is going to be up in 4 hours! taco bell, i think isn't even open this damn late, and what?! i'm gonna stuff my face then go right to bed?! so i just went to bed. he ended up calling at like 4, but i didn't even answer. screw him. i don't even know what time he got home, cause i didn't hear him, he didn't come up he was asleep on the couch this morning. just wait til the next time i go out buddy!! not one word!!!!!!

the thing that makes it worse, is that we have actually been getting along lately and not fighting! when i was writing in my blog here friday night, he smartassly (new word!) said are you bitching about me? i have been good lately. i was like, no...i know you have been............well WTF?! now i sure as hell am!!

back tracking......before he even went out, when he said that about coming home early, if i was going to be here i scoffed. he was like what? i said, yeah, i've heard that before. he stupidly goes, what are you talking about that. i told him the last time he went out he told me the exact same thing and didn't come home til 5AM even after he called me at 10:30 and said he was going to be home shortly?!?!?!?!?! huh?!?!?!? then he had the nerve to say, well that was a year ago, that that happened. well, now what? it just happened again.

shouldn't i be able to have some faith in what my husband tells me?! should i be able to rely and count on my husband?! and he wonders why we have problems?! and yes, i could have cooked something, but i wasn't cooking at midnight. the fact was that he told me something and i believed him. guess that is my fault. think after 10 years i would have learned. oh well. like i said. he just better remember. and do a lot of ass kissing in the mean time! :)

ok, well now that i got that off my chest..... haha! that's better.

well the apprentice was ok.....i really didn't care for either bill or kwame, so it didn't matter. i just wanted donald to GET ON AMAROSA!!!! he sort of did, and it was nice that he gave ereka a chance to talk, she dogged amarosa!!! but he eventually was nicey-nicey to her, so blah donald....wait to go ereka!!!!!!!!!!!! i think he totally lost it for kwame, plus the fact that he just seemed, like whatever. i would have totally got on amarosa's ass if she pulled that shit with me. i think the whole damn frustration of the entire season of the apprentice would have came out on her ass. but the again that is why he was in the running for working with donald trump and i am not.......

survivor went pretty much as suspected. i still hate rob and amber! i am starting to like jenna, but that is just because i know she is tight with rupert and i don't believe she will backstab him, but we will see. of course i was crying, with the whole letters from home and the little clips of video of family. i just want rupert to win, but i know it ain't gonna happen, since noone ever wins these things who i want, so.....AGH!! i'll just sit here and bitch after the fact, and you will read it...or not :)

the bachelor was ok.....i love the whole idea of the spy!!!! bob picked her out right away!!! (why else would he be keeping that big girl) my husbands words...spoken like a true man!!!! <>

i too hate trish, like everyone else, but the more i thought about what she said, i have to say i somewhat agree with a lot of what she says! i think she just presents herself wrong and just comes off like a bitch. which i do think she truly is, but somehow i agree with how she thinks?? well maybe i am a bitch too! haha! i am sure my husband would have some thoughts on that as well.

oh well, he is home now, so i should get off of here and spend sometime with him....and not be a bitch.....haha! night!

god i hate friday nights when my husband works! it is so boring!! not a damn thing on tv!! how can i have almost 400 (?) channels, that is including all the movie channels, and nothing be on?!

well i just watched iron chef...they are here in new york! actually had 2 new york chefs, one was still Japanese. i don't know why i am so addicted to that show. i have no clue most of the time what the hell they are cooking, and definitely don't think i would even want to eat any of it. last week it was pretty interesting they were using octopus!!!!!!! it was a trip watching these things squirming around in their tanks waiting to get cooked. of course i didn't watch it...i couldn't watch the things getting killed!!!! i'm queer like that! oh well........

i actually didn't really watch tonight, i listened, well half listened, while i read through the list of blogs/diaries that are becoming my normal readings every night. then i have the nerve to get pissed when some don't update theirs everyday! like i am so up on that one right!! haha!! no, it is actually the fact that i am so boring with no life, i look to those with lives, especially exciting enough to write about to entertain me on nights like tonight!! haha!!

yes i am so boring! i actually have a good chance of going out tomorrow night, but don't think i am going to. it just seems like so much work these days! i know i am just getting too old and lazy for my own good! but i can't fit in any of my cute hoochy clothes, it just seems like such a hassle, running around doing the whole hair and make-up thing, and since i can't fit in a-for-mentioned hoochy clothes, i probably won't get any drinks bought for me (well hubby ordered me that i am not allowed accepting drinks anyways?! whatever!), i am definitely not paying ($5 for 1 drink) for my drinks all night! then i still have to get up bright and early the next morning with clay.....i don't really feel like doing that with a hang over!! well we will see when tomorrow comes, i may get the itch and end up going. i think the last time i got to go out....see blog a few weeks back.....it just ruined it! if i had an awesome time, it may be different. so, i don't know.........guess i will see what happens and get back to you all.

ok...one quick bitch here before i got put my child to sleep (grandma is here, so i get to have some free time, yipee) my canon printer for some reason quit working. i did everything i could think of but it was shot, so i got a new (used) print head off ebay for like $50+ which was great cause a new one from canon was $72 + taxand shipping....in the meantime before ebay, i bought a lexmark p707 from bj's. it was clearanced for like $70 plus it had a $50 rebate! so i only paid like $20 for it. well for some reason the colors in my pictures has been stupid lately, and that printer prints the wacky colors even wackier. so i was pissed, but figured hey, it was only $20, and i needed something to print my invoices out on, so i got my $$ worth. so anyways, i get the canon print head....i'm all happy, i just tried to print my pictures from easter, and they look like shit! what the hell now?! so i printed the same pics on the lexmark, and the quality is MUCH better, but the colors are still not quite right for some reason?!?!?!? anyways....my whole bitch is that it takes 17 minutes for this printer to print on page of pictures (2 4x6's) that is ridiculous!!!!!!!!!

i don't know i think i may try to print some stuff on the canon, maybe since i just got it up and running, it will take some time to get the ink in the print head well enough, i don't know....i am so considering just going and getting a new one, they have some great ones for like $200, and i know i will get my money's worth as much as i print pictures. the hard partly lately is have the $200 to go and buy a new one. will i ever be out of debt?!?! i know, yes.....when i die!!!!!!!!!!! (or when i kill bob and collect the life insurance........just kidding hunnyy~~love you!!!!!!)

well since it was sooooooooo beautiful out today, we ventured to the park! yes, i actually got up and out of my jammies, put make-up on too, for a change to go out in public! :) my friend molly came over with her daughter (clay's girlfriend) marisa. it is so cute she wants to grab clay and hug him or whatever, but he wants no part of it. he just wants to run around. she kept chasing him with her arms out-stretched yelling some cute baby words and he just kept going, paying no mind to her....poor girl! :)

i knew clay would just love it! i will post some pics later tonight. these squirrels were almost coming right up to us!! it was a trip. then clay was chasing one around a tree. it was too funny. i wish i would have switched my camera on to video mode and recorded it, cause it was GREAT! you would see one look around one side, and the other look around the other side, then clay would run to that side and the squirrel would book it around to the other side. then their heads would both stick out again on opposite sides looking for each other. i was dying laughing. and somehow i only got 2 pictures of the whole ordeal, i swear i was snapping away....figures!!! i could have won 10,000 on americas funnies videos....oh no, that is right, they only pick the stupid ones to win all the money!!!!!!!!

so we were there for a few hours, that flew by. then when he got up from his nap i let him run around the back yard for a while. hopefully he will be nice and tired for bedtime, cause i am wore out!! if i don't fall asleep, i'll be back on later to bitch about my shows, i am sure something will happen to piss me off......the one sure thing is that i am going to have to see omarosa's dumb ass again tonight....UGH!!

just a correction to where i posted that the movie the missing had no dvd extras....well when i was packing it up to be taken back to the video store (we already watched all our netflix) i found that there was a whole other disc of nothing but extras!!!! bob, WTF?! so anyways we watched it before he took it back, 2 days late mind you!! guess that rent one get one free coupon really came in handy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bob, WTF!!!!!

i for one find this "game" amusing! after a while and much frustration it bacame quite the mission to finish the damn thing.....if you are bored, very bored, check it out.

well tuesday's tv was a bust thanks to bush!!!! as you can imagine for a tv fiend like myself i was pretty upset!!! so i had to wait til today to watch american idol.

it pretty much sucked! my 2 favorite weren't too great, well they were but fantasia, jennifer and the other one were just incredible, so that made everyone else look pretty much like shit! i did my duty and voted for "my girl" for about a half hour, i know, i'm so pathetic!! i probably would have kept hitting redial, except i got a few phone calls, so i forgot about my mission. oh well, diana, i tried!!

did any of you all watch extreme makeover tonight?! i just caught the end, but oh my god!!!!!!!!! that girl was totally transformed, of course being the whole point of the show...but no she really did look much, much different! and of course i was crying!! once again, i am so pathetic!

so thanks to bush screwing up the whole tv schedule, tomorrow is probably going to be a mess, i already have shows on every channel (3,5,8,9) til like 11, so thanks bush!!!! if i don't pay attention to any political stuff going on, i will still hold this against you. it is lucky he didn't interrupt the apprentice finale tomorrow or i am sure there would have been quite a few bomb threats at the white house tomorrow(good thing amorossa doesn't still work there!). people are nuts for this show....and yes i am one of them!

oh well, have a good night all!

i'm sooooooooo addicted to blogs!!! thanks trish!!! :) i guess that is because i am so damn nosey! i just never knew it was such a huge thing!!!!

as a matter of fact, i have been so busy searching through bogs, that i haven't been keeping up on my own!

i have added tricia's and kelly's at the link to the right.

i hope to be adding more soon. there is so much interesting stuff out there....i'm amazed!

woo-hoo john stamos is single now...think i have a shot?! haha!!

ok......the pictures that i took on easter are now here in my photo album. click on the link on the right, they are in the album easter 2004. the thumbnails look sort of funny, if you click on the actual picture you can see the actual photo.

thanks for checking out my little cutie!!

ok, damn it....the liberty bike is in 2 parts, so now i have to wait a whole week to actually see the bike finished!!

movies this weekend were:

21 grams
missing
somethings gotta give
mona lisa smile

i give a thumbs up(maybe 4 out of 5 stars) to 21 grams....it is one of those very different movies. you have to really pay attention, and think and think, and think....even after the movie is over, thinking about it makes it better. it is also one of those movies, that you can kind of come up with you own meaning, not that it is what the movie maker was thinking, but it works for me. i don't want to go too into detail and ruin it for anyone who is interested in seeing it. but if you saw momento and like it you may like this as well. bob hated both! traffic too. traffic made a lot more sense if you watched the dvd extras and saw the parts they cut out and all the behind the scenes and stuff. and if you thought a lot about it afterwards, it became better. if you like different, deep movies, i'd check it out.....let me know what you think. no dvd extras.

missing....it was alright(maybe 2 stars) nothing real big or exciting. i thought the end could have been a bit more dramatic. no dvd extras.

somethings gotta give....once again it was alright(just barely 3 stars), i guess i was just expecting more cause of all the whoop-la. not many impressive dvd extras.

mona lisa smile.....same thing (maybe 3 stars). the dvd extras were good. some took a look back at the past. and it had quite a few different extras which i enjoy.