last bitch/es of the night. so in some previous posts i was complaining of a tooth ache. well got it fixed a few weeks ago now. well ever since becoming un numb, my tooth has still been hurting!!!!!!! so i finally called last night, since bob is on midnights i can actually make it in this week. so she calls this morning, i have to go see a specialist cause i probably need a root canal. WHAT?!?!? now i guess i can see this happening, but you know what, it already did. a few years back, i had to go get a filling cause i had a tooth bothering me, well right afterwards it still hurt, well i then had to have a root canal!!!!

my dentist, i do love him...i've been going to him since i've had teeth, he always reminded me of john ritter. odd side note, i was at the dentists the day it was released that john ritter died! it was kind of spooky....i was going to tell him that but there was a drill in my mouth at the time i heard it over the radio. i am seriously thinking of changing dentists though. i hate saying that he is getting old, but facts are facts. i mean, he doesn't do cleaning anymore, he hired a hygentist. he doesn't do molar work anymore, and now he doesn't even do root canals anymore. plus he isn't a participant in my insurance. i do get a break, but not as big as if i went to a participating dentist. so i'm thinking of changing. i'm just little nervous though. for some reason recently, i get real stressed when i have to go to the dentist. and this guy is the only one i have known, so i'm just a little freaked about having a stranger drilling around in there! so i don't know. guess i'll get this root canal done then worry about the rest. they said they work with 3 or 4, but what if none of them take my insurance?! she said it would probably cost about $800. i lucked out last time, i didn't need a crown. one more thing i have to worry about!!! right.....that is all i need............

OOOHHHH.........i didn't tell you about my main stress right now. i'm self employed. i have a cleaning service. my best friend, molly, and i started it back in 1999. we both got pregnant at the same time, so we gave most of it up. she kept a client and i kept a client. well anyways.......my hubby and friend has been doing it since clay came. all was well until february. we got into it with one of the supervisors, but then i thought all was smoothed over, but kept getting some "concerns" from them. we clean windows for new construction homes. so i know how bob and amy are, so i figure they are doing a shitty job, plus they would say they are doing it one day, then piss around and not get it done til a day or 2 later!!! which pisses me off cause bob should know that it is MY business and that a poor job reflects on me since it is my business!!!!!!!! well i thought things were going better, but i haven't got any calls for work in a few weeks now. that is kind of odd. there has been the occasional period where it was slow, but i just have a feeling. i called the main guy there and left a voice mail asking if they were still going to be using my services, and he hasn't called back yet!!! so i am hoping that things are just slow, but i know my luck, so i am not too optimistic about it. which really sucks, cause that was our 2nd income that we DESPERATELY need!!!! so as much as bob hated doing windows, i'm sure he is going to be real happy about the possibility of going and getting a part time job. so now instead of working maybe once or twice a week every other week, he will have to go get an actual part time job 20 hrs a week probably, to make up what we will be missing from windows!!

for those of you wondering why i didn't do my own job, or why i don't get a job.....well it was our agreement when we got married. bob has a TON of debt and just recently had a bankruptcy. it was his stupidity that got us in so much debt, so, in my opinion, it is his duty to get us out. i take care of clay, he take care of the financial responsibilities. well, i am going to go before i get myself all upset again..............nite all!