ok...i'm so fricking pissed off about my show, tru calling, right now!!!!!!!! what the hell was with killing luc?!?!?!? it was bad enough when they killed his character off on my soap, but i was happy he was on this show, now they go and kill him cause of that dick jason preistly!!! ok, for those of you who know about the show, i'm sitting here yelling at the tv, "ask her for help, ask her for help!!!!!" and now i have to wait til fall to find out what the hell happens!!!!! AHHHH!!!!! i keep hoping he will appear and she will rewind a week instead of just a day. as a matter of fact i may have to pop over to fox.com and write. i know i am pathetic. my husband was just laughing at me when i called him to bitch. and then the whole twist at the end with her father. OMG!!!! i definitely cannot wait for this show to come back, they sure as hell better not cancel it.

on to survivor. i'm glad shi-ann is gone, but i'm thinking that may not have been a good move on jenna or ruperts part. i think that was the time to get rid of rob. BUT, i don't think that rupert will go against his "alliance" with rob and amber to vote them off.....but i hope he does!!! if not, i just hope he wins immunity for the next 2 shows!! i know a lot of people don't like jenna, i hated her at first, but now she and rupert are the ones i don't mind. i just hate rob!!! and amber!!!! go rupert! looks like he kind of screws up next week, at least that is what i got from the previews. here is hoping for immunity!

once again i fell asleep during kingdom hospital, not that i would really know what the hell was going on anyways.......

and ER?!?!?!?!? OMG!!!! my husband was yelling at me, "i don't even know why you keep watching this show!!" i was bawling!!! kerry's situation just brings me to tears thinking about it. when i had to watch her give her child to those people, i just couldn't even imagine someone taking clay away from me!!!! then the girl with the seizures.....accidentially killing her baby.......oh my jesus, how flippin awful would that be....i was really sobbing there. there was a movie i watched a while ago, not sure what it was or what it was about, but people were escaping from bad guys.....one lady had a baby, and it started crying while they were hiding, and she had to cover its face, so it wouldn't be heard, and she ended up killing it, that was the most awful thing i have seen!!!! that was totally almost the same thing, so, so, so sad!!! then the previews keep showing carter totally crying and upset, and they talk about a devastating news, or something.......so it has to be about kem and the baby, i would think. i was thinking maybe he would have to make one of those awful decisions if they should save his wife or save the baby.....if it comes to that i was hoping it would just end there, then next fall we will find out that they both turn out ok. or maybe something with the whole aids thing, since she works with aids patients????? why does this shit always have to be sad and depressing?!

hell all these shows may be the cause of my "depression" not my REAL life! haha