~8-31-04~ OUCH!!

my tooth is freaking killing me! i woke up last night before 5am, with my mouth in pain! the "funny" (not) thing is that it wasn't even the tooth i am having problems with. so i popped some advil and finally got to sleep.


then today the regular one is getting worse! i have only been dealing with this tooth pain since before may!!!! so i finally called my dentist and told him our last ditch effort to save the tooth didn't work. so now it needs to come out! sniff, sniff!

this sucks!!!!! i hate being in pain, but i don't want a tooth yanked from my damn head! then it being a major tooth, molar, to chew with, then i have to decide if i want to replace it with a bridge or an implant. or just have a big gap betwwen my last molar and other tooth, which i don't particularly want!!

anyways, i made the appointment to get it pulled. friday the 10th. i'm just soooooooooo not looking forward to it. i have seen people after they get teeth pulled, it isn't pretty! granted usually they get their wisdom teeth out and it is usually multiple ones, compared to my 1, but i am a baby!!

ok, that is my whinning for the day........so far!

~8-31-04~ So I am obsessed with maisy!!!

ok, soi had to serch the net about maisy, and i found on THIS site the following:

Now, Noggin, on the other hand, is made up mostly of shows that come from the UK, and they are far more educational and helpful to a mom than anything on Nick Jr. JJ's favorite on that channel is Maisy. It's a crudely animated cartoon about a mouse and her friends. And they just do... stuff all day long. They play and eat, and that's about all, but it's all good. Maisy is sweet and helpful and generous and happy, and also very nurturing for a preschool-aged mouse. She's filled with selfless kindness. Her friends are a crocodile, a chicken, and a squirrel. Today's episode was a good example of why I like this show: Cyril the Squirrel came over to Maisy's house to play, and when he got there, he drank some water. They went to play in the sandbox, and after a little while, he had to pee, but he didn't want to go to the toilet, so he kept holding it and holding it. And then he peed his pants. So Maisy took him inside without a waver in her smile, gave him a pair of pants to wear, and washed his pants for him. It's great, because the show doesn't even mention any kind of a lesson or moral. The narrator didn't ever say, Now, see, Cyril, if you'd gone to the potty, you wouldn't have peed your pants. They just tell the little story. And I can say to JJ, Hey, see that? Cyril didn't want to use the potty and what happened? And since we're having a problem with the potty training right now, JJ knows what I'm talking about.
I only have one problem with Maisy. The show, I mean. See, the characters don't talk. There's a narrator who talks to the characters, and describes everything that's going on. The characters don't say words, they speak in a strange gibberish that's usually going on underneath the narrator's voice. It's certainly sounds weird, but it's not too bad overall. Except for Charley the Crocodile. His voice is just downright creepy. He's constantly laughing and braying. The best way I can come up with to describe his voice is to compare it to that of a 40 year old deviant on speed. Seriously. Ma has mentioned, too, that Charley's voice flips her out. I'd put the tv on mute, but then JJ couldn't hear the narrator.

so, she is kind of saying it is cute, but she is also kind of making my point that is is freaky!!!!

another:


Maisy = TeletubbiesMay 23 '03Author's Product RatingProsMaybe if I got electroshock therapy this show might actually make sense.ConsGibberish-speak, cheaply drawn, characters seem to be on thorazine.The Bottom LineMaisy is a horrible, useless, show that will make your kids sound worse than Marlon Brando in the Godfather.
Full Review
I thought I had never seen a show more horrid than the Teletubbies. With their grunts and occasional words and the nonsensical story lines, I thought of it as potato chips for the brain. I thought, no children's show could possibly get any worse than this. Well, apparently I was wrong. I have a one year old son, who thankfully has zero interest in this festival of idiocy. First of all, none of the characters speak. They communicate with a series of grunts and babbles that only a person who has dropped quite a bit of acid could possibly understand. To remedy this, the show is narrated. The narrator is quite good, with a clear speaking voice and lots of inflection that is appropriate to the story. He'd be a good story teller if it weren't for Maisy, the rodent, blathering on with her inane drivel. For example, one show has Maisy looking at different animals. Here is how that debacle went (more or less): Narrator: "Oh Maisy! That's a pig! Can you make sounds like the pig makes? Maisy: "uh...uh...uh...uh" Narrator: "That's right! Very good! Maisy, there's a horse. Can you make sounds like the horse makes?" Maisy: "uh...uh...uh...uh" Narrator: "Wonderful! Now here's an elephant. Can you makes sounds like an elephant?" Maisy: "uh...uh...uh...uh" Not only will the senseless blabbering get on your last nerve, causing you to put on your husband's steel toe construction boots and proceed to smash your foot right through the television set, clear out the broken glass, turn it on it's side & use it as a nifty planter, it....oh, wait, I think I've been watching too much Trading Spaces. Anyway, this show is also horribly drawn. The characters are one step above stick figures, with a few basic colors used. Also, they all seem to have the same glazed over look, as if they've suffered one head injury too many. And I agree with one of the other reviewers, that the Alligator looks downright frightening. She (?) is extremely creepy, and always seems to be leering, like at any minute she will show up in your bedroom late at night along with the boogey man and forever ruin your ability to sleep with both eyes closed. Although the target age for this show is kids under 3 or 4, I would never let my child watch this while he is learning to speak. I can't imagine how toddlers would learn anything from "bluh uh ma ah uh uh". Now that I think about it, maybe Maisy is actually from the Zulu Umbu tribe on the remote island of Shibu Ina. Maybe she really is speaking a language, the near extinct tribal language of her ancestors, thus preserving a centuries old way of life. Maybe the Maisy show is actually bi-lingual and is teaching our children not only concepts of sharing, painting a house, and taking a bath, but also how to speak in Mombi Batumba. Mmmm.....maybe the laundry will be done when I get home. Keep dreaming, sister.

huh....maybe that is why clay's "speaks" the foreign language he does instead of english!!

Also with this babbling, I find it to be disturbing at times, I wouldn't be surprised if kids found Charlie The Crocodile to be disturbing. He talks well... Like he's a psycho killer, he did disturb me quite a bit with his stupid voice. If I was a young lad, I'd switch the channel as fast as I could.

one last thing........who the hell keeps searching for "paige davis's nipple"????? that search keeps appearing and it brings them to my site! it was weird the first time, but it has appeared multiple times now. what the hell?!

Bob's birthday present 

~8-31-04~ Poor Bob..and a big long post to follow

well today is bob's birthday (tuesday), to me it is technically still monday, since i haven't been to bed yet. anyways. he worked a double today and now he has to work another one tomorrow, on his birthday!!!!! i feel bad for him. he got to bed today after 5 this afternoon and then i had to get him up at 10. i mean i rarely get more than 5 hours of sleep, but i don't have to leave the house and then go to do work for 16 hours! especially on my birthday!

hopefully while clay is napping tomorrow, maybe i can come up with something cute for his birthday. i can't do much since he will have to come home and go straight to bed, but maybe i'll make him some cute cards and such for him. i got him THIS for his present. well i can't link it so i will just have to add the picture of it. he already lost his wedding ring. it has been gone for quite some time now, which i knew it would be, so we just got him something cheap. i hated spending the money on this one, but i had a big discussion with him about "how the ring is a symbol of our marriage and our love and the way he takes care of it symbolizes his feelings for me and our marriage, blah, blah, blah........" so hopefully that will work and he will actually take care of this one. i will be highly pissed if he loses it!

my new shows have started already! woo-hoo! except tomorrow i have 3 things to tape at the same time and i don't know how i am oing to do it.

fear factor was pretty cool. i'm just glad those asshole people lost early on, i hated them when they were originally on. last comic standing was ok. i don't like how 1 person from each team is going to be eliminated each week though. i loved almost everyone from the 1st season, and of course all of them were up tonight, which means one of them are going home tomorrow. i didn't know what was up with ralphie. i thought it was going to be a joke, not that his father dying would be funny, but that was sad watching him do that set for his father. he is one of my favorites, he should have won the show he was on 1st season!!!! as for season 2 people, the only ones i like are that italian girl, alfonzo, and john heffron. i cannot, CANNOT stand that todd glass guy!!! who in the hell thinks he is funny?! i guess the same people that though dat was funny!

i'm really pissed off at nbc, i went to vote and the online voting is all screwed up. which i don't think is very fair! so i didn't get to vote!!

dr phil's new season started today and i didn't know it til after it was over, damn it!!!! i need some new programming on during the day i am getting sick of watching the same freaking cartoon's over and over.......which brings me to my rant on these kid's programs.

really i don't know why i watch this stuff. clay barely glances at the damn thing, so I am the only one sitting there watching this crap! and they are all starting to be repeats!!!!

my biggest peeve is maisy. now this isn't going to be politically correct here, but this is my blog, so i can say what i want.

i think maisy and all of her friends are a bunch of retards living in some half-way house-ish community! i cannot, CANNOT stand their "voices" or should i say the noises that they make. they litterally freak my shit out! it gives me chills and i cringe. so why do i watch, cause sometimes clay actually watches it for a few minutes at a time, plus i hate it less than everything else on at that time. anyways, for those of you who watch maisy. are they animals, children or adults?!?! i know, i already answered that they are mentally challanged animals. that is the only explination i can come up with. i mean they could be kids, they do dumb shit like, going out and playing in the rain and mud, not that that is dumb, but adults don't do that. they play hide and seek, maisy has to sleep with her panda, and the other day they were running around the house with the lights out playing with a flashlight! what the fuck?! kids right?! well i don't know cause if they are kids, where are their parents? why was masy cooking by herself the other day. then she was recently working in a barn, and on a tractor by her self plowing a field. then her and charlie were out on a boat the other day by themselves. so adults?!?! well now, it was charlie's birthday and know what he got? from cyril a flashlight (wtf?!) from that god awful chicken, a sweater, from eddie a sailboat, and from maisy an umbrella (wtff!!). and he was all like "UHH UHH UHH" about everything, so then they had to go outside and play with the umbrella like it was the greatest thing in the world, so then he was chasing clouds, standing under them waiting for rain.......good god!!!!!

but what gets me the most is i hate, and it really disturbs me, to see maisy naked!! granted she is a mouse and all, but i do not want to see this mouse take off her clothes, then see here in her undershirt and panties, then take those off and be completely naked!!! am i wrong here?! i think it is kind of fucked up for kids to see that as well. then the other day the damn chicken came over and took her clothes off and jumped in the tub with masy!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell is that all about?!?!?!?! then they all got naked in front of each other changing into swim suits! like most tv shows, we didn't see charlie's package (he's a guy), but he was right there in the room with them when they all changed!! once again, that isn't adult behavior! and why did maisy have to keep getting out of the tub naked to answer the door, if she was a child, where is the parents?!?! i keep hoping that someday chrlie's crockidile instinct is going to kick in and he is oing to go crazy and eat maisy and the chicken, and the squirrel....then ihope eddie the elephant steps on charlie!! how great would that be?! you can check them out HERE to see what i am talking about.

ok,ok........i know it is a cartoon!!!!!! i am probably making too much out of it, but i have seen maisy (and friends) naked one too many times!! i wish i could find some sounds bites for you all or some pics, so you all know what i am talking about. but i watch it every day!!

i hated oobie at first, but he grew on me. so did the tweenies, then they switched them to like 6am, so needless to say we don't watch them anymore!! we also like franklin and dora.

on to others i hate. i tried to watch the teletubbies once, didn't even get all the way through it. what the fuck is that all about?! i didn't even give clay a chance to like that, cause we sure weren't watching that messed up shit!!

same with that new boobah whacked shit. this is WORSE than the teletubbies! who let's there kids watch this stuff?!?! i know, you do molly!

barney actually isn't that bad. the kids that can't act on the show bother me more than barney does. i just don't watch, cause something else i like better is on at that time.

i just love, love, love blue's clues! i like joe better than steve, but any will do, as long as i haven't seen them like 100 times already!!!!!! which i think i have seen them all even though i have only been watching for 2 years!

noggin is getting really bad about showing the same ones all the time, and saturday and sunday, they just replay what was shown like friday!!!!! now i know kids don't know the difference, but they should know that parents are probably watching too, i can't stand that shit. and weekends are really the suck! all the other kiddie channels have older kid cartoons on since the kids aren't in school, and pbs, doesn't have kids stuff on at all. so i am stuck with noggin and the same stuff i already seen a few days prior!

i tried watching that new show on nickelodian, lazytown. oh hell no. i can't get into that. those freaky looking puppet things give me the creeps! that gymnist dude is annoying, even though i think he may be hot without that damn stupid mustache, but he jumps around too much for me. the little girl with the pink hair is cute, but the show just bothers me, so i can't watch. thank goodness clay didn't even glance at the tv when it was on.

he does love sesame street, which is great, cause i love it as well, except for the same bitch as the others......REPEATS!!!!!!!!! come on people! you have got to make enough money off sales of the damn merchandise to make some new frickin episodes!!!!! i beg you!!!!!!!!!!!

hhmmm, what else do i hate.......i hate bob the builder, he is too freaking cheery, and i want to draw and quarter that fuckin spud. he is an asshole and i can't believe noone kicks the shit out of him. i hate watching the show cause i always know he is going to come along and fuck something up. its like some brat kid, who's parent never punishes them for doing wrong!

i also hate oswald. granted i never watched that much but that stupid ass flower reminds me of that spud from bob, and oswald bothers me in general...and sqiggy voicing that one thing.....i just don't like it.

we used to watch a bunch of different stuff, but i got lazy switching stations all the time, so now it is usually on noggin all day. we used to watch rollie pollie ollie on disney, i liked that. also i love dexter's lab, ed, edd and eddie, stanley, dragon tales, between the lions, reading rainbow, and recess. those are all on later in the day/night though, and after clay's nap, it is time for "my" tv shows, so we haven't watched those much lately. i also hate disney channel and nick. cause of all the damn commercials. just give me nogging with no commercials.....at least nick jr got rid of that damn zach and what's her name. at least i think they did. i haven't watched it lately, but last time we did, i didn't see them, thank goodness! they drove me insane!

can you tell i watch too much children's programming?! i guess tv in general, but oh well.

there you have it, a condensed (yes, it is condensed!!) rant about MY kiddie tv viewing. i'm so pathetic. and just think bob gets to hear about this all the time. lucky you only get to read it once (maybe)!!! haha!!!

it's late (i started this at 12:57, it is 2:23 now!!)......i'm outta here!

~8-30-04~What a weekend!!

well, i didn't get to post on friday cause among doing last minute stuff for clay's party saturday, our cable went out which meant no internet!!!! which not only sucked cause i had no background noise going on, but one of the recipes that i wanted to make that night, so i didn't have yet another thing to do saturday morning, was online!!!! and i could not get it!!!! i was pissed!!!! just to add to the already angry jennifer!!

bob went to get food after i put clay to sleep. we were going to bust butt and do all the cleaning and stuff so we didn't have to rush around saturday and do it. so we were watching the olympics eating, and i look over, and he is in the process of putting food in his mouth, while his eyes are rolling back in his head and closing. i'm like, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!" his eyes snapped open. "i'm falling asleep".

so i am freaked cause i think he is about to have a seizure. yes, he has the epilepsy, and NO he doesn't take his medicine. WHY?!?! i have no fucking clue. ask him, that is one of our major fights. so i'm all stressed about that. having witnessed one, and been with him through 2, i did not want to spend all freaking night in the hospital again!! plus clay's party was saturday and i had a ton of shit to do. to his defense, he did work a double to day before, so he was tired. but still damn it. we should have done shit earlier in the week. he didn't have time to go fishing all damn day/night on wednesday!! so i told him to take his damn medicine and go to bed.

so he went. so since i couldn't get the recipes i needed, i attempted to put on those slip covers i showed you all that i won on ebay. talk about a pain in my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i semi measured like i was supposed to, to make sure they fit, but i could hardly get the bastards to fit! and then getting them all tucked in was a mother fucker!!!!!! my wrists were killing me, not to mention that my cat was in heaven thinking i was playing with him, so he is all attacking my hands/arms the whole time i am trying to acomplish the whole tuck, tuck, tuck thing! AGH!!!!

i waited til about 3, and the cable never came back, so i just went to bed.

clay was up bright and early. i kept hitting bob telling him to get up and get clay his breakfast, so i could sleep for another hour. of course he piddle pissed around before finally getting up, so by that point, i was UP, so i might as well actually start getting shit done. especially since we had a lot to do before clay's nap at 1. we actually got pretty much done. and all looked good. it is just the last minute rushing around that drives my nuts!! i didn't even get in the shower til a quarter til 5 and the party started at 5!! i did awesome though. i was showered, dressed, and even put makeup on by 5:08!! don't ask how, i am not sure, and am sure it will never happen again.......at least until next year for clay's 3rd birthday party. i vow that one year i will actually NOT be in the shower when my guests arrive!

oh well, the party went great! clay was great! he got a lot of great stuff! it was a good day. and my mom being who she is, had everything cleaned up and put away before she left. even though it rained early in the day, it cleared up for the party. i don't know why anyone was outside though it was so frickin hot and humid! right before we did the cake (outside) it started to thunder, and we got finished right in time to get everything and everyone inside before it stormed again. i, of course, will have some pictures up soon.

this birthday was much more enjoyable than last year. he actually kind of knows what is going on and enjoys it. he made such cute noises when he seen his gifts. he was all "OOOOHHHH" it was so darn cute!! then of course he didn't know which ones to play with first, so we had them all opened up and he went from gift to gift, playing with each of them for a bit. too cute! i can't wait for christmas! well, actually i can, cause we have no more room for junk! but i just can't wait to see his reaction to everything.

that is one of the best things about motherhood. to see the expressions on your kids faces. to see them learning new things, and experiencing things. it touches your heart so deeply! it is great! i know i said it before, but i can't even imagine my life without him in it! i also don't see how i was so "complete and happy" without him!

today actually went pretty fast. i think it is cause he had so many new things to play with he wasn't all over me. we had a pretty great weekend here. i hope you all did as well!

~8-27-04~ What a glorious day!!!!

2 years ago today, the greatest gift was brought into my life. CLAY!!

he is 2!! how in the world did that happen?! sometimes time just seems to zip right by.

so today has been filled with many memories so far. my labor started a few minutes from now. you can read my birth story here. even though i was there, when i read it, i still get all excited for me! haha!!

it was just a truly wonderful day! HERE are his BIRTH day pictures. even though some times may be rough, every day since that has been a blessing. i truly CANNOT even picture my life without him in it!!!!

so i am off now, to smother my baby, (yes, he is still a baby to me!!!!) with bunches of hugs and kisses, which he get every day anyways. today will be extra special though, and i will again, be thanking god with each one of them, thankful for the little angel that he has brought into my life!

~8-26-04~ Actual letter

here is the actual letter i sent to the insurance people.

it really did sound better in my head, but then again i was laying in bed from about 2-4am, writing it, so when i finally wrote it the following day, it all didn't come out quite as eloquent and well written.....oh well, i'm sure they are going to deny me anyways!!

To Whom It May Concern: 8-25-04

I am very disappointed in the way that our claim(xxxxx) is being handled.

We have received numerous estimates from various contactors. All of them have stated that to repair/replace the damage to the aluminum siding stated in our damage report would be more costly than to just replace the whole house in vinyl siding.

I recently sent the lowest estimate that we received for all the work to be completed. The only overage was $900. We spoke with a representative who said that they would not cover the house to be done in vinyl. It was also told to the representative that to just replace the 2 sides of aluminum siding would cost more than the adjuster’s estimated cost for the repair. In the adjuster’s quote, he stated that aluminum siding cost $84 a square. We cannot find anywhere/anyone, who only charges $84 a square, even at the 2 company’s you said carry our aluminum siding. Everyone we spoke with said that aluminum costs well over $100 a square (as to vinyl around $50 a square). In explaining this to the representative that we spoke with, his reply was, “That is all they were going to cover,” and that is that. I invite you to call the contractor whose estimate we sent you to confirm the incorrect pricing in this matter; his number is (330) xxxxxx.

My question is that if it clearly states in my homeowner’s policy that “you” will pay the cost to repair or replace with similar construction and for the same use on the premises…. Since it clearly states that “you” will pay this cost, then how can you turn around and tell me “you” are only going to pay “so much” even if we CANNOT find the product for that price? It does not state that “you” will pay the cost to repair or replace, but only so much, and what we want to give you.

Like I recently stated, we were told by EVERY contractor that we called out, that it would be MORE costly to do the 2 sides in aluminum. That is why we turned in the cheapest estimate we had to do the whole house in vinyl.

I would be happy if we could reach some sort of compromise. We are only asking for $900 more. Not the GREATER amount we would need if choosing 2 sides of aluminum.

We would be happy to accept anything else you could offer us to help offset this additional cost. Anything to show us that you are willing to work with us on this matter would greatly be appreciated. We have been a loyal customer to you for many years, with both auto policies and our homeowner’s insurance with you. We chose YOU as our insurance company because you came with high regard and seemed to truly care about your clients. We put our faith and trust in you as an insurance company to “protect” us when needed and help us when troubles should arise. After all, that is what an insurance company is for, and that is why we pay you what we do every month/year.

We would really appreciate your attention to this matter and hope that we can come up with some sort of agreement to satisfy us both.

Thank you for your time,

~8-26-04~ Insurance companies suck!!!!

well so far our insurace company is denying us the additional $900 we are asking for to do our house. and it isn't even the fact that they are denying it, i almost expected it. but the guy was being a total asshole, so now that just makes me want to fight with them more!

so it was probably a big waste of time, but i wrote them a letter today. i stated that i was very disappointed in the treatment our claim was getting. i also stated that every contractor we talked to said it would be cheaper to do our whole house in vinyl, instead of the 2 sides they wanted done in aluminum. also a factor was that on the adjuster's quote he stated that the aluminum siding cost like $58 a square (?), but my cousin who does this stuff, said there is no way that you can get aluminum siding for less than $100. so when we told the insurance guy this on the phone he was like, oh well, that is all we are giving you. that is it.

so i quoted from an insert that they put in every mailing we got from them, which states that they will pay the cost to replace or repair any damage, blah, blah. NO WHERE does it say that they will only pay what they want, or what they say it costs. so i highlighted all that in the letter. i went on and on of course. told them how i have been a loyal customer to them for my home and auto for years, and so has my family.......how we chose them as insurance company for their reputation for caring and protecting their clients needs, blah, blah......i even ended it stating that i would be happy with any help they could give us to offset the $900 difference, just something to show that they are on our side, and that they are trying to work with us, especially after all the money we give them every month and year for chosing their company for our insurance needs.

it probably won't make a difference, but at least i got to say my peace. i wanted to leave all that on a voicemail, but noone at the damn place has a voicemail!!!! i don't do well speaking with real live people. i do better in the letter department. so if they call in regards to the letter, i'll let bob talk to them. i'll post the whole letter later. you can see all my bad grammar, and run on sentences in all their glory! haha! i'm usually proud of my letters, but i had to do this during my cigarette breaks today, so i really had no time. plus i was trying to get it done before the mailman came....didn't make it.

so it is thursday and i have not one thing done yet for clay's party saturday! yes we wait til the last minute to do everything! it just wouldn't be me to do other wise!

i planned on going on a rant about children's television and how some shows just piss my shit off, but it is after 1, and so far this week i have been doing good by being in bed by 1. not that i am any less tired in the morning, but at least i can say, i wasn't up all night!!!!! so i'll save my kids tv bashing until tomorrow night!

~8-24-04~ Weird

this site is a bit odd, but also sort of cool.

sorry i don't remember where i got it from to give credit! i hate that, i'm sorry, if it is you, let me know so i can link ya here.

~8-23-04~Slacking off

sorry i've been slacking off, and not posting for a few days. that is not like me. i'm just being extra lazy i guess.

nothing real exciting or new going on here. went to the butt doctor, oh the fun that was!!!! NOT!!!!! why did i think the guy was just going to LOOK with his eyes to see the problem?! oh no, there was more involved and it was not fun at all!!!!

so he gave me a few options. but i am a baby, so i don't know if i am going to go through with it or not. now when hemorrohoids aren't a problem, i can say, "oh well, i'll just deal with them." but the next time they come back, i know i will be crying wishing i had done something about them.

i have 2 options. one is this staple something. i'm not quite sure, they go up there and staple something that i guess cuts off the blood flow to them or, i don't know! i haven't given the options too much thought yet. what i do know about this option is that it is the least painful, that is a BIG plus. on the down side, you have to be put to sleep, which i don't care for, and you also have to do a whole cleansing thing down there, which i don't know if i really want to do.

the other option is to have them cut out all together. this is supposedly the easiest, but it is PAINFUL! he usually recomends 2 weeks off work, i don't work, so that isn't a problem, but if someone has to take off 2 weeks cause of the pain, that is a lot of damn pain! the plus to that, is they only use a local to numb ya, and you only have to do an enema, not that that is a good thing, but i can only imagine the whole cleansing procedure for the other is much worse!

so i don't know what to do. and what makes it even more confusing for some reason these people can't tell me how much these will cost. they looked at me all dumb founded when i asked the question. they said my insurance will cover it. well ok, but if my insurance only covers 80%, i'd like to know the total, so i know what i am going to be paying for my 20%. but they don't know. what the hell is up with that?!?!?!?! what if i didn't have insurance?

so now that i'm sure i have you all grossed out by that whole mess (try living it, it's worse than reading about it) let's move on to a more desirable topic.

hhhmmmmmmmmm. i don't know. my tooth is still hurting me. which i assume means that i am just going to have to have the fucker ripped out, which i really was hoping to avoid. why do i have all these problems?!

i got an estimate for my house work, had to send it to the insurance company. hopefully they will agree to it and give me the extra $900 to get everything done. i sooooooo want to start this process now! i'm excited for my house to be all pretty! heck i may even decorate for christmas since it will look nice!

clay went to his first birthday party saturday. well he was at her party last year too, but he was pretty oblivious to it. he somewhat played with the other kids. more than i actually thought he would. like usual he was off by himself, doing his own thing. i think he had a good time though. and also like usual, he of course, found the things to get into trouble. he knows how to open the latches on fences. so of course he almost made an escape a few times. thank goodness others were watching him as well as me!! then there were the neighbors dogs. they were at the fence barking most of the party. all the kids knew to stay away, except for my child that is. he was the one always running over to the fence to harrass the dogs! i don't think they would have hurt him, but who knows about animals! it was a good time though.

next week, well this saturday, is his party. it won't be near as big as that party though. i'm excited. i like having people over, and i love having my family together. it's nice not to wait for holidays. they all get a kick out of clay, and i am sure he does of them as well. hopefully there will be a few kids there for him to ignore! haha! now i just have to get my butt moving on cleaning my house. or should i say, throwing everything into my spare room! the only major ordeal we are tackling is scrubbing the carpets. if we get one of clay's presents on time, we will set IT up. which would entail rearranging a whole room, and doing god knows what with the stuff in it. so, i don't know if i actually want to get it before the party or not. i'd like to have it for the kids in case it happens to rain. so we will see!

last night (saturday) i don't know what was up with my child! he was up crying at 5AM!!!!! i woke bob up and was all like "what should i do?!" i've never had to deal with this since he was an infant, and then it was just give him a bottle and he was back to sleep. so i was in total not knowing what to do mode. i went and got him and brought him back in our bed. i was hoping he would just lay down and go back to sleep. yeah right! we so bad want that! i know you parents that can't get your kid/s out of your bed think i am crazy, but i would love to be able to sleep with him for once. bob too. i would love to be able to lay there and look at his precious sleeping face, just having him close. i miss that the most from my breast feeding days. that is about the only thing i miss about that whole thing!

anyways. that did not work. he kept wanting to stand up and piss around with everything on the side tables. so after about a half hour, i put him back in his crib. he cried for about 2-3 minutes off and on, but was finally back to sleep around 6. whew!!!!

then at 6:30 bob's fucking alarm started going off. what the hell is that all about?! he said he wanted to get up and go do the windows that he had to do. i huffed, and he was like "what?!" me, "well i just got back to sleep like a half hour ago!!!!" he had the nerve to go. "me too!" yeah right! you were snoring about 2 seconds after i brought clay in our room!! so i get back to sleep to then be awakened by scraping and pounding!!! our neighbor is getting his house re-sided as well. they started it saturday morning, and sure enough at 8am, the were finishing the damn job!!!!! i don't know when i finally fell back to sleep, and i don't know when bob finally got up and left, i just know that clay was up at his normal time between 8:30-9:00. and me being the good mother that i am, fell asleep and didn't wake up til the phone rang at almost 10. my mom said she would come over and play with him. so i got up and got his breakfast ready. i tried to go back to sleep, but what is the point, i am already up!!!!!!!

so we did our normal routine. then i laid him down for his nap around 1:45. and i went directly to bed my own self! that little shit was NOT going to sleep!!!!!! i don't know what time he finally fell asleep, but once again my good mommy self, was in bed, and was not getting up and then fell asleep. it had to be after 3 when he finally fell asleep. bob woke me up around 5, and i had to go "wake" clay up. i hate waking him. so i opened his door, and kept trying to make subtle noises. finally i just went in his room and rocked on his rocking chair for a bit. i saw his eyes flickering so i knew he was getting up.

then tonight, it took his little butt forever to finally fall asleep. i put him in bed at almost 10, and i know he didn't quit farting around in bed til about 11. sigh!!!! hopefully we will not have a repeat tonight! i am taking my butt to bed here shortly. don't laugh, i am!!!!!! bob is on days this week, so i am not laying in bed with the laptop all comfy, so i definitely won't be on here long. plus when he is on days, i will be awakened at 6:30 with that god awful alarm....and then probably snooze every freaking 7 minutes til 7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god i hate days!!!!! so then when clay gets up i will be in a fog, since i won't get back to sleep til after 7 and he will be up 8:30-9 (hopefully....he seems to get up earlier when bob is on day--which is just lovely!!!!) if i get less than 2 hours of sleep in a stretch, either i won't get up at all, or will and fall back to sleep oblivious to everything. if i absolutely have to get up with less than 2 at a time, like if he is crying (i will get up then people! i'm not that bad of a mommy!!!!) then i will just be super tired all day.

i cannot even imagine what it will be like with more than one child!!!! that is half the reason i don't even want to. especially the baby part. that was the hardest part! i dread that! they are cute and precious and all. but my internal clock is just not set for early morning and less than 12 hours of sleep. i am already lagging with one interrupting my clock, it will totally be thrown out with another one!!

enough of my whinning! that was all the latest exciting stuff going on here in the ewell house hold!!! i'd tell you about all the money we spent at walmart tonight, but trish would just get mad, and i wouldn't want to bore the rest of you to tears, so i will just end it here. we are damn exciting people aren't we!! hehe!!

~8-18-04~ Well now

i posted so much yesterday, i don't have anything to talk about today!

i missed amish in the city tonight. we had some storms, and the cable decided to go out for over an hour! UGH! talk about an awful hour! my child was already being a butt for some reason, then no tv on top of that! like i always say, he is lucky he is so damn cute!!

the other day i taught him.....i'll ask him if he loves mommy and he goes "AHS" (that is how he says yes) and nods his head yes. then i ask him if he loves daddy, he goes "AHS", then i ask him if he loves grandma, once again "AHS" it is so freaking cute!!! i just love him so much!

i made a pretty good supper tonight. i was stuck on what to make so i did one of my famous concoction sessions. i had potatoes, fresh green and wax beans, and hamurger. so i sliced up the potatoes and put them at the bottom a casserole dish. then i layered some beans. i fried the hamburger and added some frozen onions and green peppers (i cut them up and freeze them til i need them). so then i mixed together some cream of celery soup and cream of mushroom soup. poured that over the top. i then went on to add way too much milk. i baked it all for about an hour. it was a bit runny due to all the milk, but it tasted great. the beans were still a little tough, so i put it back in the oven for another half hour. i didn't try it again yet. i was pretty proud. tasted damn good! :)

well, that's about it for me, i rambled on enough to you all last night! see ya tomorrow!

~8-18-04~ Now what blogger, expanded.

yes, i'm still up.

the damn messed up top to my blog bothered me so i was goofing around with it. i noticed the new little bar they put at the top, what is that?!

well i then, checked my site meter and holy hell, i had 18 hits today. yes, that is quite a few for little ole me. so i followed back where they came from. so, i was totally confused as to how these people were directed to me from these sites.

~lightbulb~ then it clicked. while checking out the new banner on top of blogger pages now, there is that "next blog" button. i am assuming if you click it it will take you to a random blog. so that is why all of the hits?!

why am i always the last to know about this stuff?! maybe it is brand spanking new, cause yesterday i had like maybe 4 page views. i thought i was suddenly interesting, or popular or something! HA! wrong! innocent people directed my boring way! haha!!

after re-reading a few of my posts, these new people are probably disgusted with my spelling. so i ask, if blogger has time to get to making all this neat, nifty new banner stuff, why can they not get around to fixing my danm spell checker?!?!?!?! my posts are awful!

just so you know, it is not cause i am that awful of a speller. i'm on this laptop, and for some reason it doesn't agree with my fingers or something, cause it sure doesn't type what i spell!

oh well. sorry guys, i posted like 5 posts today, and like me, they aren't all very short. sorry if i take up too much of your work day!

peace out dog! haha!!

~8-18-04~ Now WHAT, blogger?!

so why is the top of my blog all f'd up???? i sure didn't change anything with my template!!!

so i spent well over a half hour, uploading those damn pictures of the pens to show all 7 of you who read my blog!!!

i couldn't resist though they are too freakin' cute! i almost didn't even get them. mom, clay and i went to eat at the chinese buffet, yes i went out to eat again, and i wonder why i am over weight?! anyways, so i had to stop at deals, aka, dollar store. i saw the pens and knew clay would be entertained with them while i shopped, but "i wasn't getting them, they aren't worth no damn dollar a piece!" those were my exact words. half the shit they have in those stores aren't worth a dollar, maybe 10 cents! that is how they continue to make money and are able to sell stuff that is actually worth $1.10, for only a $1. anyways, i broke down on several item, because my child is spoiled and i knew he would just "love" all i got for him. now that i think about it, i got a damn dust pan, that is all for me, and not that i needed one, so why did i go there and spend $20?! they should rename the store, "where clay's spoiled butt gets a bunch of over-priced stuff that he doesn't need cause his mom is a freak", store. but anyways, i LOVE these pens!!!!! i picked them up off the floor after my cat was attempting to lick the hell out of them. he got the blue one, and his poor feather hair was one long strip of wetness. luckily i dried it out and fluffed it back out a bit. then i had to write some stuff down and they were the only writing impliments around, so.......then the fucker lit up when i wrote! i damn near had an orgasam. not really, but i sure got excited! just ask my cousin, i was talking to her at the time. i am a sucker for this stuff. i know, i am not 12 anymore, but you should see the pack of like 100 gel pens, in all different colors (pastel, metallic, neon, etc) that they have at BJ's!!! yes, i sure enough bought them. and the black and dark paper to go with. who in the world am i going to write cute little "notes" to in colored gel pens and colored paper?!?!?!?! i know i am queer, but like i said i am a sucker for stuff like that, and office supplies in general. we went school shopping for bob's neice's and nephew last year, and i sure got myself about 10 notebooks, markers, pens and crayons. i really wanted to cool folders and the highlighters, but i knew i REALLY never would use those. and don't even get me started on all the cool back packs and lunchboxes they have now days!

speaking of which. i miss school. this time of year, i always get a little sad. i really liked school. well, except for all the classes, homework, teachers, cafeteria food, and the whole early in the morning thing. so i guess i basically just miss my youth, and all the friends, "innocence", no worries, parties and such. i just had a great "childhood"/"teenhood". it really saddens me when i hear of folks who hated their youth! it is so sad, that they didn't get to enjoy that time in their lives! we never get it back and take a lot of it for granted! ho-hum, better quit now, before i get all weepy.

my baby is going to be 2 in 9 days!!!!! how can it have been 2 years already?! time sure does fly. sometimes it feels as if it has only been months and sometimes it feels as if 10 years has went by already. now i just have to get my butt in gear and clean up this house for the festivities. it isn't going to be a real big shin-dig. he is still too little. just mostly family and a few friends. i'm sure he will have fun though. i wish i had more family, especially some with kids his age. the only kids to be had, my friend molly's daughter (2 also), trish's 2 boys (3 and 5), hopefully my cousin dawana's son (3), my cousins kids (1, 4?, 6?). that's it! and that is if everyone who is invited comes!! i feel bad that he doesn't have other kids to socialize with. but honestly i don't think he is too interested right now. when molly comes and visits, he somewhat acknowledges her daughter, and at holidays, he could care less about the other kids there. even at the park, he seems oblivious to all the other kids running around playing. i know he is still young. there are actually times i think of putting him in daycare a few days a week, just so he has that interaction, but right now i couldn't even imagine leaving my child somewhere where i am not! i would say i would look into maybe getting a part time job or something at a day care, but i would go nuts all day dealing with other peoples kids! :) something to think about i guess. i guess i could always put the wonderful task of potty training on someone else a few hours a day a few days a week! haha!!

well bob is off fishing. he went after work tonight, so who knows what time he will get home. i should probably take my butt to bed, since he will probably be in no shape to get up with clay in the am, like he did today. it is so nice to get to sleep all day!! who needs expensive bracelets? just let me sleep in and you get up with the child in the morning! that will win out everytime with me!!! hell that is what i ask for as birthday gifts and mother's day gifts!!!! well tomorrow is not my birthday, nor mother's day, so i am outta here! see ya!

they light up when you write with them people!!! 

i'm a sucker for stuff like this! 

~8-17-04~ Movies and such

i almost forgot about the movies we watched this weekend. it has been so long since we watched movies or played games, i'm starting to think our netflix and red octane memberships are a waste of money!!

anyways, we watched 13 going on 30. of course it was cute! i just love jennifer garner. i think she is too cute!!! i actually won't mind if she is dating ben affleck. i used to hate the guy, but i think it was the whole he and jennifer lopez thing. i can't stand her! and they just did not seem right together. but he and jennifer #2, i think would make a darling couple!! getting back to the movie. i really liked it and all the references to the 80's. funny, funny, funny!! and the whole thriller dance! too freaking funny!!! why did i think i was the only nerd that had the dance memorized?!?! hahahahahaha!!!!! i'll give it a 8 out of 10.

oh my heavens!!!!! i am hating these asses on amazing race. i am so pissed right now! i cannot, and i mean CANNOT stand that colin and his bitch girlfriend. i already bitched about them in a previous post. my favorites are the cousins, mirna and charla (the ones with the midget) i just love them!! anyways, asshole colin thought he was slick and he got all the other teams, except the moms, to join together to hopefully knock out the cousins. thank god the cousins and the moms outsmarted them at the airport and got an earlier flight, and i pray that they won't let the rest of them on the flight!!!! for those of you who don't watch, i know you have no clue what i am talking about...sorry! bob isn't here and i have no one to bitch to, so that leaves all of you! fuck they all got on the flight! damn it!!!!!

back to the movies........the second was the butterfly effect.

i was highly pissed off with the ending, cause i was loving the movie. in the dvd extras, they had 2 alternate endings that i liked MUCH better than what the had in the movie. well i was bitching about it to my friend, who also seen the movie. here the ending on the VHS of the movie, was a different ending than the dvd**!!!!! i don't even know which ending was in the actual theater movie. but i liked the ending on the VHS much better. so if i rate it by that i would give it an 9 out of 10 stars. if it would have had the ending in the extras that i liked, i would have giving it a 10!

**we got the director's cut, instead of the theatrical release.

shit damn fuck hell god damn christ!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, like i stated earlier, no teams i ever want to win these damn shows wins!!!!!!!!! mirna and charla just got eliminated! AGHHHHHHHHH!!!! i'm so pissed! i just don't get why good people never win these shows!!!!!! so now, i don't care who wins this show either!!!! god i hate tv!!

remember i have no life people, at least after clay goes to bed!!! tv is it! haha!!! as my title states! so quit laughing at how upset i get over these damn shows!

~8-17-04~ Big Brother

once again this show is starting to get on my nerves.

as much as i didn't like marvin in the beginning and the comment he made about "no women winning the game" i think he is my favorite person in the house!!!!! i don't want him to go this week!

i am really starting to hate the twins. i hate them!!!!! i don't have anything against will, but i really like marvin. the stuff that comes out of his mouth is hillarious!!!! i'm just glad that jase, scott, and holly are gone. now i really don't care. i don't really have a person that i want to win, but am leaning towards marvin and i am afraid that he is going this week. sucks!!!!

oh well! no one that i want ever wins these things! except last comic standing 2. finally someone bob and i wanted to win actually won! woo-hoo! and thank goodness the last survivor thing they did the audience thing where we picked who won the million, so rupert won! other than that, i think idiots always win! but i am still watching, so what does that say about me?

For Tricia. 

~8-17-04~ Funny

I found this picture on THIS blog i read. i thought of Trish at first, but thought the rest of you may enjoy it as well.

talk to ya later!

~8-16-04~ Not much

not much to report from this weekend. and i have a tummy ache right now, so this will probably be short.

saturday bob and i had a "night out". well actually a few hours. we just went to eat. tell me how 2 people eting can come to almost $100?!?! i guess when the 2 people eating are big fat pigs, who order everything on the damn menu!!

it was good and all, but $100? we went to our favorite, longhorn. we used to get the porterhouse. but this time we opte for the filet's. bob got a side of ribs and i got a side of shrimp. as if that wasn't going to be enough, we ordered their tonion for an appetizer. i got the regular baked potato and bob got the sweet tater. being the salad hater that i am, i opted for the beer cheese soup, bob followed suit. we ate about a quarter of the tonion. and bob took half of his supper home. i finished mine, tee-hee. in my defense, i only ate about 2 of my shrimp though. but of course that was not all! we ordered 2 of this stampede thing's for dessert....to go. 1 for us, and 1 for mom. there ya go, about $70, plus $20 tip! it sure doesn't take much!!

we had fun though. we had to be home before the brown's game started though, so we were home by 8pm. did i tell you all how much i love football season?! so i'm sure you all will be hearing me bitch about that for the next few tretcherous months!!!!! god i hate sports!!!!

then sunday bob went to his usual softball, eyes rolling, so mom, clay and i went to ci ci's pizza for dinner. i think i figured out that ci ci's is italian for satan! that place is really evil. i'm not much on watching what you eat. but mr. atkins would have a heart attack just walking by the place! well if he was still with us that is. carb city!!! in case you don't know, it is a pizza buffet. the pizza isn't too bad, and i am VERY picky about pizza. but the have the most incredible, wonderful, delicious, mouth watering, EVIL cinnamon rolls! they are about the best thing i have ever put in my mouth. they are so great! but of course i left there feeling like i was going to puke i was so freakin stuffed!!!!!

i had to have gained 10 pounds this weekend!!!!

well my belly hurts, so i am going to lay down til bob gets home! see ya'll later!

PS.......i just noticed yesterday that clay has got one of his 2nd year molars! i didn't even know he was teething. i mean i thought he was teething for a while now, but this time no fevers, no rashes, no whinning. i'm sure the others are on their way! my little baby is growing up!! UGH!!!!!

~8-14-04~ Now WTF???

ok, i keep getting these damn pop ups! and all i am visiting is the blogs that i always go to!

i have run adaware about 5 times, deleted a bunch of programs i don't use, i don't know what else to do! it is driving me nuts!

for those of you who are new "readers", i again apologize for any misspellings. bloggers spell checker is not working for me for some reason. the grammer, capitalization, and such i don't apologize for, cause that is just me, so deal with it! hehe!!

so i watched the opening ceremonies for the olympics tonight. i didn't understand half of what was going on, thank goodness for those annoying "sportscasters". if it wasn't for them, i would have thought the greeks were really freaky and whoever came up with the "theme" this year was on some good drugs. but thanks to the script, it was mostly about the evolution of greece and i am assuming "creation" for that part, through future? (pregnant lady with a light up belly and the whole DNA strand thing i still thought was odd) i really liked how the peole on the "floats" looked like statues. that was very cool. and at the one part where they had the "fireworks" type things clay was going "boom" and then of course, started crying when they were all gone* hahahahahahaha!!!! ***see previous post on similar topic. i was watching on HDTV and aside from watching part of it that they already showed for a second time, and the same freaking commercial over and over and over and over and over and over, i just LOVED the different sites they showed throughout greece! how beautiful!!! some of the buildings look like the are the actual tops of mountains, it is incredible! i don't really have a desire to travel outside of the US, but one place i would like to see is greece!!

well channel 3 is now showing the damn thing all over again! sorry, once was enough to me! must mean it is time for bed!! night!

i really don't like the olympics. i just don't get into them. about all i watch is the gymnastics and diving, and the winter ones, not a thing. i just don't get the big hoo-haa about it all. but alas, i watched all 4 hours of it! and what do i do? i get all weepy while all the athletes are coming in! i am such a damn cry baby!! i just get all caught up in their excitement. hell i cried watching the world series (or some big baseball game) cause i was happy for those who won and also sad for those who didn't. i'm a mess i tell you. anyways, so i get all boo-hoo'y seeing how happy everyone is, and it is great that everyone from all these different countries and cultures can come together because of their love of what they do and the pride that they have representing their countries. its a bil ol' universal thing. which i guess is the point and why so many people go ape shit for the stuff! so hell, what else is there to do? it's not like there is going to be anything else on, well big brother for sure, so i may watch. i told bob we should start watching all of it. there are some events i never even knew of or even thought about. i mean i have heard of them, but never cared to watch to see what it is all about. like judo, or the tak kwan do, shooting, archery, water polo, equesterian things, and i am sure many more. so maybe i will become an olympic junkie, or just end up like before, who cares?!

i'll let ya know!

i LOVE it! ~sigh~ 

so pretty!! 

~8-14-04~ Ah, hell!!

know what sucks?! finding out you are wrong about something and having to apologize!

my whole fury yesterday, happened to be ill informed. it was actually over a fight we already had.

hubby was doing his stupid shit of taking money out of the account again and not telling me. so we had a big blow out yesterday. then he proceeds to present me with the most beautiful bracelett i've ever seen. he then tells me that he had it in layawy for a while and it was time to get out so he had to come up with the money so he wouldn't lose it. ok, now who feels like shit?!?!

"but why," i ask. his response, "cause i never gett o get you anything nice...i ws going to give it to you the morning of clay's birthday." now who even feels like more shit?!?!?!

so in my feeling like shit period i am still pissed off about them money and being overdrawn in our account!! so i give him a check to deposit and tell him to only get out $20 cause the rest has to cover the overdraft charges. so last night i check my account online and it shows a pending withdraw of $120. so i call him and flip out. well here, it was some previous transaction, which i don't know why it wasn't processed yet, cause what i just gave him earlier that day was already processed. so in fact everything was fine with the account.

so now here is another dilemma. although the bracelet is breath-takingly beautiful. i don't go anywhere to wear an expensive diamond tennis bracelet! i was already thinking of going back and putting a ring i like in layaway at walmart for christmas. and hell for the cost of that bracelet i could probably get at least 2 rings!!!!! HERE is my problem. i have this "problem" of always making him take back the gifts that he gets me. i mean they are great gifs, but usually at the time we need the money more, i just will not get the use out of it to justify spending the money. so i feel very awkward about telling him i'd like to take the bracelet back and maybe get a ring. what do you all think??? my friend said to just shut up and keep the bracelet, its the thought that counts. which i can see, but i will never wear it! maybe on a holiday, if i happen to dress for a black tie event!!!! i know we could start going to nice places, but hello!!! even if we do that i would only wear the thing a couple times a year! a ring i would wear everyday!!!!

i don't know! it is BEAUTIFUL!!!! i must have stared at it for a half hour last night. i'll go take a picture of it in a second for you all to see. it's so pretty!

i just don't want to hurt his feelings. most of the time he has such great intentions, and i feel as if i constantly ruin it with "reality" or "practicality". so guys, PLEASE, let me know what you all think. thanks!!

~8-13-04~ **smoke steaming from my ears**

sorry i can't write much tonight. i am so pissed off at my husband right now, i don't even know if i have ever been to this level of "piss-off-ed-ness"!!!!

so pissed in fact that i can't even write about it, so that should tell you something.

please pray for my sanity and for bob's life when he gets home in the AM.

This is the look i am going for with my house. granted i don't have that nice entry way, or that steep of a roof. basically i'm going for the typical colonial with the yellow siding, white trim with the black shutters and roof. i'm thinking of a red door though, something to make it a bit different. 

~8-12-04~ Oooo-Oooo

just thought it was funny that my entry from 8-5 was "woo-hoo", then on the 9th it was "boo-hoo" so tonight it is "ooo-ooo" i'm queer like that!

must be all the benadryl pumpng through my body.

not much exciting stuff to talk about. i've been a sleeping fool lately. as soon as clay goes down for his nap, i too am down for a nap. then he is usually up a good half hour before i drag my lazy ass out of bed. such a great mommy am i!! once again for the record, he isn't in there crying or anything, he is playing, and quite quietly i might add. i would definitely get up if he were crying or being loud. i really am a good mommy! :)

spook got a bath tonight and he wasn't too happy about it. i really wanted to put some new flea stuff on him afterwards, but he hates that just about as much, so i felt bad hitting him with both at the same time. i've seen a few fleas here and there. clay is no longer covered in bites. they are finally starting to fade away. so that is GREAT!!!!! thank goodness that horror is over with!

my cousin is supposed to come over tomorrow, so we can finally get working on that insurance shit. i am so excited to get it done and over with. my house is going to be soooooo pretty. i can't wait!! on the other hand i was thinking about just getting the roof done, new windows and just getting the house painted instead of new siding. that way we could just pocket the extra $$. but i don't know yet. there is so much stuff i want done. and the insurance company holds back $800 until they see that the work is done that is supposed to be done, so i don't know if i want to miss out on that money or not.

what i am looking at now is new siding, new windows, new roof, new front door, possibly new garage door, and possibly glass block windows for the basement. we already got a new furnace and a/c this summer, so basically by the end of the year everything in this house will be new, so when we sell, hopefully next year, we better get what we want out of it, if not more!

anyways, hopefully we will know tomorrow what all we can get, and hopefully the insurance company will fork over the rest that we need to cover it all.

brittnay murphy is on some show now. sometimes i think the girl is cute, and sometimes i think she looks sickly and weird! what is up with that?!

well i should get off here and get to sleep, i'm getting hungry! and am i stupid that i am contemplating buyng miridian online for like $300?!?! is that illegal or not?!?!? there are a trillion sites out there. most of them you consult with a "doctor"? online and then they take your medical history, blah, blah, blah and then give you the perscription. so i'm thinking about it. i just don't know if it is what i need. some other pill i found sounds better. it supposedly makes it so your body doesn't absorb all of the fat in the food you eat? i don't have a problem with hunger. i don't need a pill that curbs my appitite. i need something to raise my metabolism. since i sit on my ass all day, i need something to get my inner workings moving. yes there is always diet and exercise, but i am realistic, and i know that ain't gonna happen, so i am opting for the "quick fix" and hope that it works. now it is all up to if i want to shell out the $$ or not. you know i am a big cheap skate! so we will see.........

night all!!

~8-11-04~ One last thing.

i don't know what the hell is up with my computer. everytime i click on something i am getting freaking pop up windows! i am getting pretty pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!

the other day for some reason that fucking search bar was on my computer. i ran my adaware to get all that shit gone, but i am still getting the pop ups!!! what the hell?!?!?!?!

i have the pop up blocker installed on my regular computer, but sometimes it is a pain to have to hold the CTRL button for windows that you DO want to allow to open. shit, this is getting on my nerves, so i may have to break down and install it on here.

ok, that's it, just wanted to bitch about that!!!!

~8-11-04~How do you spell relief?

Sorry about no post yesterday,but i was knocked out!!

thanks to my mother, who remembered last time for my "problem" i'm dealing with now, the nurse said to take benadryl. on what a WONDER that stuff is!!! how in god's name did i forget that?!?! *B-E-N-A-D-R-Y-L......i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *or should i say berkley and jensen allergy medicine(generic for benadryl) from BJ's. funny they couldn't come up with some play name on benadryl, they just named it allergy medicine.

so i immediately raided my medicine box for them, and downed it. shit, about 1/2 hour later i could barely keep my eyes open!!!! i was outside trying to watch clay play, and i kept resting my head on the table, opening and eye every few seconds. thank goodness he played in his sandbox for about 1/2 hour, cause i think i actually got some sleep, even if it was in minute incriments.

i even put him to bed early, well, not exactly early, but the time he should be goig to sleep, but hasn't been lately. so, he was in bed by 9:30, and i laid down and was quickly out for the count. i woke up briefly when bob came home and spoke to me a bit, then i was right back out. i woke up again around 2:30AM, starving!!!! i got up ate about 3 cheese curls that were gross, tried to read a few of my blogs, then just said "Screw it!" and went back to sleep. now you know i still did not want to get up this morning!!!!! even thought i just got more sleep than i have had since clay came into my life. it just adds to my theory, that my body just doesn't like to be up before noon, and especially if it is not by my own body waking me up. clay actually slept in, which also compares to what i was saying in a previous post. the later they go to bed the earlier they are up, so when he is in bed earlier, he sleeps later.....kids! ha!

they are showing kid inventors on leno. i remember when i was in like 6th grade that was an assignment in one of our classes. i had the great idea of a heating pad that could fit around your neck or other hard to access places. i didn't win or anything and everyone probably thought it was stupid, but they have a ton of those things out now! damn i could be a millionaire!! haha! oh well.

i also went back to the tooth doctor today since my tooth STILL hurts!!! and now he is saying that my tooth probably has a crack in it that goes all the way up and they is no fix for that so the only thing to do now it to get it removed!!!!!!!!!!! i am soooooooooo pissed!!!!! so i paid to have to original filling put in, god knows how much that cost, then i paid over $800 for a root canal on the same tooth, now i have to pay who knows how much to get it pulled?!?!?!? what the fuck?! the receptionist said something like he may review the case and give me some sort of refund, but there were no guarantees, and such. so hell, i'm sure i won't get one which is bullshit, but i should have known. i am so freaking difficult with shit that happens to me! i could say on a good note that now i don't have to pay for a crown for the root canal, but if i don't want a big gap in my teeth i will have to get some sort of bridge or and implant and i am sure those cost a pretty damn big penny!! so that is a BIG suck!!!!

well that is about it for me.....i'm feeling that great antihistamine kicking in, so i am off to dreamland! night

~8-9-04~ Boo-hoo!

a small warning to those of you males that may, by some slim chance, be reading this. 'm going to be talking about female problems, so you may want to skip down a bit. heck, maybe you are a gal and don't really want to read about it either so you too can skip down.

i just need to whine and bitch to someone cause bob is working and he isn't here to listen to me cry every 5 minutes.

it all started with these god forsaken hemorrhoids. i've had them forever, i don't know when it started. even before i was pregnant. when they act up it is VERY serious!!!!!!!!!!! like i can hardly function. when i got pregnant, they really didn't get worse, they were already bad, but then one of the OB doctors told me of this wonderful concoction to use to help them. oh it was heaven!!!!!!!! why had noone ever mention this to me before?! well recently, actually when clay was born, i use my heaven sent formula, and i get a yeast infection on my skin!!! on my fricken skin!!!!!! this is 100 times worse than the damn roids!!!! after clay it actually got so bad it was spreading down my thighs among other places! so stupid me used this devil sent concoction saturday, and now have this awful freaking rash trying to over take my nether regions!!! so i am miserable!!!!!! and for those of you with kids, you have to time to be sick or miserable if you have kids! thank goodness it was sunday, cause bob was home and he was up with clay most of today, so i just stayed in bed on my belly until about 3PM. my mom got me some different cream, i had some perscription stuff that the doc gave me after clay was born, my 2nd tube, but she got me some vagisil or something. at this point i would just like to be cut in half so i can no longer feel below my belly button.

i really want to get that surgery to have them removed. i've heard it is painful, but i'd rather go through that now, then go through what i am dealing with now at least once a month. i know my father had it done, but i never got to talk to him about it. and even though i may be sitting telling you all about it, and i don't even know you all, i really don't want to call my doctor and have to go and tell her, then show her all of my misery!!!! but i AM in that much pain and discomfort, so i may have to tomorrow, if it is still this bad. what a fun life?! bob keeps telling me i have the body of an 80 year old. why do i have so many problems. probably cause i smoke. haha! i'm surprised my mom hasn't told me that yet. every other problem i have she attributes to that!





OK..........done with the girlie talk. not too much excitement this weekend. i did go out friday. i had to check, i didn't know if i left some drunken post on here that night. i remember i got the computer. i remember cause i dropped it down the damn steps and broken my flippin nail!! but i don't know what i did. except eventually fall asleep on the couch.

i called my nail girl saturday to get me in, and i don't think she is going to be doing nails for some time!!! SHIT!!!! yes i am a selfish bitch. ok, she is way pregnant, with twins. i don't think she is due til october, but i guess a few weeks ago she started to dialate, so they had to stich up her cervix to keep it from dialating more......sigh.......at least she and the babies are ok, no i have to find someone else to do my nails. i don't want to go back to the orientals, i'm not stereotyping or being racist, but what else do i call them?! although i love the way they do nails, they are waaaaayyyyy to expensive and they started being cheap and skimpy with their coupons, bastards! my gal did say that her mom was taking over her clients, so i guess i could go to her, but i don't know if i could sit there for an hour listening to the black church choir music that is blasting on her "side" of the shop.....once again, not stereotyping or being racist, but that is what is blaring over there! sigh

anyways, friday night. wasn't too bad. i still don't know where to go in this town. where are all the people i used to know. are they all at home with their significant others and children, or what?! we were worried about being the oldest ones out, hell i think we were the youngest!!!! we went to several different places. i guess at least we got to go out, and we did have a good time.

saturday we went to the ribs burn off....was having a good time despite the "discomfort" then bob turned into major asshole for some reason, i'm not even going into the whole thing, but that pretty much ruined my night, or should i just say added to my miserableness. so that was a waste of a day.

today i slept about all day. later clay and i went to eat supper with my mom. i got a cute littel tricycle for clay, for his birthday. he doesn't quite grasp the cocept of the peddles yet, but i'm sure he will soon. he seems to like it. of course i couldn't wait for his actual birthday to give it to him are you nuts!!!!

they had fireworks downtown tonight. i was so excited for clay to see them. he wasn't digging them at all. he wouldn't come outside. i picked him up and he was clinging to me. then he kept going back in the house. it was sooooo cute. i was sitting on the porch with the door open, trying to coax him out. he would peak out, come get my hand and drag me back in the house and shut the door! haha!!!! eventually i got him to come out and sit on my lap, and i think he started to like them, cause when they were over, he was crying and throwing a fit cause they were "all done and all gone". little shit!! it was way past his bedtime anyways, so he went down smoothly. but of course, like a post Tricia wrote, the later they go to bed, they earlier they get up!! how true, how true! so i am sure i'll be having an early morning tomorrow!

so i guess i should end this now. night all!!

~8-5-04~ Woo-Hoo!!!

sorry to start right off with Big Brother, but YEAH, scott is gone!!!!! and how great was it thaat durng the HOH competition, that all the guys were out on the first question!!!! YES!!!!!

ok, that is off my chest. sorry no post yesterday. with hubby home i fee bad being on the computer doing my stuff all night. by the time we were done looking up stuff for our phones it as late so i just went to sleep for change.

i just wen to the dredded basement to finally do some laundry. i was all excited to come up here and write, "YEAH, no fleas". it was going that way at first, til i stated moving all bob's shit off the floor and out of my way. so now i say, "GOD DAMNED FLEAS!!!!!!" it is NO where near as bad as it was, i onl got about 10 on me, compared to the 10,000 youused to get, but 10 is still too many for me. and now tht one of those fucker got a meal from my foot, that means it will probably live for a whie longer. so when i head back down to throw them in the dryer, i will be taking the jumbo sprayer i have with flea killer. die bastards, die!!!!!!

i may actually go out tomorrow night. i'm kind of excited, but you know the lazy side of me, just doesn't want to muster the energy to make myself look all pretty. on a plus note it is going to be cold, 60's (cold for summer), which means i can wear pants, which will cover up, excess fat, no tan, and non shaved legs. so that is a good thing. haha!! now i just have to dig out some winter/fall clothes to wear. hence, doing laundry.

bob is out now. which he needs to get his ass home cause it is getting late and he has to work in the morning. i already hate, HATE when he is on days!!!! why do i have to be up at 6-6:30 for his alarm. and keep waking up every 9 minutes when the snooze goes off, just to keep trying to wake him up?!?! then when he finally gets up at 7-7:30, i finally get back to sleep at almost 8, then my child wakes up around 9, if not before, and then i am DRAGGING!!!! it sucks cause bob may have a chance to go to straight days after the end of the year. which it would be great for him to work a straight shift, instead of swing, but did i mention that i HATE when he is on days!!!

i went crazy with internet shopping this week. i bought THIS and THIS for my phone.

i also got THIS. i can't wait to get this. i can download pics that i take on my phone right to my computer, or from the computer to my phone. well not just pictures, but mp3's or what not. it was only $30 from buy.com. everywhere else i looked it was like $60. so i'm glad i got a good deal on it.

then i also got THIS and THIS. clay's birthday is coming up, so i have to get my house all pretty for company, and my furniture has finally just beenn totaled! so it's time to cover them. i'm hoping these will look nice.

well i don't have much else to report, unless i just turn into one of those host broads on QVC and just start rambling. then you all may want to shoot me, so i will just stop now!

~8-4-04~ New toy.

we got our new phones today, but of course it wasn't an easy transaction and now i am pissed!

i ordered on the link here, and then got an email saying i had to go to a t-mobile store to have my credit run, i think cause of my previous bankruptcy. great! so i had to go to the mall, belden, and i haven't been there forever. so i get everything taken care of and then the sales guy starts trying to sell me phones. i tell him about my deal online, he gets on and checks it out and says that the rebates i was going to get through a1 wireless were only valid if i had a rate plan over $69.99. well hell, i opted for the lower rate plan, so i wouldn't have qualified. so i was glad that he looked at that, and he matched all the accessories a1 was offering and i got the phones for $50 a piece with $50 rebates for each, so basically they were free.....on the a1 site, after rebates i was going to MAKE $100.

anyways, i just went to the a1 site, and when you originally go there it shows the $69.99 plan, but i you change it to the lower rate plan, it also changes the rebates, so i DID NOT have to have a plan over $69.99 to get the rebates! so i am pissed and i am really thinking about just taking them back tomorrow and just going ahead and getting them online like i originally planned.

the only thing i did notice on the a1 rebates is that is says if you port your old number to the new phones within 150-some days, you don't qualify for the rebate. i was planning on keeping my old number, but then again it isn't a big deal. i wanted to keep the same, just cause i have a zillion business cards with my current number. but it isn't like i actually use the cards, so what does it matter. only about 3 people even call my cell phone, soooooo. i actually like the new numbers we got cause mine is like 5912 and bob's is 5913.

so hell i don't know! once again, why can't shit just be simple for me?!?!?!

i would also like to mention again, how INCREDIBLE ci ci's pizza's cinnamon rolls are!! my heavens!!!!!!!!!!! i swear i could just eat those all night. and here i bitch about wanting to lose weight!!

so that was my night! it took forever!! as we were standing there bob said it was 8:30, i almost freaked. i was like, shit we ae missing big brother!!!! then i remembered that it wasn't on til 9, but we were missin gthe new episode of trading spouses. last week they replayed it later in the week, hopefully they'll do the same this week.

lucky for all of you, i didn't do a play by play of things i hate about you, this week. it was kind of boring and i was busy playing with my new phone, so i barely watched myself. in playing with my phone i have been on here all night, searching for cool ringtones, and mp3's, antenna's, keypads....all kinds of junk i don't need.....and now it is after 2AM, and i haven't even read any of my blogs yet. so, tonight you are also spared a recap of the other shows i did watch last night and tonight. if i'm not too lazy, maybe i'll go over them tomorrow, if i remember! haha! lucky you!

gotta go read and hit the sheets! night

~8-3-04~ WHY?!

why does everything have to be a pain in the ass?! i am about fed up with freaking estimate people. so far, it has been a total waste of my time!

the first person i had come out. didn't even give me an estimate. he told me to wait for the insurance company to come out, blah, blah.....i haven't told anyone that i already talked to the insurance people. so he left. the next people i called took forever to finally come out, then when they did, they told us the had to take all the info to the office and work up the numbers. UGH! my cousin's husband came out, gave me everything right there and then! i still wanted other estimates to give the insurance, so the ones that came and had to work out the numbers, was supposed to be here saturday at 1. he never showed, we called, no answer. so i called and bitched out the office answering machine. so today they, he and the office, called and left messages. bob called him, he didn't answer, bob left a message, we still haven't heard from him!

then also today, i had someone from canton aluminum come out. he measured and talked, blah, blah....he said the insuance probably wouldn't cover it all. we were like yeah i know, we just want some numbers on what it is going to cost us.....he writes some shit up and told bob to sign it, and i was like WHOAH, what for. he goes, so when the insuance accepts it we can start the work. well HELLO, we want to know what the hell the cost is going to be, so we would know how much we would have to come up with that the insurance wouldn't cover. he still NEVER gave us that number. i ended up walking out of the room, cause he turned into a "salesman" who doesn't like to close the deal here and now, and i was getting pissed. so that was a waste!

another kid came today, did what he had to do and then dropped the numbers in the mailbox. THANK YOU! that is all i want!! what was his estimate?! $29,250!! WHAT!!!! the guy that never calls back, said it would easily be over $20,000, but upon looking at the estimate again, this guy put on all new windows and doors. what the hell?! i never said any of that. why would i want that when i know the insurace surely isn't going to cover all of that?!

in the meantime, i check my answering machine, and there is a call from my insurance company saying that their siding specialist found a match for our siding, blah, blah, blah. WHAT?! how could they find a match for our siding? it is very old and it is PAINTED, how did they find a match to that?!

so finally we were just like fuck it, we were going to go with my cousin anyways, just wanted to get some more estimates, but i am done with those crooked mother fuckers! they all just want to see how much the insurace is going to give me before they quote me a price which is bullshit! so, he is coming out tomorrow to go over all the stuff the insurace people sent, and we are going to go over all that needs done. we are probably going to have to call the adjuster to "request" a higher settlement to cover everything, hopefully i can talk him into doing all of that, i am not good dealing with people, and neither is bob. fingers crossed that we can finally get all this stuff rolling, so i can at least have some good things to think about for a change!

then i found THIS!!! i love it. if i were to win the lotto, this is what i would get. not to sound corny or stupid, but i have always wanted something like this if i were rich. i already have it all planned out and have room for all my family. i think that would be so great for clay. i would have loved to grow up with my whole family living together. yeah we would probably get on each others nerves, but hell, there is plenty of space where we shouldn't even see each other if we don't want too. ~sigh~ now i have to start playing the lotto i guess!

well nothing was really on tv tonight, so as you can see, i don't have anything interesting to chat about. so i will end the horror that is this entry.

see ya'll tomorrow!