~8-18-04~ Now WHAT, blogger?!

so why is the top of my blog all f'd up???? i sure didn't change anything with my template!!!

so i spent well over a half hour, uploading those damn pictures of the pens to show all 7 of you who read my blog!!!

i couldn't resist though they are too freakin' cute! i almost didn't even get them. mom, clay and i went to eat at the chinese buffet, yes i went out to eat again, and i wonder why i am over weight?! anyways, so i had to stop at deals, aka, dollar store. i saw the pens and knew clay would be entertained with them while i shopped, but "i wasn't getting them, they aren't worth no damn dollar a piece!" those were my exact words. half the shit they have in those stores aren't worth a dollar, maybe 10 cents! that is how they continue to make money and are able to sell stuff that is actually worth $1.10, for only a $1. anyways, i broke down on several item, because my child is spoiled and i knew he would just "love" all i got for him. now that i think about it, i got a damn dust pan, that is all for me, and not that i needed one, so why did i go there and spend $20?! they should rename the store, "where clay's spoiled butt gets a bunch of over-priced stuff that he doesn't need cause his mom is a freak", store. but anyways, i LOVE these pens!!!!! i picked them up off the floor after my cat was attempting to lick the hell out of them. he got the blue one, and his poor feather hair was one long strip of wetness. luckily i dried it out and fluffed it back out a bit. then i had to write some stuff down and they were the only writing impliments around, so.......then the fucker lit up when i wrote! i damn near had an orgasam. not really, but i sure got excited! just ask my cousin, i was talking to her at the time. i am a sucker for this stuff. i know, i am not 12 anymore, but you should see the pack of like 100 gel pens, in all different colors (pastel, metallic, neon, etc) that they have at BJ's!!! yes, i sure enough bought them. and the black and dark paper to go with. who in the world am i going to write cute little "notes" to in colored gel pens and colored paper?!?!?!?! i know i am queer, but like i said i am a sucker for stuff like that, and office supplies in general. we went school shopping for bob's neice's and nephew last year, and i sure got myself about 10 notebooks, markers, pens and crayons. i really wanted to cool folders and the highlighters, but i knew i REALLY never would use those. and don't even get me started on all the cool back packs and lunchboxes they have now days!

speaking of which. i miss school. this time of year, i always get a little sad. i really liked school. well, except for all the classes, homework, teachers, cafeteria food, and the whole early in the morning thing. so i guess i basically just miss my youth, and all the friends, "innocence", no worries, parties and such. i just had a great "childhood"/"teenhood". it really saddens me when i hear of folks who hated their youth! it is so sad, that they didn't get to enjoy that time in their lives! we never get it back and take a lot of it for granted! ho-hum, better quit now, before i get all weepy.

my baby is going to be 2 in 9 days!!!!! how can it have been 2 years already?! time sure does fly. sometimes it feels as if it has only been months and sometimes it feels as if 10 years has went by already. now i just have to get my butt in gear and clean up this house for the festivities. it isn't going to be a real big shin-dig. he is still too little. just mostly family and a few friends. i'm sure he will have fun though. i wish i had more family, especially some with kids his age. the only kids to be had, my friend molly's daughter (2 also), trish's 2 boys (3 and 5), hopefully my cousin dawana's son (3), my cousins kids (1, 4?, 6?). that's it! and that is if everyone who is invited comes!! i feel bad that he doesn't have other kids to socialize with. but honestly i don't think he is too interested right now. when molly comes and visits, he somewhat acknowledges her daughter, and at holidays, he could care less about the other kids there. even at the park, he seems oblivious to all the other kids running around playing. i know he is still young. there are actually times i think of putting him in daycare a few days a week, just so he has that interaction, but right now i couldn't even imagine leaving my child somewhere where i am not! i would say i would look into maybe getting a part time job or something at a day care, but i would go nuts all day dealing with other peoples kids! :) something to think about i guess. i guess i could always put the wonderful task of potty training on someone else a few hours a day a few days a week! haha!!

well bob is off fishing. he went after work tonight, so who knows what time he will get home. i should probably take my butt to bed, since he will probably be in no shape to get up with clay in the am, like he did today. it is so nice to get to sleep all day!! who needs expensive bracelets? just let me sleep in and you get up with the child in the morning! that will win out everytime with me!!! hell that is what i ask for as birthday gifts and mother's day gifts!!!! well tomorrow is not my birthday, nor mother's day, so i am outta here! see ya!