~9-29-04~ Forgot one

since i got the dishwasher the ohter day, i then had to go get detergent. since there is a dollar type stor 2 blocks from my house, i went there. i also needed cigarettes, so i went to the drive thru gas station place right accross the street.

so i sat in line forever, since all the lazy people couldn't get out of the car and actually go IN...me included. i order bob and my cigarettes, he comes back out and the don't have either in box. well bob and i are both picky that way. so i was like forget it. so i then had to go instead of 2 blocks from my house, a couple of miles to the dairy mart. i go in, and the kid behind the counter says," basic's have been ringing up about $40 a carton." i was all like, "WHAT?! WHY?! {thinking they raised the price on me.}" he goes, "a glich in the system" so i am all like, "well can't you ring it in manually for the correct price" DUH?!?! he, "no, it is in the system"

WTF?!?!?! nowdays, can't anything be done without computers?!?! so i was pissed, and i wasn't driving yet a few more miles to go get damn cigarettes!! so i had to spend who knows how much more, by getting marlboro's which are damn more than my basics!!!

i was so pissed i came straight home and ordered my cigarettes online!!!! i have been pissing around cause i didn't want to spend the money, but HELLO, i'm going to spend it reguardless. i might as well save money! so i got carton's of basic's for $19.99!!! yipee! that is at least a $5 savings per carton!! i should be getting them in about 3-7 days!!

~9-29-04~ Things that have pissed me off the past few days.

this past weekend, friendly's royally screwed up my damn sundae! not only screwed up, but totally obliterated it!!! everything i wanted was ignored!

i wanted a reeses cup sundae, with vanilla ice cream and NO sprinkles!

yep, got chocolate ice cream AND sprinkles!!! so of course this left my wrath for bob, since i stayed home while he went and got it. granted he didn't make it, he just ordered it BUT this has happened before!!!! so you think he would have checked. the chocolate ice cream would have been a little difficult to discover, but you sure as hell could see the fucking sprinkles all over the top of it!!!!

GOD i hate incompitent people!!!

of course also the other day wendy's screwed up my order as well. the thing i hate the most, and really the only way to totally ruin my food....put mustard on it!!!! how does this happen when you ask for mayo, ketchup, lettuce and tomato only?!?!?

if we would have went to taco bell this week, that would have been a guaranteed fuck up there. those people have heard my wrath, almost everytime i go there. and now they have a nice little web site, where they too have got my complaints.

FIRE these fucking people who don't know how to do there jobs!!!!!!! and people, PLEASE complain when they screw up your order. it is the only way it is going to stop(yeah right!). i know there is the occasional mess up, but, honestly it happenes EVERY time i get fast food. maybe it is a sign i shouldn't be eating that crap. which leads me to my other bitch...

my doctor won't give me any diet/weight loss pills/meds. i kind of figured she wouldn't, but there is the internet ya know. i was trying to go the safe, "legal" way. but she said diet and exercise....yeah in theory that is great. easier said than done!!

NOGGIN.......hello!!!! what the fuck!!! see, that is written in ENGLISH!!!! all week dora has been in spanish!! the whole entire episode!!!!!!!!! what the hell is that all about. and who, those that are english only, wants that. to make it even worse, it isn't even "dora's" voice, or any of the other characters for that matter. for those of you who think dora's voice is obnoxious now, WHOA, you should hear the spanish dora! talk about grating on my nerves!!!!!!

i got the final check from our insurance company, for our hail damage. so we called the mortgage company to see how we get them to indorse it since their name is on it also. then i am told this wonderful news. the send out the money in installments. i get 1/3 of the money now. when 50% of the work is done, i call, they send an inspector out, then they send me another 1/3, then when the work is 100% done, i call, they send an inspector out and then i will be sent the final 1/3. what the hell is that?!?!?!?! thank goodness it is my cousin who is doing the work. don't most people want like 50% down. what the hell would i do if that were the case?!?! fuckers!!!! there is also a part 2 to this.

so i have to send them the check to indorse...all the way to florida. so she asked if i wanted to overnight it, so i said yes, hoping in would expidite this whole matter. so it cost $13.65 to overnight a damn check to florida!!!!!! if i would have known that before bob paid it i would have just mailed the thing for .37 and it would have got there in 2 days!!!! fuckers!!!!

well, i think that is all i have to bitch about for now. maybe there will be more later! :)

~9-29-04~ HHmmmmm

this all thanks to KELLY:

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i like my maiden name better though, it is:

Your Boobies' Names Are: Dixie and Daisy

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Since this is finally working...my new vacuum again! YIPEE!! 

blue sucker mouth 

again the socks! haha!! 

clay wearing grandma's halloween ANKLE socks! HA! 

daddy & clay on GAME DAY! 

here is the fish pic i told ya about. notice the tip of his tail is the only thing in the water. sadly, this was one of his last days. 

~9-28-04~ Still.........

i still cannot get logged into my damn hello, to post the pictures that i want. i don't know what the hell is going on with that damn program. i left a post on the forum and noone replied. there was one other post on there sounding like they were having the same problem, but noone responded to them either.

so hell!!!!

i have a killer headache and that was going to be my post! damn. i may go try it from my regular computer, see if it is doing the same thing.

hopefully i'll have some pictures for ya'll.

Whenever i sweep, clay gets his little lawnmower out and follows me around like he too, is sweeping. how cute is he!!!!!!!!

~9-27-04~ Now WTF?!

well, i'm trying to send you all a picture of my new sweeper, but Hello, keeps telling me GOOD-BYE and booting me after 10 seonds and i can't get any pictures sent!!!!!!!!!!! AGH!!!!!!!!!

~9-27-04~ WOO-HOO!!

i got my sweeper today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!! i was actually excited to get home and vacuum!! crazy huh?!?! so far so good. we will see if it is worth all that $$.

notice how my outfit matched the color of the sweeper. i think it is cool, i don't think bob much cares for the purple, but hey! it has over 17ft of reach! you can take the hose all the way to the top of the steps, he should be happy he doesn't have to remove cat hair manually anymore!

i decided to forgo the washer and dryer til christmas. i'm sure they will be having a similiar no interest thing going on around then. by that time my camcorder will be paid off, so i can put the money i was paying towards that to the washer and dryer.

i just have too many bills going on right now. once my house finally starts being worked on, i have additional stuff i want done that the insurance doesn't cover, so i know that will be at least $1000. so i did the smart thing and just got the sweeper.......oh, and i got a super cheap dishwasher. i don't really want of need one, i just want a working one to be in the house when we go to sell it. it was only $126!!!! it was supposed to be the floor model, but they had an additional one in the back, so i am actually getting a new one. nothing fancy....it just does dishes, like it is supposed to. now the big question is to see if it actually works, since my water pressure is so bad. they are supposed to come and install it tomorrow. yipee. i actually didn't do dishes tonight, i figured i was getting a damn dishwasher, why should i do dishes! haha!! except now i have to go buy detergent.

i watched a very disturbing video/movie/?? saturday night. i forget the whole name of it, but it is like, in plane site. it is this whole thing about 9/11 and it supposedly being some fake, conspiracy or something. and since i am no expert on plane crashes, building stability, physics, whatnot.....of course the stuff they say does make you question. and i never paid THAT much attention when it all happened, it just sickened and saddened me too much, so i kind of don't know all the facts and stuff. if i can find it, on howard stern's site there is a link to another movie/clip/type thing, that is also on the same subject. have you ever heard any of this?! and why haven't i til now?! so now i am thouroghly confused and pissed off about the whole thing. and my major question is that if everything is as it was said, then why won't the pentagon/government release the survailence videos that they took from surrounding businesses. and why or how did they wire that building #7 to explode it?! i don't know.......you all will just have to watch it for yourself. and if you can explain any of it to me, GREAT, do it slow and use small words. i want to understand this! i'm probably going to have to file it under one of those things that you will "just never know the real story".

then we watched man on fire. oh the tears were a flowin. now that i am a mother, this stuff even gets to me more than it did before!!!! of course i didn't like the ending, but i guess it was good, and i predicted it clear at the beginning anyways. it was a really good movie!

speaking of tears a flowin, did you catch the premier of extreme makeover home edition tonight!!! OH LORD!!! how many kleenex did i use!!!! i just love that show! i mean how many shows, when you are done watching you have just an overal great feeling!!! for a brief second you actual think that humanity is great and giving and caring.........then the news comes on and reality comes back and smacks you in the face! so i really look forward to that show on sundays, just to have a bit of compassion, caring and love of human beings!!!

wife swap was interesting. i think i like the concept better than the one on fox. i like that they are there for 2 weeks, the first the wife has to live by the families rules, then the 2nd week the family has to live by the wife's rules. i about shit when that uptight lady got rid of those peoples zoo (pets). i sort of agreed with her though. 25 animals is just down right ridiculous!! ESPECIALLY when they shit and piss everywhere!!!!! i think i did tend to agree with the strict wife mostly, but i consider myself definitely inbetween the 2 extreme's that those women were. it was interesting. i just wish they actually showed more of it. how do you fit 2 weeks, with 2 different families in an hour! there just isn't enough time to actually get a feel for the people.

well it is currently 2:34, so i guess that is a good time to get on out of here!

~9-24-04~ People!?

i just popped over to worth 1000 to check out how my photo's were doing in the contest. they aren't doing well. what the hell people!!!!! i have the cutest kid on the planet how can my entries not be higher that 65, and the other 2 are way down there!!!! i'll just chalk it up to the fact that my photo skills are what is holding them back, not my subject matter! haha! plus i am of course, biased on my opinion. i can't even vote on my own entries so that sucks!!!!

oh well........it's not like i win money or anything.

hubby is over his pms. well, i only seen him for not even total and hour today. he worked over again so he didn't get home til after 4, and then i didn't get him up til almost 11, and he was gone by 11:30. so maybe that is the key to getting along!! haha! just kidding!!!

it is a good thing that he has been working over time. i was all happy to see his paycheck today, but then i sat down to do bills and it is all gone!!! plus some i had in savings!! what the hell!!!!! he did go through a lot of money this past week. you figure, over $600 for his car, then $150 at court!!!!!! that's almost $800 not planned on!!!!!!!! so that is why. luckily i shop for like a year at a time, so it isn't like we really need anything. but let me step foot in a walmart and i can't leave the store without spending $200!! and my whole plan for using my credit card for everything (for the points) then paying it right off, sure as hell didn't work out!!! why did i think it would is beyond me! so now my points card is almost maxed.

i don't know if i mentioned this last night, but i made cressant rolls to go with our spaghetti the other night, cause i was too lazy to go to the store to get italian bread, and, oh my god were they great!!!!! not as good as norcia's italian bread, but they did the trick well!

well er was finally on tonight. it was ok. nothing great. they sure resolved the whole kerry story line awfully quick. how is it that those people were so dead set on getting custody of the baby, and now they are all like, ok, he can go with the mom as long as we can watch him while she is at work..."we just want to be a part of his life" like he wouldn't have been in the first place they had to go through all the mess and heart ache (and MY tears) that they did?! GOD!!!!!! i did cry about something tonight, but i don't rememer what. so now i have to wait 2 weeks for the next new one, cause of the damn presidential debates!!!!!!!

my house needs vacuumed soooooo bad!!!!!!!!! and yes, my sweeper is still broken!!! i am so tempted to go out and get my new sweeper! i just so don't want to spend $500!!! i must have seen the commercial for the sweeper that i want at least a half dozen times this week. i don't know if it is a sign or what. but he says he GUARANTEES that it will NOT clog or lose suction!!!!! so i am torn. i guess i will figure it out this weekend.

well i should get off of here. i have to babysit, or i should say toddler sit, in the AM tomorrow. so i have to get up and actually dressed in the morning. no piddle pissing around. oh hell, and i have to go shut off the damn air! it gets so freaking cold i here! i have it set at 71 degrees. i freeze all day, with it off, until about 4pm when it is stiffiling hot in here! i just can't win!

i banged the shit out of my hand tonight. for some reason i can't walk out of my kitchen without running into the wall. seriously i run into it alot! but today i hit the corner of the brick right on the top of my hand. my whole hand went numb, and i even cussed, the F word, in front of my mother!!! then the pain spread all the way up to my elbow. i don't know if any of you all had experience with carpel tunnel, but that is what it felt like! it ached more than hurt! kind of like when you bang your funny bone and your whole arm goes numb. anyways, it STILL aches!!! but more so just around my thumb/wrist area now. that was awful.

so, i am off now, because it does hurt to type, and like i said i have to be up bright eyed and bushy tailed in the AM.

clay and i, again 

~9-23-04~ PMS

not me...........my husband!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm serious! i think i just wrote this exact same thing a month ago, so i am almost positive now that men go through this as well!

i don't know what the fuck his problem was. granted he has been working alot again lately, so he probably hasn't been getting so much sleep, but goddamn! don't take the shit out on me!!!!!!

he came down with an attitude, so then it gave me an attitude, so then he got mad at me for having an attitude!!!

what the fuck?!

i didn't thank him for getting clay this morning and letting me sleep in. well he wasn't 100% being unslefish there! he had to go get his car from the shop (don't even get me started on that subject) at 10, he gets home about 8:10, so he was going to get clay, then asked me if i just wanted him to take clay with him. well, hell yeah! the poor kid never gets out of the house on my watch. so they got home aroud noon:30, so i got up, got clay his lunch and put him to sleep. bob didn'g to to sleep til about 2:30, i don't know what the hell he was doing. i was supposed to get him up at 10. he was up at about 9:30. whatever..........anyways, he starts yelling that i didn't thank him or anything for getting clay and letting me sleep today. well, firstly i didn't know i had to thank him for taking care of his child!!!!!! and secondly, if he didn't have to go get his car at 10:30, his ass would have went straight to bed when he got home for work!!!!!!!!!!! so how is he going to act like he was all doing me a favor by taking care of his son for a few hours!!!!!!!!! what the hell would he do if i worked?! he would have to come home and take care of his son!!!!!!!!!!!!

so anyways, i was in the process of cleaning his gym bag. since he doesn't take care of his stuff, it was laying down on the basement floor so it was all dusty and dirty. he asked me earlier if i could wipe it off for him. sure, no problem.......even though it isn't mine, and if you took care of your shit it wouldn't be all dirty........i was doing it. until he got attitude that is. even though his original attitude, i still asked if he wanted me to heat up dinner for him, he said yes........by that time the commercials were over on the bachelor, so i headed back to the tv room real quick. then he yells in about my clothes still being in the dryer. OH THE HORROR!!!!!!! and there being no basket down there and i should have got them out, and don't leave fucking clothes in the dryer. so i was like, ok, funny that i had to take your clothes out of the dryer to put mine, that are in there, in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so after the commercial, i went down to get my clothes, cause who knew what he did with them when he took them out. luckily there was a hamper down there and he put them in there. but wasn't that sooooooooooo nice of him to carry it back up with him when he came?!?! asshole!!! so i was like, he couldn't fucking carry my clothes up for me, then i can't fix him his plate of food, or finish cleaning out HIS gym bag!!!!!!!!!

so i started folding my clothes and he yelled something about, is his food ready yet? i said probably. so he went and got it. oh and at some point again, he brought up the fact that I should do his laundry for him. so AGAIN i said the same thing i always do.......if you put your clothes in the hamper like i told you, i would do your clothes!!!! WHY, oh WHY is that so difficult?! i am not going room to room, picking clothes up off the floor, beds, whatever, wondering what is clean what is dirty. put your freaking dirty clothes in the hamper!!! how f'ing hard is that?!?!?!?!?!? you must not want your laundry done too bad then!

at some point he calmed down and started talking to me in a normal tone of voice. so i went out to finish his gym bag, and he came in and finished it. we watched the rest of the bachelor together in harmony.

i hate that shit so much. what was the point of all that??!?!?! just to end up all happy and back to normal?!?!

i was actually thinking about letting him get lucky since he has been working so much/hard lately. then he pulls this shit!! and yeah, it may be done and over/forgotten for him. but NOT ME!!!! i am still pissed!!!!! for some reason he doesn't understand this!!!! he does this all the time. i always get to the point where i am all going to give the boy some good lovin, and do something real cute and sexy what not, since he has been acting "right" then BOOM......he does some dumb ass shit to piss me off, and totally get me out of the mood!!! and he should know by now, stuff sticks with me for a long time!!

well let me get off of all that. i don't want to get my self all wound up again and not be able to sleep!

i even made cookies tonight to be good wife, and i got attitude!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, i'm done with all that........next topic..........

hhhmmmmmmm........what...............i guess i could always talk about my tv shows.

i watched my soaps, one life to live and guiding light, today (i actually didn't go to sleep when i put clay down!) talk about lost. i am sooo confused what is going on on them!!!! oh well! the only thing i got to watch tonight was the bachelor. you will have to forgive me cause i don't know any of the broad's name's yet. i can't stand that blonde broad. she didn't even like the guy that got picked, she is just a bitch. i was sooooo glad that he also picked the girl she is always trying to dog on. he also picked stalker lady. i don't know how that is going to work out. i liked some of the other's he picked. like the first one, and the one who said she is shy, oh, and also the red head. i know ya'll have no clue who i am talking about. sorry! i can't wait to see who the 2 ladies from the previous bachelor are, who are coming. i hope it is next week, and i hope it is trish!!!! but i don't think she would be a good match to the guy that was picked. but i just love her!!!!!

i can't wait for ER tomorrow! i don't know why. they usually upset me and make me cry. bob always asks why in the world i watch it. i am pissed that they fired that british lady. i like her character alot. i liked how they were finally getting her back into relationships after mark died. well, now that is over! i also heard that carter wasn't going to be back after this season. not to mention that i don't think the lady he just lost the baby with is going to be around this season. they are bringing on some new love interest for him, which is stupid! i thought he really had something special with the other one!!

god carson daly is so freaking dumb!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to shoot him!!

one tidit from the news, that freak jimmy swaggert, made a lovely statement recently that, "if a gay man hit on him, he would kill him" how godly and christian is that statement?!?!!? this world we live in just makes me sick!! that is why i don't even watch the news any more! so many terrible things going on in this world. i just get so sad and scared for clay!!!!

i will leave you with an excerpt from a blog i read, nine feet deep, she says it so well here!!!! i often want to write my feelings on this subject, but it just disgusts me and saddens me, so i can't bring my self to it. she states my feelings EXACTLY!!!!!

this beheading business is making me angry. it needs to stop. in this day and age, people just shouldn't be running around doing that kind of bullshit. and as pissed off as i am about all this crap, i'm even more angry at the fact the we are still over there at all.

it's not our job to police the world ladies and gentlemen. some people don't want to be exactly like us, ok?

and why the hell would anyone want our freedom anyways? lets perfect the product before we put it up as an ideal m'kay? and it's FAR from perfect, people. we have hate crimes galore, lying politicians, not enough food for our children even tho we are quite arguably the wealthiest nation on the planet, our borders are not secure and our school system sucks. who are we to point fingers and send clean up crews anyways? our society is a mess too.

one really needs to clean their own house before they offer to clean their neighbors'.

we need to let the Iraqis have their own struggles and turmoil and hard fought battles for their freedom. we did and we should STILL be fighting.

OVER HERE for crissake.

there are too many things wrong in our own country to be running all over the world trying to fix everyone else's countries. people need to own their own freedom, democracy (if that's what they want), justice and happiness. we can't fight for them, they need to do it themselves. stuff you didn't have to fight for usually isn't worth having anyways. there is no value in it.

~9-22-04~ YIPEE!!!!!!!!!

finally someone who i wanted to win a show has won!!!!!! tina and chip won the amazing race!! they really weren't my first choice, but at least colin and what's her name got beat!!! that is what i am the most happy about!! boy was i sweating!! literally!!! that show makes me so nervous watching it, especially the final.

know what i hate........well i was going to make a list, but i am tired. anyways, at this moment in time i hate, hate, hate carson daly, or whatever his name is. i don't know how people watch this show. i just do cause i am too lazy to find something else on, plus i am not even really watching it, it is just background noise, but he is stupid and gets on my nerves!! his bits are stupid, i don't know where they ot these writers!!!! AGH!!!!

big brother also had its finale tonight. of the final 2, i guess i did want drew to win, and he did. cowboy just got on my nerves. of course noone i liked made it to the final, so i really didn't care much. jase is still an ass by the way. i saw him on an interview after he was booted, and i thought he might be an alright guy off of the show, but no, he is an asshole. i feel so bad for scott, from the show as well, the one who's naked pictures i had on here. anyways, i can tell he totally is in love with jase, but since something happened in the show, he won't even talk to scott now. grow up! get a life! your an asshole, you should be happy anyone even wants to be your friend! oh well, he has holly, what more does he need ~~eyes rolling~~

so did you see the previews for shaun of the dead?! how funny does that look!! you all should know from previous post, what a zombie nut i am. but since this is somehow a comedy, i don't know what to think about it. i want to go see it, but i am afraid it is going to be like that monty python crap. granted it may not be crap, but i can't understand 90% of what they say, so i just don't get it!!!! so i am afraid i am not going to understand these people since they are "non-clear-english" speaking.

one last tidbit here. i turned on to match game tonight, on game show network. before it comes on old episodes of star search, with arsenio hall, are on. and i just caught the last minute of it, and john heffron was on there. he is the one who just won the last season of last comic standing. just thought that was kind of weird. i do think he is really funny, but he isn't one of my favorites on the newest season of last comic. my all time favorite is ralphie. he SHOULD have won the first season, DAT?!?!?!? how the hell he won i will never understand. my second fave, which is really tied with ralphie, is dave mordal. he is GREAT!!!!! another thing i don't understand is how season 2 keeps beating season 1. bob and i were talking at the beginning of this season and said season 2 was going to get killed by season 1. well, like usual with this reality tv shit that people get to vote on, we were WRONG. once again, DAT won, so we shouldn't be surprised at the voting. anyways, my other favorites are tess, i LOVE her! i liked tammy too, but she got booted last week. i didn't get to watch it tonight, so i don't know who got booted yet, so don't tell me!!!! i have tonight's episode of last comic to watch, along with trading spouses, and the finale of amish in the city. since i have a ton of stuff to watch/tape the rest of the week, i may not get to watch til the weekend.

tomorrow that new show lost starts, and i want to check that out. also the bachelor starts too. dr. phil also has a special on tomorrow.........we can't forget that that 70's show is on too!!!! AGH!!!!!

thursday er finally starts, so that night is survivor, the apprentice, then er, so that night is full too.

friday joan of arcadia starts, i love this show!!! and also the complex malibu is on.

saturday i am totally free!!! woo-hoo. time to watch everything i have on tape from this week.

then on sunday extreme makeover home edition starts!!! YEAH!!! and it is on for 2 hours. it looks like a goodie, so i am excited!

yes, it is that time of year again, when all my shows are on and from 8-11, i am off limits!! i feel awful for my cousin. i haven't talked to her in forever. she has called a few times. i did get to talk to her last week, but only for like 5 minutes until survivor started. i know i am pathetic!!!!!!!!!! i still love you dawna!!!! don't hate me!! :) just make sure you call before 8 or after 11!!!! haha!!

ok, it is after 2, i have to get some sleep. hopefully since bob is going to be home in the morning, i am hoping to go get my nails done.........so sleepy time for me!! night-night!!

~9-21-04~ Real post

i figured i'd get on real quick and put up an actual post. i am just soooo addicted to the site i previously told ya'll about, worth1000. i just entered some pictures in the photography contest. they are below. #1 i the actual entry. you have to use credits to enter, and i only had enough to enter one. you could put up entries and have someone opt to sponser you, so that is what i did with #2 and #3. i was torn betwen #1 and #2. i love #2 picture, but it was a little blurry from the bubbles, but the one with clay and my mom isjust awesome as well. so i am excited for the voting to start, so i can see how well i do.

on that site they have photoshop contests every day. i would love to be able to do that! i would never have the time or patience though. so every night i am on there voting and checking out all the entries, which means i don't get to read my blogs til late, then for me to post it is even later.....blah, blah, blah, whine, whine, whine. i seriously have to start getting in bed earlier! yeah, as i write this it is after 2am!

anyways, that is my excuse for not updating like i usually do.

so here is a feable attempt.

well, last friday, i sucked it up and went back to the satan dentist to get my stitches removed. i freaked out a bit and started crying on the way there. bob kept reassuring me it wasn't going to hurt, yes, i made him go with me! i also made him go back in the room with me! i was a bit relieved when the nurse removed my STITCH, singular, in about .05 seconds, with NO pain. so i was like YEAH, now we can leave and i don't even have to see satan. WRONG.......she then said to wait and the doc woud be in.........SHIT!!!!! so i was planning on being a bitch and not even looking at the man. but alas, he came in, shook my hand, looked at my whole, and started talking. i felt like an idiot not even looking at the man, so i had to give in and at least look at him while he was talking to me. then the man even tried to make a joke!!!! he tried to me mr. nice dentist funny man!!! what the hell?!?!?!? so then i am sure hubby really thought i was blowing my whole experience out of proportion!!! NO he was not nice or funny, when he was ripping my tooth out of my face!!!!!!

oh well, at least that is over with!

i don't remember much from the weekend. saturday we went and did a ton of shopping. we didn't get started til after clay's nap, so we started late and didn't get home til almost 8pm.

sunday was rather nice since bob let me sleep in. which i really need to tell him, the whole point of letting me sleep in and him getting up with clay is totally defeated by him bringing clay into the bedroom after he gets him. having him jumping anc crawling all over me, tearing everything off the nightstands, and such tends to WAKE a person up. once i am up that is it!!! totally defeats the purpose of letting me SLEEP in!!!! i don't know when i finally got back to sleep. i just know i didn't get out of bed til about noon. i was going to stay there, but i felt guilty of not spending any time with clay, so i got up so i could feed him lunch and put him down for his nap. then, it being a football day and all (UGH!), i decided to go over to my mom's and help her put together some book shelves she bought. bob had to start midnights that night, so when i got home he went to sleep. that left the rest of the night for clay and i to spend together, and i can't think of a better way to spend it!

i have these freaking gnat/fly type annoying bastards flying all over my goddamned house!!!!!!! since bob has some nasty, disgusting, god knows what going on over on his side of the bed, they are now in here, and they are really pissing me off. everyday i must kill 50 of the fuckers in the kitchen, i am about through a whole bottle of window cleaner, which i spray them to death with. i started with hairspray in here, but apparently they are immune to hair spray! normally i am against the killing of things, yes, even bugs, but these are exempt from that way of thinking. if you annoy me or get in my way you are toast!!!! in the last 5 minutes, for some reason i am getting bombarded with them.......i don't take well to them flying in my damn face. i may have to go on a search and destroy mission in a second. apparently i will have to use the more brutal way of either fly swatter or hand clapping. i didn't want to go the smashing them route, but apparently i have no choice. i tried with the actual bug spray the other day, but i don't really want to be sleeping on a bed soaked with poison, that is why i opted for the hair spray in the first place, in case you wondered.

now i am off to hunt out insects. i'm on a mission! night!! GOT ONE ALREADY!!! YEE-HAW!!!!

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~9-20-04~ Not much.......

not much time to post, so i thought i'd leave ya'll with some funny pitures.

i feel awful, i don't exactly remember where i got them from. i think i got them from magnetqueen.

some are awfully small, so i hope you can still make them out.

YEAH! 

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well... 

www.manentqueen.com 

~9-17-04~ I got nottin'

well i do have my shows to write about, but once again it is too late for all of that.

the only note i will add is that i must have jinxed my poor betta fish. i went to check on him before i came to bed, and couldn't find him! well i discovered him laying on the bottom of the tank!!!!! YES, dead!!!! poor guy! i get so damn upset when my fish die!!!! i am too emotional to have animals! i can't believe i decided to have kids......i'm going to be a wreck!!!!!!

well i hope life/water is better up there in fishy heaven. but i am sure they are all talking about me, since i've sent so many of them there!

night!

~9-16-04~ Ivan the terrible

well.....i've been sitting here watching hurrican ivan. it is so scary, yet amazing at the same time!!

i love watching the weather channel guys, sorry, i'm watching cnn, the cnn guys outside damn near getting blown over. i can't even imagine what standing outside in 70mph wind would be like that!! and they are only half way there! the winds are expected to be like 130 mph!!!! scary, scary, scary!!!!!

my dentist dicked me! he isn't going to be in tomorrow or friday, but he still said to go back to satan, who pulled my tooth. so i don't know what to do!!!!!! maybe i will just suck it up and go. i just don't want the guy to try and be nice or whatever, cause i don't even want to speak one word to him. bob will be home to go with me, but we would have to bring clay, and i don't know if i'd be able to take my whole family back in the room with me. i guess the worst part is done and over with, so i should just go and have it done and over with. i am a bit worried cause my back molar still feels as if it hurts. i mean i am sure they whole area back there is bruised from getting the one next to it pulled, but of course in my mind, and knowing my luck, i can just see some damn problem where i need to get the other one pulled too, and that just isn't an option. at least while i am still awake!!!!!!

i have heartburn.....or acid reflux.....is it the same thing?! i hate it!! i don't know if it is from my kool-aid or what. sometimes that happens! maybe it is from all the damn fast food i ate today.

i actually took my child out of the house today! can you believe it?!?! i was all comfy on the couch and he kept coming up, grabbing my hand, and saying "bye-bye". so i felt bad, since we haven't been out of the house since, maybe sunday. so we went to marc's. i don't know why my crazy mind thought that was a good idea?! of course there were like 100 people there and only like 2 lanes open! WHY?!?!?! so entertaining him was driving me insane. at least he sat in the cart for most of it. towards the end of waiting in line, i threw him in the back so he could go through everything in the cart.

then i figured since we were out and it was getting late, we would just go to mcdonald's for lunch. do you know they don't have super-size stuff anymore?! i can still get a double cheese, 20 piece nuggets or what ever else, but i can't get a calorie ridden supersize fry!!!! oh well. so i am paying at the window and next thing i know clay is crawling in the passenger seat!!! what the hell?!?!?!?!? after i got my food i had to pull in a parking space, to put him back in his car seat. thank the lord i wasn't driving down the road when he did that!

oops.......sorry, got back into the hurricane coverage. how am i going to sleep. you know my dumb ass wants to see when the eye hits! i doubt i will make it though. my eyes are getting heavy. i took a vicodin a little while ago. i wonder if that could be causing my acid reflux.

well that is it for me. i took a picuture of my betta fish, i told you all about. the one who keeps getting himself out of the water. i got a good picture, even though you can't see the water. but my lazy butt hasn't got it on here yet. everyday i see him laying there on the rock out of the water, i think he is dead! when he was out the other day, we thought he was dead, bob went to get him out and he jumped back in the water. so i always go check on him after i feed them, and he is back in the water, in his little cubby hole. i don't know how the medicine i put in there is going to help him, if it can/if he needs it, if he is never in the water!

i'm turning out the lights now, so i'm outtie!

~9-15-04~ Insert title here........

i can't think of an interesting title tonight. i am tired, and my belly hurts. i think i did better with the vicodin when i took it every 4 hours. this every now and then messes with my tummy!

i totally messed up and forgot to watch that 70's show last week! what the hell?!?! i hate when all the new shit starts and i have to get in the swing of things. there is usually one or 2 days that is jammed pack, on every channel, at the same time, stuff i want to watch. then there are days when nothing is on! i hate that!!

oh well, i forgot to update you all on the whole credit card fraud thing. i got the letter from them the other day with all the charges they "Suspect" are fraudulent. so i looked at them, and was like what the hell is this shit. half of it i couldn't even pronounce. so i called to see what the hell city/state this stuff was from, cause it was foreign to me! here it is all in canada!!!! what the hell! how did someone hi-jack my card and it end up in canada?! and for the record, MOM, it is not from using the internet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they have my actual card!!! the new card i should have got last month, since the one i have is now expired.

so they got themselves some pretty nice stuff. like i said some of the places i can't even pronounce, so i don't know what kind of store or anything, i tried to find the letter, to share it with you all, but of course, now that my house is clean, i can't find anything. then there were some charges on there from KFC and walmart! haha!! i mean they only spent like $1300. i mean they could have really went crazy, i have a pretty high limit on that one. it was only used from 8-24/8-31.

so that is all the excitement on that front.

the insurace company didn't cave and give me the extra $$ i wanted. i don't think my cousin really fought them about it, he said he could do it for what they gave me, so i am not complaining anymore. at least i don't have to come up with any out of my own pocket. except, for the extra stuff i want. so he is coming tomorrow to drop off the contract so we can officially get the ball rolling!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yipee!!!!! i'm so excited to get this done!!

i think i am going to forget about the ring for now. i was looking at bj's the other day and found a real nice one for $800. i now understand what certified diamonds are and why. the diamond was all messed up. i almost got it anyways, cause it was beautiful, but you could see obvious black specs in the center diamond, and i was like no way!!!!!

so i am seriously considering that dyson sweeper. i was vacuuming today** and what do you know that piece of shit hoover, broke!!! i don't exactly know what broke, but i know the brushes quit spinning and it wasn't picking anything up. i didn't smell the belt burning or anything and i didn't get anything caught in it. so i just cussed it out and threw it in the closet. damn close to throwing it out on the curb!!!!!!!

so i need a sweeper more than a damn ring anyways, so i am leaning towards that. i told my mom we were going to look at tv's today, we were supposed to, and she said to look for her for washer, dryer, stove, and fridge. damn mom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i printed a bunch out for her, so hopefully i can hit her up to get a hhgregg card and we both can get our new appliances! everything i want comes to about $2700. some of the things have 18 mths same as cash or 24 mths. i figure i can give her $150 a month and have it paid off in time with now interest. i already give her $200 for our camcorder and it will be paid off in janurary, so we could just use the same payment. i'm kind of excited!

bob and i are arguing over the dryer though. WHY?!?!?!? why the hell would he care if the dryer matches the washer?!?! who gives a fuck! they are both going to be white! who is going to look at them anyways?! as you all know THIS is the one i want, and THIS is the one he wants, cause it has a glass door?! now looking at it, his is cheaper, so maybe i will consider it! being as cheap as i am! :)

well that is it for me. time to get to sleep! night!

~9-14-04~ Sorry

i've been reading my blogs and spent WAY too much time at my new addiction: HERE, so now i don't have time to post cause it is LATE, and i need to get to sleep!!!!! 8am comes way toooo early for me!

hopefully i'll have something exciting to chat about later.

check back then!

~9-13-04~ Few days later

i am feeling a bit better, NOT about the experience, but i m not in physical pain so much anymore.

i have to get my stitches out friday, but i am going to call my regular dentist to see if he can do it, cause i REALLY do not wnt to see that other mans face ever again!!!! we drove pst his office today and i got a sick feeling in my stomach! so i pray my dentist will do this for me.

i don't see why he wouldn't. there was a time when a dentist was just that, and did all the things that dentist were supposed to do.....anything to do with TEETH!!! now there is a specialist who cleans your teeth, a hygenist; a person who does root canals and such, an enotdontist; a person who does extractions and whatnot, an oral surgeon. what the hell?! so what does that leave left for dentists?!?! i was there once talking about filling a molar, and he even said he doesn't do molars anymore. who does that?! in his defense, he has been doing the teeth thing since before i was even around, so i guess he made his money, why do more work if you don't have to?!

anyways.......we finally got to go eat at lolli's saturday night. our gift certificate expired the 12th, so no choice. i figured i was getting pasta so it wouldn't be tough to chew. it wasn't bad. my belly was kind of crampy from the vicodin though. i fogot the thing i HATE about lolli's is that they don't let you substitute anythng for your salad. so if i wanted soup, i still had to pay full price for the soup. oh well, STUPID!!!! i got the brocollie and cheese soup, yum! bob got the she-crab soup, YUM-YUM!!!!! then i got my angel hair pasta with salmon and shrimp in a dill cream sauce. this stuff is so damn good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the only bad thing is that after our soup, we sat there for at least a half hour before we got our food!!! by that time i wasn't even hungry anymore!!!! plus my belly was getting worse and feeling sick now. so i took it home. it's even better warmed up! so that wasn't a bad night.

we ended up watching kill bill 1 & 2. seeing how it was quentin tar (you know who) who made them, i should not have been surprised by them at all, and i wasn't really. who knew that chinese people bled so much!!!! so they were basically just goofy! and violent. i have seen worse, so i wasn't all that upset. like that dumb ass secret window i bitched about previously!

today, sunday, mom and i went shopping. i am sick of not having anything that fits!!! i'm starting to feel like a fat pig again!! so we hit fashion bug. and how crazy did i go?!? i bascially just needed tops to wear. so i got a zillion of them, head to the counter, and find out that if you had a premier fashion bug card, all original price items were 50% off and sale price items were like 30% off......WOO-HOO!!!! so my mom put them on her card. i then asked how long the sale was........it was one day only!!!!!!!!!! so hell. i told her i might as well look at the jeans and pants they had, how can you beat 50% off!!!! so i got a few pairs of those as well. spent a ton of money! in case you are wondering, i am paying for them! we just put them on her card!

then when we got home, it was time for bob, clay and i to hit the store. we went to ci ci's again for supper. then to bj's. i wasn't planning on getting much, but i sure did go crazy! i mean it was stuff we needed like food and diapers, it wasn't like the fashion bug spree! so we had a pretty busy evening. i took a vicodin before i left with mom around 2. and didn't take another one til about 10, and i wasn't even in any pain. so i guess that is good. i will take one here before i go to bed. i just don't want to wake up in pain, but i don't think i need to do the whole every 4 hours anymore.

well i guess that is all for me..........still nothing real exciting to report.

oh, while watching the game today (brown's of course) bob taught clay to raise his hands and yell "touchown!" so when i got home, he kept trying to get clay to do it, of course he wouldn't. the whole time shopping he was trying to get clay to do it. i was so happy when he finally did do it, just to shut bob up!! haha! no, it was cute! i'm glad they got to share their "first" game together today. i'm thinking it may become the norm during football season. bob can stay home and do the father/son/football thing, and i can finally start going and spending time with my mother again. before clay, and for as long as i can remember, my mom and i would always go to the movies, shoping, lunch, whatever on saturday or sunday. we haven't got to do that in over 2 years! so even though she was getting on my nerves today, i was happy that we got to spend that time together again, and looking forward to many more mom/daughter days!

~9-11-04~ Friday Fiver--i'm late!

Friday Fiver



1. When you are getting ready to leave your home, what are three things you always do?

make sure everything clay needs is in the diper bag, make sure everything i need is in my purse, make sure bob has everything he needs



2. What is the most annoying habit that you have?

i'm not annoying!!! uummm....i guess i'll just say, probably to some on here, my lack of capitialization, grammar, and spelling is annoying



3. If you could develop a new habit, what would it be?

cleaning everything really good at least one a week



4. Do you participate in any religious rituals?

not really....i do say my prayers when i go to sleep though



5. Describe one custom that is unique to your community or culture:

wow........i really can't think of one. i guess i'll use "community" as neighbor's and say we all share the "custom" of not mowing our grass as often as we should, which actually works out for us all so we don't look like the "one" who doesn't mow their damn grass!

~9-11-04~ Whatever

one quick word about my experience yesterday..........

to all of you who think i was over reacting, including my husband and my mother, SCREW YOU!!!!

yes, i know, that is harsh, but i am upset and hurt by their reaction to it all.

i know i cry at the drop of a hat, sad commercial, sad movie, what not. but i DO NOT ever go into histerac's! especially in front of people i do not know! i don't ever take myself to the edge of passing out, from being so upset. i cannot even re-tell the story of what happened, without beginning to cry again. and when i close my eyes, i go over it again in my head constantly! this was deeply affecting to me!!

my mother and husband should know this about me, and see what it has done to me, and think WOW, something must have really happened here. not just merely think, i was over-reacting.

~9-10-04~ Words cannot even express.........

how awful of am experience i just went through!!!!! that was the single worse, painful, horrific, terrifying, monsterous, agonizing, distressing...... i could go on an on, but i am in pain and am only sitting here long enough to smoke (yes, i know i am not supposed to, but if you went through the trauma i went through today....shut up!)

i have no clue why, my husband, who supposedly loves me, did not shout at me and say, "GIRL ARE YOU INSANE?!?! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BE PUT TO SLEEP TO HAVE YOUR TOOTH PULLED?!?! YOU NEED TO BE PUT TO SLEEP TO HAVE YOUR TOOTH PULLED!!!!!!!!!"

why did noone tell me this?!?!?!?!?! does everyone secretly hate me?!?!

my dentist was a insensitive, lunatic asshole, i really want to think of more words, but i hurt too much. really i may whine and say i am a baby, but really, i am a pretty strong person. especially when it comes to pain. but when that man shot those shots in my face, it was totally intollerable! it hurt worse than my tooth already felt!!!! and did not stop!!!! not to mention he wasn't a nice, good, caring doctor, who actually said there was going to be a "pinch" before each one to warn you. oh hell no. he just shot you and then basically yelled at you for almost jumping off the table.

at that point i lost almost lost it. i hurt so bad, i started crying! i was in there sobbing for a good 10 minutes, hundreds of people passing my open door, did anyone come and check on me?!?!? no. then he comes back in.......and i tell him i am in PAIN. so he starts pushing around and YES it all hurt. so he is getting shitty with me. "well you are going to feel some pressure and pushing" "you are going to have to be not so jumpy" well what the fuck?! so he hit one spot and again, i damn near jumped off the table again, while screaming that is pain not pressure. then the nurse goes, yes he is numbing you more. don't you people warn people about this shit?!?!?!?

so at this point i physically and mentally lose it!!! i am no longer just sobbing. i don't really know what a panic attack is like, but i think i came damn close to having one! oh my lord, i just wanted to call my mom! when the nurse finally came in, i told her, i don't think i can do this without being put to sleep. so she goes and gets the doctor. he says we should at least try and lets check to see if i am numb. so he pokes, just pressure no real pain. so he says "your numb" so i even asked, so it is just going to be pressure like that no more pain? oh yeah. well they fucking lied to my ass.

as the man is RIPPING my tooth out, i am litterally screaming. he is yelling at me to "hold still", "calm down", and "put your arms down" well buddy FUCK YOU!!!!! if he wasn't in the process of ripping my tooth out i would have shouted that at him.

granted it only took not even a minute. i was the physically most painful minute of my life, not to mention that i did not have supportive, caring, compassionate people around me made it worse.

i freaked out and sobbed, screamed, cried my eyes out all the way home and even after. i seriously think i am mentally scarred from that experience!!!! it was was awful, and that doesn't even accurately cover it.

my mom was like, "i've had many teeth pulled" well i don't know what the fuck. cause if everyone felt the pain that i felt, i don't know how it is legal. i don't even want to go back to this man to take out my stitches! i don't ever want to see his face again.

i honestly don't think i was numb enough. as i wrote here before. that is like my biggest fear in going to the dentist. cause i don't get numb like normal people, i always need extra.

i have a pounding headache, and my eyes hurt so bad and are soooooo puffy. right this second those may be worse than my tooth. but at least now i have to full strength vicodin. so hopefully i won' t have anymore trouble sleeping. matter of fact, i'm heading back there now!

~9-10-04~ Today is the day!!!!!

i sooooooooooo cannot wait! i mean how many people are actually excited about getting a tooth pulled?! ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i didn't post anymore yesterday, figured i'd give you all a break from my whinning. my dentist did call in and refill my perscription. so i downed that sucker as soon as i got it around 11AM. it sort of helped. but then around 1PM, i swear i thought i was going to pass out! i almost passed out once from heat, and i know the feeling. everything didn't start to get all bright and black out, but i got all light headed and sweaty. then i thought i was going to throw up. so then i was freaking, cause what was i supposed to do with clay?! and we were by ourselves! it was his nap time and i was afraid to carry him up the steps. i drank a glass of water and sat down for a few minutes. thankfully it went away.

i don't know if it was from the vicodin. i don't know if it was cause i had so many different damn medicine in my system, maybe it was the not sleeping for 2 days straight, or maybe cause i smoked, like a whole pack of cigarettes in a few hours. it was scary!!

i kind of felt spacy the rest of the day/night. my tooth started hurting again around 8 and i was afraid to take any more of those pills, but the pain won and i took one. the intense pain stopped, but you could still tell it hurt. to make it worse then, i couldn't close my mouth all the way, cause when my bottom teeth touched the sore one it hurt! what the hell now?! so it was hard to eat, and now it is hot/cold sensitive!!!!! i am SOOOOOOOOOOO glad my appointment is today. i can't believe over the course of 3 days, this tooth has got so awful. i couldn't imagine if i had to go another day!!!!

i finally got some sleep around 11PM, then my dumb ass got up when bob got home so we could watch the secret window, since it was due back today. that was a waste of damn 2 hours i could have been sleeping!!!!!!!!!!!! that movie was bad! i didn't like it. i like the steven king of cujo, pet cemetery, christine, creep show......not his newer stuff like this and dream catcher! i didn't even know it was by him, or i would have passed. so as usual, i got to sleep around 4AM. i took another pill at 3AM, and for some reason it said not to lay down for 30 minutes after taking?!

when the dentist called to confirm my appointment for today, she siad i could go in at 9:45 this morning. i seriously thought about it so i could end this agony, but i had too much stuff to do first. i want to try and eat breakfast and lunch, since i don't know if i will be able to eat after it is pulled. since it is one of my chewing teeth, my next to last top molar, i don't know what i am going to do. i mean i could sure do without food for a few days, i have plenty "on" me to last me, but i think it is going to suck!

you all probably think i am a big baby, but i never had a tooth pulled before, so i don't know what kind of shape i am going to be in after and this weekend. i don't do pain well!!!! bob told me a horror story of a dentist having to basically straddle his chest to pull one of his out!!! so now i am thinking i should have had them put me under. i just don't know about this whole thing! as anxious as i am to have this thing out of my head, i am terrified of the whole pulling thing!!!!!

well i need to go wear my child out. i'm hoping to have him down for his nap early today, hopefully around 1PM. i know if i wait for my mom to be here, he probably won't go down. so me and my sore tooth are out of here. hopefully the next time you hear from me, my suffering will FINALLY be over!!!!!!

say a prayer for me! haha!!

~9-9-04~ AWAKE

yes i am awake and i a GREAT deal of pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was going to call and leave a nasty message on my dentist's machine, but since i can't find tthe damn perscription he originally gave me.........i have looked all over this freaking house!!! i just thought it was regular ibuprofen, here it has hydrocodone, which is vicodin in it. so it would probably help if i could find it.............anyways i can't so i called to see if he could call me in a refill. i didn't tell him i lost it, but i got it back on friday and i only had 24 pills, so i could have been through them already..............

so maybe if i start popping those it will help. i am going to call the oral surgeon and see if he can get me in today. i'm not holding my breath, but you never know. if i do, then i have to find a sitter cause bob is going in 4 hours early today!!! AGH!!!!

i took some "pain pills" he gave me around 6. they sure aren't working!!! i don't know what they were, but i wouldn't call them pain pills. so now i don't know if i should go take some more advil or what!?!?!? i don't know what to do, i just know i am in god awful pain!!!!!!!!!!

where in the friggin hell can these pills be?!?!? i just re-searched my house!!!!! how can they be nowhere?!?!? i just know clay had to get his hands on them, but what could he have done with them. i have looked everywhere!!!!!!!!!

i just took 3 more advil. my stomach is probably being eaten away with all the different pills i have taken in the last 48 hours. and i am NOT a pill person! so you know i am in serious pain if i am popping pills every 15 minutes!!!!

and why the hell does this happen at night!? it's like soon as the clock hit 2AM, the pain starts!!!! what is that all about?! i mean all day i was fine, took the occasional pill, but no big deal. then BAMMMMMMMMMMMM 2am comes and i want to die!!! and nothing will help!!!!!

oh and great! now i am getting a head ache. how do i have a headache will all this shit in my system?!?!?!?

i just want to cry!!!!!!!!!!!! that is how miserable i feel!! but i know it won't help and is just a waste of energy, which i don't have since i haven't slept in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god, oh god, please PLEASE let them be able to get me in today so i can get this tooth out of my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is insane! bob told me a horror story of a tooth he had to have pulled, so that freaked me out, but at this point i really don't care. i'd even be willing to do it without being numb, anything i just want it out of me!!!! if i had the will and strength, and was crazy, i would take some pliers to it myself! that is how desperate i am.

sorry to ramble, but i don't know what else to do, i am literally going insane here!!!!

why does 9AM seem so far away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why don't these people open any sooner?! hell, if i was in no pain and sleeping peacefully, 9AM would already be here damn it!!

well i am sure you all don't want to listen to me whine anymore. maybe i'll go wake up bob and make his listen to me. or maybe i'll go stick my head in the oven.......hell, i have an electric oven!

i just can't win!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~9-9-04~ Snap, Crackle, Pop

that is the sound my tv in our bedroom made when i turned it on! i freaked out and called bob, then i smelled something burning!!!!!!!!! FUCK........what am i supposed to do, i screamed in the phone!

i checked and didn't see any flames or anything, and now the smell is gone, but what the hell was i supposed to do if the fucker was on fire?! it's not like we are safety conscience people and have a fire extinguisher. that would have sucked! well, it does suck, cause now i have no damn tv in here!!!! which means now i have to go and shell out a few hundred dollars on a frickin tv!!!! we do have one we can put in here, but knowing bob he is going to want a new one. especially since the one we have doesn't have a remote, and who in the world wants to actually get up and have to turn the tv on and off?!?! :)

so that pisses me off. i was already thinking of getting a dishwasher. not really because i want one, i haven't had one in about 6 years, so who cares, but for the fact to have it when we go to sell the house. i'm just getting a cheapy one. i don't even know if it will work right anyways, since our plumbing is all messed up.

we do have a portable one, which i was going to get installed, i may even have written about it a while back, but it is too large to fit where the old dishwasher is now. so hell. money, money, money!!! i hate spending money on stuff we really don't need.

i don't know if i told you all a few weeks back, i was thinking of getting a new washer and dryer. hhgregg had an awesome deal where they had 24 months no interest!!! that is great. i could totally have what i want paid off by then. but then i started thinking logically. the amount of laundry i do.......almost nada. why do i need to spend over $2000???? so i kind of decided to forget it until we get a new house. but the the other part of me started thinking, maybe i should get them now, so it will be paid off (or almost) by the time we get a new house. so i don't know. i usually make a big purchase and that is bob and my christmas gift. so i just don't know what to do. in case i didn't show ya, HERE is the washer i want........and HERE is the dryer i want.

as i stated i don't do laundry ofte, so i don't know if it would be worth it. in my defense, the reason i don't do laundry is our washing machine, well it is probably our plumbing, takes forever to do a load!! i am not exaggerating, it takes at least 20-30 minutes for it to fill up to start. and what, it has to do this like 2 times per load. so i hate it!!!! plus ours is so small, you can hardly fit anything into it so one of MY loads, would be like 4 loads i can fit in the machine. that is where the washing machine above is AWESOME. it is huge!!!! 22 towels in one load! now that is what i am talking about!!

i still have to discuss it with my mom, since i will probably have to have her get the hhgregg card, so we can get that special financing. so all that plus the dishwasher, and now a tv. hell! it seems just like when i get shit paid off, i end up making more bills!!!! i still need to mull it over in my brain for a while, to see what the "Smart" thing to do will be. but we definitely need the tv. haha!!

oh! and i definitely need a new damn sweeper. ya'll already heard me bitch about that i think. so that is even MORE money!!!!!! HERE is the sweeper i want.......yes the price is RIDICULOUS, but it is supposed to be the best and i am willing to pay it to get something better than that awful hoover!!!! i really can't see spending $500 on a damn vacuum, but at this point i would actually use it more than a washer or dryer. so again, I JUST DON'T KNOW what to do!!!!!!!

as for my tooth. i'm not in much pain right now. i just know if it starts hurting like it did last night, i'm about to call my damn dentist at 5AM at his HOUSE and he can "just deal with the pain" with me. jerk! that and i will leave a real nice, pain and sleep deprived, message on the office answering machine. i feel bad, i really like the guy, i've known him like my whole life, well my whole teeth having life, but this is bullshit. he can't give me anything stronger. BULLSHIT!! i'm not even asking for a bottle of pills, just give me like 4 to last til friday at 2PM, when i am getting the bitch pulled! help me out here!!!!!

this really sucks sitting here in bed, with no tv on as background noise. just doesn't feel right.

i don't know if i told ya'll. we went and looked at rings at walmart. YES walmart!!! i had a real beautiful ring there in layaway a few years ago, but my cheap ass decided i could use the money else where and cancelled it. so i went to check out THIS ring. it looks sooooooo pretty in the picture. but i didn't like it in person. i didn't like anything they had. i looked on kay's site, and i really didn't like much there either, especially in a normal price range. a found quite a few at zales, but definitely weren't the price range i was looking for!!!

it was sweet after looking at them, bob said since he has been working all this over time, we can take all that money and put it towards a ring that i really want and like. it was sweet!!! i just don't know about spending all that money. here are what i found at zales.

RING 1
RING 2
RING 3
RING 4
RING 5

these three are my favorites i think:
RING 6
RING 7
RING 8

oh well........i need to stop all this thinking of spending money, it is making my brain hurt! see ya'll tomorrow!!

~9-8-04~ F Blogger

i see it is finally fixed now! what the hell?!

well my dentist finaly called back and sai ther is nothing stronger he can give me........so basically i just have to tough it out. whatthe fuck is that?!?! yeah well, if i am up again all night, i'm about to callhis freakin house and he can just tough it out with me!!!

nothing stronger he can give me! HA! i'm too pissed to even type anymore!F him too!!!!!

WHY?!?!?!?

why can i not post?!?!

already pissed, and bloggeris going to push me to the edge!!!!!!!!!!!!

~9-8-04~ OH THE PAIN!!!!!!!

for some reason my previous post i cannot get to publish..........but anyways, i am in PAIN!!!!

my tooth is killing me! seriously! it is after 4AM, i cannot sleep!!! i have taken over 1200 mg's of advil in the past few hours.........hasn't helped one bit! i broke out clay's orajel. that is wonderful for about 10-15 minutes! but i an't fall asleep before the shit wears off, and if i did, then as soon as it wore off i'm up again.

i seriously don't know what to do!!!!

~9-8-04~ As expected.

as i stated above, my dentist proceeded to tell me that the pain i am feeling in my front bottom tooth, is transferred pain from my top back molar that is to be pulled friday. AGH!!!!!!!!! whatever....so he then proceeded to scrape and dig shit from my teeth. i was laying there all tensed up and heard this loud scrape, snap sound and he was like A-HA! i damn near shouted, "what was that my tooth?!" i was serious cause it hurt like a mother fucker! he laughed and was like, "no, look at this piece of plaque/tarter (?), isn't that cool??" i was like, "NO....it is gross, it makes it look like i never brush my teeth!!!!!" so that very much sucked. i promptly made an appointment to get my teeth cleaned, even though i am really, REALLY not looking forward to that pain!!! and i swear that i will faithfully have my teeth cleaned from now on every 6 months or year, or whatever my insurance will pay for!!!

so hopefully after friday my teeth will be pain free. i highly doubt it though. i know i am no dentist, but i just don't trust it. guess we will see. speaking of pain, i am in it, so i have to go pop my advil. back in a sec.

ok. speaking of advil, actually ibuprofen. i went to giant eagle the other day, cause they were having a sale on it and i was out. they, of course, didn't have what was in the sale paper, so i was checking out the others. so i found a box of 100 bown caplets(the long ones) for $3.99. then right beside it there was a box of 100 white caplets for $6.99. what the hell?!?! they were the same brand, same mg's, everything except the color!!! so i went and asked the pharmasist why such a huge price difference. she looked everything over and she didn't even know the difference. so what the hell??!! then while walking away, i saw the sale item i originally was looking for, box of 100 brown TABLETS (round ones), plus an additional box of 100 for $3.99. so cool! i grabbed those. who cares what color they are and their freaking shape?!?! can any of you brilliant minds out there explain any of that to me?? i'd appreciate it!

once again i thought there was something else i wanted to bitch about, but i forget. if i remember i'll post it later or tomorrow.

night!

~9-7-04~ Funny...not really

my tooth is killing me again........just like it does every 4-6 hours after my 3 advil wear off.

my dentist appointment for THAT tooth is tomorrow. and you know what. i guarantee that when i go there tomorrow, my tooth will NOT be hurting!!! not one bit!!!!!! it hurts terribly every morning, so i have to get up real quick and choke down the pills so i feel better in a half hour. but sure as shit, it won't be hurting a bit tomorrow morning! sigh!

i am so sick of tooth pain! as much as i am not looking forward to losing my OTHER tooth on friday, i am looking forward to not being in pain anymore. i'm sure as soon as that is over, that another one or two will start with there pain! fucking teeth! i told bob i should just get them all pulled and get false ones. but then i laughed and said i would be one of those lazy asses that go around and never wear them!! haha! he agreed that i actually WOULD do that, and he doesn't want that, nor think it is funny. haha!! i would not go out in public like that! around the house, now that is another story..........

so almost noone updated their blogs today. noone except kitchenlogic!!! i know it was a holiday and all, but come on people. there are "no-lifers" out there like me, who look forward to this time every night, to sit and read about the excitement of YOUR life, since i have none! :) granted i haven't updated either, but then again, i am boring, so.........

ok, what the hell. conan is a repeat tonight. they just had 2 freaking weeks off for the olympics, they need more time off and continue to show repeats?!?! leno is new!!!!!

speaking of new shows, did any of you catch, how clean is your house on lifetime tonight? for some reason it is on at 11pm, which i don't think is going to bode well for ratings, but, not my paycheck.......

anyways, all i can say is OH MY GOD, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?! now i am by NO means saying i am miss neat body. i am WAY far from it, but if you seen these people's house!!!! it was friggin disgusting. i am going to sit my mother down and make her watch it, cause i don't EVER, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever want to hear her talk about my house again!!!!!!!!

these people had 5 kids (all of age to help clean up after themselves) 10 cats, 2 rats and 1 snake. well their house looked like a huge trash bin. you have to give it to the host ladies, they are english (i think the show is a big hit over there in BBC land) they are a trip! funny, funny! there was cat pee and poop everywhere around the litter box. bugs in the litter box. some sort of pee stains on the carpets and furniture. the kids rooms, looked like, i don't even know, just awful. you couldn't even see the floors, or the beds! the parents room was the same way. with a bunch of food and food boxes all over the beds!

the kitchen. looked like they had a party for 50 people and the dishes were all over the drainboard and overflowing from the sink. you open the fridge and the bottom of the fridge was like black and green from shit that was spilled and never cleaned! one of the cleaning ladies took a swab of the goo, there were 3 different strains of bacteria and fly parts!!!!!!!!! GAG!!!!!!!!!

also in all of the corners of the house there were cob webs. and i don't mean a stray cob web here and there. they were THICK!!! and FULL of spiders and live bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all over the freaking house!!!!

it was totally disgusting and i don't even understand how those people were not totally emabarrassed to have that shown on tv!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! granted they got their house cleaned and all, but that just wouldn't be worth it. i would be utterly humiliated!!!!!

you have to check it out.............

then the new renovate my family was on. i was LOVING the house they did last week!! this damn week it is in 2 parts! fuckers!! and YES, i was balling my eyes out!

fear factor was its usual self. it just pisses me off when people go on there and then want to not do the gross shit. HELLO!!!! do you know what show you are on?!?!?!? what the freak do you expect?!?! that is half the reason i would never go on the show (the other half being i couln't do all the physical stuff either). i could not eat anything! now i could have all the creepy crawlies crawl on me and shit. that is no big deal what-so-ever. i may even be able to put some of the gross stuff in my mouth as long as i didn't have to eat or swallow it. but that is about it.

so what is it about age 2?! my sons hits it then all of a sudden his sleep is changed?! he is now up around 8 or shortly after. what the hell?!?!?!? and now his usally almost 3 hour naps are down to maybe an hour and a half!!!! i mean this all just started this week!!!!!!!!!

i know i read that when they hit some of their "milestones" their sleep patterns may change, so maybe he is about to do something big........like maybe finally start talking?!?!?!?!?!

he did say bye-bye the other day....plain as day!!!! but he only says it when he "is" going bye-bye (or acting like it). he was telling everyone in walmart the other night bye-bye while we were walking out! yes, it was absolutely darling!!!!!!!!!!! but i want him to say bye-bye to people I KNOW, when they are leaving us! oh well. at least he is saying it.

when talking with the pediatrician the other day about his speech, it has been an issue for a while, since he wasn't saying anything, she asked if i kept a list for his baby book of the words he does say. **bad mommy moment** baby book, what is that!! ha! i had all this stuff i wanted to write down, and i kept saying oh i'll remember to write it down later. well it is 2 years now, and later still isn't here and i sure as hell don't remember any of it. i know it sucks! and i could kick myself now for not being more up on it. they do grow up so fast!!!

anyways, he may not say a lot of words, but he does know all his alphabet, except Q, and his numbers 1-9. so shouldn't that count as 34 words?!?! she said there probably isn't a problem, since he does know the above. then she always asks at these visits like does he tell you what he wants...like what he wants to do or what he wants to eat. HUH?! we never really ask him of give him the chance. when we get up, he gets his breakfast, when it is 12:30 he gets his lunch, same with dinner. i never have him TELL me his is hungry! and he usually gets what we give him, we don't ASK what he wants. i don't even think he would know what anything is to tell us. so there lies our problem i think. i think we need to verbalize what we are doing and giving him more. but then again we never "taught" him his ABC's, he just somehow "got it". so there is my new mommy job. i have to start "teaching" him more in our everyday life. i mean don't get me wrong, i don't think i am doing anything wrong, but it can't hurt to start teaching him what CEREAL is, or YOGURT, he does know cheese, and cracker. oh well, enough about that!

enough about everything really, this turned out to be a long post!!! i'll let you all relax now! night.

~9-7-04~ HUH?

why did my last post say it is 1:55am, it isn't even 1:30am yet!

i'll see what this one says.

~9-4-04~ Quick Bitch

the other day on my called id i saw call from providian, one of my credit cards. i wondered what the hell they wanted cause ijust closed one of them and the other i don't use cause of the high interest. i thought maybe they screwed something up, they are known to do, so after i just paid my bills i went over to their site to heck my accounts.

well the account that is still open and has no balance, it says cannot access, call such and such number. i was like whatthe hell?!?! then i noticed that it said my balance was like $1200!!!!!!

oh hell no it isn't! i haven't used that card since christmas, and it has been long paid off! so i quickly called the number on my screen, of course they are closed! but it said that it was the fraud department!!!!!

so what?! has someone used my card?!?! i'm so pissed right now! and it better the fuck not be my husband!!! yes, he has been known to do such stupid shit! but the thing is, my cards are all hidden, so he couldn't have used the actual card, or anyone else for that matter. so it had to be something online. so now i am all stressed. i actually can't wait til 8AM now! now watch these fuckers not be open again til monday! oh hell, monday is a holiday!!!!!!!!!!! if i have to go 3 days til i find out what the fuck, i'm gonna be pissed! and they haven't even called back since 8/31. or even sent me an email, what the fuck. i think that would be important enough to call every few hours, like they would if i owed them money!!!!!

which leads me to another quick bitch about credit cards. my damn citibank card is pissing me off. i can't really bitch much about them, since they are a "real" card...not like my other post-bankruptcy cards. anyways, i paid my bill the 2nd of august, well here my statement didn't start til the 6th, so the payment i made was applied to july's bill, not august, so now they are saying i am past due!!!! charging me a late fee, and raising my interest rate, from the intro. 0%. so i am HOT!!!!! so i had to make an additional double payment, so my card wouldn't be deactivated!!!!! i asked the dude on the phone about taking the late fee off and putting my interest rate back down and he said they should since this is the first time. well, they damn well better! i've been using this card like a freak cause i get points, i know they suckered me into it, but i also try to pay off what i put on it that month though as well. so it isn't like i am making the measly minimum payment. yet i am being "punished" for paying EARLY!!! what the fuck?!

ok, i have to go to bed now. holy hell it is 4 AM!!!! shit.......night!

~9-3-04~ Friday

well........

clay had his 2 year check up today. it was fairly simple. he weighs 27 pounds, 45% and he is like 32 inches, he is a shorty! only 25% there. but i already knew that. it is so funny seeing him wear size 2 pants, they are sooooo long on him. they only down side is that she wants him to have another lead test!!!!!!! she wanted me to do it today, but there was no way in hell i was doing that on my own!!! bob needs to be there when needles are involved. last time he got a lead test it was HORRENDOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for some absurd reason they don't do the finger prick thing anymore. so they have to stick a needle in your arm and draw it that way. he got his when he was 9 months old. this dumb ass nurse couldn't get it in or something and she was taking forever. bob and a nurse were holding clay down on the table, he was screaming, i was crying, about to start screaming at the damn nurses.......it was pure torture for me!!!! i DO NOT want to go through that again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i don't know if we are or not. i mean i know it is for the best to make sure everything is ok. but i really, really, really doubt that he has been exposed to lead in this house. we have painted everything in this house when we moved in, so there is no loose or chipped paint anywhere. so i don't know.

on to my fishes health. i looked at him today and the 2 lumps that were on his sides (opposite each other) seem to have went away, but that third lump seems kind of worse and black. so i don't know what the hell. my beta looks pretty ragged too. the past few days he is like laying on this rock half out of the water!!!! i actually thought he was dead the other day, because of him laying like that, but later he was eating. i just can't believe he lays there with his head out of the water.......so weird!!!! hopefully i'll get to the pet store this weekend.

we are supposed to go out to eat this weekend for bob's belated birthday. we still haven't used our gift certificate for bob "winning" at the myster dinner theater. it is about to expire, so i figured we'd go there. now he might work over again tonight/tomorrow, so we may have to go sunday instead. i feel so bad for all that he has been working. then he said the next time he is on midnights he may be working a few doubles as well. i mean the paycheck is going to be really nice, but i know he is beat. hopefully that lady doesn't call to do any windows for a few weeks!!

i called the dentist last night, cause once again my tooth was KILLING me. i just wanted to get in soon. they called back and said he was going to call me in a perscription for the pain. and i also made an appointment for tuesday at 10AM, poor bob, once again he is going to be short on sleep.....more over time, he will get home at 4am, and then have to get up with clay at 9. hopefully i'll be home by noon then he can go back to sleep for a few hours before he has to go back in at 3.

so lucky me, i get to have my teeth worked on twice next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am just soooooooo not looking forward to getting my tooth pulled. i am so stressed about that!!

anyways.....i got my perscription, after waiting for like a damn half hour at the counter!!!!! but i had a nifty coupon for walgreens. if you bring in a new perscription they give you a check to spend in the store for $20. so i spent $6 on the perscription, so i got $14! i also had a coupon for hour photo processing for $2.99. i found a roll of film in the spare bedroom. i haven't had a camera that used actually film since right before clay was born, 2 years ago, so i had no clue what was on there.

it was funny. there are like 2 pictures from my wedding 3-9-02. the rest were all from christmas of 2001!!!! that was the year bob made out like a bandit!! i went crazy with the christmas! my 2 cousins look so young, if you see them now!!! there was also a picture of my great uncle, who passed away just after christmas this past year. i have quite a few of my family which i am happy about. i always take my camera so i can get pictures of everyone and then never do it. i always tell myself to take pictures, cause you never know when someone isn't going to be around anymore. i know it is awful to think that way, but when it does happen like this past year, then you reguret not having those memories on film or video. so i am glad that i did that back in 2001. just have to keep it up now.

boy i am rambling!! here is the friday 5. i want to start doing this, if i remember. i found a few for saturday and sunday as well, but i don't think they are current. guess we will see if my brain holds up. anyways, here is this weeks:

Friday Fiver

1. What are you looking forward to this fall?

i am hoping to finally take clay trick or treating this year. it sucks that they made it during the day now, cause it is usually during his nap time! i'm looking forward to wearing fall/winter clothes. since i never lost the weight i wanted to, the more i can cover up the better! haha!

2. What do you regret in the past year?

i regret not doing more this spring/summer with clay. i had it all planned out that soon as the weather got nice we would be walking down to the park everyday. that way i could get clay out of the house, and doing something different, plus i was hoping it would bring on the weight loss i was hoping to acheive this summer. didn't happen!!

3. Who was your favorite teacher?

i've had a few over the years. the ones i really remember are mr. wagely, he was my 8th grade homeroom/social studies teacher. he was so funny and a great guy! i also loved my 7th grade homeroom/social studies teacher mr. fuller. sadly i found out that a few years back, he passed away. i never found out what happend, he was really young, 40's. another one of my favorite teacher's wasn't even actually one of my teachers. mr. miller. he was great. i would have loved to have him for a class! my newstaff/creative writing teacher mr. smith was a trip too!

4. What was your favorite subject?

wow, favorite........hmmmm............i liked newstaff and creative writing alot. i really liked my photography class too. i don't think i really had a favorite. i didn't really hate anything, but its not like i really looked forward to any one either. if i did it was more so for the people, not the actual subject.

5. I've handed you $500 that you must spend new clothing for the fall. Tell us how you'd spend it.

well as i have stated before, i am cheap! i'd probably go to burlington coat factory, or to pluto's closet (resale shop) i've found some cute stuff at fashion bug and dots though too. i don't think i have ever spent $500 on clothes. i'm just not a spend money on clothes type of girl!

well that is it for me...........see ya'll later!

~8-3-04~ Well....

i don't know what is up with my fish. he has several HUGE lumps on him. i looked and looked over the damn internet and couldn't come up with anything.

he seems to still be eating well, so hopefully i still have time. i'm hoping to get to the pet store tomorrow to see what they suggest. sigh! f-ing fish!!!! i think they are more trouble than other pets!!!! it just sucks, cause it is probably my own fault that they are sick, so then i get myself all upset and depressed. then i go and get more?! what the hell is wrong with me?! i really am getting no more after all these disappear! i'm the only one who takes care of them, and i don't even do that good of a job, so i'm done with it all. one of my guppies just had about 30 babies the other day. but out of those usually only about 2 survive, and then don't make it past a few months anyways. snails, now those are a different story! i've had an aquarium that has been unhooked, and empty of fish for months, and months now, and those bastards are still alive in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i keep yelling at bob to go dump them at the park in one of the ponds....will it ever happen?! you know i can't kill them!!!!!!!! so one day i'll be here with 4 empty aquariums, but they will still be up cause they are filled with snails and nothing else! UGH!

for those of you still curious about the insurance thing.........i just laid down the other day after putting clay down, and thought, those fuckers at the insurance place must not be planning on calling me even after i wrote them that "awesome letter. not even a minute after i thought that, the phone rang, and it was them. he said they wanted an itemized estimate from the contractor, blah, blah, blah.......... so i talked to my cousin, and i don't know what he is going to do. he was supposed to call me today after talking to them, but i didn't hear from him. he keeps saying that the $900 is no big deal we can work it out. yeah, that is great, but now it is just the idea that they should be paying what i need. especially after all the damn money i pay them every freaking year for the damn insurance!!!!! oh well. hopefully it will all be over soon. i just want my house done. i can't wait til it is all pretty!!

clay has his 2 year appointment tomorrow. so i'll get to see how tall he is and what he weighs. my baby is getting soooo big! i'm sort of afraid though. i don't know if it was the last time, or what, but one time we took him there, afterwards he got sick!!! so now i am all terrified to go in that damn place all festering with germs!!!!!!!!!!!! so fingers crossed, that we will be ok. and thank heavens he is done with all of his shots til he is 4. those killed me!!! i know it hurt me worse than it hurt him!

i pulled a gray hair out of my head last night!!!!!!!!! A GRAY HAIR!!!!

i seen it all shimmering in the mirror, and i was like what the hell. at first i just thought it was just a stray blond highlight, but seeing how almost all of my blonde is gone now, and this was all the way to the root, i looked closer. it sure was a gray hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that scares the shit out of me. my family (mom's side) gets gray very early. i mean i don't even remember any of them without gray hair. my uncle isn't even 50 yet, and like i said as long as i can remember he has had gray hair!!!!!!! my dad on the other had, i don't even think he had any gray hairs, and if he did it was very few. so hopefully i will get that from him, and not be prematurely gray. hopefully my one was just a fluke. i did search for more, but didn't find any.......yet.

well i am done rambling.........night!