~9-23-04~ PMS

not me...........my husband!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm serious! i think i just wrote this exact same thing a month ago, so i am almost positive now that men go through this as well!

i don't know what the fuck his problem was. granted he has been working alot again lately, so he probably hasn't been getting so much sleep, but goddamn! don't take the shit out on me!!!!!!

he came down with an attitude, so then it gave me an attitude, so then he got mad at me for having an attitude!!!

what the fuck?!

i didn't thank him for getting clay this morning and letting me sleep in. well he wasn't 100% being unslefish there! he had to go get his car from the shop (don't even get me started on that subject) at 10, he gets home about 8:10, so he was going to get clay, then asked me if i just wanted him to take clay with him. well, hell yeah! the poor kid never gets out of the house on my watch. so they got home aroud noon:30, so i got up, got clay his lunch and put him to sleep. bob didn'g to to sleep til about 2:30, i don't know what the hell he was doing. i was supposed to get him up at 10. he was up at about 9:30. whatever..........anyways, he starts yelling that i didn't thank him or anything for getting clay and letting me sleep today. well, firstly i didn't know i had to thank him for taking care of his child!!!!!! and secondly, if he didn't have to go get his car at 10:30, his ass would have went straight to bed when he got home for work!!!!!!!!!!! so how is he going to act like he was all doing me a favor by taking care of his son for a few hours!!!!!!!!! what the hell would he do if i worked?! he would have to come home and take care of his son!!!!!!!!!!!!

so anyways, i was in the process of cleaning his gym bag. since he doesn't take care of his stuff, it was laying down on the basement floor so it was all dusty and dirty. he asked me earlier if i could wipe it off for him. sure, no problem.......even though it isn't mine, and if you took care of your shit it wouldn't be all dirty........i was doing it. until he got attitude that is. even though his original attitude, i still asked if he wanted me to heat up dinner for him, he said yes........by that time the commercials were over on the bachelor, so i headed back to the tv room real quick. then he yells in about my clothes still being in the dryer. OH THE HORROR!!!!!!! and there being no basket down there and i should have got them out, and don't leave fucking clothes in the dryer. so i was like, ok, funny that i had to take your clothes out of the dryer to put mine, that are in there, in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so after the commercial, i went down to get my clothes, cause who knew what he did with them when he took them out. luckily there was a hamper down there and he put them in there. but wasn't that sooooooooooo nice of him to carry it back up with him when he came?!?! asshole!!! so i was like, he couldn't fucking carry my clothes up for me, then i can't fix him his plate of food, or finish cleaning out HIS gym bag!!!!!!!!!

so i started folding my clothes and he yelled something about, is his food ready yet? i said probably. so he went and got it. oh and at some point again, he brought up the fact that I should do his laundry for him. so AGAIN i said the same thing i always do.......if you put your clothes in the hamper like i told you, i would do your clothes!!!! WHY, oh WHY is that so difficult?! i am not going room to room, picking clothes up off the floor, beds, whatever, wondering what is clean what is dirty. put your freaking dirty clothes in the hamper!!! how f'ing hard is that?!?!?!?!?!? you must not want your laundry done too bad then!

at some point he calmed down and started talking to me in a normal tone of voice. so i went out to finish his gym bag, and he came in and finished it. we watched the rest of the bachelor together in harmony.

i hate that shit so much. what was the point of all that??!?!?! just to end up all happy and back to normal?!?!

i was actually thinking about letting him get lucky since he has been working so much/hard lately. then he pulls this shit!! and yeah, it may be done and over/forgotten for him. but NOT ME!!!! i am still pissed!!!!! for some reason he doesn't understand this!!!! he does this all the time. i always get to the point where i am all going to give the boy some good lovin, and do something real cute and sexy what not, since he has been acting "right" then BOOM......he does some dumb ass shit to piss me off, and totally get me out of the mood!!! and he should know by now, stuff sticks with me for a long time!!

well let me get off of all that. i don't want to get my self all wound up again and not be able to sleep!

i even made cookies tonight to be good wife, and i got attitude!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, i'm done with all that........next topic..........

hhhmmmmmmm........what...............i guess i could always talk about my tv shows.

i watched my soaps, one life to live and guiding light, today (i actually didn't go to sleep when i put clay down!) talk about lost. i am sooo confused what is going on on them!!!! oh well! the only thing i got to watch tonight was the bachelor. you will have to forgive me cause i don't know any of the broad's name's yet. i can't stand that blonde broad. she didn't even like the guy that got picked, she is just a bitch. i was sooooo glad that he also picked the girl she is always trying to dog on. he also picked stalker lady. i don't know how that is going to work out. i liked some of the other's he picked. like the first one, and the one who said she is shy, oh, and also the red head. i know ya'll have no clue who i am talking about. sorry! i can't wait to see who the 2 ladies from the previous bachelor are, who are coming. i hope it is next week, and i hope it is trish!!!! but i don't think she would be a good match to the guy that was picked. but i just love her!!!!!

i can't wait for ER tomorrow! i don't know why. they usually upset me and make me cry. bob always asks why in the world i watch it. i am pissed that they fired that british lady. i like her character alot. i liked how they were finally getting her back into relationships after mark died. well, now that is over! i also heard that carter wasn't going to be back after this season. not to mention that i don't think the lady he just lost the baby with is going to be around this season. they are bringing on some new love interest for him, which is stupid! i thought he really had something special with the other one!!

god carson daly is so freaking dumb!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to shoot him!!

one tidit from the news, that freak jimmy swaggert, made a lovely statement recently that, "if a gay man hit on him, he would kill him" how godly and christian is that statement?!?!!? this world we live in just makes me sick!! that is why i don't even watch the news any more! so many terrible things going on in this world. i just get so sad and scared for clay!!!!

i will leave you with an excerpt from a blog i read, nine feet deep, she says it so well here!!!! i often want to write my feelings on this subject, but it just disgusts me and saddens me, so i can't bring my self to it. she states my feelings EXACTLY!!!!!

this beheading business is making me angry. it needs to stop. in this day and age, people just shouldn't be running around doing that kind of bullshit. and as pissed off as i am about all this crap, i'm even more angry at the fact the we are still over there at all.

it's not our job to police the world ladies and gentlemen. some people don't want to be exactly like us, ok?

and why the hell would anyone want our freedom anyways? lets perfect the product before we put it up as an ideal m'kay? and it's FAR from perfect, people. we have hate crimes galore, lying politicians, not enough food for our children even tho we are quite arguably the wealthiest nation on the planet, our borders are not secure and our school system sucks. who are we to point fingers and send clean up crews anyways? our society is a mess too.

one really needs to clean their own house before they offer to clean their neighbors'.

we need to let the Iraqis have their own struggles and turmoil and hard fought battles for their freedom. we did and we should STILL be fighting.

OVER HERE for crissake.

there are too many things wrong in our own country to be running all over the world trying to fix everyone else's countries. people need to own their own freedom, democracy (if that's what they want), justice and happiness. we can't fight for them, they need to do it themselves. stuff you didn't have to fight for usually isn't worth having anyways. there is no value in it.