~10-29-04~ Checking in

i just went and checked in on the conspiracy guy i told ya'll about. i wish i could move in with the guy for a week, so see what the hell he is talking about, so i could smack him and tell him he is crazy or tell him ya, he is right, the government is after you....sorry for him!!!!

did you all see conspiracy theory with mel gibson? that was SUCH a good movie!!!!!

~10-29-04~ Boring Day

not much to talk about today.

after my nap, i pretty much just cooked dinner all night! i actually made the whole shebang. i had a pork roast in the crock pot all day. then i fixed some mixed veggies, fake mashed potatoes and even made cressant rolls.

of course i got to do all of the last part, cause bob took himself and clay to get hair cuts. that meant i even got to take a shower while doing all of the above!! how nice it is to move at your own pace of doing things and not tripping over a toddler while cooking dinner!

i guess the only exciting thing about tonight......well not exciting really, but anyways, how about the older lady on survivor, scout, have a PARTNER! and by partner, i mean another female! i sure wasn't expecting that one!!!! WOW!!

ER was a repeat....fuckers! so i watched some cool show on discover HD about worlds biggest and baddest bugs. like scorpions, spiders, bees. after that i watched nature's vampires on animal channel. that was FREAKY!!! especially that guy who got bit by some fly who's larva digs into your skin to eat!!!!! oh my god, how foul is that!!! talk about the willies. i had goose bumps on goose bumps listening to that story!!!!! i still can't help to think that bats are cute. granted i have never been bit by one, that may change my opinion. so i watched a bunch of creepy crawling stuff tonight, i like stuff like that. the last thing i watched was semi-hosted by elvira. do you think she make enough money just this one week a year, so she does nothing else the rest of the year?????

that is all here in my exciting life!!!!!!

~10-28-04~ Lunar eclipse

well, i sat out all night trying to get pictures of the eclipse for you all. ihope you appreciate it!!!! kidding, i was mostly doing it for me, cause i am into that shit.

it was going pretty well, but when the moon finally began to come out of the shadow, my camera would just focus in and out of the bright part. {pictures are below}

it looked VERY cool, i wish to god i could have got pictures of the latter stages. it was great. it was actually my first eclipse!!! there won't be another total lunar eclipse til feb. 08! i'm glad i caught this one.

i'm happy with the pictures i got though. after all the rigging i had to do to get my camera attached to my camcorder tripod, some better have turned out of i would have been real pissed!!!

i didn't make it to walmart today. i was lazy! my nap was interrupted by my grandfather today! he had to pick up my mom's car keys, to get her car. she went on a bus trip and didn't want to leave her car att he bus pick up. i figured he would be here at his normal time. NO!! iheard him down there banging on the door, but i sure wasn't getting out of bed damn it! it was only 3 and i had at least another hour of sleep!!!! then he kept banging, and i was like fuck he is going to wake clay up!!!! next thing i know he is knocking and walking in my bedroom!! goddamn front door!!!!!! i can't wait til i get a new one!!! then he asked why the handle wouldn't turn but after he pushed on it a bit it opened.....well cause my door sucks!!! who the hell pushes on a locked door anyways?!?!? especially if you knocking for 15 minutes noone comes to answer?!?!?! so he got the key and was on his way. not even a half hour later clay was up!!!!! so i wasn't in a shopping mood. which in a way is a good thing, cause bob worked on the pool for about 15 minutes! so now it is futher strewn over my back yard, but at least it is almost empty. i don't know what his next plan of action is. he is currently begging for a leaf blower/sucker/mulcher type thing. i should tell him if he gets the pool done then we can get one. i kind of checked prices at sears, and they had a craftsman for like $35. MAYBE i'll go for that. i will check more prices first. just get out there and rake damn it!!! what did people do before those things were invented?!?! no i have no sympathy! i'm still pissed at him for last weekend.

so where are the scary monsters(?) on lost??? they haven't shown up the past few episodes. and WHAT THE HELL happened to last comic standing???? there was only one episode left. did i miss it or something?!?!?!?!

the bachelor was ok tonight. i don't know why he is keeping those 2 blondes i don't like them. i did like mary. even though she may have seemed psycho, i would be the same way. that is a pretty fucked up situation, and living with all those other broads who are also all over "your" man. who wouldn't go nuts?!?!

wife swap was ok, i didn't really get to see the last half hour of it, since i was out checking out the moon. i dvr'd it though! maybe i'll check it out tomorrow instead of cartoons. i've been going through the guide and dvr'ing a bunch of stuff that will be good to watch when nothing else is on.

i think that is about it for my day! hope you all had a nice one! don't forget to check out my AWESOME pictures! :)

total eclipse 

about total eclipse 

little past total eclipse 

getting ready... 

almost there.... 

Just starting to peek through 

it all went to hell from here 

~10-27-04~ Now WTF blogger?!?!?!

well, it took forever for me to be able to access this damn thing.

so HERE is my post from last night.

it is sort of long, so there was no way to re-type it, so i just linked to it.

why is my time always fucked up on this damn site too?! i'm really starting to hate you blogger!!!!

~10-26-04~ Well...

NO suckers today, so hopefully nap time will g well today. god knows i am in dire (sp?) NEED of one!!!!!

~10-26-04~ Now what?!

my child did not nap today!!!! what the hell?!

mybe it is my own fault for complaining about not getting to go trick or treating! if that is the case i will gladly miss trick or treating.....i have learned since friday (no nap), saturday (no nap), and today (no nap), that I need my damn nap!!!!!!!!!!

hopefully it was just due to the fact that my grandfather gave him 3 suckers a half hour before nap time!!!!!!!

bedtime went well, but after i left the room, i thought, "did i put the rail tohis crib up??" i really don't think i did, but i didn't want to go back in there, ause then he surely would throw a fit. so hopefully he won't notice and not climb out in the morning. i figured if he was going to he already would have.

my husbands feet are smelling something awful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so tempted to wake him up and make him go wash them!!! ACK!!!!! i lit a damn candle, i hope that will help my poor nose! can people not smell their feet?!?! i worked with this girl, who had that same problem. as soon as she would take her shoes off, which she always would under the desk, you could smell them!!!!!!!!!! it drove me insane!!!!!! i'd rather cahnge a poopy diaper!!!! UGH, makes me ill, just thinking about it. maybe i'll get some powder and put it on his feet.

i'm so excited!!! the new walmart is opening on wednesday!!! now instead of driving to massillon, 11 miles/16 minutes, i only have to drive to NE canton, 6 miles/9 minutes. woo-hoo!!! i really can't wait til the one opens out by canton center. that one will be much closer, only 2.5 miles!! i don't know though, the one i usually go to in massillon is nice, cause there is a lowe's there too, so we usually hit both. there is also a ci ci's pizza to eat at!! that way we don't have to go out to belden village to hit those.

i just got done paying bills a little bit ago. how depressing!!!! all that money gone in a half hour!!!!! that just sucks!! now we are poor again, for another 2 weeks!!!

granted i pay like quadrupal on my bills, but how else do credit cards get paid off?!?!? i mean if we need the money, i could just pay those less. bob and i were just talking about buying a new house, and what people do who buy a house and their house hasn't sold yet. do you have 2 house payments??!?!? who could do that?!?!?! then i figured it out, i am basically paying my mother damn near a house payment!!! once i get her paid off, we will easily have an extra $500 a month. she should be paid off in 7 months. so that gives me a little hope on the money situation. as long as we don't go nuts, and charge up even more on the credit cards we have now.

we have been doing good lately. hell we haven't even beem to walmart in about a month. granted that is going to change in 2 days, but come on, i need my walmart fix! if we could just quit buying clay a ton of shit whenever we are out, that would be a start! but come on, kids always need new toys, right?!?!? yeah! remind me to take a picture and show you his play room and my living room. but he is spoiled, what can i say.

in our defense, so far we really haven't got him anything for his birthday's or christmas's. he is still too young to know what is going on. he gets some stuff from family and plenty from us through out the rest of the year, s don't feel bad for the kid!!

i'm out of pretzels and really don't want to run down to see if i have anymore down there. i somehow got on a pretzel kick. i sit and eat them here in bed while i am on the computer. at first it was pringles. then i went to pretzels. now i am craving them!!! ok i found some. not what i wanted though. i was eating the sour dough pretzel bites. now i have the regular thin pretzels. not the same thing at all!!! beggars can't be chosers i guess.

well i am going to go find some powder and try to eat my pretzels in a pleasant smelling room! night-night.

~10-25-04~ Well hell!

why do sicko crazy people have to ruin everything!!!!!

i just found out that trick or treat here, is sunday from 3-5. this is TOTALLY clay's nap time!!!!

i mean i figured it would be, but something a bit more do-able, like 2-4 or 5-7 would have been great!!!!

i just don't know if i can keep my child up that long. if he doesn't get his nap he starts falling asleep on his feet around 5!!!! then i have to fight to keep him up til 8-9.

so, crap!!! i don't know what to do. he looks so damn cute in his costume!!

some of bob's friends are having a halloween party, maybe we will just have to go go that instead. god! then i will have to be social!! that has definitely NOT been me lately.

{sigh}

~10-25-04~ Happy Birthday Molly!!!!

even though to me, it is still technicaly sunday the 24th, it actually is the 25th and molly's 30th birthday!!

her surprise party was this past saturday. the party itself went great, other parts of the day sucked.

i knew i was going to be late since clay doesn't even et up from his nap til after 4, the party started at 4. no biggie. bob was i major asshole mode again, so that just made me in a lovely mood for the party...he did not go with me, which was the reason for my current status of not liking him. he is a selfish bastard, and we will leave it at that for now.

anyways we get there, and right away clay was off and running!! that child didn't quit the whole tme we were there, which was great for him, no so great for mommy having to chase and watch hm the whole time.

come to find out that molly was in an accident on her way to the party!!!!! her car got totalled!! it wasn't her fault. at least she had a party to go to afterwards! ha! she even beat me there, being in an accident and all. well the party went great. she had a great turn out and a lot of nice stuff. unfortunately my gift hasn't came yet, i'd post a picture of it, but in the slim chance that she would get on here and see it, makes that a no-no. i'll post a picture of it after i give it to her. i love it!! hopefully it will be here this week.

today, sunday, wasn't any better, my husband is still an ass! i'm still upset from yesterday....the fact that we haven't even discussed it probably makes it worse, but i am so tired of talking and arguing! plus he hasn't even came to me to talk, so fuck it! i stayed in bed damn near all day today. i was going to get up and go shopping and to his friends after clay's nap, but he pissed me off again, so i wasn't going anywhere he was going to be. not even the same room, so i basically didn't even see him today. oh well.

an update on clay.........

so saturday i put him down for his nap, of course since i needed him to sleep so i could get ready for the party, he took forever going down, crying and every thing. i don't know what was up with that, he had been doing so good lately. so anyways, i go in to get him up and ready after 4 and i notice that the tent is unzipped. what the hell?!?!?! i know i zipped it, cause i have to fight with him to do it. hhhmmmmmmmmm

so saturday night he also went down fine. he didn't cry, but he is also back to his pissing around for an hour or so before he finally falls asleep. i had bob get up with him this morning, he comes back in and asked, "did you go unzip that??" NO, my child knows how to unzip the damn tent!!!!! thank god he hasn't climbed out yet!!!! so my hopes are still high that the tent will work.

i put him down for his nap today and i wasn't going to zip it, he goes "mom" and goes to the zipper. so i zipped it up, gave him his kiss through the tent, and left. i got in my room just to hear the zipper unzipping! that little turkey!!!! i kind of feel better though, i didn't like the idea of him "caged" in there. so at least he can still lean out and look out the window, he likes that. just as long as he doesn't start climbing out again!! UGH!!!

i watched home on the range and van helsing this weekend. i wasn't impressed with home on the range. it really wasn't that funny. granted i was still pissed when watching, i was hoping it would lighten my mood, but i didn't even laugh once! what the hell?!?! i only gave it 1 star out of 5.

as for van helsing....if you didn't see it skip this part, cause i don't want to give anything away.

how in the hell did that broad die at the end?! it didn't look like the werewolf bit her or anything. it just looked like he jumped on her. what the hell?!?!? that was like the least brutal thing she had been through the whole movie!!!! she was thrown through roofs, bashed into walls, thrown around like a rag doll, dropped from great heights, yet something jumps on her and she dies?!?!? that was just dumb!!! and it really wasn't a bad movie. but that part just pissed me off!!! the dvd had some cool extras. i give it a 3 out of 5 stars.

that is all for my fun filled weekend!!!!

~10-22-04~ Break time

i'm babysitting.....well actually bobis babysitting right this minute, i came up to smoke.

last night went well again. i also had every intention of going to bed early, BUT i started looking at damn houses. i don't know why i do that! we are no where need ready or able to get another house. and of course i find a few that i just LOVE, which means bob will hate them. sigh!

we are supposed to get our nre DVR-HD box today. YEAH! that may meanno nap for me today. i'd like to getthe old one disconnected and taken out before the guy gets here. it is abig mess back ther, and i hate people messing with the way i have stuff hooked up. he is supposed to be here between 4-6. last time they dicked me and didn't show up. i called to get my $25 credit you are supposed toget when they aren't on time or don't show, and they tried to tell me the guy called twice and got no answer. BULLSHIT!!!! my ass was home all day. the only thing, clay had the phone off the hook, well that means if the guy called he would have got a busy signal, which would usually mean someone IS home, they are on the phone!!!!!! so i argued, but i guess their word wins over mine, who was right!!!! fuckers!!!! i pay those bastards almost $200 a month, you think i would get special treatment! yeah, right!

anyways, he better show, i'm excited to play with my new toy tonight, since nothing is on after joan of arcadia. mayeb i will even dvr it and watch it later! haha!! i love new toys!!

i better get back to watching the kids. see ya'll later!

i think this one turned out better 

~10-21-04~ Great night

tonight went GREAT!!!! so far, i probably just jinxed myself by saying anything!!

clay did not cry at all when i put him down tonight. he fussed a bit and fought me while i was trying to zip up his cage, but that was it thank goodness!!!! no stress tonight!!!!

below are him in his halloween costume! it is soooooooooooooooooo damn cute!!!!

we also went and got his christmas pictures done tonight. my mother just had to go to penny's, even though i fought her all the way. the girl was GREAT, and the pictures turned out GREAT!!!! BUT, you cannot get the proofs. you can only buy sheets of them, it is all digital. whatever. i should have just madeher buy them all since she is the one who wanted to go there! out of 12, i think we got 5 poses. i had a coupon for $3.99 a shee, so it wasn't too bad. maybe i'll call tomorrow and ask if i order the rest if they will still give them to us for $3.99. they just all turned out too good to pass up!! i think i amn going to take him again with bob and i, and get a family christmas picture. i have a coupon for wal-mart, plus las time i was there they let me buy the proofs.

i won't have those for you til the first week in november, i think that is when she picks them up. i'm so excited!!! that is how good they turned out! we even did 2 outfits. he was so good. and he smiled so much. such a cutie!!!!!

well, that was my exciting day! not much to report.

my darling husband called home several times tonight....to say he missed me? to tell me he loved me?? NO, for me to check the score of the fucking game!!! i HATE sports!!!!!!!!!! i wish they would just go away!!!!!! if he paid half as much attention and effort to stuff that needed done around this house as he does sports, he would be getting sex all the time! you think he would have learned that by no. but no, the pool is still in my back yard, slowly filling up with rain water and a bunch of leaves and other shit!!!! oh well, he is the one who has to deal with it.....i just can't take my child outside, cause he will be straight for the damn thing, and now that it is mostly empty, he will be able to step right into it! UGH! i can't even take him out to enjoy the last, probably, few nice days this fall.

i'm off now to go read my blogs. i HAVE to get to sleep early tonight!!!!! quit laughing!!! it could happen......it is bound to one of these days!

my cutie 

what are you doing to me?! 

full view 

~10-20-04~ No words.

i just got done watching farenheit 9/11.

all i can say is that i am totally disgusted, sad, angry, depressed.....i could go on and on.

i know some will say that we only got one side, or michael moore's version of things. well he had documents and everything else to prove that bush, his family and everyone around him in politics is involved and has connections with bin laden and the saudi's. what the fuck?!?! and what is the deal with that the day after 9/11 that WE got bin laden's and saudi's families out of the u.s. and back to their countries?!?! and then bush senior continues for almost 2 years after 9/11 to still visit with them, be courtious to them, and do business with them?!?! is there not something wrong with that whole scenario. it is just too ironic that every thing, person, business, everything can somehow be circled back to bush or someone connected to him.

i really can't go more into all of this, cause it just upsets me too much.

i just don't see how anyone can stand behind bush. i will admit that at first i was all for the iraq war, except i just wanted to blow up the whole country.....please don't argue with me or try to debate this, i am not into all that.....my only point is that now i do not know why we are still there, i don't want us to be there anymore, i don't give a flying fuck what happens to those people over there. what i do care about are OUR people over there, and OUR people here who are getting put aside and neglected just for all the nonsense over there.

i guess now i understand "our" reason to be there and to me it looks as if "we" are only there to make money off of the whole ordeal. if that is not the case, then WHY are we still there?!?!

enough of that, it makes me sick to my stomach to think of it all. and like i said i am not trying to debate anyone or bring on bunches of flame comments.....i'm just stating my layman opinion of everything i perceive to be going on in our world of politics and the state of our country in general.

~10-19-04~ So far...

so good today. clay was up around 8-ish. not bad. he wasn't crying either, he was playing in there for a bit.

now if we can just cure the crying at night......i will be ok. :)

giving daddy a kiss 

giving mommy a kiss 

~10-19-04~ Weekend movie reviews

well we watched some movies this weekend.

fistly we watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. i was sort of afraid. i thought it was going to be weird. but i sort of liked it. i liked the concept of the story. it was a bit weird, but to me the overlying message was that if you were meant to be together, you would end up together. maybe it is just me, but that is what i got from it. i give it 3 out of 5 stars.

next was the day after tomorrow. it to was ok. kind of scary if you think that that could happen some day! the special effects were ok as well. i'll give it 3 out of 5 as well.

finally there was super size me. this was FUNNY! it also made you think. i am a bit pissed that "because" of this movie i can no longer get a super sized fry god damn it!!!!! it was a great movie!!!! i actually got more out of the dvd extras. he interviewed the guy who wrote the book, ok i don't remember his name, or the name of the book, but it was also about fast food. that really made you open your eyes about some things and the industry. granted i will still eat the fast food. i was even craving some fries after watching it. the movie really showed the sad state of america, and our people. obeseity is quickly about to over take smoking as the number one cause of preventable death. they had some great statistics in there. i wish i had taken notes during the movie so i could share some with you. it almost wants to make me start exercising and eating healthy!! i would rent this if you haven't seen it. like i said, it is very entertaining and educational! and don't forget to watch the dvd extras!!!!

here are some of the statistics from the movie:

Each day, 1 in 4 Americans visits a fast food restaurant

In 1972, we spent 3 billion a year on fast food - today we spend more than 110 billion

McDonald's feeds more than 46 million people a day - more than the entire population of Spain

French fries are the most eaten vegetable in America

You would have to walk for seven hours straight to burn off a Super Sized Coke, fry and Big Mac

In the U.S., we eat more than 1,000,000 animals an hour

60 % of all Americans are either overweight or obese

One in every three children born in the year 2000 will develop diabetes in their lifetime

---you can read the rest HERE.

so, check out that site, and the movie. i give it 4 out of 5 stars.

we also have farenheiht 9-11, but we haven't watched it yet.

daddy and clay in the crib tent...don't ask 

~10-19-04~ Update

below, i think, is a picture of the crib tent that we bought.

saturday.....it was up for nap time. it went better than i thought. he still cried as i put him in, zipped him up, and left the room. it was only for about 5 minutes if that. then he was out. ok.......so finally got some sleep.

saturday night. he went down for the night the same, cried even less than a few minutes. GREAT! right?! NO, he was up at 5am!!!!!!!!! and since it was the weekend, and we got all our movies from netflix. i didn't even get in bed til about 4, so i had NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sleep!!!!!

i put his butt down for his nap at 12:30!!! he went right down, no crying! woo-hoo!!! so sunday night, he still fussed when i took him up and the rest. but once again a few minutes of crying and he was out. i was actually in bed by 2am, could i sleep? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! what the fuck?!?! so i didn't get to bed til after 4 i think. he actually slept til 9am!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!

naptime today was great again. no crying, and i went to sleep my own self! we had to wake his butt up after 5!!!!

that brings us to tonight, i put him up there, he fussed a bit, but NO crying! he was up there playing and talking for over a half hour, then what?! screaming, crying!!!!!! i tried to let him go for about 15 minutes and he wasn't quitting, so i had to go up. i got him, and sat in his room and rocked him for a bit. put him back in his crib with MUCH, MUCH opposition!!!!!! so i had to leave the room with him screaming and crying!!! GOD i HATE that!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i get back downstairs, i was going to give him 20 minutes this time. i thought maybe we had to start the whole crying it out thing all over again!! UGH!!!! so i had to turn the monitor down, i could not listen to him crying! i lasted for about 2 minutes, i turned it back up and he was not crying anymore! not a peep!!!!! so, whew!!!!

this is really driving up my stress level! so now it is after 2am again, and i am up. watch the little shit be up at 5 again!!!!

i'm still hoping it is some sort of teething phase. i don't know if i told you all about his 2nd 2nd year molar coming in. well i looked the other day and the bottoe one is almost all the way in and that isn't even the one that i noticed last week. so in typical clay fashion, he has more than 1 tooth coming in at the same time. so hopefully that is it, and it is slowly getting back to normal, except for the "cage" that i have to lock my son in during his sleeping times.

yes, i do hate the tent. yes it works and all. but i feel like i am trapping him in there! i don't like it! especially when i am trying to zip it up and he is clawing and grabbing at it to try and stop me! it is awful! have you even had to put an animal in a carrier. an animal who didn't want to go in there? that is what i feel like! oh, it makes me sad!!!! i guess it is for his own good, and mine, so it isn't a bad thing. i just feel bad. i hate not knowing what is going through his little mind why he is sooooo against being in his bed now! he used to love his bed!!! in the mornings it would take me at least 15 minutes to get him out of it! now he doesn't even want to be carried up there. when it is night-night time that is. he will still go in there and play and what not. it is just the night-night part he is hating!

well there is my update. so far so good. keep those fingers crossed though!

thanks to all who have!!!!!!

crib tent 

~10-16-04~ {sigh}

it didn't work. of course he didn't totally listen to me on what i wanted to build on the crib.....but whatever it didn't work.

i'm sending him in the morning to get that tent thing. i'm pretty sure that isn't going to work either. i've seen my kids temper and strength. so i am sure he will have the damn thing ripped down or open or whatever. but i guess we will at least try.

a good thing, i was in bed tonight at 10:30. of course my child didn't fall asleep til about 11:30. and then i got up. i should have just stayed there, but i had to get up and do my regular stuff before i go to bed. i am going back there shortly though, in case we are up at 5am again!!!!

bob and i are supposed to go out tomorrow for sweetest day. probably just a movie and to eat. there isn't much playing that i want to see, and he probably doesn't want to see what i want, so it may just be out to eat. then of course we have to be home early cause i don't even want to put my mom through trying to put clay down for the night, even if the tent thing does work, cause i am sure a huge crying fit will be accompanied. and she can't stand to hear or let him cry. so i just better be here for that.

i don't know if it is the terrible 2's just starting or what it is. but i am beginning to think i don't have the patience to be a mother!!!!

a few days ago it started with he now knows how to get his tray off his high chair. so you CANNOT leave him alone with food on his tray or it will be off and all over the floor. that is how i used to be able to go to the bathroom in peace in the morning, while he is eating his breakfast.....go to the bathroom in peace in the afternoon, while he is eating lunch, and how i would cook supper for me and bob and actually eat, while he was eating supper. now all of that is non exsistant!!!!!!!!!!!

then this whole crib fiasco started.

THEN tonight when i was at my wits end, i came up to smoke a cigarette, and that little shit, put his chairs in front of the gate and crawled over the gate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so does this mean i can do nothing anymore!!!!! i am not one for chages is life or routines, so this is very upsetting to me! i know it will all settle down soon and we will get in a new routine, but in the meatime i am dying here!!

what happened to my perfect child?! he would never cry or be bad. now look at him! he is starting to test me all the time, and i was sooooo not ready for this. he has little fits now and throws stuff. after the first thing he throws he will go get something else and look at me before he throws it cause he knows he is going to get in trouble!!! yelling and spanking don't work, so i tried time out, which i never thought i would hear my self say those words, but i have to pick him up, tell him time out and then hold him. that is what actually gets to him and pisses him off! so add that to my list above of what is going on now.

wishful thinking i can attribute all this to his tooth that is coming in, so that will pass soon, instead of having to survive a whole year of the terrible 2's! like i said wishful thinking!!!!

~10-15-04~ Shoot me!!!

just shoot me now! i am about to go insane!!!!

my child didn't go to sleep last night til 1am right, then he was up at 5am, so he only got about 4 hours of sleep, RIGHT?! so now that it is after 1pm, and he has been up since 5am, he should be tired, right?! and WANT to stay in is bed to take a nap, right, right, RIGHT?!?!?!?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

bob went and got some stuff tis morning so we can build some sort of add on to the crib, which will hopefully remedy the situation, but of course he didn't do it yet, so now i don't know what is going to happen for nap time! i think i may just lay on the couch with him.

as much as i am against it, i would just puthim back in my bed, but bob is asleep now, which normally i would say "oh well forhim" but he did let me sleep when he got home this morning and he has to go back in to work tonight, so i will let him get some sleep.

well i should get back downstairs now. i had to gate clay in and come smoke a cigareete beforei yelled at him. so now i am calm, so hopefully i have enough patience to get him to sleep on the couch.

are you people PRAYING for me?!?!?!? or at least crossing your fingers?!

~10-15-04~ @$%&*&^$#@!!!

well, he is asleep now!!!!

after about a 20 min spaz out inhis room, he finally figured out how to open the door, how i have no clue, i still don't know how he is getting out of his crib in about 2 seconds flat!

he went right to my room and on the bed. i had to tell him a few times to get back up and lay down or he was going back in his room. then he drifted off.

on a plus note, i love watching him sleep, it has been MONTHS since i have been able to stare at his precious sleeping face!!

but now i still have a few dilemma's facing me now.

since it is so damn noisy here, we have an air conditioner in his window and we run the fan while he is asleep, so i turned the fan on in our bedroom window, well it is 52 degrees outside!!!! and it is getting cold in there! i don't just want to turn the fan off, cause that would leave the noise!!!! but i don't know if i can take the fan out of the window and then close the window with him staying asleep. my child isn't the normal child who can sleep thru anything. he wakes at the creak of a floor board. i am surprised i made it out of bed, to come in here and type this!! my other dilemma is getting back into bed. we have an awful, cheapy LOUD mattress! plus he is right in the middle of the damn bed!! so once again i don't know what the hell to do! i have got a killer headache!!!!

i figured i would come in here and let him fall asleep for a few hours, maybe he will be in a deep sleep when i go back in, and with a lot of luck, i can be quiet enough to move the fan, shut the window and get back into bed without him waking.

again, PRAY FOR ME!!!!

my plan tomorrow is to go to lowe's and see if they have any type of railing. like stair railing or something, then we can just screw the shit out of it to his bed. as long as we put a few inches, i'll go a whole damn foot, he shouldn't be able to crawl out.

i don't even know why he was fussing so bad, when i originally put him down to sleep tonight. i just noticed that his second, second year molar is coming in, but he hasn't been fussy. i figure that is why his nose had been stuffy a few days ago. but why didn't he crawl out the first time he was in there then?! he sat up there for half hour throwing a fit, before i went up to calm him down. i knew i shouldn't have went up there. that is when all hell broke loose! i no sooner got the stiars and he was at the top of the steps!!!!!

well, i need to go take some asprins and make a plan of action.

wish me luck!!

~10-15-04~ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

i've never in my time as a mommy been at a total loss. i am there NOW!!!!!

my child just demonstrated that he can climb out of his crib!!!!! he wil NOT stay in ther and he will NOT go to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i even justtrie laying him in my bed with me, and he will NOT go for it!!!!

i just took him in his room laid a balnket and pillow on the floor, put his crib bars down and told him night-night amd left the room. i latched the door so he can't open it and he is now in there having a holly hell coniption fit!!!!!!!!

it is RIPPING MY HEART OUT LISTENING TO HIM IN THEIR CRYING LIKE THAT!!!! i keep telling myself whatthe doctor said a while back, a child has never cried themselves to death, but it may be possible to cry ME to death!!!!!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!! he has to be tired!!!! why will he not go to sleep?! i have already been kicked in the nose 3 times, while he was in here with me, and he will NOT stay on the freaking bed! don't i have to take control of the situation so he knows it is bed time, he has to lay down, and go to sleep?!?!?!

or am i just supposed to let him go and run around all night til he falls over?!?!?!

i wish you all could tell me what to do!!!!!

i'm going to have to go get him in a minute, this is driving me insane!

i thought of getting a toddler bed, but it will be like now, he will NOT stay in it! so then i thought about one of those net things, but i know he will not like that either, he likes to lift the shade and look out the window. so i'm thinking of some sort of rig we can attach to the side rail to add about a foot on so he can't get out. i have some rough drafts in my head, but it is also pounding now with a vicious headache. tonight and tomorrow are going to be lovely!!!!

pray for me!!!!

~10-14-04~ A.K.A

i know i have bitched to you all before about how i have a "cousin" who was adopted, actually MY uncle married her mom and then he adopted her, so she ended up having the same name as me!!!

the first case of mistaken identity came the christmas of 1990, i believe. i got a babie doll from a friend for christmas, since he read in the newpaper, letter's to santa, that i asked for one. i think this is the first time i became aware of the situation. i was pissed! little did i know what a pain in my ass it would become later on in life!!

anyways the most recent. this morning a lawyer called, looking for "me" to settle an estate or something. of course it ended up not being me. thought for a second it i could have inherited some big money?! i know awful thought!! but my hubby called the guy back, he originally talked to him, since clay slept til 9 again!!

so once again, someone is looking for her, and got me. at least this time it wasn't a damn bill collector! maybe if they never find her, i'll do.....at least pay me back for all the crap i have to deal with her non payment of any bills, and the minutes i have wasted telling strange bill collectors the whole damn story of her existence!!!!

~10-14-04~????

first of all why am i still up....

secondly WHY THE HELL am i watching in search of the partridge family?!?!?!

bob and i must have been desperate the other day, cause we watched the one where they were doing the guy everyone was hot for. i don't know the names of the people i have NEVER even seen an episode of that show.

anyways, the "hot" one, i can't stand one of the guys going for it. i hate him and i don't know why. bob doesn't like him either.

the girls were just on. i don't know if there is only one girl, if not i am sorry, cause i can't help, it's not the mom.....anyways, the first girl just sang, and i about spit out my pretzel. what the hell is coming from her mouth?!?!?! well she is cute, so that must have got her there. the second girl comes on, she's not all that cute, so i figure she must really be able to sing.........um WHERE IS SIMON?!?!?! these people would not even have made it onto tv at the auditions for american idol!!!!! and this show, the remake of the partridge whatever, it does involve singing right?!?!?! UGH!!

well they have the red headed kid left and the mom i think. and of course this is the final show, so now i want to see who wins the damn thing!!!!! but i also need to get my ass to bed!!!

yes i would just tape it, but have no tapes up here.....that would mean having to get out of bed and going down stairs! so that ain't happening.

oh well hell, they aren't telling me the winners tonight! guess i can go to sleep and just check back to see who won. not like i am going to watch the new partridge whatever anyways.

i'm outtie!!

~10-14-04~ they are after me!!!!!

i was going to write about this the other day, but then something weird happened.

a little back story here, i was using that nifty little next blog button and came across an odd site. this guy thinks that the government is watching him, and following him and etc, etc, etc. so i read this and laughed at him. now i don't EVER make fun of anyone!! but he just seemed a bit odd. he would write about how he would always have unknown numbers coming up on his caller id and such. i get those bastard telemarketers on mine all the time, at least before i got privacy manager.

well when i was going to write you all and point you to his site, it was all blank. i would get there and nothing would come up. then i was all like uh-oh, they must have got him!!! i bet he was really freaking out about that!!!

well anyways it is back up now. so if you want to go read about his conspiracy, check it out.....makes you wonder......

~10-14-04~Go, go get'em Lazytown

wow, i am getting a ton of hits on my site, because of lazytown. a lot of others must be taken with the show as i, or cause dude is as HOT as i keep saying he is!! :)

my cousin came to do house stuff today. i got bad news about my garage door, which i really expected. it is not a regular size, which means that it will be a special order. and with an opener and installation, it will be $1300. i just don't know if i want to go there. my front door is already going to be more than i thought, for some reason i didn't even think that i would be CHARGED to install it. $350!!!! at fist the door and side lites i wanted were $715. but i may just go with a cheaper door, and nice side lites. i was also going to get some extra windows and possibly shutters, but i want the least amount possible coming from my pocket, so the only extra i am definitely getting is the front door.

the credit union pissed me off today.....oh i already bitched about that earlier, huh....

well my roof should be started in about 3 weeks, and the siding he said hopefully the 2nd or 3rd week of november. woo-hoo!!!!!

once again i thought i had more interesting stuff to say, but guess not.

night!

~10-13-04~ Yeah!

clay actually slept til 9am this morning, finally!!! but alas, i was up at 7, 7:30, 8, 8:30!!! AGH!!!! but at least i didn't have to get out of bed til 9, guilt free! wee.

now nap time is a half hour away! yipee! granted there are a million things i should be doing around this house instead of napping myself. my cousin is coming over today to measure for windows. i should really clear paths to the windows in the rooms, but clean or nap, nap or clean.....hhhmmmm.....tough decision!!!

hell i am paying the man $13,000 to do work to my house, i don't really care if he thinks if i am a slob or not. when he actually comes to put the windows in, then there will be a path clear for him.......maybe!

so i think i am going to nap. nap sounds so good! maybe i'll get up a little early so i can vacuum and what not. make my house a little presentable. if nothing else at least shower, so i look presentable.

bob took the insurance check to the bank today and they would not cash it. what the hell?!?! isn't that what banks are for?! it is an out of state check. well so what?! it's not like it is a personal check or anything. it is from a frigging mortgage company! but they have to hold it for 9 days! that is just retarded!! luckily my cousin said i could just give him a post dated check, so that will work.

well, i have to get off here to get ready for nap time!

~10-13-04~ New Game

well i found a new game over at gamesville. it is miami dice. it is kind of like yahtzee, but not.

so of course i was up all night last night playing that!!!! thank goodness clay wasn't up again at 5. still was up at 7! why when it was bob's turn to get up with him on sunday he slept til 9?!?!?!?!

oh well, figured i would get on here real quick to post, then rush off to play my new favorite game!

we fianlly got our 1st 3rd of our insurance money so we can finally start our house!! my cousin is coming over tomorrow to draw everything up and get the ball rolling! woo-hoo!!!

i also got this for clay for halloween. i think it is adorable!!!!!!!!!! granted we probably won't even get to go! i'm sure it will fall exactly at his nap time, like everything does!!!! oh well, just in case i got it anyways. i will take pictures of him in it anyways even if we don't go out and get mommy and daddy some free candy! hahahahaha!!!

well, i'm outta here!! night.

~10-12-04~ Netflix

not too long ago i was singing the praises of netflix........now i am etting really PISSED!!

a while back i maied back both kill bill's from my mailbox. well, they never receive them. they are cool bout that stuff, they just responded to my problem report and sent me my next 2 movies.

well 2 weekends, ago i sent back movies again. i actually went to the post office instead of putting them in my box. well i received 1 movie last week, and still have not got confirmation that they received the other 2. and i mailed them ALL at the same time!!!!

i don't know if it is the post office, netflix, what the hell, but i send the damn things back so we will have 3 movies to watch the following weekend. but since whatever is getting fucked up we have had to go rent movies, which totally DEFEATS the purpose of netflix!!!!!! and i don't want the bastards to think that i am lying and just actually keeping the movies!!! if i were to do that i would do it with better movies than the ones that are now "lost"!!

so now i am off to go write them a bitch email. this sucks!!!!

PS.....we watched the only movie we did get, saved, it was really good!! i liked it alot, i'll give it 4 of 5 stars.

we also rented twisted. that was also good, and twisted sure does describe it. a lot of movies i can catch on and "know" who did what or what is going to happen early on. NOT this movie!!! they keep you guessing the whole movie!! it was great!! i give also give it 4 of 5 stars.

~10-11-04~ WHY?!

WHY has my child been up since 5AM?!?! actually he had a few whines at 4:41am, but i thought i was in the clear and he went back to sleep...NO!!

so i spent the last 2 hours trying to get him to lay down with me and go back to sleep.... YEAH RIGHT!!!!! he'd lay there for about 5 minutes, long enough for me to JUST start to drift back off, then his ass would pop up. and i mean pop up on his damn feet!!!!

so no sleep for me last night/today! woo-hoo....go me!!! sigh!!!!!

~10-11-04~ Uh-oh 3's

here we go again.......hopefully it won't be 3 like it usually seems to happen.

sadly rodney dangerfield passed away the other day, now breaking news just came across my screen that christopher reeves just passed away yesterday. i didn't even know he was sick! i knew that dangerfield had been in the hospital for quite sometime.

sad, sad, sad!!!

~10-11-04~ MEN!!

who in the world came up with the ridiculous idea on shaving one's nether regions?!?!?! i'm guessing it was a MAN!!!!!

when i was growing up, yeah, you had the bikini area to worry about, and that was pain in the ass, among other things, as it was, but now a days, you are "supposed" to be almost clean shaven!!!

AGH!!!!! mind you i never even attempted this til about 1998. yeah i wasn't too with the times. and why the hell would i want to do that!!! and know the reason i did?!?! MEN!!! thought i would be nice and try to look nice for my man. so since then i have been on this awful path.

is a good thing that i am married now. good for me, not so much for hubby!!! well i was in a generous mood the other night, so i attempted to get that nice little strip going again, even though i had a LOT to work with. UGH! what a pain!! and of course, now i am itching like crazy!!!! i hate this shit!!!! and i don't want to hear the excuse that if i keep it up and do it all the time, my skin will get used to it and blah, blah, blah.........i might have to set a rule, like maybe once a year for his birthday, or maybe a holiday thrown it, but i can't do this shit all the time. ah-ha! maybe i will do it on a reward system! if he does things he is supposed to, i will give in and do it for him. i'm sure it won't work, so i should try it and then i will never have to shave again!!! haha!!

he is lucky that i keep up with the underarms when i do.....and the legs....well winter is coming, so no guarantee there!! :) so he should just be lucky. learn to love me hair and all baby!! haha!!

~10-8-04~ One last thing

HERE is a site about the guy i am obsessing about on Lazy Town. i don't like the picture they have of him, even with the goofy mustache, he looks better on the show.

he is a hottie though. so just so you all can see how pathetic i am, there is the link to go check him out. it is perverse that i have an infatuation with a chacter on a children's show?! i also love stephanie. she is so damn adorable. i want to adopt her!

sigh...sportacus would not be into me anyways. i am the epidimy of lazy town!!!!! no exercise, don't go outside, eat junk.....maybe i should hook up with the bad guy. if only he looked like sportacus! haha!!

some other sites about him as well.

HERE

HERE

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~10-8-04~ Title Goes Here

well.....i was actually in bed early the other night (before 2am) YES, that is early for me. lately it hasn't been til after 3am, which sucks since clay has been up around 7am!!! well actually i have been up at 6am, 6:30am, 6:45am, 7am.....bob's fucking alarms, for the past 2 weeks since he has been working days, and by that time, clay is up so i am going on maybe 3 hours of sleep if i am lucky!!

anyways, i was in bed, lights out, covers up before 2am, and what happened?! i couldn't freaking go to sleep! i toss and turn, my mind starts going on about shit i shouldn't be thinking of, or stuff that i don't need to worry about at that moment, so why am i??!!! i didn't get to sleep til after 3!!!! why do i try.

so come clay's nap time at 1:30, i am more than ready for a nap. well today he did not nap again!!!!!!! WHY?!?! he pissed around in his room for an hour. then i was going to get him, i smoked a cigarette first, then he was quiet. so i guess he finally fell asleep. i ended up falling asleep and didn't hear him til 4. i pray that it is not coming to that. see i should never have wrote the other day, how my child was miraclously sleeping til almost 5pm for his naps!!! i totally jinxed myself damn it!!!!

so now, i am going to start popping a tylenol pm around 11pm and hope that makes me sleepy so i can be in bed earlier than usual. today i goofed and didn't even take the thing til almost 1, so no effect yet!!

did you all watch wife swap the other day. oh my god!! that hippie lady was on my last nerve. and i so wanted to punch her child in the face. i am not one to hate on kids, but she drove me up a wall. i didn't see anything wrong with the rules implemented by the southern lady. she was a bit cold though. she is one of those people that can't accept nice things. like when the husband gave her flowers, she commented on how the vase was dirty. when her husband wrote her that sweet poem, she asked if he wrote that all himself. and did you notice that whenever he went to kiss her she would turn her head so he would kiss her cheek. i feel bad for the hubby. i wish i knew her trick to get her snoring husband to sleep in a different bed!! kidding!! haha!! NOT!!

that hippie broad just got on my last nerves. i had to watch it again tonight, cause bob just HAD to see it! she was too much. when she started crying when she seen the confederate flag!!! then the sobbing when whe seen the dear head! i wanted to reach through the screen and smack her. what about the end!!! when she was hesterically freaking out that her dogs were put outside!! OH MY GOD LADY!!! "but they were adopted!!!" what the hell does that mean?! when the southern guy said she was going to lose her head, was priceless. i chuckled out loud!!

what else, what else.......i guess nothing.....

oh yeah.....a cool thing i have seen on a lot of sites recently. not that i am all that interesting or anything, but if there are any pictures of my everyday "exciting life" you want to see, drop me a comment and if i am able i will post it here for all you nosey's to see. haha!!

what is it about other people's blogs and pictures?? i was looking at a ton of pics of some chinese people in a bar. WHY?! cause i am nosey. same reason i read a ton of these logs daily. i guess getting a glimpse into other people's lives is just intriguing to me. guess that is why we all are here, huh.

so drop me a comment! until tomorrow my dear readers.........

~10-7-04~ Funny

I found THIS, thanks to Trish. It is too funny! Ladies you will totally relate, guys, i don't know, but it is too funny, NOT to read.

~10-6-04~ I must admit....

i digress from a previous post about my hatred for the kids show lazytown.

i'm starting to dig it, and i am crushin on sportacus. aside from the goofy mustache, he is HOT!!

as for the guy who plays him, he is also the creator, producer, director, everything for the show!! i'm not sure since the credits at the end go so fast, but i even think he sings the theme song!

it is weird but the show is from iceland. granted he has an accent, but i don't believe anyone else on the show does. not that i ever heard what an iceland accent sounds like, or even if they do.....i am just saying.......

oh well, sorry for the short post, but i am sleepy. and since my child is on a new EARLY schedule, 7AM comes way too early for me, so i am going to hit the hay!

night!!

~10-5-04~Another thing.

i have been meaning to tell you all.

BEWARE!!!! those fuckers at glad are liars!!!!! those new force flex bags, i'm sure you seen the commericals for........LIES, LIES, all LIES!!!!!

thankfully someone at walmart had the same idea i did. we went down the trash bag isle and there was a box of them open with one out. so of course bob and i had to put it to the test. hell i picked it up, jabbed my finger nail into it...RIGHT THROUGH. no resistance, no stretch, right the hell through!!! force flex my ass! what about the commercial where they show hangers digging into the sides without ripping or the corner of the pizza box stretching the bag, but not breaking....well i am calling BULLSHIT!! i tested it and it is bullshit! so buyer be ware!!!!

~10-4-04~ My Weekend + today

i hope all of your weekends were better than mine. it started pretty shitty. my mom came over saturday after clay's nap. she was going to watch him while bob and i went to eat and run some.

firstly clay did NOT take a nap that day. i don't know what the hell that was all about?!

anyways we get ready to leave and i ask bob where my coat was that was in his car. he said he took it out and put in it the garage. so he goes and gets it and it is covered in dust/dirt/cob webs/just general garage shit. well FUCK, why would you just throw my jacket in the garage, apparently on the floor?!?!?! so i bitched, and then he got pissed. then he kicked into baby mode, i'm not going anywhere with you. well i told him to get his ass down so we could go, we had a lot of stuff to do. he kept crying, so fuck him, i left!! YES, i went to eat supper BY MYSELF. and i was pretty pissed about it too. we were supposed to go to red lobster, but i went to the chinese buffet. i almost went to red lobster myself just to spite his dumb ass, but i wanted chinese, so i went where i wanted. i was still pissed, so needless to say i didn't eat much. so then i wasn't in a hurry to get home, he wasn't going to ruin my whole night. so i then went and got my nails done. which i guessed it turned out pretty good, cause they needed done badly. and if he would have came, i wouldn't have got them done.

so then i got home, and he was back to normal bob. we ended up watching ALL 3 movies that we had here. first we watched walking tall, then ladykillers, finally, laws of attraction.

walking tall was ok. bob said the original was way better. i enjoyed watching the rock, cause he is just hot, but other than that the movie was just so-so. it has been so long since i have rated movies here, i don't remember my scale. i think it is out of 5 stars. well this movie would get a 3.

onto ladykillers. i was so, so hopeful for this movie. afterall it was made by the brothers who made one of my favorite movies, o brother where art thou. um, NO. they must have blown all their funny talent on that movie cause this had almost none! i give it 1 star!!

the last movie, laws of attraction, was you usual love story. it was cute, and funny and i enjoyed it. i give it 3 stars.

on to sunday. so since bob didn't get to go out to eat the previous day he was all gung ho on going sunday. so after clay's nap we headed out. it was ok. like usual we spend way, WAY too much money when we go to those expensive places, and never really enjoy it. well he got that out of his system, so we won't have to be going there for another couple of years. how in the hell do you spend $70 on dinner?!

we had to rush home for extreme makeover-home. i know i say it every sunday, but i just LOVE that show!!! it just fills my heart!!!

then i watched the new show, desperate housewives. i didn't know it was going to be all "involved". what the hell is the big secret that led that lady to kill herself, and what is the dad burying in the swimming pool?!?! i don't know about this one folks. anyways, since we went through all our netflix the previous night, bob went to the video store and got mean girls. it was pretty funny! i give it 4 stars!

that was my fun filled weekend!! thank goodness it ended better than it started.

today wasn't too bad. my child has been getting up around 7AM. WHY?!?! i don't know if it was due to bob working days last week and this week. but it sure SUCKS!!!! at least he napped the past 2 days, i was praying that saturday wasn't a sign of something to come.

like i said a million times here already, he is just lucky he is so damn cute!! he has been a pill lately. he is in a throwing kick. yelling and smacking doesn't work. so i started to do a semi time out thing. i pick him up and don't let him down for about 30 seconds, and i calmly tell him that throwing is bad, and a no-no. i don't think he is getting it!! he has also started on trying to hit or kick when he is mad. and you can't really spank for that can you?! i mean how can you tell him not to hit by hitting him?!?! i mean he is just too young to get it right now. he is in for a big surprise when he gets older. my mother sure didn't hesitate to get her hands flying!!! hands, slippers, wooden spoons.....etc. mind you i was NOT beaten or abused! i was taught to respect and "fear" my mother. i didn't hate her, wasn't scared at the sight of her. i just learned what was right and wrong. i knew what would bring about her wrath, and i avoided that. THAT is what is missing in today's youth!

~10-1-04~ I'm back

sorry for the skipped days.

i felt like total shit yesterday. i don't know what the problem was! i woke up to a horrible belly ache, and spent about an hour in the bathroom! mind you half the time i was in there my child was in his crib yelling "mom". why was he up at 7AM?!?!?! cause he knew i felt like shit?! i could have blamed my crazy neighbor lady, since she was out there at 7AM honking her fucking horn for about 15 minutes, every 2 minutes! why the hell would someone do that?!?! especially when you know there is a child in the house right beside the road where you are parked?!?!?! luckily for her, i think he was already up before she started. i was about ready to go over there and yank her fucking kid out of the house and throw him in the goddamned car, so the honking would end!!!!

back to me.....so i felt awful. i seriously considered calling bob and making him come home from work. but no, couldn't do that. then i was going to call my mom, but i knew she had plans after work, and i didn't want her to change her plans for me. being a mom you have NO sick days. you have to suck it up and deal.

i shut the gate in the living room and curled up on the couch. thankfully clay pretty much did his own thing. he was up on the couch with me for a little bit, then he was down playing most of the day. my grandpa came over about noon, so i had to get up. it was about lunch time anyways, and then nap time is 1:30. as soon as i put him in bed, i went directly there myself. and as luck would have it my cigarettes were due to come that day. they were delievered by ups, so they don't give you a time. and of course, since they were cigarettes they NEEDED a signature. but i was like screw that. i have enough to last me, they can just bring them back tomorrow. so i slept! didn't get up til about 4:30.

my child has been SLEEPING for his nap. i put him down about 1:30, i don't hear a peep from him, and recently, this week, he hasn't been getting up til almost 5, and that is cause i go in there to wake him up. what is up with that?!? i hate waking him, but getting up at 5 kind of makes him going to sleep at a normal hour out of the question. even when he used to get up from his nap at 3:30, every time i put him to sleep for the night, he is up there in his crib pissing around for at least an hour! reguardless of what time i put him up there he usually doesn't go to sleep til about 10:30.

anyways....i'm feeling better today. i don't know what the deal was yesterday.

i also was messing around with this thing i got for my cell phone, so i can transfer stuff between phone and computer. well of course i can't get the damn thing to work! i have installed and re-installed, installed, and re-installed. i don't know what the hell the problem is. and of course there is no booklet or anything to help. there is an 800 number, i was surprised, but i just hate dealing with people on the phone, and i am going to get a foreigner.......no offense, but if i can't understand something and i am relying on someone to explain it to me, i need to understand the person!!!!!!! so i've put that off for the past 2 nights. sigh!

bob is finally off tomorrow, and there is so much stuff to do around here. i have been telling him for over a month now, to get the pool taken down, so we don't have a repeat of last year, where it sat outside all winter. well i think fall is officially here now, next week it is only supposed to be in the 50's. so now he is going to have to be out in the cold ass water messing with the damn pool!!! and the grass needs mowed terribly!

we also need to paint the soffets(?) of the house before we start to get our work done. we couldn't afford to get those done, so we are just going to paint them white. i also want him to paint the chimnies, the porch, and the foundation brick black. so we have to get on that as well. my cousin said we should buy brick stain to do the brick, or else the paint will just chip off. sounds great, but i as hoping to do everything with a paint sprayer, cause some stuff is just going to be too hard to reach with regular brushes, i doubt you can put stain in sprayers.....so we have to go to lowe's and check that stuff out. i also want to get some insulation for the attic, since we are getting a new roof, should get everything else right as well. hopefully with that, the new windows, and the new furnace, my house will actually be warm now without cranking the heat up to 80!!

well, i'm off. bob will be home shortly. maybe i'll check in here this weekend, if not see ya monday. have a good one!