~10-15-04~ @$%&*&^$#@!!!

well, he is asleep now!!!!

after about a 20 min spaz out inhis room, he finally figured out how to open the door, how i have no clue, i still don't know how he is getting out of his crib in about 2 seconds flat!

he went right to my room and on the bed. i had to tell him a few times to get back up and lay down or he was going back in his room. then he drifted off.

on a plus note, i love watching him sleep, it has been MONTHS since i have been able to stare at his precious sleeping face!!

but now i still have a few dilemma's facing me now.

since it is so damn noisy here, we have an air conditioner in his window and we run the fan while he is asleep, so i turned the fan on in our bedroom window, well it is 52 degrees outside!!!! and it is getting cold in there! i don't just want to turn the fan off, cause that would leave the noise!!!! but i don't know if i can take the fan out of the window and then close the window with him staying asleep. my child isn't the normal child who can sleep thru anything. he wakes at the creak of a floor board. i am surprised i made it out of bed, to come in here and type this!! my other dilemma is getting back into bed. we have an awful, cheapy LOUD mattress! plus he is right in the middle of the damn bed!! so once again i don't know what the hell to do! i have got a killer headache!!!!

i figured i would come in here and let him fall asleep for a few hours, maybe he will be in a deep sleep when i go back in, and with a lot of luck, i can be quiet enough to move the fan, shut the window and get back into bed without him waking.

again, PRAY FOR ME!!!!

my plan tomorrow is to go to lowe's and see if they have any type of railing. like stair railing or something, then we can just screw the shit out of it to his bed. as long as we put a few inches, i'll go a whole damn foot, he shouldn't be able to crawl out.

i don't even know why he was fussing so bad, when i originally put him down to sleep tonight. i just noticed that his second, second year molar is coming in, but he hasn't been fussy. i figure that is why his nose had been stuffy a few days ago. but why didn't he crawl out the first time he was in there then?! he sat up there for half hour throwing a fit, before i went up to calm him down. i knew i shouldn't have went up there. that is when all hell broke loose! i no sooner got the stiars and he was at the top of the steps!!!!!

well, i need to go take some asprins and make a plan of action.

wish me luck!!