~4-29-05~ My cutie......

This is dedicated to my father. today is the anniversary of his death. i cannot believe it has been 9 years!!!!!

i miss him so much! it makes me sad that he isn't here to see and meet clay. they both would love each other so much! i will make sure that clay knows who is grandfather is, and what a wonderful man he was.



it was a nice day out for a bit today, so we ventured out. i finally got a cute picture of him!!!!!! it only took about 20 takes (not kidding), but i got 2 good ones! here is my favorite:





it is hard to take a picture of him....either he is trying to get at the camera and you get this:





or he is making a goofy ass face, which he gets from his grandmother....trust me i have the pictures to prove it:




or now he has started THIS!!!!!





either way, he is still my little cutie, and i know my dad is proud of him and me!

i love and miss you daddy!!!!!!!!!!!

~4-28-05~ A few things.....

firstly american idol......BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE?!?!?!?!

there is NO WAY in hell that constantine should have been the one to go. i'm not saying that he should have won, but he should have been in the final 3 with bo and carrie. if i wasn't such a tv addict, i would quit watching the show, that is how pissed off i am right now!!!!!


next, i am also pissed that michelle was booted on america's next top model. granted i was sick and tired of her crying all the damn time. i don't get it. i wish she would have just stepped up and got a frickin clue. UGH!!!! now i definitely want, totally just forgot her name, the little country hick girl, to win.


the other thing i wanted to mention, i want to give props to my husband. yeah he gets on my last nerve sometime. and sometimes i am ready to kill him for the dumb shit that he does, but i really have to give him credit to the wonderful husband and man that he can be at times, and the reason that i married him.

to you all it may not seem like much, but the little things that he does really matters alot. for example today we were supposed to go to the store after work. my mom was coming over to watch clay. of course my lazy ass didn't want to go....that and i also wanted to spend some time with my mom, instead of walmart for 2 hours. so he volunteered and said that he would just go by himself. how great was that. i was thinking it, but i would NEVER have asked him to do that.

when i was pregnant, he took over my work for my business and did that along with his full time job. heck even after clay was born he still did that. and never once in our 10+ year relationship has he ever asked me or told me to get a job. he is more than happy to be the provider in the relationship that way. and with that he is a good worker. he works as much overtime as he can get, and doesn't even use his vacation days, all to better our family.

he really is a kind and considerate man. if you are stuck on the side of the road, he will not hesitate for one second to stop and help you. any time of the day or night. if you come to our door asking for money, if he has it, he will give you some. even rides (which really is stupid these days, sad fact, but it is true, so i don't go for that one.....he doesn't do this anymore!!!)

sometimes when i am mad at him i would think of others i had been with and wondered how my life would have been if i were with them, and NONE of them would i ever have written ALL of the above. so that proves to me that they didn't love me the way that i wanted or were the person that i wanted to love. i am very happy with my life and the decision i have made in choosing him as my life mate. he is a truly good person and it really shows me that he loves me for me, faults and all, good times and bad.

like i said, it may seem queer to you all, but it is stuff like that, that makes me love him.

well, now that i said all of that he will go and do something totally stupid to piss me off!!!! i just jinxed myself!!! DAMN!!!!

on that note i am headed to bed. have a good day tomorrow! night

~4-27-05~ A few bitches

before i head to bed.....


well bob and i had been trying to catch up on season 2 of carnivale on HBO. we haven't watched it this season yet, thank god for in-demand. so they were on til 4/25. so we have been busting butt to get them. we watched a few on saturday, then we watched a few on sunday. well during one of them the box freaked out and rebooted. i was pissed, thinking that it had died like the one upstairs. well it came back on and did its thing. so i go back to the menue to get to the episodes we needed to watch and THEY WERE ALL GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, so sunday the 24th at midnight turned in to the 25th. you think they would at least give you the whole 25th to watch the damn things, not at the strike of midnight shut them down!!!!!! i'm pissed!! i had like 4 left to go. so now i will probably have to wait for them to come out on dvd or something. i don't want to read up on them cause i don't want to find out what happens. i don't even know if there is going to be a thrid season or what. FUCKERS!!!!


still NO word from the realtor. i emailed him last night and called him today and still nothing.


my mom is coming over tomorrow night, her birthday is thursday. so i came up here to get her present ready from clay. it is a cute little photo album she can carry in her purse and it says grandma's brag book on it, so i got a bunch of pictures of clay together to print and put into it, well I AM OUT OF FUCKING LIGHT CYAN INK!!!!!

DAMN IT!!!!! i may have bob run out there after work tomorrow and get some more. or maybe just wait til this weekend to see her. i don't know! pisses me off!!


wasn't the amazing race tonight GREAT! well almost great, it would have been great if rob and amber got booted, or at least came in last. but it was still sweet that the other 2 teams beat them.......ALL BECAUSE OF HIS BIG ASS MOUTH!!!!! if he would have just shut the fuck up for once instead of trying to be sly, then the other team would never have thought to look for an earlier flight!!! LOVED IT!!!!! the black team is my favorite. i wished they would have won that prize tonight, they really deserve it, or even the old folks. even though they are starting to get on my nerves, i am proud and glad for them doing so well. they are my second favorite team.


well i need to get some sleep. see ya'll in the morning! good night.

~4-25-05~ Still waiting.....

i still haven't heard back from the realtor.


we did get some more stuff packed and moved to storage this weekend. i can't believe we are STILL packing shit up in the computer room!!! i mean hell, i still have a ton of stuff lying around waiting for a place to be packed!! it does look a ton better now though, espcially since i cleaned off the computer desk, so now i can sit here and not be all stressed with the mess.


so friday i spent and hour, yes an HOUR on hold waiting to talk to someone at teh cable company and tell them the box in our bedroom wasn't working. i was so flippin pissed! it hasn't worked in about a month, but who the hell wants to wait on hold that long, so we never got around to it. so i shot off an email to them while on hold bitching...yeah, i know it won't do any good, but it killed some time. then when she finally came on the phone.....in the middle of me eating supper (which by the way taco bell screwed up for the 8 millionth time) it told her it was ridiculous to have to wait that long.....she said something about it being friday and everyone calling in to pay their bill. if i was thinking i would have told her BULLSHIT! EVERY time i call there it is at least a 45 min hold time!!! even a 3am!!!!!!!!!!

so anyways, after holding for over an hour, i was on the phone with her for about 5 seconds, where she realized my box was shot and would have to be replaced! so now they are supposed to be here between 10-12. if they show! they didn't once. i was HOT, so i called to get my damn $25 credit and she proceedes to tell me they called twice with no answer. i told her, bullshit, i think i even used that word cause i WAS home, the whole day, when am i not?!?!?! i told her she could come check out my caller id, cause there were NO calls....later i was thinking that clay had the phone off the hook for a while, but so what, if they called then it would have been busy, and if the phone is busy that usually means that some one IS home and on the phone!!! i hate time warner cable!!!! i give those people almost $200 a month, they should treat me like royality!!!!


well i think clay is done with breakfast, so i'm outta here for now. check in later.

have a good day!

~4-22-05~ BBBRRRRRRR!

i am flippin freezing! and it is supposed to get colder! ijust turned my damn furance up!


still waiting to hear back from the realtor on our bid. i guess she herself is bidding on a house, so we are supposed to hear back from them today. hate this waiting shit!



WOW!!!! did you all watch survivor last night?? talk about on the edge of your seat!!!! i was so pissed thinking stephanie was getting booted. THANK GOD FOR JEFF!!! even though i think he is a cocky fucker, i think he pretty much talked janu into giving up her torch for steph. THANK YOU!!!!!! i am sooooo rooting for her. she needs to win her butt immunity the next few challenges, unless she can get the girls on her side, like it looked like she was attempting in previews for next episode. go girl!!!!

the apprentice pissed me off again....WHAT THE HELL IS ALEX STILL DOING THERE?!?!?! i'm still rooting to tana (?).


well i have to go check on my little one, make sure he is eating his lunch. if i don't check back in later, i hope you all have a great weekend....STAY WARM!!!

~4-21-05~ Funny

found this on bitchypoo.com, thought it was funny and fitting

~4-21-05~ EGGS!!!!

well, i know i am going to go back downstairs to ravioli's all over my floor. clay is refusing to eat lunch cause they are not "eggs, eggs, eggs,eggs, eggs, eggs"!

my child is obsessed with eggs...hard boiled. he doesn't even eat the BEST part, the yolk, but he loves him the egg whites. for lunch recently i have been giving him an egg. well i forgot to boil some last night for lunch, and now i am paying!!!

but really, i don't want him to get used to the same damn thing for lunch every day....even though i AM guaranteed that he WILL actually eat the egg....the other stuff is questionable.

now i am hungry for some damn ravioli! i had to eat a few to show him the were GOOD, not yucky like he was saying. no worries, i'll probably get to eat his anyways. that boy is stubborn, i KNOW he is NOT going to eat the damn ravioli's!!!!


i still haven't heard back for the realtor. i don't know why it takes so freaking long! again, not that it really matters, since i still have to sell this place...which means getting it ready to show.

i had big plans for this weekend, getting everything out, but it is supposed to snow!!!! WHAT?!?!!? it has been 75 degrees the past few days, now it is only 46 and this weekend, snow!!!! god i hate ohio weather!!!! it's a good thing bob didn't take my winter clothes i packed up to storage, looks like i will be needing them here soon.

well, ciagarette is done...gotta go clean up ravioli!!

~4-21-05~ Fingers crossed

our realtor called today to say that he spoke with the other's realtor and she said she could probably get them to accept an offer of $180,000. well that is COOL with me cause i wasn't going to go over that. i did ask him to see if they would pay the closing costs, about $3000. i don't know if they will go for that or not.


so now i really, REALLY have to get our butts moving on doing shit around here so we can have an open house and show the property. i told bob to get a friend to help him move EVERYTHING that can be moved to the storage unit this weeknd. but of course he is making up excuses for his friends. i don't know if he is or not, but he is the type of guy who doesn't ask his friends for help even though he would and does help them at the drop of a hat. oh well.............

i really hope in a week or 2 everything will be done. we did some landscaping in the front and MY GOD, it looks so nice!!! why the hell haven't we done that in the 6 years we have been here?!?!?!

so fingers crossed that everything works out and this is all meant to be!


well i need to get to be NOW, my son has been getting up at 7:30 AM latley and i am about to die!!!!!

take care everyone!

~4-20-05~ UGH!!!!

well it only takes one 75 degree day out to realize how fat and UN-tanned you are. and so far we have had 3!! UCK!!!!!



the realtor called yesterday, those people counter bid(?) $184,900 (down $5000). so hopefully they will come down another $5000 and that is the price we want! we offered back $175,900. so we will see what happenes next.


for those of you who smoke, do you know how when you brush your teeth, then somke, some toothpastes make it have an weird taste?! GOD i hate that. well these damn chewable vitamins do the same thing!!! just like smoking a damn "flavored" cigarette...gag!! remember the days trish!!!! she used to think it was funny, to switch our lit cigarettes when i wasn't looking so i inhaled that menthol shit. haha!! so funny trish! :)


i'll try to get back to you all later. have a good day

~4-17-05~ GUYS beware!

well the following may be too much info, so you are warned.....



have i told ya'll how much i just LOVE my birth control ring thing? I LOVE IT!!!!! i mean the taking it out and putting it in sucks, and it REALLY sucks that my insurance doesn't cover it, but OH MY, it is definitely worth $37 a month!!!!!!!

i don't know how you gals are, but when i was on my period, even on the regular pill i would HAVE to wear those super PLUS tampons. i would also have to change them a bazillion times, usually way before the 2 hour mark. that would last the WHOLE 7 DAYS!!!!! it was terrible!

guess what now?? i wear the REGULARS!!!!! and i may bleed for 5 days, usually not much the first day, and not much towards the end. it is HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she even told me that if i wanted that when the month was up after removing the old one, i could go ahead and put a new one back in and NOT HAVE A PERIOD AT ALL!!!!! usually you wait a week before putting in a new one, that's when you have your period. i heard a while back you could do that with your pills, but i never did. i never did with this either. i figure i don't bleed much anyways, so i better not mess with nature too much.

i love, love, love me some nuva ring!!!!!!



know what i hate, hate, hate? SOAP! i hate it! hand soap that is. i cannot find a kind that does not dry out my hands. i would really love to strangle that lady who did the palmolive dish soap commercial. oh so gentle on your hands you can soak in it (cut to a shot of a woman soaking her hands in the dish soap). just let me say BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that shit eats up my hands just as bad as any other dish soap. and NO i haven't tried that dawn or whatever that supposedly has some lotion or mosturizers in it. but even the damn hand soap i have in the bathroom. right now my hands are dry and tight as hell!!! i hate it! i guess i could always wear gloves, but from working i have had my hands in those damn gloves so much, i can't stand it anymore. my hands get clausterphobia. it just icks me out.



clay got his surprise today. it wasn't what i wanted though. they only way you could get it was online, which again i call BULLSHIT, and will be writing toys r us and little tikes. who the hell in their right mind is going to pay $200+ shipping on something that is already $500?!?!?!?!? not this gal! i love my son and spoil him to death, but not that way!!

they didn't even have my 2nd, 3rd, or 4th choice. none actually, so we settled on the coolest thing they did have. it was sort of rough putting it together, it was worse actually securing it to the top of my jeep!!!! clay seemed to like it though. by the time we got home, got dinner, then put it together it was after 7, so he didn't have much time on it before bedtime. i'm so excited for tomorrow!!!!! i'm sure he will go play with the boxes from it more than the actual thing itself, but you know how that is! oh and i did get this, free with my purchase, so that is sort of cool. it is HUGE! it took up the whole back seat of my jeep!

i watched collateral this weekend, notice i said I, bob was out about 5 minutes into it. it was ok. i think jamie foxx was nominated for soem damn award for his part, but i don't know why. i mean he was good at it, but it wasn't all that great. it was just an ok movie, and as much as i HATE tom cruise, it was sort of cool seeing him play the bad guy, but that's it.

we still have spongebob the movie and the 2nd bourne whatever movie to watch. bob is dragging his feet on the first one, and i want to get the 1st bourne whatever before we watch the 2nd. so we have had these movies forever! speaking of which, let me head to my mail for a second....brb....i got this from blockbuster the other day and thought i would pass iton to anyone who wanted to try it:

Hello Jennifer,

We're making it easier than ever for you to share the convenience of BLOCKBUSTER Online™ with others. For a limited time, you can treat your friends and family to one FREE MONTH of service!

Pass along the special Promotional Code word "friends" to anyone you wish.

When they visit www.blockbuster.com, sign up for membership and enter the word "friends" into the Promotional Code field, they will receive their first month of service FREE.

still not as great as netflix, but it is cheaper and the delievery IS getting better. and since you get 2 free in-store rentals a month, it sort of makes up for their slow-ness.



still haven't heard back on our offer for the house yet, i know they aren't going to accept it.....but still not ready to show our house either. bob got most of the painting done outside. we are really going to kick butt this week. i just want to get the bidding war started to see if they even go for what the top price we are willing to pay. that way i can either get my mind set on that house (if we sell ours) or get over it and start looking for another.

oh well.......it's past my bedtime again, so i'm out of here. hope you all had a good weekend.

~4-15-05~ Well.........

i feel like writing, i don't know why, i have nothing exciting to report and it is way past my bedtime!!


again, TRU CALLING is the best damn show!!! i really hope that there is more filming in the works, i think it is down to only 2 more episodes and that will just suck!!!!


can you believe i haven't been writing about all my tv shows lately! add that to my list of laziness!


american idol is just crazy. i don't hate anyone. i think most of them are pretty good! i don't much like anwar. i mean he can sing, but there is just a tone or something to his voice i don't like. and that scott kid. he too can sing, except this week, but i haven't liked him since hollywood. i liked nadia. i thought she sounded great tuesday, even though i had no clue what song she was singing. i was SHOCKED that bo was in the bottom 3!!!!!! i did not care for his attitude though when ryan asked what he thought if he were eliminated. he wasn't as great as he has been though, slowly constanine is becoming my favorite guy. and that carrie girl. THAT GIRL CAN JUST SING!!!!! i think she is going to win. if not she is still going to make big $$, cause she's got it!!!!

if ya'll watch country idol, or what is it, nashville star. BRET MICHAELS IS ONE OF THE JUDGES!!! i don't know if i told you guys that or not. i have lusted after bret since like 1986! my favorite got booted a few weeks ago, because they tried to show some "drama" in the house, which i think was taken out of context, and that ruined her chance of winning, cause she clearly was GREAT!!!! i know all the country folk are loving the guy who wears the cowboy hat. he is your typical country singer. yes, he is good, but to me he sounds like everyone else. i also just LOVE the guy who they keep saying should sing christian music. his voice is just great! and of course mandy jo or whatever, the little girl that bret keeps making comments about (bitch! haha) she can really sing. i think she is my fave. right now.

what's next. i am sick of repeats, i'll tell you that. i know i have bitched before!!! there NEVER used to be repeats like this years ago. the only time you got repeats was during summer! i can't even remember the last time ER was new!!! and when it was it was after a ton of repeats then!! THEN they had 1 new show and now all repeats again. and to make it worse carter is leaving!!!!! AGHHHH!!!!!! i swear if luca leaves i may have to quit watching!


lost too, what is up with the repeats people!!! your show is hard enough to remember and follow as it is, then repeats!!!! especially after killing cute dude! what was that about?!?!?! i think next week may be the season finale, which i hate!


survivor, i am rooting for stephanie. she is one tough bitch!!!! she definitely deserves to win!!!! now that i said that and jinxed her, she won't!


the bachelor. doesn't anyone else think this guy is gross and goofy?!?!? i really can't stand the guy! my fave. girl was booted last week, the single mom. i have no clue who is going to win, probably the slut. i think psycho girl, forget her name, sara w. maybe, is going to be shown for what she is soon and will be gone. i don't really care who wins, i guess i am just into it because of my addiction to reality tv.


have i even said lately how much i HATE ROB AND AMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lord i swear i cuss more watching that show, than i don't even know!!! i hate, hate, hate them! i never, never, never liked rob, or amber for that fact, and having to watch them both AGAIN just turns my stomach!!!!! rob is such an ass!!!!!!! i sooooooooo cannot wait for them to be ELIMINATED!!!! as for who i want to win, i don't even know. i liked the old people, but that woman totally pissed me off with the road block challenge this week, so they are off my list. i like the black couple alot. and the gay guys don't bother me either, i am sooo with them on their hatred of rob and amber so i love them!! :) that stupid guy who was in iraq and his "beauty" queen girlfriend drive me up a wall too. they weren't too bad, but they were so freaking stupid for not yeilding rob and amber this week, i want them to lose now too. fuckers!!!!


the apprentice......i hate alex!!! i think he is totally worthless! i felt so bad for chris tonight. i don't particularly like the guy, but i think he has got a raw deal lately. he is just an easy target, which is his own fault. i think my favorite is that blonde broad, that always talks about being a mom from minnesota (?). she is funny. she has a lot of character, and she has done really well with all of the tasks so far.


dog the bounty hunter has finally started a new season. check it out.


i also started watching a show on court tv called impossible heists. 2 teams set out to pull off an "impossible" heist, based on real heists. it isn't that bad of a show. the one girl on there was driving me nuts cause i knew i "knew" her from somewhere. here she is the girl that was on the show who's your daddy.


well i think i am all tv'd out for now. one more cigarette and i am heading to bed. it is late! i don't know why i do this to myself!


clay was awful at nap time again today. i think since i pushed his nap back later that maybe now he is over tired so that is why there is such a fight!! i don't even know what time he finally fell asleep today. i was wore out by fighting with him. i went in there like 4-5 times to lay him down. then bob never woke us up when he got home, and when i woke up it was after 5:30pm!!!!!! what the hell?!?!?!

but as usual, the later clay gets up from a nap, the earlier he is asleep at night. he was out by 9:30, and he didn't even get up there til after 9! so who knows what time he will be up in the morning.

he had a play date today. i babysat for marisa. it is so weird to see the actual differences in boys and girls, especially at such a young age. poor clay wanted marisa to run around with him and chase him. she wasn't having any of that. so everything she would want to play with, clay would take and hide under his shirt and start to run away laughing....trying to get her to chase him. she didn't. i felt so bad for him!! then we went outside and again, as usual, they both basically did their own thing. not playing with each other, but themselves.


oops, which reminds me, i think i am going swing seet shopping this weekend so i have to get off here and find out where the best deal is. wait to you see the one i have picked out. i love it!!! hopefully clay will too.

see ya'll later!!! night.

~4-14-05~ WOW!

i actually got a flame. or whatever you call it, a BAD comment to my wonderful blog.

how funny is that!!! at first i was a bit upset, especially since he sort of questioned my parenting ability. then i just thought it was funny. what the hell did i write that makes me a "slutty" influence on my child?!?!

i don't really write about anything that has to do with anything. how the hell did he even end up here?! and why would you take the time to comment?

oh well, guess that is part of the whole blog thing.

anyways, thanks for the not mean comment trish! :) guess that is what friends are for.

all the houses we look at i think are too damn expensive. but they are the only ones that have what i want. i have been thinking about the school districts, but these days, i am terrified to send my kid to any school!! i was seriously considering catholic school, or any sort of "private" school. not that those are necessarily any better, it is tough! i did want to home school, but bob isn't into that. i agree with him, just due to the fact of social interaction.

the house that is in navarre/perry, i don't know if i mentioned it, but there is a grade school RIGHT across the street. i would love that! i could basically look out the window and know where my little guy is.

i am still sort of torn between the 2. i will list the pro's and con's. may be boring for you all, but it will help me (hopefully).

Navarre-pros

HUGE-almost 3200 square feet.
HUGE lot-almost 5 acres
sort of in the country
NO CITY LIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE the kitchen
bedrooms are nice size and there are 4
nice set up to the lower level, good for bob's bar/sports area
nice laundry area
QUIET and peaceful surroundings!!
i can have a bon fire in my back yard
i can have a pool installed, inground or above ground
the lot is mostly fenced
clay con RUN around to his heart's content (and to mine if it tires him out! :))
no real close neighbors (homes are nicely spaced)
perry schools are ok
VERY close to my mom, 9 minutes (this should be higher on my list)
not a high traffic area
newer roof
close to walmart
has a master bath
has double closets in the master bedroom
they will accept a contingency offer

Navarre-cons

TAXES
needs a deck and some privacy fencing ($$)
no fireplace
no central air (but can be easily installed)
...there has to be more, i can't think of any right now


North Canton-pros

cheaper than navarre
cheaper taxes
love the family room set up
like the finished downstairs
love the extra storage buildings
love the cherry kitchen
love the "in-law" sweet
ok lot, .64 acres
cenral air
north canton schools ok

North Canton-cons

only 2 bedrooms and they are SMALL
have to make the living room into the master bedroom
needs privacy fencing...A LOT
corner lot, means traffic on both sides
close to BV and all of its traffic
roof is over 10 years old
main bathroom is TINY
no dining room, just dinette
won't take a contingency
i don't see how a big screen tv will fit to take it down to the finished lower level (trust me this is an issue-bob's bar area)
over 20 minutes from mom
if i want to get to cleveland avenue i would have to turn left into traffic (BV traffic), this is a big issue with me



well from looking at the list, it looks like the choice is clear. bob's fave is also the one in navarre. it is just more people friendly. i want to start having family over for the holidays, there is an eat in kitchen and also a dining room. plus with the land, we can have people over for bon fires and such and not have to worry about neighbors or waking the kids. we can actually go outside to watch the meteor showers and SEE them! we are freaks about that stuff.

it may not matter anyways. i'm going to talk to the realtor tomorrow about putting in a contingency bid. hell they may not even accept our offer. i'm not going over $180,000. so it may not even be an issue.

he said they will take a contingency offer, but i don't know how long those are good for. i would like it for about 90 days if that is even possible. it would work out for the both of us. i don't know if i mentioned it, but those people have more shit than i do! that is saying alot!! it looks like they haven't even begun to pack!! they will definitely need time!!


i'm hoping to have our house ready to show in a couple of weeks, definitely by the end of the month. bob is doing great with some stuff outside, i am proud of him! hopfully then we can have an open house and get someone interested.


i know the one in navarre may not look like much, the picutres they put on the site SUCK! i don't know why they didn't put a picture of the kitchen!! it is wondeful, my favorite room of the whole house!!

well i will let you all know what happens.

P.S. annonymous should be happy, i don't think i cussed once this whole post! well fuck, how'd that happen?! :) that was for you DUDE!!

~4-13-05~ OOOHHH MYYYY GOOOODDDD!!!!!

THIS IS FUCKING UNREAL!!!!!!!!1

i just went back for the 180,000th time tonight to look at houses, guess what is on there?!?!?!?!

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


that is the house that i was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo in love with for ever, dreamt about, had decorated in my mind, and had plans for living there in my old age!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sure you all remember cause i talked about it non-stop!!!!!!!!

they got an offer the day before ours went up and CRUSHED me and my spirit!!!


WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!?! now it is back on the market!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah, now that i am almost just as in love with the one i previously wrote about!!!

IS THIS A SIGN?!?!?!?!?!?! SHOULD WE MAKE AN OFFER?!?!?!?!?! OH MY GOD!! you don't know the restraint it is taking right now not to run in the bedroom and wake up bob to shout this at him!!!!!

and i can't believe my realtor didn't call me to tell me this!!!! he says everytime he talks to me that he is keeping his eye on it!!!

GREAT! NOW I AM GOING TO GET NO SLEEP TONIGHT!!!!!

~4-13-05~ Been a long time....

i've been horrible about updating here. and it isn't due to the fact that i have been so busy. cause i really haven't been. just unmotivated as usual.


part of me is upset that noone has called and wanted to look at the house yet, WHY?!?!?! even if someone did call we are NOWHERE near ready to have people come through it!!!!

i did pack a few boxes today....and you all should be proud cause i actually threw away some perfume i have had at least since high school...yes almost 15 years ago!!!! and NO i didn't throw away any make-up i've had since high school...even though i hardly wear make-up you never know when it will come in handy. yes i am psycho like that! people! you should see the amount of lipstick i have! it sucks cause i am all into that new lipstick that stays on for about a week (really not kidding) so i never wear regular lipstick anymore, and boy do i have some pretty lipstick! we won't even get into nail polish! or jewelry.

just be proud that i did throw some stuff away, that is a big feat for me!! bob also went through the spare room and cleared out stuff, so now it almost looks like a normal room. it is still a MESS, but i am not just mortified if anyone were to see it. the other rooms, well they are still disgusting!!!!


i think we are into the house i have showed you before, this one. it sucks that the taxes are OUTRAGEOUS, but we really like it, and that is it for us so far. i'm not getting all ga-ga, like i did with the other house, my luck the same thing will happen. i do think about it, but not getting my hopes up yet. if it is meant to be, then it will be.


we got a ton of stuff at lowes this weekend, so we can finally get the house fixed up. bob has been good about doing some of the outside painting the past few days since it has been nice. it feels good to finally be making some progress. i just feel bad, like i am not doing enough. like i said earlier, i did good today. NO nap. i packed and sorted.


i know this is too late, but i have been meaning to tell you all to watch this show. tru calling. i talked about it last year. i was soooooooooooooo excited for it to come back on this season, which was supposed to be in october. well it kept getting pushed back, then it was cancelled. i was devistated! the show got soooooooooo great at the end, the added some great twists, i wanted to see what happened. well a few weeks back i found out that it was back on!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY, HAPPY!!! well i checked the internet and found out the were just airing the episodes that they had already filmed, which were 6 i believe. LET ME TELL YOU, this season it 1000 times better than last! it is fucking great!!!! and even MORE twists!!!!!!!!!! and now there are only like 3 episodes left, what the hell!!!!! i'm never going to get to find out how things turn out!!! god, i hate that!!!!!!! i don't even know if there is hope for it to continue or not, fox's fault is that last year it was up against "must see tv" (NBC) on thursday nights!!! why would anyone put a show on then and expect it to get good ratings?!?!?! this season they STILL kept it on thursdays and now it is against survivor and the apprentice! i think they don't want the show to make it!

same thing with the other greatest show of all time!!! american gothic. it was on friday nights (i think, if not, then saturday). who is home watching tv then. i don't think that is a big tv night, then after an episode or 2 they switched nights...how is someone supposed to know that?! it too, unfortunately got cancelled mid-season, luckily though the sci-fi channel picked up the rest of the filmed episodes so i got to see how everything played out, for the most part. there is still a part of me hoping for its return, but did i mention this was about 8 years ago! and to my dismay while watching friday night lights, i realized the quarter back kid was the LITTLE boy who was the main character in the show. HE IS ALL GROWN UP!!! so i guess that wouldn't work! it was such a good show!!!

i'm sure i have other bitches about all my shows, but hell, i forget. my brain is just mush these days! my child is as hyper as ever, and bad! so i am exhausted. it has been pretty nice the past few days, so we have been able to be outside the majority of "awake" time, so that is good for the both of us. i just wish we would hurry up and move so i could set up the yard for him. i feel bad there is not much for him to do out there. i wanted to get a cheap, used swing set to put up, but i can't find anything. what i found that i wanted at the stores is like $500!!!! he probably wouldn't play on it anyways. while out there he touches NONE of his toys, he just gets into everything else that is out there that he isn't supposed to be messing with. you all with children will understand that that is TYPICAL(child or boy...or both)!!

well, it is past my bedtime. hope to catch up again soon. take care!!

~4-6-05~ Who are you?

someone from aol just did a search for jennifer + ewell. what is that all about?!?!

did ya find what you wanted? were you actually looking for me?! let me know.

how weird.

it's late....off to bed.

chat with ya in the morning. (maybe)

~4-5-05~ WOW, I suck!!

i sure haven't been keeping up on this blog lately, have i?!

well good thing i was writing....now i have a story to tell....

i just had to stop mid thought cause all i heard was SCREATCH....BAMN....before i got to the window to see if someone had hit my car i heard GET OUT OF THE CAR AND ON THE GROUND!!!!

so of course i had to grab my cigarettes and run outside. i don't know what the hell happened, but a car hit a telephone poll. i don't know if he was being chased or what cause the cop was RIGHT there.

so a bunch of us nosey folks were out checking out all the excitement. i got all excited i heard the dog, so i thought they were going to search the car. they had the dog out, but didn't do a search. so i don't know the actual details of anything. i'll be checking out the paper and let you all know.

so now after all of that it is my bedtime, and i didn't even get to post anything.

well hell!!


what an end to an event filled day!!!

i had to call the poison control center today. felt like a WONDERFUL mother the whole time. i left the children's vitamins out cause i was going to start taking them again too....well needless to say, i forgot, and clay found them....no child proof cap!!!! i have no clue how many he ate, but he is only supposed to have a half of one a day. one of her questions was, was he left alone for a period and that is how he got them. YEAH, I DON'T WATCH WHAT MY KID DOES OR GETS INTO. i felt like an ass!!!! especially since he has been so bad lately about getting into EVERYTHING!!!!!!!

she said there wasn't any emergency unless he ate about 30 of them. he may only experience tummy ache, nausia, vomiting. the more i thought about it, i don't think he even ate the 10 or so i told her. he didn't have a mouthful of them when i caught him. he seem his usual, bad self all day. he did have an AWFUL diaper though, before bedtime!!!!!

bedtime was also a nightmare, but i think that was bob's fault. i've been having bob go check on him lately. well last night he wanted bob to get in bed and go "nite-nite" (lay down) with him. BOB DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so tonight he wanted bob to do the same and i was all NO!!!!!!! and clay wasn't having any of that! so he threw a tantrum! he would not settle down for anything. when i finally did get him calm, as soon as i went to leave the room he would start up again. eventually i got him settled, it was bad. i hated seeing him so upset, i was so close to jumping in the damn crib with him to calm him!!!! poor little guy! i think he was just overly tired. he didn't get much of a nap today, like usual when i get him down they start beating on the side of the house that is HIS room!!!

yes, you heard that right! they were actually here working on my house today!!!!!!!

i have gotten quite a few boxes packed. you really can't tell though. they were mostly downstairs, where it really isn't that bad. upstairs is what is bad!


we went and looked at 6 houses sunday. like i knew i LOVED the house in waynesburg. the house wasn't ALL that. it is nice and old like i like it. a dentist owned it, so it was well kept, but i love the land!! it has 5 acres. it is kind of queer cause the acres are split up in long rectangles. so the back yard of the house, like maybe 50 feet out, is the property line, same with the front by the driveway!!!!! but then there are like 2 acres to either side. the other lots are for sale, and i think a reasonable price if i had the money to do all that. the house itself is $179,000. the lot behind the house is 5 acres for $35,000 and the lot in front is 11 acres for $54,000. i'm sure we won't get it, and i'm not real heartbroken about it. it just isn't all we want in a house (which i think for me is impossible!!!!)

the one i thought i loved in east sparta was just WAY too small, and the 2 acres again were all behind, and all DOWN hill. another was in east canton. it was an ok house, it was built in 1999. it had over 2 acres, wasn't that bad, but it was right on the corner of the "main" road. the bad thing about it was that it has baseboard heat! so no way to get central air, without spending MUCH money!!!!!

then we looked at 3 new ones in louisville. yes, the houses were beautiful, but there was NO yard!!!! even though they supposedly had twice the size of my lot, my yard looked much bigger!!!!

we are supposed to go wednesday to look at these in navarre 1, 2, 3. maybe we will have some luck there. i'm kind of holding out though till we get more "ready" to move here and at least have SOME interest in our house.

i keep telling myself the perfect house is out there, we just have to be patient. when it is time, we will find it!


i shouldn't jinx myself by saying this, but with this stupid time change clay has been getting up late!!! almost 9 am!!! which granted it is his normal time of 8, but that sets everything else off. i didn't put him down for his nap today til 2, which went great til the banging! sunday he didn't take a nap at all. he was in bed for about 15-20 min, wouldn't go to sleep, then he was looking out the window and seen my mom's car pull up, so it was all MA-MA, MA-MA, MA-MA....so i knew he wasn't sleeping! plus she was wathcing him so i didn't have to deal with a sleepy kid! ha! i'm so mean!

guess we will see how tomorrow goes. they still aren't done with the spouting, so hopefully they will get here early and get it done before nap time.

well i have to get to bed, i have been doing so good lately. usually in bed, lights out by 12:30.

i'll update ya'll soon! take care!!