~7-30-05~ I Am...........

This is kind of cute, got it from Kitchen Logic:

Directions: Type "(Your Name) Is" (use quotes, into a google search then pick out 10 quotes then share them with us.



Sartain added that "Jennifer is not a criminal." (I agree with this one)

Jennifer is Great: (definitely agree!! haha!!)

Little Jennifer is a genius (again, agree :) )

Jennifer, is she your friend? (i hope!)

Jennifer is pregnant with their first child (true, about 3 years ago)

it turns out that Jennifer is the only Jewish kid in the
class (sorry, no jewish here!)

You got your stories wrong, Jennifer is the selfish one! (i guess i will admit i am at times...sshhhh!)

Jennifer is married to a wonderful man........ (true, most of the time :) )

Jennifer is helping me remove the filters from my eyes (i try, but noone listens to me!)

Jennifer is unemployed and desperately looking for a job. (OH HOW WRONG!! definitely NOT this jennifer!!!! :) )

~7-29-05~ Mommy claws!!!

my mommy claws came out for the first time tonight, and i almost smacked the shit out of a little girl. yes, i know that is wrong, but here is my story.......


so we are at the balloon thing tonight. everyone is having a good time, enjoying the balloons. i hear this little girl beside us saying something over and over, but i am not paying attention to her. finally i think i hear her, so i ask bob what that girl said, and he said exactly what i thought, "DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND STOP!!" ALL SHITTY!!!!! SHE WAS TALKING TO MY SON!!!!!! CAUSE, HEAVEN FORBID, HE WAS TOUCHING HER BLANKET!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i sort of tried to ignore it and told clay to stop, but it was just fucking ridiculous! so then she was all "stop touching it, stop touching it, stop touching it....." i about lost my shit, but i was calm and i said, "he is 2 sweety, he doesn't understand!"

then about 5 seconds later the little snot said, "he understands!!" i damn near lost my shit again! so i told clay that "girls are bitches and he will have to get used to that!!!" YES, I KNOW THAT REALLY WAS NOT APPROPRIATE ON MY PART! but it was alot more appropriate than smaking the shit out of her!!!!!!

so then after that, i haven't told anyone this, not even bob and he was right there with me.........but then i about broke down and cried!

HOW DARE SOMEONE BE MEAN TO MY CHILD!!!!!!!!! then of course i had to flash forward years, thinking about other kids being mean to him. and it just broke my heart! i don't want anyone to ever be mean to him or hurt his feelings. and YES, i know it is a part of life! it happens to everyone! BUT HE IS MY SON!!!!!!

so i sort of just had to redirect my attention back to the balloons! bob made a remark too about the girl, but i reminded us BOTH, that she too was a little kid and "you know how little kids are", but really she had to be at least 8! so come on....and what the fuck were her parents doing?!?!?! you think they would have at least heard or SEEN me commenting to her! don't you think they would have wondered what was going on?!?!?

so anyways......bob and i had our first experience with parental "protection". lord help me! i don't know if i am ready for all of this stuff!!!!!

just thought i would share.....i'll add some pictures now..........

night! have a good weekend!!!

BALLOONS!!!!

HOW CAN YOU BE MEAN TO THIS??????

~7-28-05~ My excitement for the week...

i caught a mouse on monday! can you stand the excitement!!!!!!

well, i went out in the garage to check on my flowers, yes we bought MORE flowers! i heard a scratching noise. i was like what the hell. i could tell it was coming for the bag of bird seed. i was like GREAT, what the hell is in there?!

i got a flashlight and peered into the bag....it was a mouse!!!! so i started thinking, how in the hell am i going to catch this one....all my other attempts have been fruitless. i just took the cup that was in there, scooped him up along with a bunch of bird seed, covered the top, and put the whole thing in this aquarium we have in the garage! i caught a mouse! i was successful!!

as cute as i think they are, i was going to put him outside, but it was pouring rain and i would have felt awful. so i figured i'd put him in the aquarium for the time being.

well, tuesday it poured buckets! i mean tornado siren and everything.....jump ahead to today. i couldn't find him! it is sort of hard cause there is a bunch of coral and shells in there, along with the newspaper i put in there for him. so i thought maybe he got out.

bob said he seen him this morning, so i figured he was in there. i did the same thing the night before and couldn't' find him, then 5 minutes later he was sitting on one of the rocks.

so i come in tonight and go to the bathroom. bob yells up, i probably shouldn't tell you this............but your mouse had babies! i flew down the steps and out to the garage. SHE was under a piece of coral, you had to look up through the bottom of the aquarium, there with here were 3 pink blobs. the actually looked sort of gross. like it sure wasn't time for them to come out. i mean they are bright pink! no hair, nothing! their eyes aren't even open, just 2 little dark specks. he then told me to NOT freak out, they were not dead, he had seen them all move.

I HAVE BABIES!!!!!!!!!!! baby mice!!!! that is a first to me! i'm sorry for my excitement!!!!!!!

then bob jokingly said, damn it, i knew i should have got that thing out of here yesterday!!!!! why does my wife have to be so nice!!!

on the downside, i am going to have to get rid of them! NOT NOW! but when they are old enough. i just feel bad putting them out into the wild. i know, they ARE wild! but they are so damn cute!!!!!!!!!!!

it is so funny cause just before all of this i was thinking about going and getting a hamster cage or something for it, but then my brain kicked in and said that is all you need, something else to take care of!!!! then this! guess i was meant to have them!!

i don't care what anyone says, mice are just so damn adorable!!!! not so much the babies, but the adults! so i guess tonight will be spent looking up how to take care of baby mice........my luck they will all die, i should really know better!!!!

so fingers crossed, that they all turn out to be healthy adult mice! at least for my sake! not for who's house they will venture into next.

ok...i think my son is finally asleep now. i can finally go watch big brother, so bob can go to bed.

night all!!!

~7-25-05~ Hello there

well my little one is sleeping. since noon actually. yes, that is great, but the reason his butt is sleeping is because he was up at 6:30am AGAIN!!!!!


i too should be sleeping, but i had to go through and figure out some bills.


i'm frustrated about this whole house selling thing, bob took a vacation day sept 2nd, so i decided we were going on vacation!!!! where you ask???? for those of you who know me, where is the ONLY place i go.............niagara falls!!!!

not just for me though, for clay. they have a marineland (us equivallent to sea world). since they took our sea world away, the closest one happens to be up in my favorite place on earth! works out well!!

so all weekend i have been online checking out stuff up there. i am pretty particular about what i wanted. i wanted a room actually overlooking the falls. as many times as i have been there in my life we have NEVER stayed at one of those places.....why????? cause it is butt expensive!!!! but oh well, our first family vacation, i want it to be nice. especially since we will have to be in somewhat early everynight to put clay to bed, at least we can look out the window and look at the falls. i don't know about you all, but i could just look at them forever, they are soooooooooo beautiful! especially at night when they are lit up. we haven't been there since march of 2001!!!! bob and i used to go every year for the past hell like 8 years!!!

i wanted a room with a balcony and for some reason none of them have them!!! that really sucks! i thought at least bob and i could go out on the balcony and smoke!

i found this package at the embassy. i think this is the one we are going with.

we were originally going to leave on friday the 2st and come back on the 4th. but now bob is going to see if he can get of the 1st too, that way we will actually have 2 FULL days to do stuff. i know marineland will take a whole day.

so we are pretty psyched about it! what i am most excited about, aside from clay seeing everything, is that we are finally going to be able to use our new camera and video camera!!!!!!! granted we got them for clay, the camera for when he was born, and the video, for his first birthday, but now we can actually take vacation pictures!!!! if you all only knew me and pitcures!!!! like i said before i have been to niagara falls a bazillion times and everytime i take a millon rolls of film, no more film!! woo-hoo!!!!!!! maybe, just MAYBE i will FINALLY get some good pictures of the falls at night. i am going to take my tripod this time!

oh well enough about that.

i'll leave you with a new house i found that i LOVE!!!! i want it!! it is as close to my dream house that i have found. the only things it is lacking, is that i don't really care for ranches, and i would like it closer to my mom (it is about 28 minutes from her and bob's work), or at least more south AND of course it is like $20,000 more than the one we have that bid on (no word on that yet either), but i think our contract on it expires the 16th. oh well, again, what is meant to be will be...........gotta think like that or i will drive myself batty, or more batty i should say!!

take care every one!!

~7-21-05~ My day so far......

i am going I-N-S-A-N-FUCKING-E!!!!!

it all started about 4:30 AM, when my child wakes up and comes in my room. i get up, barely, and take him back in his room. 4:50 he is back!!!!!! i take him back. then next thing i know my cat is fucking with something in my room, making a ton of noise!!!! i may or may not have fallen asleep, but next thing i know bob's alarm is going off at fucking 6am! of course he turns it off and goes back to sleep, meanwhile my cat is still at it and i have to get up to move the damn box he is playing with! next thing i know bob is getting up, about 7. i sigh, and say to myself finally i can get back to sleep. then MOM!!! nope, no sleep!!!!!!!!!! so i get up cause bob is getting ready to leave, just as i plop on the couch he tells me clay has a poopy butt. yeah so?!?! he changes it, then says "your welcome!". i'm welcome....i'm supposed to thank him for changing his sons dirty diaper?!?!?! whatever.

so again i am trying to chill on the couch, but of course that means in clay speak to get into everything possible that i am not supposed to do. which i should know better. the first time i got up and checked on him he had strawberry syurp all over the kitchen counter as he was telling me "chocolate milk". so that got cleaned up and the milk was made. back to the couch i went. i check on him again in about 5 minutes, now there is WD-40 all over the window and he is yelling "paper towel"!

why me?!!? now i am listening to him yelling mommy! i have been trying to put him down for a nap since 12:45, it is now 1:45!!!! i even laid with him for 1/2 hour, which worked yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes, i know, some kids this age don't need naps anymore, but MOMMY DOES!!!!! no, but if he doesn't nap around 5pm, he starts dozing and i have to do everything in my power to keep him up. i mean picking him up, bothering him, while he is screaming and crying "night-night"!!!!!!! that just breaks my heart! but i CANNOT let him go to sleep at 5pm. hell he goes to sleep at 10pm now and is still up at 6am, if not earlier. god only knows when he would be up if i put him to sleep at 5!!!!!!!

when the hell is this "phase" going to end?! i am about to my wits end. how am i supposed to deal with this when i am pregnant and REALLY tired and worn out?!?!? and bob wonders why i am stalling on getting knocked up again?!?!? hhhmmmmmm......i wonder!!!!


did i mention that my child doesn't eat either?! so where the hell is all this energy coming from that he has?!?!?! i don't think the child eats a whole meal combined the whole day! and now all he basically eats is those lunchable things. that is all he wants. occasionally he will eat a nugget or 2. and maybe a bite or 2 of other things, but that is it. all he wants is junk. which is weird cause he really doesn't get stuff like that. somedays i am ready to sit him down with a bag of chips just so he will EAT SOMETHING!!!!!

well one more cigarette and then i have to go get him, cause him there yelling is driving me just as insane!!!!! plus i am sure if i give him anymore time he will surely figure out how to climb over the gate. then the threats of that will be void. even though they don't work in the first place!

have a wonderful day everyone!!

~7-17-05~ I just can't take it...

i am just FILLED with good news this weekend! (sarcasim)

first i found out that the house we have a bid on is sold!!! i thought i was supposed to get 48 hour notice!!!! not like we could do anything anyways, but FUCK!!!

secondly NOONE came to our open house yesterday, or the impromtu one we had ourselves today!!!!!

and third, clay got his first bee sting today!!!!! wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i knew it was coming for quite some time now, seeing how our backyard isn't grass, but mostly that clover those fuckers like so much.

he is fine. he just cried for a bit, but i think it was mostly cause i was messing with it to get the stinger out and to make sure i got it all. it's been almost 2 hours now, it is swollen or anything. you can barely even see it. i am still a bit stressed, but i think he is fine. THANK GOD he is not allergic!!!!!!!!!!

he and bob are off to get my chinese food now. i'll try and post soon with pictures of clay's new toy. were toys so expensive when i was little?? no, cause they didn't have cool shit for us like they do now days. well he only played on the damn think for like 2 minutes. i should have known. i swear, the more expensive, the less they get played with!! i am half tempted to take it back, but the child throws a fit when i deflate it. he doesn't want to play on it, but he wants it up. my child is just weird!!!!!!! i think he would play on it if other kids were on it, he keeps wanting bob and i to get on, but we are just too big. oh well, maybe he will grow into it. same thing i keep saying about that damn slide thing i got him.

take care!!

P.S. i'll miss ya trish! without you on here, guess we will have to actually call one another and stop and see each other! :)

~7-16-05~ Sweatin again!

lord am i hot! not mad this time.

i'm bustin butt to get this house clean for the open house at 1. it really isn't bad, and when mom came and got clay i actuallly thought about going back and laying down for a bit. but no, i was good, i have been cleaning. i even packed some more stuff up.

it is amazing how nasty stuffed animals get from sitting for 3 years!!!! they were bad!!!!!!!! i mean pink pigs were no longer pink, some were black! how gross is that!!!!!!! and you know i can't part with my pigs, so i may try and throw them in the wash. spot cleaning just won't get it. if they survive, then i'll keep em, if not, then maybe i'll just stuff them in a box! i have memories there people, i can't throw them away!!!!! you know how i am!!!!

so on a good note, clay didn't get up this morning til after 7:30, don't know the exact time, bob's friend called here on accident at 7 fucking 30 and woke me up, clay was up not long after.

i don't know what the trick was?! he did nap yesterday, longer than i had planned. bob got him up when he got home after 4, he had been sleeping since a bit before 2! it did take sort of a time to get him to stay in bed, but he was asleep before 10. i don't know if the nap had something to do with it. i also put pants on him last night too. he always kicks his covers off, so i thought maybe he gets cold in the morning and it wakes him up. i just don't know, but i would like to repeat it today, but since my open house is 1-3 there is no way he will be getting a nap! damn it! i wish he would just sleep at my mom's. i feel bad for her cause she isn't feeling well, and now she gets to deal with him all day! he is a handful! but i know she doesn't mind too much. she hasn't seen him all week and i know she misses him. especially since bob is on straight days now she doesn't come over as much. she feels like she is intruding. i tell her that is not the case, but she still feels odd. when bob was on swing shift she would come over everyday that he was on afternoons. so we miss seeing her too. she does come over at least once a week, then usually gets clay on the weekend sometime, but since she was sick this week we didn't see her.

oh well, guess i am stalling. now that i am done with the upstairs i have to go do the down. that is the hardest, cause my kitchen just doesn't stay clean for anything!!!! fun, fun!!!!!!!!


hopefully THIS is the day, someon will come and fall in love with my house and want to make an offer!!!!!!! god i hope!!!!!!!!!!! fingers crossed and prayers said!!!

take care!!

~7-15-05~ So......

sorry Patricia, for not posting more, i really do miss venting!!!! if i posted lately it would all be cuss words and yelling!!!!


my poor child is driving me insane, and HE is getting the brunt of it all. i fell awful lately. i actually said the words to bob the other day, i am going to murder your child! then of course i felt just awful after i said it, but my head was about to explode!!!!

how come almost all week that bob was on vacation, AND GETTING UP WITH CLAY IN THE MORNINGS, he was sleeping til AFTER 8!!!!! one day we had a showing at 9:30, and we basically had to wake him up at 9am!!!!!!!!

but now that mommy is back in "charge", why is it 6am?!?!?!?!?!? or the other day BEFORE 6am?!?!?!?!

of course the day he was up BEFORE 6am, was the day we were supposed to have a showing. so i tried to relax on the couch for a bit, but to my child that is the big green light to get into everything humanly possible that he is NOT supposed to get into!!!!!!! so NO relaxing. since my upstairs is now covered in nail polish, and various forms of makeup i FINALLY put everthing the hell up. and as i have learned the hard way on top of a very tall dresser, and on top of a console tv which sit high on a stand is STILL NOT the place cause he will just climb up on it or move a chair over to it to STILL CLIMB UP ON IT AND GET INTO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i ask.....WHERE THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO PUT SHIT HE IS NOT TO GET INTO?!?!? A FUCKING SAFE WITH A LOCK?!?!?! which he would probably get into anyways. did i mention that he knows how to unlock the deadbolt and just about every door in the house?! yes! my child is WAY too smart for his own good.

anyways.........so i'm tying to pick up my house for the showing, on about 4 hours of sleep if that.....and what is he doing. he is practically behind me UNDOING everything i just did!!!! that is when my head was about to explode and i said the awful thing i said to bob when he called, and WHY THE HELL IS HE CALLING WHEN HE KNOWS I AM BUSTING MY ASS TRYING TO GET THE PLACE PRESENTABLE TO SHOW?!?!?! yes i was in a mood!!!!!!

so then after all of that, and the walk in the HOT ass sun, in UNBEARABLE humidity, THEY DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING SHOW UP!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?! so i was way pissed. i mean we did get free ice cream and lunch, since grandpa showed up and went with us on our walk, but that is not the point. i want my damn house sold!!!!! don't make me run around like a goof and yell at my son every 30 seconds like a HUGE goof and make it all for nothing!!!! yeah my house is (WAS) clean, but damn!!!

so i called my realtor so see what the hell the deal is, the people that were scheduled to come last friday at 6pm, but then switched it to saturday at 6pm NEVER SHOWED UP EITHER!!!!!!! luckily for them though we also had a showing earlier in the day, so i didn't do it just for them. and we were also going to a party that night, so we didn't leave JUST for them to come look at the house. BUT i havent' heard back for my realtor yet, so i don't know what the deal is. well we are having another open house tomorrow, i think i mentioned that in a previous post, so AGIN fingers crossed!!!!

another house just went up a few houses down from me HERE. i don't know if i showed you all this one, it too is down the road, but on mcgreggor, not the main road, but i still think mine is better, and looking at what they are asking for theirs i am SURE that the price of mine is not too high. i don't know what the deal is!!!!!

my child is actually napping right now, which isn't that much of a good thing. when he does nap it is about 850 million times harder to get him to stay put for the night! so we will see tonight! last night i kept his little butt up til about 10pm, hoping that would help, NOPE!!!! so it is back to 8, which i know sounds a bit early, MOM, but 8 means that he doesn't finally go to sleep til 9!

i know, i know, i just have to start taking my ass to bed early, but damn! i need MY unwinding time!!!!! which my unwinding time is taking much longer since i can't get downstairs to watch my shows til AFTER 9. YES, i unwind by watching my tv shows. and ya'll know i have a lot of them to watch, so it takes a while!!!! i have been doing better lately though. i am usually in bed by 12:30, and these days i am having NO trouble falling asleep once i am there, like i used to!!!!!

oh well, to end this on a cute note.....i started saying bedtime prayers with clay. it is just tooooooooooo damn cute! i do the whole now i lay me down to sleep thing. i say one word and he sometimes repeats it. the cute, well cutest part is that when i say "down" he says "up". yes he is doing it to be difficult, and he is a huge tease and does everything you tell him not to do or the opposite, so he has to say up cause i am telling him to say down (that is how my whole day goes!!!), but anyways it is cute! then we go, god bless daddy, grandma, gradpa, family, friends, everyone! amen. he likes that one the best and it is always AGAIN, and i wish you all could hear how he says again, it is sooooooo precious!!!! and seeing him trying to do the sign of the cross is just a hoot as well! what a cutie he is. even though half the time i am surprised he isn't struck down while praying since he is such a little devil! haha!!!!

well there ya go trish! at least it is a post!! haha!!

take care everyone, and in the most definite likely hood that i won't post again til the weekend or after, you all have a good and safe one!! take care!

~7-12-05~ Remember me???????

well i haven't been around much lately for a couple of reasons.

last week bob was on vacation, so we were busy.

the main reason is because of clay's sleep issues. STILL!!!!


i sort of given up on naps, he seems to go to sleep better at night, but it still takes almost an hour to finally get him down and asleep!!!!

he is napping now though, yeah it is only noon, but his little but was up at about 6:30am. WHY, i have no idea, since he didn't get to bed til about 10pm!!

i don't know what the deal is. i think it is just a phase. i mean if the boy has my genes of course he doesn't want to go to bed at 8 or 9pm!! come on!!

then again those SAME genes should not be letting him wake up at 6am!!!!

so that has been my struggle the past few weeks. by the time i do get him down then i try to go spend some time with bob watching our shows, then when he goes to bed i try and watch my shows, and by that time it is after midnight, and time for me to get to sleep. no blogging time!


on the house matter. we have had quite a few showings, at least 1 or 2 per week, but no damn offers!!!!!!!!!! at this point i may just take whatever is offered, just to get this shit over with! we are having ANOTHER open house this saturday. so fingers still crossed!!!!! i think our contigency offer on that other place is only for 60 days. and i am sure that is quickly approaching. they even brought their list price down to what our bid is, so that sucks! i know they want out bad. they are moving to utah. so really, someone please buy my house!! i was looking forward to having clay's birthday party at the new place, but seeing how that is quickly approaching was well........doesn't look like that is going to work out.


my baby is going to be 3!!!!!!! i can't even believe that!!!!!! where does the time go?!


well i am seriously considering a nap myself, so i am off. of course i have a ton of shows to write about. hopefully soon i will have some down time to write about them.

hope everyone is well! take care!!