~1-243-05~ He's back

bob made it home around 10:30pm. i'm sure he is wiped out. i would go insane being in a vehicle that long!!!!

i got a plant out of the deal. it is funny, because it is almost exactly like one of the plants that i was considering sending down to the funeral.

everyone seemed to be in good spirits, considering the events the past few days. i'm sure it will be hard for bob's mom to leave, and i'm sure the father will be sad as well. my thoughts and prayers are with them.



crazy neighbor kid came over again tonight. firstly he brought me a pack of cigarettes over for the pack i gave him. if you were replacing cigarettes wouldn't you buy the same brand that they gave you?!?! i gave him regular basics, and he brought over menthol monarch's or something. i said that was nice of him, but he could keep them. then he proceeded to tell me about his friends that lived a few doors down in these apartment buildings. well the boiler went out and these poor people have been without heat since wednesday.

he was telling me about the kids living there and there was a 9mth old baby. at first i thought he was going to ask if these people could stay with me. my heart was in my throat, what the hell was i supposed to say if he asked?!?! mind you people, i cannot tell anyone no for anything!! yes, i am stupid! i let crazy lady borrow my car, and i didn't even know her at the time! but she was telling me this sob story, what was i supposed to do....say no?!?!? i know some of you are saying yes, but i just can't! that is half the reason we don't answer the door here (and abotu 75% of why we want to move) we get people that come and knock on our door, all hours of the night, asking for money or rides places!!!!! and what do we do...we usually do it!! bob is just as bad as me. it is amazing how many people's mamma's are in the hospital out of town and they need money to get there!! as a matter of fact i think one guy actually came here twice, with the same story. i don't remember though. usually if it is late, bob is the one who answers it, not me.

speaking of which, someone was beating the fuck out of my door the other night. did i already mention that? i just got out of the shower, and was like FUCK, cause i didn't lock the door. i even thought to myself i should lock it before i went up, since bob and clay left, but then thought i would just leave it open for him. i hurried to look out the window, but i didn't see any cars. and they were like beating HARD!! like 3 or 4 times!! of course by the time i got something on and down there they were gone. i asked crazy neighbor kid if it was him, and he said no. which i didn't think it was him, cause when he knocks it is real light, and you barely hear it, whoever this was was BEATING on it. needless to say i will always be locking the door now! i know, i should anyways. i'm still living back in the 80-90's when we never had to lock our doors.

back to my original story, how in the world did i get off that track????

so he asked if we had any space heaters. i lied and said no. but then felt guilty so i told him i would dig around in the basement so come back in an hour. so i got the heaters and some blankets for them. now i feel much better. i just looked at the temperature though..... -2!!!!!! i was going to put one of the heaters in clay's room tonight since it gets cold in there. but then i was picturing this little 9mth old baby with NO heat at all and i felt bad, so i gave it to them. i guess i did my good deed for the day. i just can't even imagine having no heat! i feel bad for them, they seemed like really nice people. the girl thanked me a bunch of times, so i'm glad i let them borrow them. now if i just get everything back!!

and why did crazy neighbor kid have to tell me that he got some old playboy's from them to read, cause he liked the articles and jokes?!?! i didn't see them, so why share that info?!?! it's not like i caught him reading them and he had to give me some excuse. too much info buddy!!!



i'm supposed to start exercising tomorrow. quit laughing!!!!! yeah, i've only been saying that for how long now?! i've been taping that dude who works out in hawaii on the beaches and stuff. i remember him from when i was little. he looks the same!! but i figured i can try some of that. i thought about walking up and down the steps a bunch of times, for some cardio. i don't know if i would make it far though. and i can just see clay following me up and down and then him tumbling down them!! UGH! i taped some other shows that seemed cool, but when i checked them out they all needed special shit like rubber band things, weights or steps. so i deleted those. i just need somethig i can do in my living room in the little space that isn't taken up by toys!



well if i am even going to contemplate working out tomorrow, i need to get off of here and get to sleep. good night everyone!