~1-22-05~ Doing the unthinkable

yes i am. i am actually considering getting a job....GASP!! i know, i know!

i'm searching the job thing of our paper. it will definitely have to be part time! and as much as i don't want to work at night, it may have to be that way. i just don't see how i could get a sitter. especially for long periods of time during the day. the family that i do have available are much too old to be running after my son all day! and seeing how his napping is going, noone should have to, or i am should would want to, deal with that.

there is a great job in there, that has been in for a few weeks now, for a medical transcriptionist. i wish to god i knew how to do that, cause it is even from your own home. that would be so great!! i wish they could just give me a crash course, i am sure i could pick it up quickly. i am half tempted to write them and tell them that. seeing as how the job hasn't been filled yet.

there are a few others that seem ok, but some others. i am great with typing and comptuer stuff, but i don't really know anything about all this excel, pulisher, powerpoint stuff. when i used to apply for office work, you sure didn't need those skills! i feel so out of date!!!!

there are some cleaning jobs open, but i really don't want to do that, since i HAD MY OWN BUSINESS DOING THAT!!

heck i'd be happy to deliver the damn newspaper, but i remember once helping a friend, and we were out before the sun was even up, SORRY!! not for me!!

i almost just applied for one online, BUT i needed to paste my resume. A RESUME!!! UGH! how i used to dread making those, and i haven't had one in AGES! i don't relish the thought of having to make one before i can even apply to any of these that i have marked!!!!



on the subject of the psychic, i think she is psycho. i mean about the whole bob thing. YES HE HAS PISSED ME OFF AGAIN (enough so to look for a damn job!) so how if he loves me so much would he do the SAME shit that irritates me so much?!?! i just seriously do not understand how his brain works! oh that is right, apparently he DOESN'T have one or he wouldn't do the shit he does!!!!

so now since i cannot rely on my husband, i am thinking about considering getting a job! it sucks that i have to get a job to pay for the money that my husband takes from the account. how sorry is that?!?!

YES he took money out of the account again. and it wasn't just $20 or $30 bucks. try $250!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i'm sure you all have heard me repeatedly the past few days saying how we HAVE NO MONEY!!!! i just borrowed $500 to cover what i just sent out and now i am minus $250!!!!!!!!!!

he did the whole excuse and sorry thing. well neither of those are going to cover my bills that are now going to bounce! he is lucky there is no gun in this house, cause i would seriously be considering shooting him instead of sitting here considering getting a job!! i just want to scream!!!!



after i was all happy with him cause he called and apologized earlier for our fight. i should have known there was a reason he apologized! feeling guilty about anything?!

of course he did come home though and say that he wanted to go next week to the interment of his aunts ashes at arlington national cemetery. i didn't fight that fight yet, i wanted to have a nice weekend. well that is ruined now, so i will go ahead tomorrow and tell him that we are NOT going to D.C. i may even go as far as telling him he cannot go. if he goes that will be 2 days of work, one which would be time and a half that he will be missing out on. sorry if it sounds rude, but his ass has me in debt right now, all the bills he is making bounce are in MY name!! so he needs to make it up, if he misses work, i will have to borrow more money and we will never get caught up!! he is NOT missing work! sorry i have to be his mother, and he hates being treated like a child....well if he wouldn't do this shit i wouldn't have to act like his mother!

and i finally talked to the realtor today!!!!!!!!!!!! and he goes and does this shit! i sure don't want to get a new house, and have a HIGER house payment, when i can't trust i will have the money to make it!

he just makes me sick to my stomach! so of course now i really think he took my $50, even though he is still swearing that he didn't. YEAH honey, just like you swore you didn't take the check that was missing from my checkbook!!!! and he wonders why i don't ever believe him.

well it looks like another 3am for me, oh joy!!!!