~1-20-05~ Sad news

we found out today that bob's mother's sister passed away today. she was in a car accident, she hit someone from behind, but they think she may have been dead before the accident.

i just feel awful for his mother!!!! and his grandfather! i cannot even imagine what is would be like to bury one of your children, and this is his 2nd! and he lost his wife a few years back as well. i just hate stuff like this! not that anyoen enjoys it!!!

i even asked bob if he wanted to go down there. they live in virginia. he said no, not to sound awful but i was glad because we have NO money right now to be traveling, and he really can't miss work since he just started his nw job.

i feel sad because i never met her. bob is not real close with them either. especially with the distance. another really sad thing, is that bob's mom and i were just talking and she figured her father was going to have to be moving in with her sister pretty soon. i don't know what is going to happen now. all of bob's mom's family is down there. now that is left i believe is one of her daughter's and her father. just typing this i just realized how little i know of his family!!!!

i just feel terrible! she was all crying on the answering machine, she made my heart drop because i didn't know what happened! and bob was late getting home so i was already worried! GOD I HATE THIS!!!!! so sad!!

we are going to send some flowers, again not to sound mean (or cheap) but do you all know how expensive flowers are?!?!?!?! my goodness!!!!!! i want to send something nice, but $100?! i know i am sounding cheap....and i am supposedly such a good hearted person! well i am a good hearted person for even looking at the $100 ones, i could have just picked the cheap little $40 thing!!!!

she hasn't called yet. she was supposed to call when she got there to give us the name of the funeral parlor. i hope they don't run into bad weather today, i know it was sort of bad here this afternoon.

i just feel terrible! i wish there was something i could do! my heart and prayers go out to them!



i don't know if i told you all. the birth control i got perscribed is NOT covered by my insurance. so my doctor wrote me a letter and diagnosed me with menorrhagia, so that my insurance would cover it! woo-hoo!! it really isn't a lie either. i just want to know why i was never diagnosed with this YEARS ago. maybe cause i never complained, i just thought that i was blessed with periods like that. so now instead of paying like $480 a year, i will only have to pay like $120. BIG DIFFERENCE!!!!

i finally watched american idol. i just STILL do not understand how some of these people think they can sing!!!!!! what in the hell?!?!?!?!

i am also starting to feel bad for some of these people. i mean it is one thing when the judges criticize the people, but when they just star busting out laughing while the people are still singing. i think that is so rude and unprofessional! i know if they were all nicey nicey then the ratings probably wouldn't be what they are.......you know me, i am just good hearted! :) i do already have a few favorites. 2 girls. the little blond country girl, and some other girl, i forget what her name is too.

lost still has me lost as to what is going on, but why is it so darn good?! i'm hooked!!

i'm watching that swimsuit model thing too. i think shannon is my favorite....i still don't like that gap in her teeth though, you think she would have had that fixed a while ago. i for sure thought that one girl was going home, that was all bitchy at the photo shoot. i still can't believe they sent that black girl home. i liked her, i thought she was pretty. oh well, i really don't care one way or the other, i am not too vested in any of them.

some nice lady commented that the problem i am having with clay sleeping may be due to the fact that clay is ready to give up his naps. and she is right, I am not ready for that!! that may well be the case, but i also think it is due to our schedule being all screwed up now. he used to be up around 7. now i don't ever hear him til like almost 8:30. and of course by the time i get out of bed and get him it is almost 9.

i waited and put him down for his nap today around 2pm, and he actually went to sleep pretty easily. i didn't even have to go back in there. but again tonight, he was a pill. but he is still cute!!

he did go to the potty again tonight. he usually does. he is the most pissing around little child! he soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo gets that from bob!!! half the reason he goes on the potty is to stall getting his diaper changed and his jammies on. he will sit on the toilet, drag every book he has out, do everything imaginable, just to stall!!!! i guess from my genes he got the not wanting to go to bed at a decent hour.

god it is after 1am already?! i thought i was doing good on time, how the hell long have i been looking at flowers?!

i'm hitting the hay. night all.