~1-21-05~ HEADACHE!!!!!

well i just figured out some of my tax stuff, yes i actually did something productive, and i am now ready to go in and smother bob with a pillow!

we made damn good money doing my business, and i could just KILL him for losing it!!!!

we made about $138 per house and did maybe 2 a week. it would take at the most 5 hours!!!!! that is almost $30 an hour!!!!! granted i gave amy $10/hr, so we were still brining in $20 an hour!!!! and he complained about maybe working 12 hours a week?!?!?!

granted he is the one who did the work not me, plus he worked a full time job, but still people. WE HAD A DEAL!!!!!!!!! he got a car, he kept doing windows! you see how that worked! what not even 2 months after he got the car, he lost my damn business!!!!!

i am so pissed right now i could scream!!!!!!! i was just thinking, if we had only an extra $200 a week, we would be set. well we HAD that god damn it!!!!!!!!!!!

but anyways, remember how i told you i screwed up my bills from last pay. well i just remembered i never sent in my sales tax from last half, and this half is due the 23rd!!!! so that is $360 more i need to come up with somehow!! so i basically need $700 by the 23rd. well actually i need it NOW, so they can get there by the 23rd!! so now i get to call good old mom again. she is going to smack me. what was the point of paying her this month, when now i need it back, PLUS some!!

so now i have a killer headache!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



well, i was up til way past 3 last night, my dumb ass started looking at houses again! i don't even know why i bother. i need to find out if we can even get financed and afford what i am looking at. i did call that realtor today and he never got back to me. i guess once i talk to him and he calls around to some finance people we can see what we can do. so far here are some of my favorites:

HOUSE 1
HOUSE 2
HOUSE 3
HOUSE 4
HOUSE 5
HOUSE 6
HOUSE 7
HOUSE 8
HOUSE 9
HOUSE 10

the good thing is that both bob and i have the same favorite out of the bunch, the fist one i posted. the only thing is that i cannot find the damn address on the map!! i tried mapquest, and i even got out my map book i used for work/travel.

where the hell is boron street in massillon?!?!?!

one bad thing about moving, this may sound stupid to you all, and i may have already shared this. i don't want to move too far away from my mom. she used to come over every night that bob was on afternoons, now that he is on days she comes over at least once a week. she is not even 10 minutes away from me now. i know if we move much farther, she won't be doing that. that just kills me!!!!

who knows, i may be getting my hopes up over nothing. we couldn't get financed a year ago. who knows if a year has made a difference or not. plus if we can and do, we will still have to sell our house to get the money for a down payment, and hopefully the people's house we want to buy will accept the contingency.

enough about all the stuff giving me headaches!



so the apprentice started tonight! yes, that danny guy gets on my nerves. i am rooting for the high school degree people, but do they seem a little brash to you? i don't know if they are just getting portrayed that way due to editing or what. did you hear that one guy say fuck right to mr. trump twice!!! i mean i have a bad mouth! fuck is the every other word out of my mouth, but if i were around someone like that, especially someone i wanted to work for, and pay me big money, i would have the mouth of a nun!!!!

i'm still enjoying that wickedly perfect. i just like seeing what they come up with. i don't really like anyone, i hate that gay guy though. i sure don't think they are going to find the next martha stewart in that bunch though!

ER, wasn't too gripping tonight. BUT DID YOU SEE THE PREVIEWS FOR NEXT WEEK?! i think it is going to be terribly awful and i am going to need many tissues!!!! lord why do they do that to me?!?!



onto clay news.......he took NO nap today. he was having NO part of it. as a matter of fact the whole time he was in there, he managed to totally destroy what was left of his tent thing over his crib. bob got it back together and up, but it is so ripped and torn, now there is a big piece of it hanging down by his pillow.

and yes, with no nap, i realized it was 9:30pm and i no longer heard him up there playing. i am still crossing my fingers that this is just going to get us back on the schedule where he does take a nap. unfortunately for ME that means getting up at 7am again! i really hope he is not out growing his naps already. don't kids still take naps in kindergarden?!?!?! leave it to my child to be difficult.



here is the news story about bob's aunt. the results of the autopsy still aren't in, so noone really knows what happened yet. sad, sad, sad. the calling hours are tomorrow and the funeral saturday.

it took forever, but i finally found some beautiful flowers in my price range to send. it is a pretty spray of peach magnolias. i would have sent them this afternoon then i realized i had no clue as to what his aunt's last name was. i didn't know if i just sent it to the funeral home they would know who they were for. then when bob got home from work he said his mom already ordered flowers, and we were just going to give her money. WHAT?! i think that is just odd?! bob said i was being a bitch about it so i just dropped it. i still think we should have sent our own condolences. bitchy part here....especially as long as i took scouring the internet for some pretty and affordable flowers. i'm talking HOURS people!! well it ISN'T about me. i really wasn't trying to come off bitchy. i would have liked to send something down, especially since we aren't going to be there!! maybe i'll send something down to bob's grandfather's house. but how the hell am i going to get the address?! i just feel like we should be doing something....bitch coming back.....aside from actually going down there. i just don't do funerals. you all know how i am about the whole death thing. if it were up to me i wouldn't even have went to my father's. i just don't like them, and refuse to look at dead people. i like to remember people the way i knew them. plus i guess actually seeing them, would make it REALLY real.

plus i cannot see driving for 8-10 hours to get down there. i really do not see clay sitting still for that long at all!! and again, we have NO money right now! so i was really into sending flowers, something in our absense. bob hasn't mentioned it, so i don't know what he has planned.



oh, on to the NO money, somehow a $50 dollar bill has mysteriously disappeared from my check book. of course my first thought was to my husband, but he is swearing up and down it wasn't him....sorry if i don't believe it. BUT i do know that clay was playing on the computer desk where my checkbook was. and he knows MONEY, one of the few words he can actually say. my mother got him in the habit of playing with her money in her wallet...he gets a kick out of it. i was hoping if i asked him he would get it or go in some general direction so i would know where to look. NO!! i have looked everywhere! where the hell can it be?!?! another reason i don't think it was bob is because i tried to give it to him like 2 times this week for stuff we needed, and he didn't want to break it. it is a new $50, they are pretty cool, and we have never seen them before. but that $50 is what i was planning on getting us through til payday. so i don't know what the fuck we are going to do now. YES, i can just actually cook dinner every night, but who wants to do that?!?! i guess i will find it someday. i'm sure i will be happy when that day comes, but i'm not THIS day!!

well somehow it is 2am already. so much for my early night. i'll type at ya'll later!