~1-19-05~ TV updates and more

well there was alot on tv tonight it seemed!

all those guys from the biggest loser looked great! i'm jealous! i knew it was going to be between the tall guy and the bald guy. that one girl did great though! they all were pretty close!!

i didn't get to watch american idol yet. we will probably watch it during dinner tomorrow.

then the amazing race, all i can say is YIPEEEEEEE!!!!! that asshole finally got kicked off. i must admit it may be a bit boring without him though. i always look forward to him getting pissed and flying off the handle about something. i couldn't believe how well he took being booted. i thought he would have a total meltdown!! no drama, nothing!!! then phil kept asking questions, trying to get a response out of the wife, but she had nothing to say, except how much they love each other, blah, blah, blah.......i guess she deserves how she is treated, apparently it doesn't bother her.

i was glad that that model bitch, i hate her, did call jonathan out and call him an asshole. i was happy to see someone finally said something to him, but i don't even think he heard.

oh well.........then i just watched my soaps. i guess there wasn't that much on. why did if feel so time consuming?! i am actually on here early, early for me. maybe that means i will finally get to sleep early.

i semi did last night except at 4AM, i was awoke by clay crying. i sat up and got ready to check on him, then he was quiet and back asleep!! so i laid back down, then my throat was itching something terrible. i popped a cough drop, so i wouldn't wake up with a sore throat. next thing i know i spit my cough drop in a trash can, only to wake up with it rolling down my face and into my hair. i DREAMED that i spit it in a trash can!!!!!! so i was up again at 5:30!!!!!!!! AGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

clay is just becoming impossible at nap time...bedtime too for that matter! i think since he is pissing around so much at night, and not getting to bed til almost 11, that now he isn't getting up til after 8am, which is sort of good, but come 1pm, he is NOT ready for a nap!!!! he usually doesn't fall asleep til after 2! but he is still up about 4:30.

they may come to work on the house tomorrow. if so, we may not get any sleep, so maybe we can get back on our routine that way, even though i will be dead on my feet. you know i do so much during the day to tire me out!!!

then i think it is my fault he isn't getting to sleep cause he has to take 850 cars to bed with him, and he sits, lays, and plays with them. but if he isn't REAL tired, or gets up "early" i'd like him to have something there to occupy him. any comments/advice on that?! i mean if he were in a toddler bed, he could get out of bed and play with whatever he wanted, so what is the difference if he has toys in his crib??

ok, i keep calling my mom 100 times a day to talk. i feel all stupid like she is going to think something is up. i mean i usually talk to her about 50 times, so i don't know if she notices the excess. she said she was tired today, and i was all 100 questions about what's wrong and why is she tired. DUH, she did a lot at work today. i'm just a nervous wreck! i'm about to go back to that psychic lady just to ask about that! it is really going to drive me nuts! guess all i can really do is just keep praying and hoping that lady is right about what she said and all is going to be well. sigh!

i took the heater from my aquarium in the living room and put it in the one in the lighthouse room. i just check before coming up and it was 74 degrees. there were 4 of the previously unseen fish darting around. i can't remember how many there were, but i think there were more than 4. i can also see one of my black skirts swimming around. again i don't remember if all i had was 1 or 2. fish seem to disappear in that tank! like i said before i think sometimes when they die, they disappear behind that insert, and i don't ever see them again. there is one fish who i think lives back there and only comes out every few weeks. i thought he was long gone and just seen him for the first time the other day. my silver dollar is still in the same place he always is. i don't think that poor thing has moved since i put him in that tank, i feel so awful. i just should not own fish!!!! i am an awful owner!

recently i got some worms for my catfish. i don't know if he knows it is all out of guilt or not. he doesn't really seem thankful or greatful. he is probably just pissed that he doesn't have room to move around. and i understand! i really do need to get a hold of some pet stores to try and find him a better home. i wish i had one of those outside ponds. do you know they have heaters you can put in them during the winter so your fish don't die! it may just be certain kinds of fish, but god i would really be a nervous wreck in this weather! i could just see myself out in -10 degree weather and snow checking on the damn fish! yes, i really shouldn't have pets!!!

i almost put food out for the neighbor's cat the other day. it always comes in our garage and tears up our garbage. bob gets pissed, but 1. if he would put the trash in the trash cans where they belong the cat wouldn't get to it and 2. that is what cats do, they are animals!! especially if they are hungry!!!!

the poor thing was out there meowing to be let in, and it was freezing. i felt sooooo awful. thank goodness it runs, or i would probably let it in my house, then bob would really kill me!

the one crazy living there. a little back info. the lady that lives there is kind of goofy. we found out that her mother was suffering from alzheimers, so i just attributed her odd behavior for having to deal with something like that. i could not even imagine how hard, sad, frustrating, and plain awful that would be!! but then she finally had to have her put in a home, cause she would start escaping from the house and just wondering off. it got to the point where i was always looking out the window in fear of the lady escaping and noone noticing!!

anyways, i'm sure i mentioned their dog before. nice dog, he just doesn't have anywhere to run, doesn't get enough attention, and is a DOG!!! he would always bark and run after people, he was usually NOT tied up or got loose. well if you would stop and pet him he was fine! of course strangers would not know that, especially if you were afraid of dogs. but i took a liking to him and so did clay. i even CONSIDERED asking her if we could have him. then i also thought better of it. well i noticed that i have not heard him barking lately! back to my original story....

oops not yet. somehow this kid moved in with her, i guess she used to be his teacher i don't know. the kid seems weird, or like he is not all there. he is super nice! seems like a real nice kid, but goofy! so he comes over the other day to borrow a cigarette. so i just give him a pack, cause who knows when that lady would be back home and i didn't need him coming over every 10 minutes. he talks ALOT!!!!!!!! so he was going on about hating that cat! and wishing someone would take it. so then i asked about the dog. he said someone called the game warden. what i think he meant was the dog warden. and i freaked and was like "AND YOU GUYS DIDN'T GO GET HIM?!?!?!" he just laughed and said no. i was furious! i couldn't wait til bob got home. so now i am just freaked cause who knows how long it has been and i don't think they keep them long, before they kill them. so now, once again, i am half tempted to get this poor dog!!!!! i sooooooooooo wish i knew someone who had a farm, or some land so he could run around. i have like a 3 foot high fence, that would NEVER keep him in! even though he was stuck in it one night. you think he found his way in he could get out right?! NO. so i don't know. and YES, i am also feeling guilt over that now!!!!

i really can't belive that i haven't had an ulcer or 20 by now! really!!

maybe i can work on my cousin. HEY DAWNA, i know you are reading this. you want a nice dog?!?! he is really loving and a good dog!!!! he actually listens too! i'm not even his owner and he would listen to me when i would tell him to come and what not. think about it! you'd be saving a life!!!!!!! and me the guilt!

do you know i never turned in my sales tax for the first half of last year! i totally forgot since i wasn't working. so now i definitely have to at least turn it in for the last half. i think it is due like soon!!! like the 23rd. JOY! that means i have to dig out all my invoices and total everything up. i mean i guess i have to do all of that anyways to get our actual taxes done. but it is such a pain! especially figuring up all our miles, and receipts! i don't look forward to all of that. i'd really like to record a loss, but then i would probably get audited. even though i am sure it will be close. i mean i think we only worked maybe half the year if that! i went nuts on paper towels and scrapers! along with some of the other big purchases that i planned to claim for the business. the only good thing about me not having any business right now, is hopefully it will put us in a lower bracket. we got kicked up to a higher one, and that really cut our refund. i was pissed! i thought being married with a kid, we were supposed to get a ton of money back?! what the hell???

like usual i babbled on long enough. i'll let you all go now. good night!