~8-1-05~ Well........

as i expected, all my mice are DEAD!!!! so from now on, instead of being a caring, compassionate, loving person, i am going to be a cold hearted bitch!!!!!

all of my caring and nurturing gets me what????????? broken hearted and sad!!!!!! so i guess now i will just lay out some poison traps, or if i do catch one, i'll just throw it out in the pouring rain, no more trying to be nice and "save" it.


so, with the mice gone we can now set up the aquarium for its intended purpose....for my enormous cat fish. so we did that last night, lord what a pain. it wouldn't have been bad, but we had to rearrange some of the other aquariums to get that big one set up. we did not get finished til almost midnight. thankfully my mom came over once we got started, so that really helped out (with clay), or we probably never would have finished.

so now that my catfish finally has room to move around, i'm sure he will die now too!



on to my next topic.........HAVE YOU SEEN THE PRICE OF CIGARETTES?!?!?! HOLY FUCK!!!

OVER $40 FOR A CARTON OF MARLBORO'S AND OVER $38 FOR A CARTON OF BASIC'S!!!!!

all i can say is thank god for the internet!!!! i'm oblivious to the prices of cigarettes ever since i started buying them online. i get carton's of basic's for $23!!!! i am saving $15 per carton!!!!

well, now that i said that something will happen there to dick me.........i just know it!



just like in a previous post i wrote, "we are getting at least 1-2 people a week to come look at our house." know how many we have got since i wrote that.....ZERO!!!!

i think it is mostly our realtor. if you are reading this jerry, sorry....i LOVE ya to death! you are a great guy and all but i think more could be done. like i think my house should be advertised in that homes magazine EVERY issue! i was told it was every other issue, well it has been 2 issues now and my house is NOT in there either times!!!!

i think he has to pay for this himself, that is why. i really think we need to go with someone else. there are realtors in there who advertise EVERY issue, and they even have their own personal website to advertise houses, along with the realtor site. i think the reason we were getting so many hits there for that span is because our house WAS in there that issue. i don't know. i am just getting disheartened (??) again. this process is taking waaaaaaaaaay too long! but like i said 5 bazillion times now, if it is meant to be then it will be. so i can't stress about it.


after fighting with my kid i think he is finally asleep, now that it is time for him to GET UP!!!!!!!!! sigh.....i just can't win!!!!!

speaking of the kid, he is going to be 3 in 26 days!!!!!!!!!! i just cannot believe it! sob, sob!! where does the time go?? he was kissing the fish in the pet store today. he go up to the glass and then kiss. it was so damn cute! he even kissed them when they were in the bag. he can be so cute and adorable 99% of the time. it is that 1% when i think he is going to totally drive me insane!!!!


one last thing. what the fuck big brother?!?!?!? why is it when things finally start to go good and the way i want, BAM, it gets totally screwed up?!?! oh that is right, my luck (see above!!!!!) so i am pissed at that show currently. if maggie puts up janella i'm gonna be pissed!! if kaysar gets booted i am going to be pissed!!!!! i hate maggie and all her little maggots!!!! if kaysar does go i pray to god that janella get HOH, the others will shit and it will be soooooooo worth it! even my tv shows drive me insane! AGAIN....i can't get a break!!!!!!!!


now that he is alseep i should go do something productive! i hope you all have a nice remainder of the day! take care!!