~5-20-05~ What am i going to do?!?!?!?!

almost ALL of my shows are over til fall!!! what on earth am i going to do?!?!?!

except for lost, which ends next week, and i think fear factor, there is NOTHING else on!!!!!

shouldn't big brother be starting soon?!?!?! i think that usually gets me by during the summer months!!


tonight was sort of sad. the end of er, and carter leaving. i was joking with bob tonight and said that i was saying goodbye to the only other guy who has been with me as long as bob. really that is no joke! bob and i were together when er started. we didn't watch the first season, i think we started with season 2. so that is over 11 years people! it is sad to "see" somone almost every week for 11 years, then they are gone. yes i am exaggerating a bit, but he was a big part of that show, and it has been my fave. forever, so it is going to be sad without him. thank god for luca!!! sorry carter, but all i have to do is look at luca, and carter who?????


the top model show pissed me off tonight. not that i was surprised that naima won, but i really wanted kalen to win. she is so darn cute!! oh well, i'm sure she will make it somewhere. not that i will ever know, i'm not into models.


i'm glad my final 2 are the official final 2 of american idol. i am really torn between the 2, they are both just incredible!!!! and they will both be rich, no matter the outcome, so it is win-win.


mom was over for dinner tonight. she is leaving for a trip tomorrow. i am real STRESSED about it!!!!!

the last flying trip she took, she was destined to return fly home on SEPTEMBER 11TH! yes, THE september 11th. needless to say how freaking stressed i was that day!!!!!

we didn't even know what was going on til late, molly and i were working, so we were oblivious. until the woman who's house we were cleaning came out and told us what was going on. so i was on the cell trying to get through to the damn travel agent, so he could give me a number to reach my mother. we had 2 jobs that day, and i don't know how i got through it. i mean it was an AWFUL, SAD, and DESPAIRING day as it was for those there and the world, but MY MOTHER WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ON A PLANE THAT DAY!!! and at that point who the hell knew if it was over or what, so i was a mess. i was trying and trying with the cell phone, but if any of you tried to use yours that day, you know what a mess it was. i didn't finally speak with her til that night. if any good can be said of that, she got almost a whole other week of vacation for FREE! not that anyone really "enjoyed" it. so i am not too keen on the idea of her flying again, ANYWHERE, EVER!!!!!!

so, i'll be here stressed until she gets home monday night.


well it is late, so i am outta here! nite all.