~1-5-05~ Get ready for the cold!

we are supposed to have a bad ice/snow storm again. thank goodness i don't have to go out in that crap!

we went to bob's mom's tonight. they had more stuff for clay for christmas. i don't know why they didn't give it all to him when i had christmas here?! and he really didn't need about 10 more cars/trucks. i am not exaggerating!

i guess i should just be thankful that i have thoughtful in-laws....and we got some money out of the deal, so i should really just shut the fuck up!

at least we got home in time to watch me shows. you know me! i was kind of disappointed cause that billionaire show was basically just a recap of the final 2 competitors.

amazing race was a bummer as expected, my only favorite team left got the boot. i wasn't really surprised, since i alwasy go for the underdogs. i was of course losing my shit over that awful jonathan guy. why does none of the other people say anything to him?!?!?! i mean especially the women?! they just watch him treat his wife like shit and her take it. even if not for her, apparently she doesn't mind, she married the guy, for myself i would have to say something to him cause he is a total fucking bastard. and that is being nice!!!! i just want to punch him for the way he treats her. i swear if bob and i were there, we would be kicked off, cause i know bob would lay the guy out.....especcially that week he hit/pushed her. that was just so uncalled for. i hate him!! i cannot wait til they lose, but i am scared to death for her if they do!!!!!!! he may murder her on national tv!!!!

my dvr screwed up my soap again today. i don't know why that happens?!?! thankfully soapnet replays them at night, so i am taping it at 2am. it sucked not being able to watch it though.....especially as i said in my last post i am impatient and can't wait for shit to finally come to a conclusion!

my door is mostly finished. i don't know what the hell is going on with all of that. i do wish he wasn't my cousin and that we have to deal with him at family functions, cause the whole thing, i think, is getting totally ridiculous! and neither bob or i want to say anything to him.....that just sucks!!!!!

i sort of feel bad for him, cause as that business seems to go, he doesn't have very reliable help. i know how that goes, from when i had a friend working for me. but he does have a business to run, so he needs to get some reliable people. i mean he is lucky i am family. i couldn't imagine a job for a stranger taking this long, and them still be happy with his work. and i am not all that happy with his work.

he sort of fucked up my wall when removing the old door. so i want to know how that is going to be fixed. i know we are going to repaint the whole foyer anyways, but shouldn't there be some accountability for messing up my wall?! i know, i know, i have to get some balls and say something. there is also a part of the door that is uneven. it doesn't mess up the way the door works or anything, it just looks a bit odd. it is the frame around the door. so i need to say something about that to him as well. he didn't even finish the door. all he did was come and caulk it all up, and i think the only reason he did that was that i called this morning to see if he was going to make it since he didn't show up yesterday like he said he was. he still has to do whatever to the bottom part (sorry i don't know specific names) and i bought a knocker/peep hole, that he still has to install as well. for some reason my old door knob doesn't go in all the way when you try and open the door, so it sticks, so now i have to go buy a new one of those as well. at least they aren't expensive. i told him to go ahead and order the garage door, and that is supposed to take 3 weeks to come in.....so hopefully i will at least get my siding done before the garage door. I JUST WANT IT ALL DONE!!!!!

i guess i should look at the big picture........at least i have a house and a roof over my head. at least i have family and they are all safe and well. once again i should just shut the fuck up and be thankful for what i have, cause there are a lot of people out there who aren't as fortunate! i am so heart broken for them!

why is it that i try and take pictures of my son and i will get maybe one good shot out of 20! he usually has a weird look on his face, or he isn't even looking at the camera. so why is it that my mom uses here little disposible camera and gets a ton of cute pictures of him!!! i couldn't believe that when she brought them over. they are so cute! so i will be posting them here as well.

guess i will end this post on a good note.....seems hard to do lately. here's to 2005 looking up!! take care all! go donate!!