~1-1-05~ what a joke!

so now my husband is insulting my intelligence!

he didn't come home last night til about 4:30am!!!!!!!!!

i get up this morning and his clothes are covered in mud. i still don't give a fuck what happened, there is absolutely NO excuse!!!!!!!!! and even if there were, why did i not get 1 phone call?!?! so i had to worry all night til almost 5am, to know that he was safe?!?!

anyways, he just tried to give me some lame excuse that he was stuck in mud. ok, yeah right, for how long.....then hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, he tried to tell me since 10pm. give me a mother fucking break! how fucking stupid do you think i am?!?!?! why didn't he call his dad, he drives a tow truck, why did he not call ANY tow truck?!?!?! he had his cell phone, hell he even had his credit care. and then i said he woucl have at least called, and he said he knew i would be mad and bitch. well what ever!

he is a god damned fucking liar! yeah, he may have been stuck, but not for no damn 6 hours. that is bullshit!

whatever dude! fuck you and apparently the low opinion and vision you have of me. i may be stupid fos till being with your dumb ass, but that is it. your lies don't work for me anymore, and you know what, neither do your apologies!

i don't really know what is going to happen in our relationship now, but i know it is totally changed now. i just don't have it left in me to have any more hope and faith in him. i think it has finally been crushed for the last time. all i do is end up hurt and disappointed every time!

what i DO know is from this point on i will have NO hope or expectations from him, so at least i won't be hurt or disappointed anymore!