~12-18-05~ SHOTS FIRED!!!!!!!!!

can you tell how my weekend went????!!!!????!!!!


well the lovely neighbors that i watch after school, their sister, was having a sweet 15 party tonight for her birthday.

she printed out fliers on my computer the other day, i checked it out and bob and i was joking cause on the bottom she put: come in PEACE or leave with the POLICE.


FUNNY STUFF!!!!! especially for a 15 year old's party right???!


so i don't even know the time......bob and i were watching a movie, and i heard a bunch of comotion, i was already pissed cause i knew a bunch of people would be parked along my house, since i am on the corner and they are 2 houses in from me. and clay's window is RIGHT there! so i hear all this ruccus, and i look out the window and this whole MOB of people are trapseing through my front yard!!!!! why would it be ok to walk all in someone's yard?!?! and around the side of my house. we looked out the kitchen window and there were like at least 4 cars DOUBLE PARKED IN THE ROAD, blocking the whole thing, RIGHT OUTSIDE OF MY SONS WINDOW! so i just pick up the phone to call the mom and tell her she needs to get these people the hell out of there and next thing i know.....BANG, BANG, BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i freak and scream to bob was that gun shots, and he yells yes, to call the police. i am freaked the fuck out!!!!!!!! i am screaming at him to get away from the windows and i am screaming at the people at 911. i am almost hyperventilating, i am shaking uncontrollably, then i try 2 different numbers and finally get ahold of those fucking people to tell them WHAT THE FUCK, DID I MENTION THAT MY CHILD'S WINDOW IS RIGHT THE FUCK THERE!!!!!!!!!!!! the mom tells me they know and the police are on the way and stay away from the windows, WELL FUCKING DUH!!!!!!! NOT THE FUCKING POINT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i am stressed! i go back downstairs and i cannot find bob, so i am figuring he is going outside after i demanded he get upstairs away from the window! i am calling him and calling him! i know he has a temper, so i did not need him to be out getting shitty with people he thought were involved and who put his son at risk. so i throw on clothes and go outside, the cops were already there.....then i hear him scream at me, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING GET BACK IN HERE!!!!!!! here he was upstairs in the spare bedroom at the window.

so i go back in and i really freak out then and start sobbing hysterically. i couldn't find him and i didn't know what had happened to him, and what would i do without him.

then the other neighbor daughter came over to see how i was, cause i breifly spoke to her when i called for the mom. why was she not freaking like me???????!!!!!!!!!!! she apologized and said it wasn't people from the party, they tried to come and weren't allowed in or something i don't know, i didn't care. i went straight up to check on my son!!!! you hear stories about stray bullets going through walls and killing innocent people, CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!!!!

he was fine! thankfully he slept through me grabbing his chest to make sure he was breathing and moving. lord!

i need the fuck out of here!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot, CANNOT DEAL WITH THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!

bob and i are seriously thinking about putting our house up for as low as we can put it and still pay off our current mortgage, even if it means getting a cheaper house than we want right now. we just need to get out of this shit!!!!!!!!! out of the city!!!!!!!!!!!! away from people who this shit seems to follow and gravitate toward!


this 15 year olds friend was just killed the other day. the police and everything say it was gang related, but not the family or friends. yeah right, it is funny that earlier this year his first cousin was killed and it was gang related! hhhhmmmmm, what do you think????!!!!! and she, herself, was just jumped a few weeks back, i didn't really get all the details, so who knows?? not me, i don't want to know, i just want the fuck out!!!!!!!!!!!!!


we are going to look at some houses tomorrow, hopefully we will see something we like and we can put a bid in and if they accept it then lower ours so we can be gone ASAP!!!!!!!!! which won't be soon enough for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i hope you all are SAFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! good-night