~6-14-05~ What a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well it wasn't even 8am today and i had already cleaned up poop and a whole bottle of nail polish (my child is obsessed, much to bob's dismay)!!!!


YES my child was up early again!!!!!!!!!!

and i suppose the mess this morning was partly my fault, since i was still in bed, but isn't a child supposed to be able to play in his room by himself?!?! i am a VERY light sleeper, he isn't going to go downstairs or whatever without me hearing him. and i DIDN'T hear him, that should have been the first sign that he was doing something he shouldn't be. like he would really play quietly in his room! STUPID ME!!!!

so he runs in my room grabbing his butt saying "poop, poop!" i forgot that bob took his diaper off when he was up with him, why a new one wasn't put on i don't know. so i jump up thinking he has to go poop, i seen some on his butt. so i put him on his potty, and i sit to go, then i see that his hands are SILVER!!!!!!! i'm like what the fuck?!?!?! i see his "dummy" aka lawnmower and it is COVERED with it, it is also on the carpet!! DAMN IT!!!!!!! so i go in his room to see what else is going on and i see a big pile of POOP that i just drug the door across, so now it too is on the door!!!!!

so that was lovely! my house STILL smells like nail polish remover, and i just had to get some off of the monitor as well!!!!


and to make it even better i JUST got him to sleep and have been up here since BEFORE 1:30!!!!!!!! what really pisses me off is that when we were doing our normal naptime/bedtime routine...sitting on the rocker, eating chewies and watching some cartoons, HE WAS FALLING ASLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was all like COOL, this should be no problem today!!!! yipeeee!!! UNTIL i tried to bring him up to bed, he threw a royal fit!! then sure wasn't tired anymore!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! but he is down now, and as much as i HATE waking him up from naps, he is getting up at 4! hopefully we won't have to redo last night as well. i just don't understand. everything on the sleeping front was going soooooooo well. it stresses me out!!!!!!!!!!


THEN earlier today when i got the mail, she had a registered letter for bob. so i open it and it is from when he was in that accident a WHILE back, well his insurance has paid out all that it is alotted. so GREAT!!!!!!! are we going to get sued now for what ever the hell else the cost is?!?!?!?!?!?!?! so now i am really freaking out about that one!!!!!!!!! i have no extra money for shit like that!!!!!!!! FUCKING BOB!!!! the shit that he gets into that affects me, i just want to shoot him!!


what else......no biggie, but the people who were supposed to come look at the house tomorrow had to cancel, which i am not too upset about cause if i am up at 6:30 again tomorrow, i think my body/brain is really going to shut down! and it doesn't matter what time i go to bed!!!!!! really people, i am NOT a morning person!!!!!!!

i have been like this all my life!!!!! as a matter of fact i don't think i have even ever been up at damn 6:30!!!!!! not even when i was in school!!!!!!!! now there are plenty of times that i haven't went to bed til 6:30, but sure the hell not waking up and having to GET UP OUT OF BED that damn early!!!!!!!!


i just don't understand!!!!!!!!!! maybe my child is actually going to start talking "english" or hit some other mile stone, i've read that their sleep patterns can get all funky when that happens. who knows, but i wish it would happen already, or something. i'm dying here!!!!!


i'm really about to go shoot whoever is out there with that damn bass shit booming from their fucking car!!!!!!!!!! GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!! it was bad enough that they were working on the road across the street and every new crash, bang, slam, clank that was heard clay would be "what's that noise?" and have to jump up in his bed to look out the window. i really don't need some loud ass rap shit to wake him up NOW!!!!!


well, i am destressing as we speak and i really do think i am going to go take a nap now. i hope you all have a less event filled rest of the day. see ya!!