~11-25-04~ Happy Thanksgiving

sorry i have been MIA lately. like i previously posted, bob was off all week, so i didn't really have any time to get on here.

i kept trying to remember stuff i wanted to post. probably nothing important to all of ya'll, but is anything i write?! hehe!! ****this is a LONG entry****

the main thing that sticks out in my mind from this past week is that i think i am NOT meant to get a new front door WITH sidelites!!!!!!!!! i can't even tell you how many times i have been to lowe's this past week. (actually longer). speaking of the door from hell, it kept blowing open tonight, scaring the shit out of me every time!! thankfully i put that chain lock on there, but it would still open a good 4 inches. so i had to pile stuff in front of it to keep it closed.

anyways, over the past few weeks i have went to lowes to get prices for the sidelites. everytime i get someone who doesn;t know what the fuck they are talking about. i even went to 2 different lowes!!!! we went to the massillon one on saturday, you don't even want to know how much i spent there!!! about $400!!!! i did do good though, most of it was for the house, and the improvements, so i didn't feel all that guilty. i ended up calling the lowes at the strip on sunday, they guy got back to me, and yes, didn't know what he was talking about. he did give me a price, but he told me that i couldn't get them seperately, they had to be already put together, which i don't want. so anyways, i went back there on monday, hoping to talk to someone that knew what they were talking about. NO! plus their computers were down, so i couldn't get any prices. he took my info and was going to fax everything to whoever knows and get back to me. mind you people this was actually in the AM!! before clay's nap. we were up and out of the house by like 10AM. i even went to home depot and their prices were WAY outrageous, plus there too, i don't think the guy knew what he was talking about. so we went home, actually we went to the villiage discount outlet, which is a used clothes store. we got 3 HUGE bags of clothes for $35!!! i love that place, sort of.........i hate that the clothes aren't sorted by size. it is a pain in my ass to go through all those damn clothes, getting pissed at all the cute ones that aren't my size, i also hate that they don't have a dressing room and the clothes are NOT returnable...they keep saying that there are measuring sticks at the end of the isles, what the hell is that going to do for me?!...lastly i hate that they don't take checks. so we went home.......all night NO CALL FROM LOWES!!

but monday night, mom came over to watch clay so bob and i could run to walmart, tricia you don't even want to know how much i spent there!!!!! granted i haven't been in a few weeks, so i had to stock up. also, it wouldn't have been bad, but i bought a TON of christmas decorations, so that was all extra that i wouldn't have normally spent. we wheeled our 2 carts up got one 1/2 empty and came to a dead halt! i don't know what the fuck happened in front of us (stupid cashier) but this other cashier had to come and re-ring their whole entire purchase!!!!!! and they had a lot of stuff too. i was getting pissed cause it was almost 8, and i have shows on damn it!!!!!!!!!! so we finally get going and it is 8PM, so i had to call my mother and talk her through using the DVR so she could tape at least 1 of our shows. so we taped fear factor. back to stupid cashier, she did fairly well with my order, she briefly screwed up the deal where if there is something advertised at another store, cheaper you get that price, but she got through it and i got my milk for $1.88 a gallon, anyways, i get to the $100 gift card i was purchasing, and i swear that took 10 minutes!!!! i know the growing line of people behind us were getting pissed!!! not my fault!!!! we finally got home i'm sure after 8:30, i don't even know since i had to put away all the groceries that we got, plus had to send bob back out for supper. we had to rush home cause it was clay's bedtime and i had to do that. since my mom stayed to entertain clay while i put everything away, she stayed to watch her shows, i totally forgot that the swan was on at 9, so i forgot to tape that!!!!

on to tuesday. we went to the mall so i could FINALLY get my nails done!! or course she wanted me to get a new set, since it had been so long, but NO, it was already 11:30AM, and we had to be home or clays nap. so i just ot my fill. *********OOOOHHHHHH!!! get this!!!! bob comes in the nail place and says he was just chasing miriam around the mall. i was like WHAT?!?! who the hell is that?!?!? here it was miriam from amish in the city !!! no way right!!! for those of you who don't know, she is from amish country that is about a 1/2 hour from here. he said he wasn't even sure if it was her at first, but there happened to be some other amish there shopping and she stopped and talked to them, so then he knew it was her. he was going to go up and talk to her, but he had clay in this car stroller, she was going fast, and he didn't want to run down the mall chasing some broad from tv. i wanted to go check out the mall to see if she was still there, i soooooo want to know if any of the others went back amish, but it was way late and we had to et clay home, but how cool was that?!?

so we head BACK out to lowes after clay's nap, since i still got NO call back(by the way i placed an order online at lowes for christmas lights the night prior, so i was going to pick those up while we were there). i go to the customer service, they can't find my order and have no record of my order!!!!!! ok lowes, what the fuck!!! i spend enough money in your store why are you fucking me?!?!?! so we head back to the doors.....the guy recognizes me, and says he doesn't have the info yet, the computers are still down and noone has got back to him about the info he faxed them!!!! a week or so prior when i started inquiring about doors, i was told there was a 21 day order time!!!! my door is to be done when they do the siding........i am hoping the siding is going to be done SOONER than 21 days!!!! so i really need to getthis freakin door ordered!!!!! bob was about to blow his top, so we left.....had to rush him to cici's pizza before he lew a gasket, nothing thattheir cinnamin rolls can't cure!

i actually set the timer on the DVR just in case we had another long night, but we didn't need to. clay was in a mood so we had to keep pausing the biggest loser, and we had that billionair show taped. so after we finally got through the loser, i HATE that dave guy!!! i'm so glad he is gone!!!!!! we watched to billionaire show. how flippin scary would that be to have to stay by YOURSELF in the middle of the jungle in africa!!!! hearing god knows what all around you?!?!?! i don't even know how dude fell asleep, i would have been terrified!!!! anyways, after that we watched scrubs that we taped, and i thought something else. then i made bob watch the amazing race from the previous week, so he would be caught up this week. after that it dawned on me that the amazing race is on on tuesdays......THIS IS TUESDAY!!!!!! GOD DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fucking missed the amazing race!!!!!!! GOD!! you all know how i am about my shows, so you can imagine how pissed i was. thankfully at the website, they give a very good and detailed account of the show. so i know what happened basically. i am STILL mad though! i also forgot that dog the bounty hunter was on, luckily they replay that at 2AM, so i got to tape that.

finally this morning some time, the guy from lowes called. i was tired, i got up with clay this morning, so i didn't answer the phone. i didn't even listen to what he said yet. i'm seeing my cousin, who is doing the work on my house, tomorrow, so i may just see if he can order the damn door, so i can be done with it. speaking of him, i also got some bad news from him. the color siding that i picked out doesn't come in the dutch lap style siding that we were originally going to go with only some 4 fold something. i can't really find any good pictuers so you can really see a difference, but the dutch lap looks so much better! so that pisses me off, and i am NOT changing my color!!

we didn't do anything today. i caught up on a few of my soaps before nap time. bob went and played cards, he is still there, so mom came over for a bit. oh by the way, the reason lowes couldn't find my order the other day is cause my computer battery died before the order actually placed. so now it is there, and i can pick it up whenever. another good thing is that i have a few things to take back, so the $50 i spent on christmas lights, will pretty much be covered by that. yes i spent $50 on lights!! you should have seen my original order! it was $200! i had a bunch of lights and decorations for outside. since i don't even know if my house will be done before christmas, there is no sense for me to spend money i don't have on decorations for it. BUT i am going to go a little nuts inside. just on the tree. i'm so excited for this christmas. since this is going to be the first christmas clay will actually be able to somewhat understand and enjoy. i had to get new stuff for the tree, since i can't have my pretty tree anymore. i have a picture somewhere, i'll have to find it to show you all. my tree used to be soooooo pretty. it was all done in burgandy, green and gold, to match my living room. with all white lights. sigh, so pretty. anyways, there is NO WAY IN HELL i'm using glass bulbs, i know they would not last 2 seconds with my child!!!! so i got a ton of pretty nice looking plastic ones. and i ordered a TON of MULTI-colored lights. i don't like them, but i am sure clay will get a kick out of them! i even got a few different sizes, i hope it looks nice. i can't wait to see his face when he wakes up christmas day (christmas eve day) and sees the tree. the look on his face is going to be priceless!!!!!!!!!!! that is going to be one day when i actually won't mind being up at the crack of dawn!! i'm so excited!!

back to tonight, which happened to be ALL bachelor night. all i can say is WOW!! and YEA!!!!!! i love mary!!! she is the one i wanted him with. i actually didn't cry for tonya being rejected, which i did feel awful for her, but i started bawling, cause i was sooooo excited for mary, and i knew she was going to be so happy!

again all i can say is WOW!!! what a proposal!!!!!!!!!!! i was in tears, how she wasn't i have NO CLUE!!!!!! that was just incredible!!!!! if bob's and my circumstance was different i know he would have done somethig spectacular just like that!!!!!!!!! well the old bob, this one i am dealing with now, i don't know. he actually did do something really romantic the 1st time he asked me to marry him. yes i said 1st. he proposed like 8 0r 9 years ago (my god has it been that long?!?!) we went to niagara falls, and somehow i was inside at the skylan tower, he was outside. i went outside and he had some guy holding our camcorder and i was like what the hell....i went out and he bent down and proposed!!!! it was so romantic, and the ring was soooo beautiful. i cried for like ever, and felt stupid cause i was on tape, people watching!!!!!!!!! and i did say yes. but at the time we weren't getting along, and i was NO where near ready to be married. but i had to say yes, all those people were watching, how could i say no and embarrass him like that?!?! so the ride home was pretty ackward. i think he knew the situation. plus even way back then i was a cheap ass, so i made him take the ring back cause he spent WAY too much money!!!!!! i didn't have full control of the money then, that is how he managed to spend that much. it just wasn't our time. but i always knew, imagined what he would do if there were a next time. clay came along unexpectedly, so there was no real time to get all fancy or romantic. we wanted to be married before he got here, so after i told him i was pregnant, he disappeard for a few minutes, came back and asked me to marry him. here he went and called my mom to ask her permission. that was still kind of romantic and sweet, i thought. that was janurary, we were married in march. it was BEAUTIFUL though!! people who spend months and months planning and tons of money.......NUTS!!!!!! mine was just as beautiful nd special, minus the church, as though, but with less stress and MUCH less money. you can see some pictures at my website link to the left or click HERE. the only regret i have is that i didn't get any better pictures from the reception. i bought a ton of those disosable camers for each table, but my family and friends must suck at taking pictures, cause most of them sucked!!! and bob's friend's (best man) girlfriend was supposed to be taking pictures. she did reat at the ceremony, but when i got the disc from the wedding, all the reception pictures were of their friends!!! none of bob and i or anything wedding related!!!!

how in the world did i get into all of that?!?! for not muh happening this week, it sure types out to be alot! wow!!

we are going to my aunts tomorrow for turkey day. thankfully bob's mom is going to virginia to be with her dad, so we don't have to go there. not as mean as that sounds, i don't mind going there, it is just such a long day, and with clay getting no nap it is too hectic going to 2 different places. i just want to start having the holidays here!!!!! i'm supposed to have christmas eve, but i just found out that she is going for christmas too. so i may have them over the week before, then my family on christmas eve. i'm hoping my family sees that it isn't too bad here, and i can suggest starting to have holidays, or at least some of them, it would be a lot easier on my aunt!!!! espcially if/WHEN we get a new house. that is my plan. especially if we have more kids. i can't see schelping more that 1 kid all over town, it is bad enough with 1. i see my cousin with 3, and they have like 4-5 places to go each holiday....no way in hell!!!!!!!!!!

then bob had this big idea and asked if he could take clay with him and his mom to virginia for thanksgiving. at first i thought he was joking.........how did he think that was even going to fly?!?!?! hell fucking no!!!!!!!!!!

i felt bad telling him that he couldn't take his child to go visit his grandfather.......but hello, it is a holiday, i want to spend it with my child! he isn't even close with his grandfather. not that it should matter, but i don't think we even got a phone call or card when we were married (he was invited, all them down there were), and we didn't get any kind of card or call when clay was born!!!! i said he should come up here if he wants to meet us, he goes on about how old he is. ok, but the man goes out hunting! if he can trounce around outside hunting animals, he can make a simple visit up to ohio to see his family. maybe i am just being mean and inconsiderate. but i am sorry. i don't want to be away from my child, and it would just be too much hassle taking clay somewhere new. we can barely keep him in his crib to sleep, where would he sleep down there?! he tried to con me, by saying, just think you can sleep in every day. yeah, that would be great....but i'd rather be up at 7am, and be tired going on only 4 hours of sleep, than be away from my child for any extended period of time. i hate being away from him for a few hours, i couldn't even imagine days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well it is after 2am, i better get off of here and go to bed, before i get upset that he isn't home yet. he forgets he has a home when he goes out....then wonders why i get pissed. as long as his ass is up tomorrow, so we don't have to be rushed, like every other holiday! he forgot to go get what i needed for my corn casserole, so at least i don't have to cook in the morning. but just getting clay ready and myself ready takes the whole damn day! and we have to be there at 1. hopefully we will be home by 5 or 6. my shows are on! :) well not ER cause of some damn seinfeld thing. i don't like seinfeld. i just always thought they did dumb shit for grown people. yes, some of it was funny, but mostly they just got on my nerves, and if i had friends like that, i don't think they would be my friends for very long. maybe i never really paid attention or got into it....i don't know, but now there are messing with my shows, so that really crosses the line!

oh well......i hope you all have a GREAT thanksgiving!!! be safe, have fun, eat tons of good food and mostly be thankful for all your friends and family!!!! that is what i am most thankful for this year! even tho some of them are gone, i am thankful that they were a part of my life and i am partly who i am today, because of their love and guidance. take care and god bless!!