~11-16-04~ WHY can i NOT sleep?!?!?!

this is getting ridiculous!!!!

once again i fell asleep for a wee bit before coming up to bed. but i did good last night. i didn't get on the computer or anything! i went straight to bed!! i swear i was in bed before 1:30am!!!! AND COULDN'T SLEEP!!!!

so i got up various times smoked, surfed the net. i still didn't get to sleep til probably around 6am!!!! and i DIDN'T even nap yesterday!!!!!!!!!! so apparently that isn't the problem.

the main deal last night, was that i got it in my head to have a christmas cookie exchange. i don't know why i come up with this stuff last minute. so i was going over all the details, and guest lists in my head. then i was going over cleaning each room, then decorating each room, then outside....this is how my brain works....goies from one thing to the next.............and going, and going, and going, and going.

so i got up, AGAIN, and i made the guest list, made the appetizer menu, sort of figured how many cookies everyone should bring.........still didn't work. i was still up tossing and brain turning afterwards.

it may be due to, on top of the exchange, i think i wasnt to have a christmas eve thing here at my house this year. so i was thinking about the menu for that, who was going to be invited, WHERE would i sit everyone......and on, and on, and on.............so i even got up and wrote all that down. thinking that way it would clear my mind of everything since it all looked good on paper. NOPE!

AGH!!!!!! and as you can probably see from my little weather pixie on the right, it is RAINING. you know what that means.............no men running around on my roof today! which i guess is all for the best since i didn't sleep, so we BOTH will be taking a nap today. except that is i am really comminted to this cookie exchange, i need to get the invites out NOW.

i was originally going to have it on the 18th, which still gave me a tad bit of time, but then i thought that the weekend before christmas probably wouldn't be too good of an idea, really any weekend--unless i hurry and get the invites out. so, i opted for the 11th. i just don't know about having my house presentable by then. i thought of inviting some family who has never been here.......what if they want to see ALL of my house?! the rooms upstairs in my house, aside from clay's is in NO WAY appropriate for anyone, not even myself. i know i can't really count on bob to help get anything done (remember leaves still in yard, pool still visible). so i just don't know if i can pull it off. and i also would like to have the house nice and christmas-y.

which leads to another idea i had. originally i was going to put up our tree and what-not the day after thanksgiving. well then i got it in my head, that it would be a cool surprise for clay to come down on christmas morning with a nice bright tree with presents under. how cool would that be to a kid who has never seen one?! yes, i haven't had one in a few years!!!!! but then i thought if we have company on christmas eve, i would like it up then. then i figured we could surprise him with it christmas eve morning!! so i am thinking that will be the plan. plus that way i don't have to fight with him for a whole month to NOT TOUCH THE TREE! or the inevitable, GET AWAY FROM THE TREE!!!! so i think christmas eve morning it is!

well i should get off of here and do something productive, like get my cookie invites printed...of course i am running low on ink, so i probably won't get that accomplished today either!

UGH!!! the things i get myself into, i'll tell ya!!