~2-24-05~ What to write........

today is almost a blur. i'm just so damn tired! i didn't get to nap today, clay was having NONE of it for some reason. he had been doing so good lately!

i was about to go to bed an hour ago, but i had to pick up and shit, and then i got some energy and am not tired now! GOD!!!!


i know you all are probably sick of hearing it, but i need to get this damn house done. i wish i could just pay someone to come in, do everything that needs done, including go through and pack all my shit. i am so not motivated, but i need to get this house up, because i FOR REAL want that damn house on maplecrest. i have entirely too much time and energy wrapped up in it to not get it. and i am all freaked out about the open house this sunday!!!!

bob's friend is dating her realtor and he said in 20 years he has only sold 1 house through an open house. well my luck this would be someone's #1!!!!!! it is an adorable house, how can anyone who walks in there not love it and want it?!?!?! i am just praying that noone does. i mean it has been up since september, i'm sure they already had an open house before. i'm just stressing out!!!!!

people i already have all the damn rooms organized and decorated!!! i have a sickness i know.

i may seriously consider the whole contingency thing, if they'd go for it. i'll have to ask some more questions, but i want the damn house. nothing else is even looking good to me anymore. i don't even want to look at other houses. my realtor is going to think i am nuts, but when we go saturday AGAIN to look at it, i am planning on measuring and taking a ton of pictures. maybe we should only do that house that day, cause i have a feeling we are going to be there for a while.

and did i tell you all that now bob is like "i don't know" about the house?!?!?!?!? he is the one who was all gung ho, and i liked the one on yale. so he made me all start thinking about it, now i am obsessed and he is all like "i don't know"????


somewhat house related, do you all know how expensive wallpaper is. crimeny!!!!! it is freaking ridiculous!!!! we used to have a wallpaper outlet store here in town, well we went there the other day, the whole damn plaza is gone!!!!! so that totally sucks!!!!! i did find a site online that is pretty reasonable. meaning that they have a few books with rolls for $7.99 at the most. i did find some stuff i really liked in there, but if i get all "themey", like lighthouses, that shit is expensive. some are like $20 a roll, and that is at a "discount"!!! YES, i have sat on here for hours checking out wallpaper for a house that i don't even have yet. i told ya...i'm sick!!


american idol totally pissed me the fuck off tonight. who the hell comes up with the way these people break the hearts and crush the dreams of these poor kids?!?!? i almost don't even want to watch anymore!!! it is totally ridiculous. it was already pissing me off, but tonight with the men. the final guy i should say......after he goes and tells the bottom row of guys to relax they are safe, he breaks out with, who ever---your gone (or whatever rude and stupid they say) to a guy that was on the bottom row!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! granted he is the guy i wanted to go, but i felt horrible for him!!! i mean he was probably all thanking god, and happy thinking he was safe and then BOOM. evil fucking people man! it was awful.

and the first girl to get booted. i had tears in my eyes for her. i thought she was going to lose it or possibly kill ryan seacrest (which i would have adored her for!) she just stood there not talking, eyes wide open. it was awful! i really don't know why i watch it anymore!


and lost, yes it is a damn good show, but why???????????????? nothing much happens on the shows. just people living their lives on the island. i still can't believe they have been out scouting the island, they have been there what, a month now. i haven't seen a "monster" in ages, so what's the problem???? i think i am just too imapatient these days.


well i am shooting for sleep before 1am tonight, so i should get off here to make that happen.

good-night!