~2-17-05~ BLAH!

i don't feel well. i woke from my nap with the worsst headache i EVER had! i mean it hurt to have my eyes open! it was bad.

i just took some asprin around 11 and it finally went away, but now my tummy feels yucky!

i guess you could just chalk it up to my period, but i never get like that. i can hear my mom saying, you are getting older, your body changes. yeah well, hell! could be i guess. who knows?!


american idol sucked tonight! thank god that they finally picked who is going to sing, so i can actually see it! i'm so sick of watching these poor people so stressed out! god, just tell them yes or no and let them go. why torture them so much. all it does is get me all stressed out for them!!! damn!

lost is still a good show, but what the hell?! i just don't get it uet. and WHERE ARE THE MONSTERS?!?! are the monsters those polar bears?? the boars?? what the hell?! i don't think we are ever going to know. i mean every week you are left hanging, i can just imagine what the season finale is going to be like!!


i am soooooooooo into that house i have been going on and on about. i want it bad, which means that it will be gone soon. i just know it. we were talking about it tonight and i kept saying, "blah, blah, our room....." "blah, blah, clays room" like we own the house already. lord i know i am in for a BIG disappointment! i just know, that is how it goes. i'm trying to stay positive though. we aer going to look at it again saturday, i'm going to take my own pics. to post them for you all. the relist (above) has sucky pictures, maybe that is a good thing. if you check out the pictures again, the room with the pink carpet and fireplace (living room?), that is the room i want to make into the master bedroom.

it just has so much character. it is set up so nice, it doesn't look like every other house. i know i said it 1000 times, i LOVE the kitchen (not in the relist pics). i love the family room, the sun porch, and the set up of the finished basement. it is very different and so much potential for my decorating!!!!!! I WANT IT!!!!

i just need to get on shit around here. it is so hard. i just have so much stuff EVERYWHERE, it is hard to even know where to begin. then with clay running amuck, i can't get anything done with him awake and here. what i really need are some of those plastic storage things. i was just going to go for boxes, but i'd rather have plastic. just in case, i get that house. most of the storage is outside. i mean the shed and stuff are great, and they don't look like they get wet, but i'd feel better if my stuff were in plastic.

my mom ever so nicely reminded me, that since the mice were all in my christmas tree, they might have been in EVERY box i have down there. why did i not think of that?!?!?! so do i now have to go through EVERY box and check?! that sucks, FOR REAL!!!! i was thankful, that most of the stuff that will be stored, is already in boxes and stacked all neat in the basement, which means, right on the the moving truck. well not anymore. now i have to go through every damn one. god the horror!!!! i am already so NOT motivated, you think finding a house i want would motivate me but, NO) i hate any kind of moving, packing and deep cleaning. oh, and add painting to that list. i so dread painting, but i think it would be for the best. i want this place sold, and for the price i want. so i guess anything i can do to make that happen we should. that includes leaving all the appliances and even the washer and dryer. i was planning on getting the ones i wrote about in depth in earlier posts anyways, so these people can have the ones here.


ok, trying to get off the house stuff. i'll talk about clay. he is so bad. he is so into the hitting and kicking(mostly when he is playing with me, he is rough!). he thinks it is a game of funny. i know he does it when he is pissed, but if you tell him to stop he does it more!!!! tonight we started (right or wrong i have no clue) to act like i was hurt and crying when he did it. he sort of stopped, and when bob would come over to "comfort" me, clay would sort of do the same thing. but that still didn't stop him from a few minutes later doing the same thing. and the time out thing. that isn't working either.

he will just sit there all quiet and content, until it is time to get out. doesn't even phase him. i wish he would sit there screaming and crying, like it is punishment or something. not him. he just sits.

on to good things about him. he is so damn cute!!! i'm sorry, but he is!!! and so smart! if we right MOM he knows that is mama. if we write DAD, he knows it is "da" (dad), and if we write GEICO, he knows it is "giko". i've written before about his geico fasination, from almost birth! and he knows that CLAY is "cay". we also counted to 100 the other day. he usually leaves out the fist part, mostly just doing the 1-9 parts, but he will repeat what i say. he still skips 10. his 10 is "lala", which sort of sounds like 11, so he goes right from 9 to 11. he still says seven as "lala", also, so it is too cute when he says 17 as "lala-teen". 100 sounds almost like "oney", but he knows if you write 100 that is "oney" he points to all the lotto numbers when they are on the tv. we will ask him where so and so is, and he will get it right. he doesn't say them, but when we ask he knows what we are talking about. the kid just loves his letters and numbers!!!! now if he would just say some more WORDS already!!!!


well i still don't feel well, so i am off to bed! good night everyone.