~2-22-05~ Sleepy

did you ever sleep and sort of dream like you were doing things, so it seemed as if you never got to sleep at all?! it is hard to explain. but not only did i get to bed late, it felt as if i never even got to sleep at all. then i had to listen to bob's alarm's going off about 50 fucking times, starting at like 6:30am!!! til mine finally went off at 7 and i yelled at him for the umpteenth time to get up. GOD I HATE THAT!! i am seriously considering getting him his own damn bedroom!

anyways, then i swear i heard him (?) shreik my name. like a very urgent, scared, helpless way....i shot up in bed. it was sooooooooooo scary! i looked at the clock and knew he had already left for work, but my heart was beating in my chest! that was freaky!

so of course when clay finally woke up, i just got back to sleep, so i am butt tired. and of course they are here working on the house. no, i am not complaining! i'm just whining cause i am tired.

i was sort of relaxing on the couch a bit ago and i heard some banging that sounded like they started the front porch, i was happy. but then i heard something break, so i get up and somehow clay got a champainge glass and was pounding it on the fucking window and broke it (the glass)!!!! so i yelled, took the glass, cleaned up the broken glass and went back to my rest. a few minutes i heard some more banging , i go look, somehow my child now had a hammer and was banging on the same fucking window!!!!!!! thank god i got up and looked!!! thank god he did not break the damn window! whenever they are here banging the hell out of shit, he goes around and bangs shit. lord! thank goodness grandpa came shortly after that. so now here i am, relaxing, smoking a cigarette finally!!!! thank goodness for grandpa!


i am not cooking tonight either. i have so many left overs in my fridge! they usually get thrown out which is pathectic and soooooooo wasteful. so that is definitely what we are having tonight. either vegetable lasagne, bratwurst, rice, and salisbury steak. probably a combo of all. sounds great doesn't it!


well, i am done with my cigarette. i should get back down there and spend sometime with MY grandpa! even though i get ignored! he is MINE after all!! no, it isn't that bad, it is cute watching him and clay play together. i am glad that clay has him, since he doesn't have my father. talk to ya'll later.