~2-22-05~ It is late!!

i am sweating to death! i feel like i just ran a marathon!!!

i just used my vacuum sealer that i got for christmas. that is wuite the pain in the ass!!!! i don't know if i am going to like this.

first i had to cut out the bags and seal them, no biggie. then i had to get the hamburger out of its pack and into these bags. there was the problem. i had hamburger, grease, blood, everything all over these bags! so i have to wipe the inside and outside of the bags, cause they won't seal if anything is on there. PAIN IN THE ASS!!!!!

then i kept having blood getting sucked out of the bag, so i would have to wipe out the vaccuum thing. PAIN IN THE ASS!!

not to mention i was doing all this while the dishwasher was going right under me/against me....the heat coming out of there was unbearable. i am dying here!!!! i don't think i have ever been so glad to be done with something!!! thank god they had a 12 pound limit on the hamburger, or i would still be down there cussing!


i am also late cause i watched that nanny show. i recorded it since these people had a son clay's age, and seemed to do some of the same stuff. i got some new ideas and insights. she also said that 3 hours is too long of a nap. and clay takes 3 hour plus naps (me too), and i love it! why does it have to be bad damn it!!!! i sort of figured it was, especially since he usually doesn't get up til 5, and then i wake him up. so how is he going to be tired and go to bed at 9?!

also, their child was still in a highchair, which i guess is a big no-no, which we are guilty of as well. and the same reason, it is mostly for US, not clay. it is just so much easier to contain him! another bad habit that we have is that we eat in the tv room. so its not like i can get a booster seat and sit him in it. i know we should change our habits, but we don't eat together anyways...yes, another habit that should be changed. but damn! half the time the only way i can cook supper is when he is contained in his highchair leaving me alone!

i swear, yes, i promise that when we move, everything....well most everything is going to change!! we will start eating at the table, and all together. i am even going to attempt the toddler bed (after we have settled in there). the whole set up of the house (the one i still think of as the one we are getting) will just be so much easier for everything.

nanny joe had a good schedule for those people, but she also had them getting up at 6am! 6 fucking AM.....who does that?!?!?! yes i know alot of you.....normal people do, but oh my god!!! i can't even tell you the last time i was up at 6am, for the day!!!! not even in high school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i know i have a lot to change. and most of it isn't even really clay. it is myself. i realize this, and i will do it. if i never do another thing i say i am going to do, i will do this....it isn't for myself, it is for clay. and i will do ANYTHING i can for him. i think we will be much happier and better off.

i just want to hurry! i am sooooooooooooooooo in need for change. i think it will totally help my mood and outlook on everything. even if we are in debt for a while, i think it will lift my spirits and also motivate me to do more in my life and in clay's. so i want to hurry and get the hell out of here!!!!! i cannot belive that it is going to be march next week! didn't i say i wanted my house up by the first of the month?!?!

i think that i may start doing stuff around here, but still go ahead and list it. just to get people in, get me off my butt to do stuff. hopefully someone will see it and fall in love with it like i did. even if it isn't all complete, i will make sure they know all that is to be done. i know it is best to have it all done, but i just want to get the ball moving. hell noone may even want to look at it for a while, i just want it listed and get something started. especially since there are a few other houses around me for sale. if they see mine compared to theirs, they surely will like mine better :)

i also want to get things moving cause i want an appraiser to come in and tell me what he thinks. bob thinks i am crazy for what i want to list the house for. i don't see why?! i want to get at least $90,000. so i figured we could list if for $97,900 to $90,900. just to see what people would offer us. he thinks i am totally kidding myself. i hope not! i am totally looking forward to making $30,000 on the deal. hell i already have that money spent!!!!

HERE is a house that is like 2 houses down from me, for sale. they just came down in price from $92,000, i think. my house is better (i think) because i have about 600 more square feet, a full 2 story house, my living room is MUCH bigger, i have a dining room, and extra room off that, the master bedroom is bigger, i have an attached 2 car garage, and a corner lot. where thry do have me beat is that their backyard is they have a partially finished basement, their back yard is better looking, and a bit bigger (.16 to .11) and they have 2 bathrooms, to my 1. but if they are asking $89,900 for theirs i don't think i am crazy wanting $90,000 for mine!!!!!

hell THIS house is down my side street (and not the good expensive way) and look what they want for theirs!!!!! again my house has more square footage, my rooms look nicer, but again they have an extra bathroom, finished basement and an attic.

one more, THIS one, also down mcgreggor (bad side) and look! $99,900!!!! and if you go down mcgreggor the other way, towards 11th st and lower, that is a better area and those are even going for more money! a few (2) streets to my west, look at THIS house (i LOVE it!!)

i can't wait for you all to see my house compared to these. just so you don't think that i am being biased. i am really not!

then again, it just all depends on what someone who is looking wants. maybe they want a small bungalow, not a big 2 story. maybe they rather be down the side street, rather than right on the main road like mine. who knows!!


well it is almost 3am now, i need to get to sleep!! good night.