~1-12-05~ I need to win the lotto.

for some reason i started to think about our summer vacation. we are planning on taking one with clay this year before we start on #2.

for some reason i got it in my head today that i wanted to go on a cruise. so i scoured the internet. what a pain in my ass!! firstly i could find NO deals. almost every place i looked for the SAME cruise, it was the same damn price. i mean it was even the SAME price when i actually went to carnival's website. so what the hell?!

we planned on taking my mom with us. that way she can spend time with clay, and bob and i can go do our own thing, especially at night. i feel bad, i don't want her to pay since she is basically going to be babysitting. but i also know she is going to be getting on our nerves! granted i love her, but i have travelled with her, i lived with her, i know her. and i know bob kind of wants his own "space", but it is already EXPENSIVE! and will be much cheaper to have her in the same room as us. but it is EXPENSIVE!!! and i feel queer asking her to pay part of it. i couldn't find anything anywhere near below like $4000, for 4 nights, and that is even bahamas!! i wanted caribean. so i looked at the 3 night bahamas. that was maybe $300 dollars cheaper. plus you have the ports and stuff to do amd that all takes extra money!! so i pretty much forgot that whole idea! by the way it wasn't even that much cheaper for just bob, clay and i.

so then i got the idea of an all inclusive resort, maybe in jamaica. well hell, they are just as damn much!!!! the cheapest i found so far was $3288 for 4 days, i think, heck it may have been 3 nights.....i don't know. it is all giving me a head ache!!!! then whenever i go back to the site it tells me a cheaper price and i get all happy, for some reason it sets itself at only 3 adults. all things considered that really isn't bad. all you can eat and drink and sleep!!!! but who has $3000 just to blow on a vacation?! see, the cheap skate in me is coming out again.

oh did i mention how ridiculous it is that i have to pay FULL price for clay!! for airfair and for the cruise. what the hell is that all about?! he is 2!!!!!!!!!!! and won't be partaking in just about anything that would cost any money. my child harldy eats!!!! so that is a bummer about a cruise. i didn't get individual prices for the resorts so i don't know if he is charged there or not, one place i looked at had kids 14 and under were free! woo-hoo, but of course i forget what one that was.

i think i may just call a travel agency. my old high school teacher works at one now, so i'll give him a call, see what kind of deal he can find.

another thing about the cruise, in case you were wondering why it was so expensive. i want a suite with a balcony. if we are going to be with my mother, we need as MUCH space as we can get. and if we have a balcony, we can go out there and smoke and i won't have to hear her complain about smoking in the room....which i wouldn't do anyways since they are soooooooooo small and clay would be there. so we need the space.

oh well........i guess i sort of have time. not that i can come up with that amount of money! once i pay bills thursday, i'll probably really figure what the hell was i even thinking that we could afford something like that?!?!