~1-7-05~ Boring night

not really much to comment on tonight.

i already told ya'll i got my cable back, so i'm happy camper!

since there was NOTHING on tonight, we watched the biggest loser from the other night. i was sad to see maurice go, and i still don't get that dude's excuse for voting for him, i think it was bullshit! but then agian, i didn't want to see that girl go either. she has been my favorite for the whole show. i just think she is so pretty!

i do think that the 2 guys left have had the biggest transformation so far. especially gerry? is that his name. he just looks like a totally different guy! 90 pounds! that is incredible!

i think it is cool that they are now going home for 3 months, to see who can keep up the losing. that makes it more real, than just being locked up somewhere with a trainer and gym 24/7. heck, i'd lose weight too! so that will be interesting, and i can't wait to see everyone!

i also watched that wickedly perfect tonight. bob wasn't too thrilled, but since survivor won't be back on til after it is over there won't be anything else to watch at 8 on thursdays, so i told him he better get used to it now. so we watched it. it looks like it may be somewhat interesting. if nothing else just to see how creative the people are and what they come up with. i'm soooooooooooooooooo glad that ass was kicked off tonight, he got on my last damn nerve, and thank god those women were smart enough to boot him!!

my left eye lid has been twitching now for like 3 or 4 days!!!! it is driving me insane. thankfully it isn't all day long, but it is still every day. it just feels funky!!! my cousin said it means you are going to get good news. well give it to me already, so this damn twitching stops!!! maybe it is waiting for me to finally start playing the lotto, so i can get the good news that i won! wouldn't that be nice.

i'm gonna go down some tylenol pm, be right back.

ok, i took them last night, but it was 2am, so that didn't really help. i know i told you all that i was going to bed, but i lied. i didn't. i started look at court cases and stuff for people i know.

this bastard that i know who is in jail was released in april. i was soooooooooo pissed when i found out. the last time i checked he had a parole hearing coming up, and was denied, and i was so happy. i don't know how he had another hearing so soon! if i would have know, i would have written a letter to keep his sorry ass in there for much longer!!!! so that was a bummer. then i was looking up his whole family, cause i can't stand them either, and of course they are all in "the system" for something....no surprise to me. i was just hoping his ass did something already and was back there. but no. i can't believe it has been 8 months and his ass hasn't been in trouble yet. it is probably that he hasn't been caught yet. i am sure it will be soon! there are a few people in this world that i can truly say i hate, and he and his mother are it! they are worthless. i can't even begin to tell you all the stuff, but just trust me, they are worthless. and it just shows how worthless she is, to see how her kids turned out, and it is a shame that they are going to pass that on to their kids as well. then we, in society, are going to have to deal with them! shameful!!

but anyways........so i was up all night doing that. i don't know about your state. but here we have an ohio offender search. you just type in a name and you can see if they are in prison. PRISON not jail. it is very interesting. sad too, since there are quite a few people i know from school in there. but then again, they are the ones who you would expect to be there, hell why would i have looked up there names in the first place! and our courthouse has an online thing too, so you can look up people and see if they have been arrested for anything, traffic tickets, really anything that has placed them in "the system". marriages, deaths, divorces, real esatae transactions, just about anything! thank goodness my names shows up NOWHERE!!! yes, thank you, i do not even have a traffic ticket! if you look hard enough through the other courts, you will find my bankruptcy and also where one of the credit cards, filed a suit or whatever...oh and my marriage. there is a lot of info you can get on people out there. and me, being the NOSE that i am, sits there and types everyone i know! should i also add this to my pathetic list?! guess i just have too much free time on my hands! plus i am just very, VERY nosey!!!

well, it isn't SUPPOSED to rain tomorrow, so i may call my cousin and harrass him about my house. this weekend is supposed to be nice, they should really do it then, but he has a ahrd enough time getting to get his guys to work, i doubt they would show up on the weekend!!! then next week it is back to 40-50% chance all week!!!! i am sooooooooooooooo sick of rain. i swear i cannot remember the last time it was actually a clear day!!

this weekend i plan on cleaning up my back yard. yes i know it is janurary, and it should have been done in like october, but you know......so now i got some tarps and i am going to pile everything in the back by this tree and just cover everything up. i can't have anything by the house since they are going to be working, and it is driving me nuts being strewn in the middle of my yard. so that is the plan. if it actually happens it will be a miracle.

we are going over to bob's friends this weekend, the one's i actually like! they are great people!! it just sucks in a way cause we won't getthere til like 6 and then we will have to be home by 9 to put clay to sleep. i know we could just get my mom to sit with him, but they have kids too, so at least clay will get some much needed interaction! it just sucks that all the interaction he does get is with little girls! i'd like to see him with some little boys. well, i don't know. his little cousin at christmas was a real butt! he pushed him at least twice. i swear i almost jumped out of my seat to whallop a little 1 1/2 year old!!!! i have never seen anyone be mean to my son, so i kind of freaked out!! the little shit! i was so hoping clay would just turn around and shove his ass right back, but no! my child is all docile. which i guess is good. i hear the cousin is a bit of a handful like that. i would think he would be good with other kids since he has 2 sisters, but then again, maybe that IS why he is like that. who knows?! i was really hoping they could be close, since he really doesn't have much family. especially his age. i mean i know we have tons of time yet. so hopefully. i know it sucked for me cause there were NO kids my age growing up in my family. i think that may be why i was alway so mature for my age. i was always with the adults. although i have no complaints about my child hood, that is why in a way PART of me wants to have another child. so clay will always "have someone".

i never wanted a brother or a sister that i can remember, but when my father died, then i did wish that i had someone who could have been there with me. not that i wanted anyone else to feel the pain i was in, but at least someone that could relate to what i was dealing with.....i don't know, it is hard to explain. i mean i had my mom and bob, and i know they were hurt and sad, but not so deeply as i was.........i don' t know......don't get me going there...........i need to sleep tonight!!

clay peed on the potty again tonight. but of course only after cookies were mentioned. he kepts asking for "cookies", and i told him he had to pee in the potty first. i heard a "yea!!!" so i go over, he had about 2 drops in there! like he squeezed it out for a damn cookie!! but he got his cookie. then he kept saying "cookie, pee" and going over to the potty and going "yea". like he could trick me and i not know it was old pee!!! so i cleaned out the potty and he actually went some more. and yes, got another cookie. i think he may have told me he had to poop, but at that point he was dressed and it was ready to go to bed, so i thought he was just pissing around to not go to bed.....but after a while i smelled it. so now i wish i would have listened to him and let him go, just so i could have seen if he would have went on the potty.

oh the joys of potty training......and i am not even really doing it yet!

well i am off to search for some other useless stuff on the net. good night.