~10-03-06~ Worst day of my life!!!

today was bad!!!!!!!

i meanit is bad enough that my baby is sick. i had to take him to the doctors on friday cause he was crying that his ear hurt. he already had a cold, and now has an ear infection. damn preschool and their germs!!!!!!!!!

so anyways...........then today, THIS:






I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!

my friend molly and her daughter came over to play and they just spent a good 1/2 hour or more jumping on his bed and doing crazy shit, nothing hurt at all! they went downstairs, weren't down there for 5 minutes and i heard a scream and him crying!

all i got was that he hit it on his little table, but i have no idea how. he doesn't ever tell you anything and all marisa said was that he was playing.

the bleeding stopped pretty quickly and there wasn't much. so i was hoping and praying that he would not need stitches. so as soon as bob came home and looked he was like DEFINITELY! so i was all fuck!!!! and i actually should have took his advice and just stayed home, but i couldn't let my child go through something like that without his mother!!!!

to cut down on the story. we got back there, had a wonderful "nurse" not sure what she is, but she told us this whole story...

the nurse was going to come in with some special snow from santa claus. she was going to put it on his cut and he wouldn't feel a thing, and then they were going to put some magic string on his eye and make everything all better and he wouldn't even feel a thing.........

well the putting on of the snow, went shitty. took them forever and my child was screaming.

so then the lady came back with a little doll with a boo boo on his eye and she showed him what was going to happen. yeah.............

so the guy comes in and he wiped clays eye.......clay is screaming!!!

he does the first stitch my child is SCREAMING IN PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AT THIS POINT I AM ABOUT TO JAPSMACK EVERYONE WHO IS IN THE FUCKING ROOM. I WAS JUST ABOUT TO SAY I THOUGHT THIS SHIT WASN'T GOING TO HURT AND HE COULDN'T FEEL A THING, I COULD TELL HE DEFINITLEY FELT THAT!!!

so then the guy said they were going to have to give him a shot to numb him, cause he isn't numb.

WHAT THE FUCK YOU STUPID FUCKERS!!!! IS THERE NOT A WAY YOU COULD HAVE TESTED THAT BEFORE YOU PUT A FUCKING NEEDLE THROUGH MY SONS SKIN?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

so at this point he is screaming mom, i am bawling, but not trying to let him know. i told bob i hated him for making me bring him to the hospital for all this shit.

it was horrendous!!!!! after the shot though, i think the cries were just from being scared and "feeling" the pull, but not pain.

then as i am crying trying to hold my child down, but reassure him that it was almost done and he was doing so good, some nurse came over and asked if she wanted me to hold him. hell no bitch. i am going to be there for him!!!!

it was all just fucking retarded. so even about 10-15 minutes after everything. i am still sitting there crying, while my child is all happy eating a popscicle running up and down the damn hallway of the er!!!!!!! i am definitely tramatized, he, not so much!!!!!

but it was awful!!!!!!!!!!!

just proof........here is a chocolate milk mustache smile



then we had to wait for at least a half hour afterwards to get the hell out of there. i hate that more than anything!!!!!!!!!

that is half the reason i was letting my child run the halls, i was hoping they would get tired of us and let is the hell out.

i might also add that i felt like an ass, when about 20 people asked clay what happened to his eye.

clay gives his usual answer to everything, "i don't know" then looks at me. so i am thinking, ok are these people thinking that i did this?!?!?!?!?! that was just an awful feeling too!!!

so is this what i have to look forward to with having a boy???????????? lord, i don't think i am going to make it!!!!



right now my dog, kozar, and my cat, oreo, are both chasing a fly!!! i have never seen a dog chase a fly and it is damn funny!!!!


so now i am debating on taking clay to school tomorrow or not. i already was debating before the whole eye thing. i called his doctor and she said yes he is contagious, but it is totally up to me if i want to send him. i looked in my preschool hand book and the only thing they said about sickness was basically throwing up, diareahh, or green snot............

well he has none of that. he is stuffy and has a small cough. so i don't know. what i do know is that I would be pissed if someone sent there kid to school like that and got my kid sick.....so i really don't want to do that to someone else.

so i don't know. i just want him to get better. he has his first play day at school on thursday and i really, really want him to go. so i want him to be better for that. that is where he stays after til 2 and gets to play.

i am hoping that on those days i can finally get my ebay stuff up and running. i need $$$$$$. i have still been going crazy at walmart. i really need to stop!!!!!

especiallly since we found THIS!!!!!!

is that not awesome!!! BUT did you see the taxes!!!!!!!!!! that is a HALF!!!!! i even looked it up on the auditor site, hoping they mistakenly put for the whole year. NOPE, no mistake!!! so that is like $300 a month JUST IN TAXES!!!!!

so now we were throwing around putting our house up again now. which i just do not want to do. i can't take the whole showing bullshit!!! i just wish i already had someone that knows what it is like and wants it!!! and is willing to pay what we want. and it is not even just that we want it, we NEED so much for a down payment. we aren't trying to be greedy and have extra $$. but it is beautiful, isn't it?!?!?!?!

i want it sooooooooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh well........at least my baby is ok. so i guess it wasn't such a horrible day after all.

take care!!