~10-18-05~ Still here

these people around me make me so tired, it makes me relive it AGAIN by writing about it! so at night when i want to write i am already too tired to "re-live" it all again!

hey anon. i wasn't offended by your comment, and did not take it in a bad way. i appreciate you reading and commenting!


anyways.......so last week that girl had her tonsils out. i had to watch her daughter the day of, no biggie really....i don't think, can't remember back that far nowdays!

then thursday her mom called BEFORE i was even out of bed in the AM, i didn't answer. these people kept calling like every 10 damn minutes! she finally left a message that she, the daughter, wasn't doing too good, and she wanted me to go down and check on her, cause her daughter, the daughter's daughter, was kind of driving her batty. well, i STILL did NOT answer! i brought clay upstairs and we HID OUT all day. yes, i felt guilty!!!!!!!!!!! but aren't you all a bit proud?! i knew they wanted me to take the little one. i finally caved about 1pm and went down there, but she wasn't home. i did have her a little later that night, but again, no biggie.

THEN friday comes and the daughter sent her sister down to see if i could take her daughter to get her pictures taken cause she still wasn't feeling well. WHAT?!?! cancel the damn things then!!! well i had a REAL excuse, my nail girl was coming to do my nails. again, i felt bad, but i really couldn't! then my nail girl goes and does a no-show!!! later that night the daughter sent her sister down AGAIN asking if i could watch the little one for a bit, since she still wasn't feeling well. i lied and said we were about to eat and i would be down later. i was staying at home to pay bills, while bob went and got food. i also told her that i would only be able to watch her til about 8pm, cause that is when i get clay ready for bed. so a little after 6 i sent bob down to get her. then the mom walks in the door with the little one. then i saw whe was CRYING! i was like oh my god are you ok?!?! she was in A LOT of pain! she could barely talk and she said she could barely swallow. i felt terrible! she laid on the couch and fell asleep, meanwhile i tried to call her mom at her second job, but couldn't get a hold of her. then i felt realy guilty and bad for not helping out earlier. so we let her sleep. clay and the little one played and bob and i hung up our new blinds in the sunroom.

i ended up taking clay up to bed around 9pm and was SHOCKED that he didn't throw a fit. i came down and bob was rocking the little one. we then went outside to smoke and i was outside for about 2 minutes holding her and she was OUT! i think the mom came and got them both when she got home from work around 10pm. i really felt bad for the girl, but damn! how did she give birth!!! i mean i know she is only 21, and still sort of young to be going through stuff, but again, HOW IN THE WORLD DID SHE GIVE BIRTH?!?! and she actually wants to move out on her own?????????? i don't think she would make it!!!!

saturday mom took clay and we did more painting! the same with sunday! and we are still not done!!!!!!!!!!!! lord the work i am making for us! but it does look nice! with we would have done this 6 years ago!!

so yesterday i had to go to the girlie doctor. fun, fun! told her we are trying for #2 now. so i got some prenatal vitamins, and got some more info on my "problem". i was REAL pissed that the doctor who i blame for my problem, i know, told me that even though i only had 1 fallopian tube left, that even if i ovulated from my left ovary that the egg would still make its way over to the right tube. well the lady that i go to and trust, say that is NOT true!

so i better start praying that i ovulate mostly from my right, since that is the only tube i have. i would like to wait another month before trying to get pregnant, but in case it is harder, i don't want to miss the opportunity! so we are supposed to start trying tonight. i should be ovulating. the 2 times that i have had sex, when i WAS ovulating and NOT on birth control i got pregnant, so i know my cycle.....so fingers crossed.

bob is excited he is going to be getting sex the next few days. so he should be in a good mood for a while.

so then back to my exciting life............last night i was watching my soaps and i kept hearing something. i kept pausing my soap to listen.....i thought i heard people yelling. so my nosey butt went to the window. i saw someone walking quite a ways down the road, so i assumed it was them. then i say a woman riding a bike toward the person walking. by this point i know it is the "other neighbors". so i hear more yelling, so i go out on my porch. i look down the road and i see that the bike is in the middle of the road on the ground. then i see her and him arguing. it is dark and can't see much, so then i panic, like what should i do???????? i sort of go in the house, just as bob comes out to see what is going on.....then we look back and she is laying in the middle of the road....at this point i call 911 and specifically tell bob to stay put! i know that is awful, but nowdays, it can be dangerous to help people. TRUST ME, that is awful! but it is the truth! and i know bob and he would all get into it with whoever trying to help and i don't need that! we have a son to think about! so just as i hang up with them we see the guy on top of the girl, i don't know what is going on, so i call 911 back to tell them to HURRY and then bob takes off down there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so then i have to go down there. here the guy was trying to help the girl up, and the daughter ran down there as well. ashley, the one that is always her using the phone**remind me to tell you about that** so bob sort of got loud at one point with the guy, cause they were all sort of arguing, but then it came out that this broad is 6 months pregnant!!!!!!!! WHAT?????!!!!!! like that is all she needs is another one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! especially with this guy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the one that was kicked out a while back...........and who about 2 weeks ago was kicked out again by the cops for supposedly attacking ashley!!!!!

so anyways, they guy is saying he grabbed the bike and they both fell, and i think she was trying to say a different story, cause she kept asking if i saw it. and i don't really think i did. thinking back after we got home, i am thinking that i may have seen him push her later, but they were in a driveway, not in the road with the bike....everything happened so fast and it was dark, and i was freaked, i don't remember!

she is going to take him back anyways so what is the point. i think they took him. they handcuffed him and put him in the car before we left. she was talking about pressing charges, but i was rolling my eyes on the inside. she didn't go with the ambulance, so i don't know what that was all about.....we left before that anyways. just ridiculous!

and it just pisses me off! if i have a problem getting pregnant and this broad is AGAIN all while not taking care of the 5+ she has! what the fuck! oh well.

**about ashely using the phone. i got my phone bill there is like $45 dollar of long distance on there!!!!!!!! WTF?!?! how are you going to use someone else's phone to do that! in that there was like 8 3-way calls and i don't have that so that is $1.99 a pop! i made bob go over and tell her. and of course she said she gets her check on the 30th, so she will give it to us then. i mean she didn't deny it or anything. when he told her she was just like uh-huh. AAAGGHHH!!!!!

so then saturday she came over to borrow $1, cause the kids needed milk, her mom was in cleveland AGAIN. i was like, damn ashely you are going to owe us your whole check soon!! and YES I DID SAY THAT!!!!!!!!!!!! she just sort of laughed it off saying, i know, but i was damn serious!!!!!!

i will be on her ass the 30th. her mom borrowed $10 from us before, i was REALLY shocked that we got it back. granted me had to call and "remind" them, so who knows if we wouldn't have called them on it.................

i just know we need to get out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well my kid has been asleep for wayyyyyyyyyyy too long. i thought the girls were coming over after school and he would be up about 3pm, guess the older sis (tonsil girl) is home, so i need to wake him before he doesn't go to bed tonight.

sunday night/morning he got up AGAIN about 3:30am, and would NOT go back to sleep! he didn't end up going back to sleep til after 5am!!!!!! what the hell?????!!!!!!

oh well. wish us luck on the baby #2 thing and i will let you all know our progress!

have a good day!