~2-3-05~ Not much to say

i've been slacking a bit. i lied to you all. i am still a freak with the house hunting! so i haven't been doing much blogging lately. reading or writing.

the sad part is, is that bob and i found our dream house. the only problem, THE PRICE. it is a BIT out of our price range. unless we don't want any utilities, or to eat, and quit smoking! none of which i am willing to do without at the moment.

he even is on a kick now about getting another job so we could afford it. i told him if he gets another job, he won't ever be around to enjoy the house that he is working so hard to afford. what is the point of that?!?!

i do sooooo love it. it is a little too far out in east-ja-pee-pee (how do you spell that?!?!) i do like that, but then again i don't (the whole being too far from my mom thing). so we are a bit disappointed. i really don't think the house hunting is going to go well. i am just soooooooooo picky, but then again spending that kind of money and finding a place that hopefully you will be at for the rest of your life, you should be that picky!

we drove by some houses we are going to go look at on saturday, and i already found things i don't like about them. in the dark, not even stepping foot in them yet. but hey, i know what i don't want. so hell. my realtor is really going to think i am nuts when i call him back and change again the ones i want to go look at.

i also called my cousin today to see when he thought my house would be done. he said there is really only about 3 more days of work left on it, but we just need the weather to get it done. i told him i am planning on having our house on the market at the end of the month and if he thought it would be done by then. he said yes. then again i was also told that my hosue was going to be done the 2nd week of november. then by christmas. again in his defense, we have had the worst winter i ever remember this year. not so much snow or anything, but the freezing cold weather. yesterday and today are the first time it actually got above 30, since i can remember. and it doesn't even do that til around 2 or 3 pm. then the wind chill still knocks it down a few degrees! i hate this shit!!!!

he said he is hopeful he will be over tomorrow, so i really am going to bed when i am done with this post, and one more cigarette.

mom, clay and i went out to eat tonight. we went to ci ci's pizza. they definitely did something to their pizza, because i thought it was horrendous! no one else noticed, but i am very, VERY picky about my pizza! so i barely ate. and i only had about 3 cinnimon rolls. bob met us there after his run. clay went to grandma's for a bit, and he and i drove past a few of those houses.

we got home around 9, and i realized that i had the dvr set to tape lost, the model thing, and american idol. well i can only tape 2 things at a time. lost was a repeat, but i taped it! so american idol was NOT taped. i was pissed! at least i got the model thing, and my girl is still in it. i like shannon, i think she is really pretty. i want her to win. that other girl isn't horrible, but something about her bugs me. she is pretty, but that is about it.

so we got home in time to put clay to bed. that little turkey was out before 10pm!!! maybe that is the trick. i should get him out of the house when i can. haha! i should tell my mom to come and pick him up every night after work and take him for a few hours! that would do the trick! haha! see why i can't move far away from my mommy!!!! i'm serious i should mention that to her. i kind of feel bad for her, cause my granpa comes over almost every day. she doesn't come over that much anymore, since bob is home now at night, she feels like she is intruding on "our" time. i tell her she is crazy, but i can understand how she feels. so now whenever she comes and knocks on the door, clay is yelling paw-paw, meaning grandpa. i think it makes her a little sad. so i am glad we all got out tonight to do something together.

my soap.......AAGGGHHHHH! it FINALLY got to the point where one of the story lines that i HATE, is coming to a head, but of course it all happened in like the last 2 minutes of the show!!!!! they probably won't deal with it tomorrow, so i will have to wait til friday, which means dragging it out til monday or sometime next week!!! god i hate that!!!!

ooohhhh, by the way, the dr. phil that i wrote about the other day is on tomorrow!!! i can't wait!!!! gotta love sitting there yelling at the stupid people on tv.

talk about stupid people. have ya'll ever caught maury. is that all he does is paternity tests?! granted when he had on opposite couples today i turned it. but how in the hell do you go on there like 5 times and bring 10 different guys to see if they are the daddy of your baby?!?! i am NOT exaggerating!!!!! i mean i would feel like an idiot the first time, and it wasn't the right guy, but to keep bringing guy after guy and to keep hearing they are NOT the father. i would feel like a total piece of shit! what the fuck! i just do not understand people today!!

well cigarette is done, i am outta here! good-night.