~1-27-05~ Sorry I skipped yesterday

yesterday was just busy!

we went and talked with the loan guy....did all we had to do for that. i had to sign about 2000 papers!

my credit score was great! even though i know presently it is not that high. for some reason the credit thing he got didn't have my bankruptcy or my credit card that i have transferred some balances too. so it was nice and high for a second.

the rate that is possible for me is 6.65%.

i also found out that the house that i thought was sold, that was our "favorite" was NOT sold, but taken off. it has been up for 6 mths! i don't know why it hasn't sold! unless the sellers were very strict on the selling price. i don't know, cause if it were up to me, i'd make them an offer tomorrow!!!!

that may be a good thing. if by some miracle we decided to do something sometime soon, then maybe they would be willing to put it back up and take a lower price. who knows, but my favorite has now switched to the other one i talked about.

anyways, that one has only been up for like a week. so i doubt they will be willing to come down on the price so soon. but we aren't ready for all that right now anyways, so oh well.

i just sort of took the thought, that when it is the right time, it will all happen. if i don't, i'll stress myself out and i don't need that right now. i'd rather use my energy to get our finances straight and get this house in order.

i just wish my cousin would get over here AND FINISH MY DAMN HOUSE!!!!! i hate looking at a half sided house! so really i have no control over to list our house now or not!!!! i don't want to list it and have people drive by when it is only half done!

i think once it is finally finished, that will motivate me to do more on the inside. it just sucks cause there is some work that we may have to do inside. i really don't want to, but the nicer it looks, hopefully the more someone else will fall in love with it and give us what i want for it! so that means we are probably going to have to paint. i LOATHE painting! i hate, hate, hate it!! more than i actually hate cleaning!!

the other downside is i think we are going to have to rent a storage unit, when we are serious about putting it up for sale. i have read numerous places that you shouldn't have your house cluttered, so it looks more spacious. which i understand. but i don't even want to think about having to move all of my stuff TWICE!! people, i have a lot of shit! i am a pack rat. no, it isn't going to change! and no i am not throwing anything out!! i have recently seriously considered going through my stuff and trying out ebay. but UGH, i just do not want to go through all that stuff. yeah, i don't want to throw it out, but i don't want to go through it either. i make a lot of sense. why do i want it just laying around, when i don't even know all of what is there anymore?!

i mean why do i want to keep all my notes and stuff from middle school and high school. YES i still have notes from then!! as a matter of fact, i still have like all of my actual notes from classes too. tests, quizez, notes, folders.....i have it all!!! how those would ever come in handy, i have no clue, but i don't want to throw them out!!

i know you are all going to think i am silly, but it actually looks like it is more than it actually is. it is just not organized down there, so it just looks bad. the only bad thing is i do have a shit load of clothes. once again, i am sure i have some still from high school! why not get rid of them?!?! the same thing every woman says....... i still may be able to fit back into them some day!!!!! when i lost a lot of weight, i went out and bought a ton of cute clothes! i really do want to be skinny again someday. not that any of it would be in style then, or now, but for those of you who know me, i don't care. i'm not trendy. as a matter of fact, i am ahead of my time in that aspect.

i wore floursent stuff before that whole fad even came. i wore boots with everything, and people thought i was nuts, now everyone is on a boot kick. i had more piercings than anyone i knew of and i was 12, granted they were just my ears at the time, but now everyone is pierced. i had the wild and crazy hair, and clothes, people probably thought i was strange...everyone always stared at me, hell now a days, noone would give ME a second glance! speaking of which i may go ahead and post some old pics of me, just so you all know what i am talking about.

how did i go off on that rant?!?! see how my brain goes!

i have a lot of stuff. i think that was my point.

so blah, blah, blah...........new subject.

well ER was awful like i thought it was going to be, but not in the normal ER way. i mean i hardly even cried!!!!!! what is up ER?! are you losing your touch?! i thought i was going to be bawling buckets!!!

i'm glad the guy that got booted on the apprentice got booted. he got on my last flippin nerve. but then again so did that girl he was fighting with. so either of them could have went. and what about that chris dude?!?!? who the hell is he?!?!? i didn't even know who he was, then he all flipped out at the boardroom.

why was wickedly perfect not on tonight?! am i the only one who watches? well there is nothing else on at 8, what am i supposed to watch. it is funny that one darlene (?) broad on there, was on QVC (one of them) pitching sewing machines the other day. i kind of take it that means she doesn't end up winning. hhhmmmm......

well, i'm gonna go look for old picture of me to share. if i find any and get them on here, i'll post them below. night!!