~11-2-04~ Tired!

god i am tired!!!

i SWEAR that i am going to sleep shortly! if this 7am-ish shit is going to continue, i really need to get some sleep. so i AM going to be in bed, lights and tv off by 2!!!!!

i was actually going to try and start doing some sort of exercise today, but clay's waking time and his following torture made that a no go. actually dvr'd some stuff off of fit tv channel. i thought i would check it out and i could do that during the day. i taped a few half hour programs that sounded ok, and one hour of some cardio show. i haven't watched any of them, so i don't even know if it is something i can do or not, but i am planning on it. i have to do something!!!! i really need to get this extra weight off, it is driving me insane when i am trying to find something cute to put on and nothing looks cute!!!!!

maybe it will also give me some energy or motivation. i need to clean the hell out of this house. it is getting more disgusting by the minute. i don't think i can bear it much longer!! i may be forced to just burn the whole thing down!!!! i definitely want the inside to be perfect by the time the outside is done. i won't hold my breath, but that is the plan.

i can't believe it is november already!!! that is just crazy!

did you all watch fear factor tonight? i finally seen a stunt that i don't think i could do. i always said i would go for the bugs crawling on me and stuff instead of eating something nasty, but the whole head in the box of spiders well that just freaked my shit out! now if they were just the big ole trantula's it wouldn't be that bad, but they were the skiny, fast, house looking spiders, and i don't think i could deal with them crawling on my face!! so that gave me the willies! i'm just glad those brothers didn't win. they got on my last nerve!

the swan wasn't as fasinating as last week. i don't think the deaf girl should have beatthe other one. i sill don't think she looked pretty. i think she looked freaky!!! i hated her hair!!! i hated her nose! and i hated her teeth! i think she looked awful. the other one i thought looked GREAT! she looked 20 years younger!! and pretty!!!

it SUCKS that NOTHING is on tomorrow. i hate tuesday tv anyways, so guess it is no big deal. hopefully something is on cable.

and to nswer a prevous question in one of my posts.........NBC cancelled last comic standing when there was only one show left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the fuck?!?!?!?!?! i searched the net and i found out the did air a half hour finale on the comedy channel. and alfonzo won. dave, who i wanted to win, came in second. well that sucked!!

well i am outta here....gotta do some things before i go to sleep!! night!