as for american idol, i am just not too into it this year. that is noone that i am really into. first season i loved kelly, last season i loooooooooved clay!!!!! this season i started put loving diana and jasmine, but then they sort of sucked. they have been doing better, and i thought they were great last night, but i think it will be between latoya and fantasia. they both an really sing! but between the 2, i'd have to go with latoya. i think she would actually be a "pop" singer. so i actually might hear her songs on my stations. sorry for all you george lovers, but i didn't ever like the guy. yes, he seems like a super nice and sweet guy, but that is it. his singing never impressed me at all. so i hoped he would go tonight, which he did, so it basically means that the next 2 weeks, my 2 gals will be gone. and i'm not all that sad, cause i just don't really care...........

on to extreme makeover. that lady from dr. phil looks so amazing and it is only a week after her surgery!! that is so incredible! i so wish they would pick me!!!!!!!! it would be in their best interest, i wouldn't be as expensive as everyone else!!!! all i want is liposuction, i'd love a tummy tuck! either a breast reduction and lift, or just smaller implants. my one eye closes a bit more than the other one, so they can fix that. then i REALLY want that lasik surgery (still contemplating that for this summer) and that zoom whitening on my teeth. that is it, and i'd be done! i really, really would love to work with that michael guy, that does the exercise. he is incredible. heck, if they put me with him for 6-8 weeks, i may not even need lipo. or tummy tuck, he is just amazing!! WOW, that lady is down to a size 6!!!! i don't ever even remember being a size 6!!!! oh well it ain't ever going to happen unless i do it for myself, so.............

that michael guy has his own line of weight loss stuff on qvc or one of those, it seemed pretty reasonable, but i am not a stick to it person, so i know better than to even waste the money!

why do i cry watching these damn shows?!?!?!? i'd be a wreck if i was actually on the show! hell, you should have seen me at my wedding!!!!!! i didn't think i was going to be able to talk to say my parts, cause i was bawling almost the whole time. you keep hearing me sniffing, cause i didn't want to BLOW my nose right in the middle of everything. i was already crying before we even walked out, then we did and i saw bob and he looked all happy and that made me start more, then he told me how pretty i looked and he looked as if he could cry, so that made me go even more. when i walked out and everyone seen me crying you heard them go "aww" my family knows how i am!!!!! oh happy days! :)

speaking of husbands, and the fact that he hates that i only write bad stuff about him (his words), here is some more......no just kidding. we re-did the dr. phil test, i got a 28, and he got a 35!!!!! what the hell!!! he must be real unhappy!! a 35!!!!!!!! that is above the worst you can get!!!

just for the record, i'm sure it sounds worse that it is. we are not at each others throat everyday. i mean we actually rarely fight. and when we do it is always about the same stupid stuff. we are just at the point where he would do more if i would do more, and i would do more if he would do more. so we just have to figure out how we both can do it together. we are actually pretty good friends! we love doing stuff together and enjoy our time together. that in itself really gives me hope for us. that and the fact that he too is willing to do what it takes to work everything out.

this second lady on extreme makeover, i think she is going to be pretty! she looks very bad now, but i really think she is going to look great!

ok, so now that it is finally getting nice out, it is supposed to rain for like the next 5 days!!!! well there is only a 30-40% chance, but still, i'm sure it will. there is so much that i want to get done outside, i want to get it started! i think that once we get some stuff done around here, it will take the strain off. i mean we will have more debt, but i will be a little more happy about my surroundings nd that may take some of the stress off.

WOW! this 2nd gal really does look nice!!!! there really has been some incredible makeovers this past season!! well, now even that is over til next season!! i'm going to be lost til july when the new shows come on. speaking of new shows, i think they are going to replay that stupid forever eden this summer. it all of a sudden disappeared! same with that show with the gal who had to pick they guys that were straight or something like that. it sounded dumb, so i didn't even watch, but since it will be on this summer i probably will. i will tell you now, the thing that i will NOT watch is that dumb show with paris hilton. i thought the concept of the 1st one was stupid and i did not watch 1 second of it and i will not this summer either.

well, all my shows are over, so i am going to get off of here and go do some more non-productive stuff around the net.

nite!!