~3-16-05~ Ah hell!

well i just tried to pack up some more to make the house look decent since the realtor is coming over tonight........

well that didn't work!!!!

the more i tried to pack shit, the worse it looks! i have stuff strewn all over the damn place now!! my house is just a mess now and it is driving me insane!

i finally said fuck it, and i'm going to get in the shower. i had to sit and smoke a cigarette....even though i can't breathe!!!

another reason i hate packing. it stirs up all sorts of cat hair, dust and god knows what, and my nose starts running and i can't frickin breathe!!!

i really wish i were napping right now! clay, of course, picked today as another day where he was up at the crack of dawn.....being that i could NOT get to damn sleep last night!!

and now he is nice and sleeping and i am running around trying to clean shit up! AGH! i hate this shit! i cannot wait to move. i SWEAR, yes you all heard me, i SWEAR that my house will NEVER look like this again. even if it means turing into my mother, it will not be like this ever again! it is totally ridiculous!

i am almost, ALMOST in the mood to just throw 90% of my shit out and not even bother going through or packing any of it. THAT is how bad it is, cause i don't ever throw things away, unless it is useless and really is trash.

god i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate this!!!!!!!!!! i swore i was never doing this moving business again. if it weren't for clay, and any other possible baby ewell's, i would happy live here in all my junk and mess forever, just so i would not have to go through all this stuff and pack, then haul, then unpack it!!!!!!!

ok, i'm getting stressed now....time for a shower.........til later, bye!