~11-8-04~ AWAKE!!!

well as you can see, i can't sleep! like i don't have enough trouble, i fell asleep during bob's game, so i slept for at leat 2 hours and woke up about midnight!!!

i tossed and turned for the last hour and a half, so i got up to smoke a cigarette. which reminded me i needed to order cigarettes, so i did that as well. i still have at least a carton left from our last order, but bob is out. and as usual, he didn't tell me, so we had to buy some atthe store today which pissed me off. i love the deal i get online, and i even found out you can have automatic shipments!!! so now i don't have to remember, i scheduled them to be delivered the same time every month! the thing that sucks is that we spend almost $200 a month on cigarettes!! yes i know that should be incentive enough to quit, but alass, they are the only things keeping me sane right now, so not yet! maybe next year if we do decide to have another baby.

i hope you all had a nice weekend. i had a nice saturday. i slept like ALL day! ohhhhhhhhhhhhh, it was so nice!!!!!! bob took clay to go visit his mom, she just got out of the hospital. so i got up when they returned, so i could put him down for his nap, then i went right back to bed myself! how i miss the days i could spend all day in bed if i wanted!!!!

today i spent way too much money!! we went to bj's for diapers and stuff, and spent damn near $200!!!! then went to giant eagle and spent another $100!!!!!!! whatthe hell?!?!? i no longer thing bj's is all its cracked up tp be. i just know i can go to walmart and spend $200 and hav almost 2 carts FULL!!!!! not at bj's or giant eagle (i did have a full cart at GE, but it was one of those small car carts). it wouldn't have been bad, but i had to use the credit card, which killed me!! but bob's check was rather pee-pee, he only worked 3 days one week of it. not to mention i was getting really used to his 12 day pay checks, plus a bunch of overtime.....hasn't happened lately! sigh! then he will be off the week of thanksgiving, so there is a whole week of NO pay, just holiday pay. SUCKS!!! just when i get a good jump on bills, this shit happens!! thank god i have already done the major part of christmas shopping!

speaking of which, most of the stuff i orderd from one of my catalogs is all on back order!!!!!!! i'm pissed!!! i thought i was all done with everything, but now i don't know!!! i may just cancell that stuff and go with something different. i'm real pissed cause one of it is the garland i ordered for christmas decoration. i was hoping to decorate the day after thanksgiving (if my house is done by then!!), but it isn't even supposed to be in til the 5th of december. hells, bells!!

well i am done smoking, i need to get some sleep!!!

be back later!